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[modernrifle]

no because this section of rots is literally insane??

like, in the first line, about padmé, the emphasis is placed on the word 'could', highlighting how devastating the act of someone close to him maybe betraying him was. it isn't particularly personal: it isn't about padmé, or their love, or even really anything aside from the action of cheating itself. he's hurt that someone in general was willing to inflict such pain on him. additionally, anakin's love for padmé is not love so much as it is a need for someone to protect, someone to whom he can prove himself worthy for, a person who he deems controllable, possessable. it's the betrayal itself that's tearing him apart, not padme, not her, but it, the action.

but then, when addressing obi-wan's place, the emphasis is placed on 'him'. it's not the fact that it happened, it's not the fact that obi-wan might have had the audacity to do it, it's the fact that it is obi-wan. it somehow seems more personal in the novel when anakin is addressing obi-wan, because it is not the loss of some symbolic person he told himself to love and protect that betrayed him, it's his brother, his mother, his best friend, his teacher, a person who is more than an idea to him, that hurt him.

so, basically, when it's padmè, anakin seems more hurt by the fact it happened, that the representation of his ability to protect and control hurt him, but when it's obi-wan, anakin cares less about the act itself and more about the person - obi-wan. it just is written to seem so much more personal, because anyone could do what padmé did, but only he could do it in a way that truly affected anakin on a deeper, more singular level.

#obikin #anakin skywalker #obi wan kenobi #rots novelization #sw #sw books #anakin and padme #dare i say #comp het #probably thinking too deeply about this #but whatever

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it's crazy how few people talk about how clearly codependent anakin & obi-wan were - they were two halves of the same whole, so without anakin, obi-wan cannot exist as a complete person, and without obi-wan, anakin cannot exist as a whole person either, because in order for him to be himself he needs obi-wan as, again, they are part of eachother. their two identites are so comingled they cannot be separted and be how they were, because a huge part of who they were was eachother. obi-wan will always be anakin's and anakin will always be obi-wan's so they both had to become someone new. because jedis' relationships, on a deep level, are practically nonexitent they had to be everything for eachother, neither of them had anyone else to fill the roles of their lives. obi-wan was - had to be, wanted to be - anakin's master, his teacher, his father, his brother, his best friend. i mean, they are even potrayed as light/dark, and we both now the light cannot be without the dark, and vice versa. they even failed to excavate eachother from their focus as reformed individuals - vader obsessed over obi-wan, was only able to show glimmers of his past self when in his presence, obi-wan was so dedicated and devestated by anakin's change/fall/perceived death that he literally locked himself in a desert simply to watch over what remained of anakin (his children), thought about him 24-7, at least in the novels, and actually hallucinated him as some twisted manifestation of guilt, love, grief. obi-wan, the perfect jedi, forsaked his vow to form no attachments simply because he loved anakin too much to do otherwise, his one flaw was always and will always be anakin, and his pure, simple, unadultered love for him, despite everything. anakin latched onto obi-wan and obi-wan never found the strength to pull him off. the loss of eachother destroyed the both of them (though of course anakin was also destroyed by padme, in his mind). even before the betrayal anakin would always want obi-wan to simply stay when he had to go on missions, and obi-wan could not act the same and constently thought about anakin when away - he even in a novel offhandedly mentioned that it was super strange to not have anakin fighting with him, like he forgot he needed both hands. their bond, affection, was deep enough that even after anakin was knighted they stayed close, became closer than brothers, even after death they both sought eachother out. obi-wan gave his life and death to anakin, and anakin the same. obi-wan's death belonged to vader, as the last part of anakin that he needed to kill, and anakin's entire life was centered around obi-wan. this is PURE MADNESS.

#obikin #anakin skywalker #obi wan kenobi #sw #rots novelization #i'm so normal about them #ARGGHHH #sorry.

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antis will see anakin look at obi-wan like this and assume he is completely normal about that old man

#sw #obikin #anakin skywalker #obi wan kenobi #THIS IS NOT NORMAL! THIS IS NOT HOW YOU LOOK AT YOUR BUDDIES! #anakin being a human disaster part 139495 #creepy anakin my love #that's hunger baby!

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the stench of a love for younger meat | tlt + harryanthe | 4.5k, M, french rev au

an oldie i was too lazy to post.

#harryanthe #the locked tomb #tamsyn muir #gideon the ninth #ianthe tridentarius #harrowhark nonagesimus #harrow the ninth #harrianthe #badness levels off the chart #girlish trauma bonding #girlish brain damage

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harryanthe will forever be my favorite tlt ship. two lyctors recently deprived of their greatest friends in life becoming unlikely allies because they have no one else...the truama bond...the reluctance, the giving in, the occasional wholesomeness. ianthe being truly happy to see harrow at the end of htn. harrow fixing/remaking ianthe's arm in an act of genuine kindness and even feeding off of ianthe's happiness, thinking she looks so much like her sister in times like this (when ianthe is joyous) and we as the reader know her sister is canonically beautiful. which means harrow thought ianthe was beautiful. ianthe recognizing nona wasn't harrow and loosing interest because ianthe was into more than just harrow's sad nun look and liked her fiesty, dark personality. the fact ianthe is muir's draco in leather pants who calls harrow "harry"...clearly a drarry moment happening.

#harryanthe #the locked tomb #harrow the ninth #ianthe tridentarius #harrowhark nonagesimus #nona the ninth #harrianthe #badness levels off the chart #tamsyn muir #tlt

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Here is a snippet of something I wrote - nedsei, wwi au!

this is just the intro, so nothing overally interesting lol

#fanfic writer #asoiaf #nedsei #ned x cersei