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Billy's just like me FR.

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I don’t know if there’s already a harringrove Pricilla Queen of the Desert au out there already but if not let me pitch it to you. (Plot altered a bit because I can)

Veteran drag queen and single parent Billy picking up his old classmate, baby drag queen Steve in a rented out tour bus to travel from Los Angeles to Hawkins in order to meet his baby sister Max for her birthday. In highschool, they broke up the day before graduation, because Billy had gotten accepted to a prestigious university halfway across the county but the spark is very much still there.

(They also hookup at the halfway point of the journey. Whoops)

#billy hargrove #steve harrington #harringrove

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happy april 30th!

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Bitchy x Bitchy couples have my heart.

#billy hargrove #steve harrington #walking osha violation billy hargrove #billy x steve #harringrove #love that for them

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Steve who vaguely tweets out one day that sometimes love means sacrifice in relation to his relationship with Billy.

But he isn’t referring to homophobia. Or Neil. Or almost dying. Or their rocky relationship as teenagers. Or Steve’s comphet.

He’s referring to the day where, as a birthday present, he let Billy show him Robocop. Without any candy or drinks to get through it. Then listened to Billy’s hour long monologue about how Robocop displayed the inherent fascism of the police.

So yeah

Sometimes love means sacrifice (to sanity)

#billy hargrove #steve harrington #harringrove

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Me: it’s the year of smut I gotta get back into writing smut

Also me: here’s 20 heart wrenching angst ideas in order of how much billy will cry

(Sorry to all my friends)

#queen of angst right here

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Steve: I should have taken the job at the mall, Nancy. I can't take it any more I had to send him home for being hot.

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Thinking about Billy who has a special interest in trains and Steve who has a special interest in WHAM and both of them mask the absolute hell out of it. It’s not appropriate or right and Neil would take a significant issue with his son not being right in the head.

And at first they’re wary of each other. For good reason too. But eventually they lighten up. Gradually. Because there’s just these tiny hints that maybe the other boy is like them.

Billy wanted to go on a train on a cross country journey back to California. That’s the last thing he told Steve before he died.

For a bit at least. Then he came back.

And Steve started thinking about being with someone who didn’t think of him as so much of a freak.

So he decided to plan something for Billy. Something romantic.

Maybe a train journey would be nice

@thissortofsorcery ❤️❤️❤️

#billy hargrove #steve harrington #harringrove #autistic billy hargrove #autistic steve harrington

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90s harringrove au where Billy’s musical icon is Kurt Cobain and Steve’s is Mel C. And that’s genuinely the biggest source of conflict in their relationship.

They’ve been together for years, hardly ever fight, saved each other’s life multiple times but Billy’s limit is Spice Girls at 5AM on a Saturday morning.

#billy hargrove #steve harrington #harringrove

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Steve: babe if you’re gay- how are you still Catholic

Billy: you’re kidding right

Steve:………..no????

Billy: ok A religious people can totally be queer and B I’m worshiping a man how is that NOT gay

#billy hargrove #steve harrington #harringrove #cw religious themes #ignore that my headcanon is always Steve being Jewish

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Nothing brung me more serotonin this month than the fucking amazing hairstyles Quinni wore every episode of this season of Heartbreak High.

#quinni gallagher jones #heartbreak high #heartbreak high season 2

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Harringrove meet cute where instead of meeting each other at the Halloween party, they meet at Billy’s basketball practice and Steve ends up accidentally throwing a basketball at Billy’s nose.

Because pretty boy means that Steve’s brain stops working. Duh.

(Despite that, they still get together like two weeks later, love wins)

#billy hargrove #steve harrington #harringrove #they’re so dorky they have my heart

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Fics where they can only be their true selves around each other (idiots) have my heart.

#billy hargrove #steve harrington #walking osha violation billy hargrove #billy x steve #harringrove #so true bestie

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Something about Steve finding autistic Billy, who’s always had to mask for his own safety, having a sensory overload on the cold floor of the showers. The lights were too bright and the people were too loud and running water made his skin feel like it was going to crawl off.

And Harrington sees him. Doesn’t yell or even scowl in distaste. He just kind of looks. Like he’s thinking.

Rummages around in his pocket until he comes out with a small stuffed animal.

Her name’s Star he says. And could Billy take care of her. She always helped Steve through shit like that.

He smiles really genuinely and walks off, feet turned out like a duck.

