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morphinejunkie · 4 days

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Artist is zero808w

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morphinejunkie · 7 days

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shut up and drive

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morphinejunkie · 12 days

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#mattmello

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morphinejunkie · 13 days

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hii how are you? i hope you’re doing well :) i really love your fanfic crush, i’m writing a mello fanfic myself, but i’m having such a hard time capturing his essence, sometimes i get carried away writing him but then i realize it’s not really accurate, i either make him too angry, too much this, too much that, idk, do you have any tips for me? (only if you want, i just really love how you portray him, i think it’s really accurate so i thought what’s better than to ask you?) <3 ✨🌸

thank you very much!

mello was a character i struggled to write at first too. he’s a delicate tightrope walk between intelligence, aggression, coolness and (in my opinion) brevity. personally i find that the hardest thing is striking a balance that encompasses all four.

so i’ll break it down, this is what worked best for me.

1. use canon

the way i wrote mello, i referenced the original manga (and voice/diction in the dub anime) a lot. i would first listen to his lines and try to internalize his voice. and then i would study his body language in his panels and try to shift that body language and attitude into whatever scenario i’m writing.

mello is a pretty layered character, which i think a lot of people struggle with. he plays up the characteristics that people often associate with him (i.e. in the call with the president, he acts taunting and brash) when on his own turf he’s actually very calculating and careful (i.e. any scene in the mafia - he’s often staring into space, sprawled into a relaxed but aggressive position, and thinking).

i think a big thing to remember too is that mello made many decisions in canon that need to be backed up to create a holistic view of who he is. reverse-engineering mello’s character from his actions was a huge part of how i developed my mello as well - “why did mello do this? what motivations were urging him to do the thing he did? why are his emotions this way while he’s doing it?”

general rule of thumb is: if your mello would not do the things that canon mello did, the way that canon mello did, he’s probably ooc.

2. take him as a whole - not parts of him

i focused a lot of my energy on trying to capture mello as a whole. a lot of it is meeting mello where he is, not where you want him to be. assuming he is fully formed, an actual person, and you are getting to know him, not creating him from scratch. when i was no longer concerned about making mello do things that i wanted him to do, and instead interacting WITH mello as a fully formed character, i found it natural to hear his voice. near the end of crush i felt like i was just documenting them with a camera while matt & mello did what they did. they moved almost completely on their own and i was just there to capture it.

for me, especially in the beginning, i would often “practice” by throwing both matt & mello into a scenario with no expectation or plot, and seeing how they play off each other, without trying to move them from point a to point b. i found that let me understand their characters better — better than say a character study or a self-reflection would. in fact the bar scene was that exercise for me, and ended up setting the tone for the rest of the fic.

3. figure out all the different ways you can read mello, and figure out which works best for you

the one thing is, even if you study mello and take him as who he is, there’s not a lot to work from off the original series. a lot of him is further developed in fandom, and so there are various camps of interpretations of mello that are all equally valid & sound. i found that mapping out exactly how mello can be interpreted and figuring out where my mello lay on that scale helped me a lot in determining what i found was personally ic/ooc.

funnily enough this matrix was really helpful even though it was just a stupid joke post from back in the day. i really liked the way “mihael keehl” talked, i found it so cool and grounding. “priss” still exists though the details or manner of speaking has changed over the years, in fact twinky/glamourous mello remains one of the most common interpretations of his character which i personally rejected (i don’t think it reflects his body language in canon at all). “batshit” mello is time and place for me, but ultimately, not how i like to write him (as it only explains some of his actions in canon but not all).

of course writing mello in the end is wholly depends on your personal preference - you could do all of this and still end up with a different vision of mello as i did. as long as he is fully fleshed out to you, the details don’t matter.

#mello #crush #writing #capy123

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morphinejunkie · 14 days

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matt was made for mello and also mail is just select letters from mihael he was literally made for him from him like the rib of adam ok bye

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morphinejunkie · 15 days

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Hi! I’m really captivated by your portrayal of Mello and Matt in crush. I was wondering, how do you think Mello would act if he were to show his love more openly? I’m curious about how his deeper, more expressive side would come out. Thanks for creating such a beautiful story, i love it so much. 🎀

thank you!

fundamentally i think mello is very uncomfortable and very unfamiliar in expressing emotions that feel vulnerable to him, including love, kindness and affection. when he acts it out, it’s grandiose and materialistic, and you should probably be scared (matt would), because it means he wants something from you and he’s going to do whatever it takes to get it.

at his most comfortable, at a point where mello feels like he can let down his guard somewhat, his affection comes like hard constipated shit pellets or kidney stones: after some great effort and not without a lot of force. there may be a soft peck, plenty of physical touch, sometimes-too-rough teasing, and a really protective sort of love. and his possessiveness, when he doesn’t let it get to his (and his partner’s) head, could be endearing and come across as childlike.

i headcanon mello as never healing emotionally, never letting go of his defenses, and never letting himself be vulnerable. i don’t think mello could ever really show his love openly, and in small doses is the best it’s ever going to get.

#crush #ask #anonymous

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morphinejunkie · 16 days

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Would it be okay with you if I drew fanart for crush?

thank you & of course! ❤️

#anonymous #ask

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morphinejunkie · 18 days

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