kxllosstuff

[kxllosstuff]

being afraid of weighing yourself is probably a sign that you haven’t been following your d13t.

are you not serious about this? do you actually even want it? stop ruining your progress. imagine where you could have been by now if you had done what you’re supposed to.

it’s not that hard.

just. stop. e4ting.

[kxllosstuff]

Sometimes you just need someone to hold you tight and whisper "it's going to be okay." Until you fall asleep.

Is that too much to ask?

[kxllosstuff]

ramadan kareem to all my muslin ed girls, and boys

i hope this ramadan we all loose at leats 10kg !! so 2,5 per week, not much we can do it

SOOOOO as every ramadan these are the rules

- dont do suhur , its extra kcal for mostly nothing, personally after suhur i go back to sleep so its like i didn’t eat and i dont have extra energy and i just ate kcal for nothing

- obviously no liquid kcal

- at the table i can only eat ONE PIECE per thing, ex. if there are bastilla i can only eat one and stop, cant eat another one; so i still eat what i like but don’t exaggerate.

- eat max 3/4 different things ( as i said one piece per thing)

-go to the gym i dont care do low intensity cardio workout but still go

i need to loose this 10kg I NEED IT I NEED I WEIGHTED MYSELF AND IM 81kg, its my highest weight ever in my entire life, i never thought i would be thi giant and in so ashamed about it cause i always see girls in tunbler that weight like 50 kg and are so good with their ed and im here binge eating since september and gained 20kg 😀

#pro anything #tw ana trigger #tw ed sheeran #ed vent #4norexi4 #@na rules #bulim14 #ana tricks #im fat af #im fat and disgusting #tw ed rant #ed tumbler #tw ed in the tags #tw edd #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed implied #@tw edd #ed disorder #ed meals #fat belly #fat piggy #fatty #fat

[kxllosstuff]

ENGLISH

Feeling like I'm the fairground beast because everyone think that i'm weird isn't the best feeling i ever had...I hate when people think or say I'm weird... It makes me want to cry so much I want to tear my eyes out...every time that happens i remember when they all laughed at me saying i was a freak and i was "the weird girl"...fuck my life ! Fuck this life!

ESPAÑOL

Sentir que soy la bestia de feria porque todos piensan que soy rara no es el mejor sentimiento que he tenido... Odio cuando la gente piensa o dice que soy rara... Me da tantas ganas de llorar que quiero arrancarme los ojos... cada vez que eso pasa recuerdo cuando todos se reían de mí en la escuela diciendo que era un monstruo y que yo era "la chica rara"... ¡A la mierda mi vida! ¡A la mierda esta vida!

𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊

[kxllosstuff]

so you know how fucking fat i am?

we were talking today in class me and my friends and my friends S said “well i do skating after school you dont do anything “ so i replied with “ no i go to the gym honey” and her and my other friends started joking like “aw every 3 montsh you go” and ok we were joking.

but then i said “well even N doesnt do anything (my other friend)” and S replied with “well at least she has a perfect body you..” and she didn’t finish cause everyone got quiet; i punched her as a joke but i swear to god i started feeling tears in my eyes.

its one of the worst thing somebody ever told me .

just for reference my friend (the one with the perfect body) is 50kg around 130lbs, S is around 40kg so 90lbs and im 170lbs 😁

#pro anything #tw ana trigger #tw ed sheeran #ed vent #@na rules #bulim14 #4norexi4 #starv1ng #ed behaviour tw #ana tricks #meanspø #meanspii #i want to disappear #i want to diiieeee #im fat and disgusting #im fat af

[kxllosstuff]

Mmmmmm someone big n strong wanting to protect me & ruin me at the same time ♡♡♡

[kxllosstuff]

I'm so tired of being the biggest one in my friend group

[kxllosstuff]

I want to be sick, but not in a "bmi too low" way. I want to be mentally sick, struggle with food in unthinkable ways, that the smell of something makes me cry bc of the calories, not being able to eat even if people beg me. I want to be so sick that even looking at food scares me

[kxllosstuff]

my parents took me to the doctor because i dont eat, at the doctor i started crying telling her about my issues with food(eating disorder) , it was a cry for help, she calmed me and told me she will call my parents and explain to them this problem.

The next day she called my mum and talked with her about this eating disorder that i have and that she should bring me to a psychiatrist, my mum then proceeded to ignore this thing thinking its just dumb and that the Social workers will take me, she said that it was stupid and the doctor was just trying to make our family look bad . this happened 2 years ago and i still think about how my life will be different if my mum would have sent me to a psychologist to recover instead of ignoring the problem

#pro anything #tw ana trigger #tw ed sheeran #ed vent #couple #@na rules #bulim14 #meanspii #ed disorder #tw ed implied #unlovable #unwanted

[kxllosstuff]

what’s the largest amount of weight you have lost in a month?

ill start: 17,6lbs(8kg)

#i wanna be thinner #pro anything #tw ana trigger #tw ed sheeran #ed vent #tw ana fast #4norexi4 #@na rules #4norex14 #bulim14

[kxllosstuff]

a vacation friend that i only see once a year just replied to a insta story i did with my friends

she replied with “ you became fat”

i was 😯😬🫤 i replied with “ok” and she responded with “ahahahaha”

idk if im angry or ashamed or sad

#i wanna be thinner #pro anything #tw ana trigger #tw ed sheeran #tw ana fast #ed vent #4norexi4 #@na rules #4norex14 #bulim14

[kxllosstuff]

anyway in at the mall rn and im ginna cry everything looks awful on me.

BUTTTT this week i lost 3kg/6,6lbs, i fasted for 24 hrs and i ate only at 2pm for like 10min and then i stopped, and the meal i eat at 2pm is something i like but in a smaller portion so i dint have the urge to binge bc i eat something i like

[kxllosstuff]

Honestly, I’m at my best when my ed is at it’s worst. My room is clean, I dress nice, I wash my face more, I whiten my teeth, I wear makeup, I do my hair. For some reason the only thing that pulls my out of my depression spiral is my ed and the only thing that pulls me out of my ed is my depression. Idk if anyone else feels like that? Idk I just always feel better when I’m losing weight and excersizing and not eating. Idk maybe it’s my body thinks I’m finally being healthy? But I’m not? So… idk, it’s just really weird.

[kxllosstuff]

feeling hungry?

⚠ GROSSPO ⚠

still feeling hungry piggy? no? didn't think so. now go drink your water.

[kxllosstuff]

lol you're trying to motivate yourself to starve when your doordash is on the way. do yourself a favor and just toss it in the trash when it gets there, just like you'd be throwing away your chances of being skinny by eating.

show everyone that you have dignity and self-control, because nothing is more unattractive than a chubby bitch complaining but doing nothing to change.

[kxllosstuff]

th1nspo ☆

[kxllosstuff]

one of my worst nightmare just happened:

i just found out my scale is 2kg/4.4 pounds LIGHTER, so it means that im 4 pounds heavier☺️

kms

#i wanna be thinner #pro anything #tw ana trigger #tw ed sheeran #ed vent #tw ana fast #4norexi4 #ed tumbler #@na tips #@tw edd