And Billy feels his heart beat just that little bit faster.

#billy hargrove #steve harrington #harringrove #autistic steve harrington #autistic billy hargrove

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Me and @jarviscockerssecrethusband *Talking about who in ST is which drag queen and getting heated about who is what*

Both of us: But Jason is Alyssa Edwards, of course.

#we’re not wrong #jason carver

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I wanted to make one addition to this post, both because Apple’s name is out now (Applewillowstone) and because I still feel like I was too nice to the terf in this.

So I wanted to make it abundantly clear. Whilst I do not have as much experience with Apple as I do with her terf friend (though I’ve certainly had my unpleasant experiences with her) I remember enough from my time when I was being bullied to say this.

I am the close friend of Saf’s who she spoke about in her post regarding “Z”. All of what she spoke about in her post regarding me were experiences I had over the course of six months.

My bully, Z, who was allowed to run basically without rules from the sound of it in Apple’s server, would target you specifically if you were autistic. Especially if it was more visible and would then hide behind criticism by saying that she has autistic friends (both of whom were aspie supremacists.)

I would join a conversation with her and a couple others in voicechat and suddenly she’d be making disgusting jokes about domestic violence, knowing that I had been the victim of an abusive relationship two years prior.

She would learn anything that made you upset, triggered, anything she perceived as a weakness at all and exploit it mercilessly because she could. Everyone had to love Z and if you didn’t you were a threat. And Z didn’t tolerate threats at all.

I am choosing not to say the worst of what I know Z did because it is disgusting and I want to respect the privacy of her other victims but I will say this.

Apple was knowingly friends with Z. A terf who targeted autistic people because it made her feel powerful or some crap. And from what I’ve heard (and experienced) of Apple, I can’t think of two people who’d be more alike.

Like others have said, this is not drama. This was never drama. People like Apple and Z are a danger to vulnerable people in this fandom. And I hope nothing like this ever happens in this fandom again.

On Guy Fawkes night of 2022 I was one of the first people to be invited to a harringrove discord server belonging to someone I believed to be a close friend.

This decision led to six months of a group of five people, some more than others, targeting me relentlessly, seemingly just for existing.

I was bullied because I was disabled, because I was trans, because my abuse didn’t “fit in” with their perceptions of what abuse looked like, because I was poor.

Even after I was kicked one day, with no explanation and blocked by both mods, my page continued to be stalked for three months afterwards while my mental health deteriorated significantly and visibly, even through my posts.

When they were finally cornered in the act, the excuses they gave were as weak as citing my politics (I was a bit too left for their tastes) and some was covert antisemitism.

I was never offered an official apology.

Then they went away for a while. Some of them deactivated, some crawled off into the shadows.

But then I heard about a new discord server. One which I never joined but I understood that the ringleader of the group who had tormented me for MONTHS was in. And my close friend was in this server, this person hadn’t changed. Apparently, this person is also selling their harassment of me as a “misunderstanding.”

I cannot mince my words here. This person is in a group of bullies, some of whom I understand were also on that server. Not all of them may have actively participated in the bullying but didn’t exactly do their damndest to stop it. And I know they saw it. They just don’t care. The exact participants of said bullying have changed since my experience over a year ago but the sentiment remains the same.

I don’t want to give any additional stress to any of their other victims so I won’t be naming any names. These people know who they are.

I hope everyone else who were affected by them and their actions are ok.

#tw fandom wank #fandom wank #tw abuse #tw harassment #tw bullying

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I didn’t want to make any public posts about what’s been happening in the past days in our fandom because of my health issues. Some of you know, mostly people I consider my friends now, others because I was offering emergency commissions to solve hospital and treatment costs, but my health isn’t that good lately and the level of drama, intensity and everything around this topic was affecting me. Still is a bit. However, after everything that has come out, so many similar experiences, so many people being manipulated, hurt and damaged because of this one individual who I considered my friend, I can’t remain silent anymore. I just can’t. I’m still shocked and feeling so many emotions, from sadness to concern, from disappointment to anger. Even guilty for not realizing how disgusting this person was. It’s unbelievable.

I won’t go into any details, those involved know everything that needs to be known. I will not share screenshots either but there are plenty to prove what this person tried to do until the end and how many people she damaged.

