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[lowstatusmale]

Today’s Conversation About Church

“You know, it's a blue-chipper church and all they were talking about was how much your life will change and improve when you have God.”

“Blue-chipper?”

“High-value model-Christians.”

“Yeah that’s all mostly bullshit… to pad the tithing.”

“it's so unrealistic.“

“Engaging religion for my own spiritual exploration allowed me to tame my depression and not lull myself. After that was achieved it outlived its usefulness. I should have left religion a decade earlier because the emotional regulation of depression was the key benefit. Everything else was mostly a net negative.”

“ I don't want to make judgements about their character. I don't know any of them. But when you don't look like that, don’t present like that, don't get results like that, it really makes you wonder if God only comes through for people like that. Or maybe it's just a low bar they set for themselves and being perfect it's not hard to find people to love you and treat you decently. It certainly makes it easier to be happy.”

“Or maybe they ascribe something to “god” that is really part of some other mechanics of life. They just like the ‘god did it’ feeling they get so … game on!”

“I thought that growing up that people who were well-adjusted, and attributed it to their faith, were just more genetically predisposed to be happy; not to mention had blessing in their life, not relating to some divine coincidence, but just to the natural flow of growing up in a good home and having the unimpeded healthy development I wish I had. It's all cumulative. If you don't fall behind, not only do you not get left out, it is considerably easier to maintain than it is for someone like me to catch up.”

“Your preaching to the choir, man.”

“How is one supposed to feel when everyone who has those results looks and acts that way? It's not relatable. It's not even the slight bit interesting. And I will not concede that those in darkness are repelled by the light. That's not the fucking light. And I not living in anymore sin than they are; unreceptive to God's leadings; and unrepentant for the mistakes I have made. I am not any less hungry for God's presence in my life. And what does that say about God? Does He only love certain types of people? Does he have the same presentation standards that someone like my mother has? Everyone that's pretty should get an extra round of applause. Everyone that's ugly should be left unattended to.”

#church

[lowstatusmale]

At This Point I Would Settle For Respect

She not only thinks I am ugly; she thinks I'm a loser too. If I could prove her wrong on one account I'd be okay with that (even though I still really like her). If she looked at me and thought "I don't find him attractive, but he's really good at what he does" it would be enough for me.

I just need to figure out what exactly it is that I do and start getting good at it.

#respect #loser #rejection

[lowstatusmale]

Why Does Depression Feel So Much Like a Hangover?

I often think my depression is something lacking in my life, but then realize the only thing I can equate the actual feeling to is a hangover. This leads me to think: What over-indulgence could I be recovering from?

#depression

[lowstatusmale]

Church Service and Sports

I thought about taking a break from attending church until Hockey Season is over. I have my own interests. If I spent 8 months a year navigating group conversations to things no one else knows anything about, people will check out on me. Why shouldn’t they and why shouldn’t I do the same? I don’t want to hear references to it during the service, and I’m definitely not sticking around afterwards to listen in on conversations I know nothing about either.

Ditto for Football Season

#hockey #churchservice #football

[lowstatusmale]

My Potential Mentors

That chip on my shoulder when I was young was mentor-repellent, and unfortunately, anyone who may have had an interest in teaching me anything gave up on me long before I had a chance to grow out of it. Now, at 48, I'm fucking useless.

#mentor #repellant #chip on my shoulder

[lowstatusmale]

To The Guy Who Commented “God Is Not Real”

I thought about following the guy who commented "God is not real" on one of my recent posts. That's how important I think it is to open myself up to different viewpoints. Then I looked through his posts and decided not to. Same boring political crap everyone else is reposting, but with no clever insights.

#god is real #diverse opinions

[lowstatusmale]

My Ex And Her Exes

She downplayed the relationship. "You don't need to worry about him. He is married with a couple of kids now." "So? He gets to fuck his wife and my wife too?! How is that fair?"

#the ex #her exes

[lowstatusmale]

Dreaming Of A Mall Job

Today, when I was walking through the Mall I saw two employees, in stores right across from one another, jumping around and waving at each other. And for a brief moment, I wish I worked in the Mall.

#6teen #mall job

[lowstatusmale]

Security Work For Immigrants

Repeat after me: "The workshop started 20 minutes ago. You are late. Sorry, you can't come in." (Optional): "Welcome to Canada."

#late #other cultures #security

[lowstatusmale]

Turn Around And Shake Hands

When the pastor/priest says "turn around and shake hands with somebody close to you" that's when I leave. I can't even articulate my reasoning for it. I just don't want to be in a church like that.

#church #shake hands

[lowstatusmale]

The Best Version Of Her

I'm past the point of taking interest in any woman unless I get her prime years. If another man has had a better version of her: hotter; younger; more innocent; no kids; no student loans; more free time; less jaded from past relationships; less indoctrinated with bad ideology/theology; less set in her ways; and in overall better shape - sorry, but I'll have to pass.

#bestversion #new girlfriend #usedup

[lowstatusmale]

The Ex And Her New Sugar Daddy

No sane person would see you landing a Sugar Daddy as evidence of a more evolved relationship with God; not even evidence of obedience, for that matter. So where does the arrogance come from? I'd downplay my premarital affairs if I were you. Nobody thinks you're a better person for it.

#sugardaddy #the ex

[lowstatusmale]

The Most Appropriate Way To Be Dismissed From My Job

It would be completely consistent with my online persona to leave my job by being unanimously voted out of the company; not framed or falsely accused, but just being told "Nobody likes you here. Here's your severance check. Now leave."

#dismissal #job

[lowstatusmale]

Sex After Rejection

It's different when women abuse you or reject you after you've fucked them rather than when they have never given you a chance. Especially if you fucked them multiple times. Abuse and rejection are your way out, and sex is a memory rather than just your imagination; you can use it to masturbate over later. I guess, in that sense, it's better to have sex with someone you really don't like. Preferably someone that has rejected you before or abused you before you have sex with them. Would you rather have sex with someone who rejected you gently or one who was vicious about it?

#sex #abuse #rejection

[lowstatusmale]

The Insignificance of Religious Fellowship

Many people misunderstand the insignificance of religious fellowship and the religious social misfit. It's not like he's a loser at work, at home, in his love life, in school and then goes to church and finds a world of love and acceptance. Unfortunately, most Christians are not uniquely gifted in this way. Indifference, rejection, and the feeling of being invisible follow him where ever he goes. If he finds belonging with anyone, it's God.  

#god #misfit #outcast

[lowstatusmale]

The Least Important Thing to Put on Your Dating Profile

“My friends would say I’m... “. Well, I’m not actually interesting in reading what your female friends would say about you. I’d be much more interested to hear what your ex-husbands, ex-boyfriends, and past lovers would say. Hell, let’s skip the reference checks and just give me names, head shots, and the duration of time you spent with them. While we’re at it, a comprehensive list of everything of theirs you left the relationship with would be a nice start: their house, their car, their kids, their STD, their best friend etc.

Guys bring their wingmen to the bar. We don’t quote them on a dating profile.

#dating site #pickup #profile #wingmen

[lowstatusmale]

Depression

He told me depression hit him all of the sudden. One moment he saw things sharp and in focus; in bright, vivid colors. Then next moment, it was as if someone had flicked a switch, and everything became blurry, dimly-lit and grey-scale. It was the first time in this 27-year journey I felt someone had experienced it the same way I had.

#depression