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[kiananah]

*open mouth kissing little Caesar with my hand up his toga*

#this is insane #lmao #i love tumblr #reblog

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@salticid​ you’re amazing and I love ur cryptic spambot convo I hope u like this!!

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#classic #reblog

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

#oof #yeah #i go over to a friend's house and see how they don't care about talking with friends in front of their family #I'm like huh??? I feel like i had to the other side of the house and shut all the doors inbetween #not even doing anything controversial #but it's like an anxiety they might find it anyway #or more recently has been just freaking exercising #i can't do it in front of anyone and i can't give a solid reason beyond embarrassment #and it's not like it's embarrassing because of my body. Just being watched or seen for some reason #first time I've ever seen this mentioned so i went off and vented a bit sorry lol #glad to know I'm not alone though

[kiananah]

A customer contacted our team with questions, and then finished their email with: "I am daunted by the complexities and unknowns." I haven't been able to stop thinking about it since.

#all the damn time #reblog

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Hehe :)

#cute lol #reblog

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#pfft #reblog

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#true #reblog

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#aww #reblog

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this is what i sent

this is what i got

#reblog

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You live in a house decorated according to your url. What does it look like

#reblog

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#pfft #yeah that fits sure

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stand_down.mp4

#pfft #reblog

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#i love you mr fear #reblog

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genuinely the funniest thing ive seen on reddit

#lol #reblog

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and this is why baseball is the best sport (see also: these baseball sidequests)

#lmao #reblog

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lord the peasants are so loud today

#lol #reblog

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#pfft #reblog