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I didn't realise that they're back together???!!!

#kristsingto

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In highschool, I wrote a four pages of story about cannibalism without ever mentioning the word cannibal because I forgot the word for people eating people.

The prompt was 'begin your essay with: It was raining that day.'

#highschool me was obsessed with death

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When my dad passed away last year, one of my relatives told me, "you'll miss him, it's ok to miss him, when you miss him, you can hug his clothes," and I remember thinking 'that's not something you should say to someone who had just told the doctors to stop the cpr to their last living parent a few hours ago.'

Granted, she meant well. It probably would work for some people. Unfortunately, that's not how I grieve. I distract myself, moved away from everything and randomly post my thoughts on tumblr.

hey neil idk if you’re the best person to ask but i would like to think you have some sadge advice or something. as an introvert how do you deal with going to funerals and that whole interaction with people trying to support people and people trying to support you? It’s all strange and weird to me. thanks.

You remind yourself that this is not a usual thing for anyone, and that everyone is dealing with their own personal reactions to what's happened, with grief or loss or just the weirdness of it all. And you look after yourself.

And take refuge in things that people say. "I'm sorry for your loss", or "May their memory be a blessing" or "Thank you so much" when people offer their own condolences. It's formulaic but it works.

#if it works #it works #people grieve differently

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In high school, we read the lotus eater in class and it stuck with me. I followed the path set, went to school, to college, to uni. I the path ended after graduation and suddenly I found myself having to make my own decision. I floated around and live the life of the lotus eater. I have no plan of what I want to do in the future, just what I don't want to do.

My friends are working, getting married and having children, good for them. I'm not jealous of that. I'm jealous of the fact that they know what they want, be it a career, a spouse or a mini-them.

I just want to be passionate about something.

Even if I didn’t have a solid plan, in the back of my head, I always assumed I’d kill myself.

Now I’m an adult and people my age have their lives in order and I’m stuck here, confused, because I never planned to be alive and I’m so far behind.

I feel like I’ll never catch up.

#this got bleak in a few sentences

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As a pansexual, I love to be surprised by what's between my partner's legs. Am I going to be fucked or am I going to do the fucking? Who knows. Maybe we'll just talk about cats.

#random thoughts

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Angel!Dean fic that has been floating in my brain for so long I don't think I want to write it anymore

The story started in the barn where Dean died. He was going into the light but the light was actually an irate Cas. Cas was busy but no one else was coming to pick up Dean cause Dean had a history of not dying and Cas was voluntold to 'go down there and for the love of Jack, bring Dean Winchester to heaven.'

So Dean got to heaven and within a week, he found the edge of it. Because Dean died too early and Jack hadn't finished rebuilding heaven so he was sulking and not talking to Dean.

Dean offered to help because he was bored so Jack made him into an angel out of spite.

Dean finally got a look at Cas' angelic form, the one with the rings and eyes; and realised there was really a crack in Cas' chassis. A crack that fit perfectly into his own angelic form's notch. He didn't know whether that was Jack's idea of a joke but he liked being in his angelic form and just fit into Cas' like that.

But then Sam, the idiot tried to bring Dean back to life. Dean wanted to see him again but Jack told him that as an angel, he can't meddle anymore.

Sam almost died but Eileen saved him. It did killed their relationship however. Sam was reckless and Dean knew it was just a matter of time before he did something stupid.

Dean offered to pick up Sam's soul the next time he almost died. He told Sam that he chose to stay in Heaven, to build a place for Sam to rest, to stay with Cas. And Sam needed to stop dying because heaven was only seventy-five percent done and 'would you like to fall off the edge of heaven, Sam? Because if you die before I finish my job, I'm going to kick you out of heaven.'

Eileen got there in time to save Sam as Rowena contacted her. And Rowena was contacted by Cas. Who had never learned to say no when Dean asked for something nicely.

When Dean returned to heaven, Jack basically punished him by doubling his duty. He was so busy patching up heaven, he didn't even get to spend time with Cas, which was the real punishment.

When Sam finally died, heaven was ready for him.

And Dean was the light he walked towards.

The end.

#destiel #I've read human!cas and angel!cas post-canon #so why not angel!dean #there's nothing angelic about this #my head felt lighter after writing it down

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I've actually read one. Just as a side pairing, mind you. But still, it was well written. Would read again.

are you aware people have written smut fanfics about aziraphales bookshop and crowleys bentley, like this is a real ship that for some reason exists

I wasn't. And now that I am I will work very hard to forget it.

#weird things i read

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I know I have a weird taste in OTPs. Most of them tried to kill each other canonically. And dead. Let's not forget that my OTPs are mostly dead.

But King George III and Alexander Hamilton?!

That is a new low even for me.

Last night I fell down the Hamilton rabbit hole and found Groff and LMM's Satisfied video.

I've stop shipping real people so George and Hamilton it is. Let me tell you, there is a WIP of it in my folder. 🤦

#Grofflin #hamilton musical

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Just passing by and saw your David Tennant marathon because I’m having a kind of marathon of my own. I was wondering, have you seen the new Doctor Who episodes with David Tennant? They made me incredibly nostalgic, I realized how much I miss the tenth Doctor.

Yes! I watched them as soon as I could. You actually remind me it's time for a rewatch. It was amazing! David Tennant is freaking brilliant. Same face, same companion, but Fourteen gave me a different vibe from Ten. I cannot explain it. I feel like Fourteen is more open if that makes any sense.

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Have you ever written something so angsty that it hurt you so you delete everything and rewrite it with so much fluff because you felt bad that you hurt your characters in your imagination...

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After more than a year of being unable to finish any fics, I wrote and finish a fic in 8 hours. Wow.

Alex and Henry got into my head and forced me to finish their story.

#rwrb

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Red White & Royal Blue (2023) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Summary:

Alex stared down at the headlines in front of him with a serious case of deja vu.

 Bromance of The Year or Romance of The Year

Behind The Closed Door of Prince Henry and Alex Claremont-Diaz's Friendship

 Each one of them was accompanied by a photo of them kissing on the couch in his bedroom on the night of the state dinner, Alex's white shirt unbuttoned and Henry hovering over him with his hair ridiculously tousled as if someone had tugged on it.

Someone did. It was Alex.

Alex swallowed down his satisfaction at managing to ruffle the stoic Prince Henry of Wales and tried to look contrite.

"Darling, this is the stupidest thing you've ever done," Ellen began and Alex simply couldn't help himself.

"Henry is quite brilliant actually."

#rwrb #red white & royal blue #alex claremont diaz #henry fox mountchristen windsor

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The ending is... Oh, it's good. It's fucking brilliant, that's what it is. Broke my heart but god, it hurts so good.

#Good omens 2

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I feel like I just got run over by that fucking yellow Bentley

#Good omens 2

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I’m going to go read some fanfics now. Whoever writes an Aziraphale takes the elevator back down fic let me know.

Also Michael Sheen needs to win ALL the awards. For the next five years. OH MY HEART! ❤️‍🩹

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I have never been more furious over something that I still love so much.

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For the last 15 minutes I was just simply saying 'it cannot end like this!'

#Good omens 2