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Of Apocalypse Dogs and Grief

As someone who has been grieving the dog who saved my life and as an analytical nerd through and through, Fallout hit me deep.

Obviously Dogmeat (CXC404) is not the main focus of this series, but the Ghoul bonding with him was one of those dynamics that just made me sob. As a long time fan of science fiction/zombie media/apocalyptic media I’ve come to expect the cliche dog relationship. However, since the sudden death of my dog around a year ago, I’ve avoided some of my all time favorite movies to curb the hurt (I am Legend, for example). When this show came out, though, my excitement overshadowed that unspoken rule I had made for myself and I forgot my caution.

This slip up ultimately gifted me with so many wonderful memories to relive and also a reminder of one facet of grief I had yet to pay attention to.

For me personally, the most impactful scene of this topic was the brief clip of Dogmeat curling up on Cooper as he thought of his old dog, Rosevelt, from his past life.

“I’m sorry Dogmeat but you ain’t him.”

I could dive into how masterfully portrayed the Ghoul’s character is, and how the writing employed many interesting situations to show the audience his lasting humanity and vulnerability. Instead, I just miss my boy.

Because the Ghoul is right, nothing can compare to home. And that’s what my dog was to me: my home. It feels like I’ve been traversing my own wasteland without him ever since, which is disgustingly unfair because of all the zombie adventures I had imagined for the two of us.

I think a lot of my generation daydreams of the hypothetical post-apocalyptic world. Somehow it has become this fun future for when all the stress of our day-to-day catastrophes have boiled over and all we have left to do is breathe and survive the aftermath. It’s a genre that provides a lot of ironic comfort and commentary on what might drive us there.

I had always joked about what to do if zombies reigned or if bombs rained down, and my hypotheticals never left out my dog. I had always thought he’d be the finest apocalypse dog. A spunky mutt, athletic, protective and bonded to me above anyone else.

It would be me and him, cowboy and canine, against whatever may come.

That’s how we were in life, and so naturally that was how I saw us in this fictional future. It wasn’t the only future he joined me in. In fact, I had rarely pictured a near future without him. Then in the span of a couple hours he was gone. And I’ve been grappling with my own end of the world ever since.

I had been avoiding this trope like the plague as to not remind me of the futures I’d lost. But in Fallout, I found some odd closure. I could turn on the tv and see this adventure I had always wanted play out with some aspect of him waiting for me in it. I think, in small doses at least, this trope can help me after all.

So cheers to Fallout, a phenomenal world and story. And cheers to Dogmeat, who I see my own apocalypse dog in.

#fallout #fallout on prime #fallout tv series #fallout tv spoilers #personal journey #personal journal #rant post #personal rant #greif #pet loss #working through it #the ghoul #cxc404 #dogmeat

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Best character in fallout, period

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Hello Zukki Nation, please let me in

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Tomi Adeyemi really said "you cannot be a good leader of a system that is oppressive and exploitative by design. even those with the purest intentions will be corrupted by trying to change such an institution from within" and I personally think that's metal as fuck

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harrow soup comic! harrow soup comic!

took some creative liberties with the structure of it all otherwise it would've been 20 pages long... love u tazmuir and all your words but i removed some for my sake... enjoy...

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Kal Gilwraeth #1 zuko kinnie, prove me wrong

#books #lgbtq #the aurora cycle #aurora rising #aurora's end #squad 312 #aurora cycle #kal gilwraeth #prince zuko #zuko atla #atla

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Squad 312 headcanons because it's my birthday today :D

After AE, Tyler and Finian became incredibly close, due to Scarlett. Like, best friends close. And because Kal is Tyler's brother and loves teasing Fin, the three boys became a tiny family within the family, a group unofficial brothers <3

Scarlett takes Auri on massive shopping sprees so she can feel more at home in space with her own wardrobe. Auri fittingly almost spends all the allowance on shoes, to which Scarlett says she actually needs clothes. (Kal later buys her shoes)

Kal washes his hands after a shower.

Saedii and Fin get along like a house on fire, obviously, but what Fin didn't know was that Saedii spoke Betraskan, and they would use it to talk shit, basically. (Scarlett quickly joins the gossip group and the others have given up on trying to figure out what they're saying)

After the events of AE, every og member of 312 gets a different winged creature tattooed to remember Cat. Similarly, they all get identical two circles to represent Zila and her earrings.

EACH MEMBER OF 312 GIVING EACH OTHER DATING ADVICE DEPENDING ON WHO THEY NEED IT FOR

While he doesn't write songs himself, Kal has the most gorgeous singing voice. Auri does not. This makes for some adorable but interesting duets when they're alone.

Auri is like Tyler's younger sister and I will DIE on this hill, WHY DOES NO ONE TALK ABOUT THEM-

Tyler starts swearing more frequently. When he dropped a mug and swore for the first time, the room was dead silent. He was insecure about swearing anymore after that

Zila makes herself a library in the past with Nari, and writes each member of 312 a personal note with a book page attached.

Betraskan food is spicy as hell, and Syldrathi food is sweeter. As a result, although she would NEVER admit it, Saedii almost barfed when having traditional Betraskan chilli for the first time.

Scarlett does each girl's makeup every now and again. Their respective boyfriends get very flustered every time she does.

Tyler gets Kal really into Rugby, and they become the most stereotypical Rugby men at bars you've ever seen once there's a game on.

Auri dyes her white streak different colors a lot due to it being very easy, and Saedii starts helping her, and soon they have hair dye sessions! (Scar does not join in as she only lets her hairdresser of ten years anywhere near her hair)

Anyway that's all I got right now, but just thought it would be nice to drop something seeing as it's my birthday!

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SOMEONE VALIDATE ME I BEG

Good morning to all the mentally ill, lonely, fictional robot/AI-loverz. Behold my hottest take.

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Me, trying to write some sweet, fluff story with a happy ending to heal my soul: and then they hugged and-

My brain:

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Good morning to all the mentally ill, lonely, fictional robot/AI-loverz. Behold my hottest take.

#books #the illuminae files #Illuminae #gemina #Aidan Illuminae #Amie Kaufman #craziest hear me out

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Tyler: my faith is called the universal faith because it is followed by all the religious people Finian: Ty and i are the only religious ones on the squad Cat: crazy how there's only 1 religion nowadays but that's just the way it is kal and the rest of all syldrathi, blatantly having a different religion:

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Finian means so much to me.

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a blessing and a curse

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Guys.

Tyler Jones with a tongue piercing (Cat dared him to do it).

That’s all have a good day.

#similar to dimples yknow #at first he refused to take it out because he didn’t want to lose the dare but now he refuses to lose another part of her #books #lgbtq #the aurora cycle #aurora rising #aurora's end #squad 312 #aurora cycle #headcanon #tyler jones #cat brannock

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