mothofmany

[mothofmany]

hate the lil guy in my head that chants weird phrases in an attempt to trigger me

go away dude im tryin to chill

#personal

[mothofmany]

i should b doing school but instead im thinkin about inner world shit and system stuff

#personal #get me out of here pls #no brain rn

[mothofmany]

the booping is cute and all but lets not forget the violent transmisogyny and antiblackness of this site. ok

[mothofmany]

realizing i had more than 1 abuser and its kind of breaking my entire world view

#i know im programmed and like according to everyone i had to have more than one abuser #and now im realizing #it was my whole family #and i wasnt the only victim #my siblings are programmed too #and i escaped #but they never did #and thats why my brother literally has a goal to have kinds #and to program them the same way we were #and im like oh #makes sense #okay #just gonna dissociate and feel stupid now #personal #ramcoa #tw ramcoa #tw programming #tw tbmc #traumagenic system #endos dni

[mothofmany]

What some people need to understand is that locking up alters is okay. If a part is going to harm other people or the body, it's okay to not let them front. It's okay to prioritize the safety of yourself and others over the happiness of one alter. If the only thing that could ever help them is a therapist, it's okay to wait until then. If nothing will ever help them, it's okay to never let them front. Sometimes alters are genuinely awful people, not just misguided, and whatever you need to do to be safe is okay.

#this

[mothofmany]

Do you have any resources for RAMCOA? Resources for like...the types of programs and stuff like that. We're going through things and trying to research and pinpoint things, but finding resources has been absolute hell. If you get this twice, I'm sorry. Our tumblr is kind of shit.

Hello! I have several resources that I think may be helpful to you:

This document (LINK) of "rare programs" and their descriptions, posted by @killercatboys.

Chapters 4 and 7 of Becoming Yourself by Alison Miller (LINK) discuss programming and chapter 7 includes an anecdote with specific programs and definitions. The entire book is really a great read and is geared towards survivors of RAMCOA, just be sure to take it slow and take care of yourself.

Common Programs Observed in Survivors of Satanic Ritualistic Abuse by David W. Neswald (LINK) - massive trigger warning for suicide, self-harm, and abuse.

Spin Programming: A Newly Uncovered Technique of Systematic Mind Control by John D. Lovern (LINK) - includes symptoms, implementation, and uses of spin programs; trigger warning for abuse/torture methods.

Healing the Unimaginable by Alison Miller (LINK) is geared towards therapists and professionals and includes more in-depth information about RAMCOA than Becoming Yourself does. Again, massive trigger warning throughout the book for RAMCOA.

Kinds of Torture Endured in Ritual Abuse and Trauma-Based Mind Control by Ellen P. Lacter (LINK) - partial list of torture methods used in RAMCOA; trigger warning for abuse, near-death, and torture.

Mind Control: Simple to Complex by Ellen P. Lacter (LINK) - describes twelve "stages" of mind control and programming, going from outward compliance to torture/trauma-based mind control; trigger warning for descriptions of abuse.

Some Indicators of Trauma-Based Mind Control Programming by Ellen P. Lacter (LINK) provides common indicators of TBMC; most survivors of programming will have many of these indicators, but their presence does not prove the existence of TBMC and their absence does not prove that one has not experienced TBMC.

Adult and Adolescent Indicators of Ritual Trauma by Ellen P. Lacter (LINK) provides indicators of ritual abuse in teens and adults; as with the last bullet point, their presence does not prove ritual abuse and their absence does not disprove it.

Child Indicators of Ritual Abuse Trauma in Play and Art by Ellen P. Lacter (LINK) provides potential indicators of ritualized abuse in children and pre-teens; as with the previous two bullet points, their presence does not prove ritual abuse and their absence does not disprove it.

[mothofmany]

hi! i have a question, does all programming include a script/scripting? or is that just a type of programming? sorry if i used those terms incorrectly i am just starting to learn about this stuff!

Scripts are a type of programming, it's pretty uncommon for survivors to have a script implemented given how difficult and complicated it is.

#ramcoa #info

[mothofmany]

Not the same anon but we could use the endo terms list to block /nf

All the tags we have blocked, the tags that mention RAMCOA/OEA things are under a cut but also highly recommend blocking!

endo

endo safe

endosafe

endogenic

endogenic system

endos interact

pro endo

proendo

pro rq 🌈🍓

pro rq🌈🍓

prorq 🌈🍓

prorq🌈🍓

pro rq

prorq

proradqueer

radqueer

radqueer coining

rq

rq 🌈🍓

rq🌈🍓

tulpagenic

tulpasystem

nontraumagenicsystem

nontraumagenic system

transharmed

transHarmed

trans harmed

trans Harmed

transid

transID

transid coining

transOEA

transoea

transRAMCOA

transramcoa

transCSA

transcsa

transProgrammed

transProgrammer

transprogrammed

transprogrammer

[mothofmany]

how to feel like your trauma is real and actually happened to u without it feeling like ur lying any time u speak or think abt it

...

no borax no glue

[mothofmany]

