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renesmee is a slut and i will not be taking questions or comments at this time. 

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twilight my cannon

much like all young women when the twilight series came out, i was obessed. I spent many years of my life devoting to the text, characters, art, and cannon.  only to determine that smeyer did not do what she thought she did. so here in the eyes of god and women everywhere, i will speak my truth

1) The entire imprinting relationship was a cheap plot device to clean up the edges of a failed love triangle. It feels super creepy and dare I say problematic.  This is my new lore:

Imprinting no longer implies a romantic relationship, instead it means the two soul’s fates are intertwined. while they could be lovers, they could also be hugely successful business partners, two friends that share a fulfilling hobby, or anything in-between. 

When a wolf imprints, they cannot tell their person until they earn the approval from the chief. The only requirement for chief’s approval is both parties enter the partnership as mutually consenting equals. Then, the wolf takes a solo journey to learn why fate chose them and how this relationship is meant to shape their life.  

Wolves are encouraged to spend years away from their imprint and develop a strong sense of identity. They devote all time to healing, growing, and building a foundation for a healthy partnership.  

2) how does this impact our favorite creepy child marriage?? allow me

jacob a)starting with when he imprinted. obviously he would stay with the cullens until after the battles were over and she was safe.  however, their relationship would not be at all similar to that in the books. he would distance himself from renesmee and not engage with her all.  this would be out of respect for her, the cullens, and in reverence to his traditions. 

they would be strangers to each other for years before jacob would even introduce himself to her formally. he would work in oregon as a mechanic and visit washington on the weekends for his father and pack.

renesmee b) by the time she was 3, it was apparent to the whole family her and edward were too similar and antagonized each other. 

renesmee, being a clever girl had jasper help her draft and contract and present it to edward and bella. the contract stated renesmee would comply with her parents wishes until she was 18. then she would be free to do whatever she wanted, no questions asked. 

yearly the contract would be reviewed and revised. 

3) heres a cute idea of how ness and jacob’s friendship would start

when she was around 15-16, ness got very interested in learning fighting styles, and strengthening her body.  her interests were outside just fighting vampires she would train with the wolves, too. that meant with jacob when he was back from oregon.  

one day during pack training, renesmee went up to jacob and declared that if he held a match in the teeth, she could kick it to make it light. she looked 100% confident in herself, so he agreed. jokingly adding, to not kick him in the face. 

as she handed him the matchstick, she asked, “do you trust me?” he responsed, “not at all.” then it all happen in slow motion, ness’s body coiled and spun into an aerial kick. their eyes met just her foot approached his face and it broke her focus. she made direct contact with his jaw. 

as he fell, she called  TiIiMMMBeEeRRR!!” 

he opened his eyes moments later to see renesmee crouched in front of him.  she looked him with sparkling eyes and with a shit-eatin grin. laughter erupted like explosion and as a the witnesses lost their collective shit. seth laughed until he dry heaved and almost got sick. embry started running before jacob hit the ground from laughter. 

jacob took renesmee’s exteneded hand and flipped her onto her back next to him. they both laughed for ages. 

from that moment they would train together and each pushed the other to reach higher, go further, and fight harder.  as sparring partners, they  were perfect foils for the other.

#twilight #renesmee and jacob #twilight renaissance #i made these up in my mentally ill little lizard brain

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i recently came out as a lesbian, ive always known but decided shoving the feelings deep down was less overwhelming. with this comes unpacking my internalized male gaze and i mean that in the literally sense. maladaptive daydreaming was my coping mechanism. i imagined myself as a male having sex with a female, while simultaneously imagining myself as the female too. it was never myself as the female performing on the male though.

i was driving home from work when the thought hit me, “i dont want to fuck him, i want to be him.” i wanted to be the one to have sex with a woman, and he was the only way I could do it.

#maladaptive daydreaming #coping mechanism #18+ #alphabetmafia #lesbian