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i keep thinking “just stop and go eat food is so good who cares” but then right after i remember how i look and im like no.

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ofc the day i start my fast i have to go to a funeral and then eat out with my family after at a table with over 12 people and there’s plates of food all around me…then i come back home and my mom pics up pizza but i havent ate and im so proud of myself

#ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #tw ed rant #tw disordered eating

[kxtklutz]

Last Meal Before my fast

-Steamed brocolli

-Chicken

-Rice

-Egg

-Queso Cheese

-Salsa

-Celery

-Some seasonings

Around 302-400 cals thats a lot but its under my 1600 and hopefully i’ll be full for the fast wish me luck.

I feel terrible for eating this but idk omg i shouldn’t have done that i’m not gonna eat for days just to make up for this

#ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #tw disordered eating #bing3 eating #disordered eating thoughts #eating disoder trigger warning #tw ed rant #disordered eating cw

[kxtklutz]

Starting a 2 day fast this weekend. I know it doesn’t seem long, but I am an athlete and I do need just a little bit of food to keep me going for practice (thats the only reason i eat a little snack at school-by snack i mean fruit or vegetables ofc). Also I KNOW i will fail if I go any longer and I don’t want to hate myself for giving in. As time goes on I know I’ll be able to go on for longer!

#disordered eating thoughts #ed not sheeren #tw ed diet #disordered eating cw #eatibg disorder #tw eating issues #disordered eating mention #bing3 eating

[kxtklutz]

What I ate today

I’m not exactly sure the specific number of strawberries i ate, i forgot to count, but i would say that was around 40-60 cal. Had that for lunch and now im eating al gratin potatoes for dinner which is around 150 cals, thats a lot. So i would say so far my sub cal count is around 190-210 which is pretty good considering im only allowing myself 1600 cals a day. I drink water too.

#tw ed rant #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #disordered eating in tags #disordered eating mention #eatibg disorder #disordered eating thoughts

[kxtklutz]

Im 16 my gw is 107. im a junior in highschool i play soccer. im just starting in my ed and so far ive done shit i feel like shit so tips on anything from meals to fasting to purging bing3ing ALL OF IT ANYTHING PLEASE!!

#ed rules #tw ed diet #ed not ed sheeran #tw disordered eating #bing3 eating #disordered eating cw #tw ed rant #mealspo #m3alsp0

[kxtklutz]

My Rules

-Drink water drink water drink water

-1200 cals a day

-1-2 meals a day

-First meal at 11:55, second at 5

-No late night meals-just go to sleep

-No snacks- craving? eat fruits/veggies with seasoning

-Sleep sleep sleep

-1 week with no rule breaks you get a cheat day on Sunday BUT back to fasting right after and only can eat 1600 cals!

-Fast 2 days a week, more if you are feeling good about yourself <3

#ed not sheeren #tw ed diet #ed rules #tw ed rant #tw disordered eating

[kxtklutz]

when i see food i crave it and its so hard to fight the urge its hard not to eat in this house with a family who likes to eat A LOT but im going to try to stick to my rules and diet

#ed not sheeren #tw ed rant #tw ed diet #eating disoder trigger warning #bingedisorder #just binged

[kxtklutz]

just stuffed my face with food so hopefully im full and can starve all tm with no craving, i’ll let myself eat 1 fruit or vegetable and thats it.

#tw disordered eating #tw eating issues #purge tips #time to purge #bingedisorder #just binged #ed not ed sheeran

[kxtklutz]

i want to bing3 and throw up so bad but i hate hate hate throwing up tips on getting over that or making it less hellish??

#ed not ed sheeran #bing3 eating #tw ed diet #disordered eating in tags #tw disordered eating #disordered eating thoughts #eating disoder trigger warning

[kxtklutz]

so i play sports and dont want to be shitting my guts out at school, so what are some weight loss pills that ARENT laxatives

#tw ed diet #disordered eating thoughts #ed not ed sheeran #bing3 eating #tw disordered eating #eating disoder trigger warning

[kxtklutz]

Can i eat what i want if i just stick to 1-2 very small portions of food a day? Tips pleaseee

#tw ed diet #tw ed rant #ed not ed sheeran #disordered eating cw #disordered eating thoughts

[kxtklutz]

do u really go to hell if you kys?

[kxtklutz]

my bf told me sitting in complete darkness with nothing around would help me fully concentrate on my writings, but now i just sit in my closet and i can’t find more comfort in this pain when im alone

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how do i escape this feeling

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im back, and i choose happiness

#goth #spotify #motivation #positive energy #positive quotes #positivity