*screams into a pillow, cries in a ball, groans, stares at wall* fine.

pk;m new

[mothofmany]

Shout out to systems who-

• aren’t public about being a system

• are public about being a system

• have a high alter count

• have a low alter count

• have only 2 alters/headmates/parts

• have problematic alters

• are introject heavy

• are brainmade heavy

• are little heavy

• are persecutor heavy

• are non-human heavy

• are programmed

• are organic (not programmed)

• are newly discovered systems

• haven’t discovered they’re a system yet

• have known about their system for years, maybe even decades

• pwCDD that prefer not to be called a system

Just shout out to systems/pwCDD’s

[mothofmany]

Box 01: This system has BPD. Box 02: This system has Borderline Personality Disorder. Box 03: This system has Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD).

( free to use w/o credit, though it is appreciated! :) ) read our dni before interacting !

#personal #bpd #user boxes #meee

[mothofmany]

Me: I don't care about people that aren't actively harming others

rando: oh, so then why do you care about endos then?

Me: *stares at the amount of misinformation in the endo community that actively harms systems*

#this #anti endo #endos fuck right off

[mothofmany]

System emoji userboxes !

-> emojis here, made by @tontoemojis

[ Plain text : emojis here (link), made by @tontoemojis. ]

[ Image ID : Eight userboxes with varying images of system themed emojis on the left and text on the right.

From top left to bottom right, these boxes read : this system is often blurry, this fronter is who?, this system is often blurry, this alter doesn't know who they are, this system's alters front together, this system's alters are often co-con, this system is currently splitting, this alter just split. End ID ]

#user boxes

[mothofmany]

happy trans day of visibility🔥🔥🔥🔥

#trans rights #art #yes

[mothofmany]

why tf do endos treat being a system like its an identity that you can pick and choose to label? why do they constantly push the transphobic rhetoric of using "traumascum" to refer to traumatized individuals that just dont want people to treat their symptoms like its fun?

being plural/being a system is nothing like being lgbtq+ and i really think we need to stop treating it as such

yes we are a community, but this community is one formed on the basis of being traumatized as kids, its not based on something we choose to refer to ourselves as

we need to be there to support each other but not blindly. we need to help spread information to others with the symptoms so they can receive help.

you wouldnt treat people with personality disorders the way you treat systems so why is it acceptable to treat systems this way?

[mothofmany]

system ask game for traumagenic systems <3

I: basics

❤️ - what type of CDD do you have?

🧡 - are you medically recognised/diagnosed? if not, do you plan to? (no judgement either way!)

💛 - if you are comfortable sharing, what is your headcount? do you keep track of it?

💚 - do you have a high or low split tolerance?

💙 - do you switch frequently or do you go longer periods between switching?

💜 - does your system have introjects of any kind?

🩷 - do you have any subsystems?

II: alters

🎥 - who are your frequent fronters?

📼 - do you have any non-human alters? if yes, which species are the majority of them?

🎞️ - do the alters in your system use more medical coined roles or more community coined roles? or both/neither? do you find them useful?

📽️ - are the alters in your system more distinct or less distinct from each other?

📺 - do you make/buy gifts to other alters in the systems?

🎙️ - does the taste in music vary a lot between different alters?

📻 - does your system have any type of in system relationships? (familial, romantic, platonic etc.)

III: switching

☀️ - how much amnesia do you experience?

🌙 - do you experience black out amnesia?

⚡️ - what does switching feel like for you? does it vary between alters?

☄️ - do you experience quick switches or does it take longer to switch usually?

🌈 - do you get frontstuck often? what do you do to try to get ‘un-stuck’?

☁️ - do you ever not notice you’ve switched, and suddenly realise that ‘you haven’t been you’ for a while?

💦 - can you switch ‘on command’ or is that something that is hard for your system? does it depend on the alter?

IV: headspace

🌱 - do you have a headspace? if yes, describe it! if no, do you want one?

🌿 - how easily accessed is your headspace?

☘️ - is there a place in your headspace where dormant alters go?

🌳 - do alters have their own rooms/areas in your headspace?

🌵 - is your headspace big, or smaller? is it complex/less complex?

🍃 - do you have specific alters that cannot access headspace at all?

🪴 - did you have to build your headspace over time, or was it just there?

V: general

🍭 - how did you pick your system name?

🍪 - do you have a collective name/identity/orientation? if yes, how did your system make those decisions?

🍬 - what’s the funniest thing another alter has said to you? (internally or externally communicated)

🍫 - how does your system handle in system disagreements in general?

🧁 - is there anyone specific in your system you don’t get along with?

🍰 - are you ‘out’ as a system to anyone? (online friends/partners etc. count!)

🍦 - how good is your communication with the rest of the system? does it vary much between different alters?

🍡 - are different alters part of different subcultures? which ones? (we are!)

remember that this is just for fun, and if anything feels invasive you do not have to answer the question! feel free to replace any question with a fun fact about your system or anything if you don’t feel like answering something! take care🫶🏻

#pls #send asks #ask game