I became her friend months ago, around August/September of last year. I considered her a real friend, a good one even, she was nice to me all the time and talked to me every day for all these months. She bought my friendship with love bombing, gifts, with praise about my art and me, a fucking naïve idiot, thought she was sincere. I never noticed the red flags until it was too late, how she was collecting artists along the way and discarding the ones that weren’t useful. She was after popular people, writers and artists, anyone that could give her status. She wanted her name seen everywhere and she invaded every space she could. She also promoted her server to anybody who had big numbers or was known in the HG fandom.

I didn’t know anybody in the fandom, only some names I followed because I admired their art or writing. I always spent my days in any fandom as a spectator, doing fanart and having casual conversations but not getting close to anybody. She was the first person I let get close to me.

I trusted her and that was a mistake I’ll regret for a long time.

She took advantage of me not knowing anybody, she used me as a dumpster bin to trash talk about others, she played victim over and over again, she claimed some people hated her, and she made me believe so many things that I later discovered weren’t real. She twisted reality to her convenience; she created a false narrative where she was the poor victim who was attacked constantly and that she only wanted the best for everybody. She just wanted to be ‘nice.’

Knowing English isn’t my first language and sometimes it’s hard for me to understand certain expressions, she used that to be able to act as a bigot without me noticing until it was too late.

And I believed her. I believe every single fucking word she said about others, because why would she lie? She was just trusting me with things, right? She was just warning me about people, she cared about me, she was just looking out for me.

I’m a good friend, I know I am. Friendship has always been important to me, and I’m faithful to whoever I care about. I thought I was being a good friend to her by defending her and giving her my thoughts and opinions about all these ‘awful’ people who didn’t like her and were against her.

She just wanted an ally.

Her love bombing and praise only lasted until I didn’t act the way she wanted.

I confronted one of her ‘friends’ in her server after that person was exposing an innocent writer just to humiliate them. I was mistreated and attacked. She, the owner, didn’t do anything to stop it while I was telling her in dms what was happening. She didn’t do anything at all because she didn’t care.

She didn’t care either when I showed her proof that her friend was a terf. I was worried, I was so naïve I thought maybe this person didn’t know about her friend being transphobic. But she knew. She didn’t act surprised, she just did her best to clarify she wasn’t a terf ‘by association’ in between jokes and tried to justify her friend over and over again. She dismissed my worries and acted like it wasn’t such a big deal.

I trusted her to the point I felt safe enough to tell her I am autistic and how hard it was growing up not knowing that, how everyone treated me as if I was dumb when I was a kid and a teenager. Her attitude towards me changed after she knew my diagnosis. From treating me like I was a child to a condescending way to talk to me whenever I did ‘wrong.’

I supported her when she decided to create a BB just to be called silly and treated as stupid because I wouldn’t join if the terf was there. She simply didn’t care I was affected because I’m non-binary and trans. She just wanted artists for her shitty event because she needed to make a name among other events. She kept insisting that I join, even after she knew the terf was going to be a part of the event. She wanted me to be a pinch hitter artist.

I finally opened my eyes after my medical emergency in February. I decided to open emergency commissions to help with the costs and that led me to talk to people I never talked to before. People this individual didn’t want me to talk to.

I don’t know why things happen but everything seems to happen for a reason. Some people that reached out to me to help me were people this individual talked shit about over and over again for months. And to my surprise, they were nothing like I was made to believe. On the contrary, these people were sweet, nice, and were actually sincere.

Her reaction to me talking to them was passive-aggressive comments, jokily threats and playing the victim. She also started giving me the silent treatment in order to manipulate me again. Which, luckily, didn’t work.

This disgusting individual lied so much I have spent the last few days wondering how much of what she said was true and how much was bullshit. She tried to mess with friendships, she tried to ruin a relationship, she made racist and transphobic comments, she lied about so many people that didn’t deserve it, she thought her lies wouldn’t catch up to her and kept acting like a ‘mean girl’ who wanted to be number one in popularity. She thought having popular friends, who she bragged about, would keep her away from anything.

She thought she was safe and that I was stupid enough to keep believing her.

I’m not stupid. I never was.

And I will not remain silent while she still plays victim, while she decided to blame ME for all of her fucking mess.

When this whole thing exploded, she desperately tried to convince someone she wasn’t bad, that it was all a misunderstanding and that she was just venting to me. A good pity party because she was being called out and she didn’t expect it. She tried to convince them that I was to blame. She didn’t hesitate to throw me under the bus, to make anyone believe I was the villain, exposing me with screenshots, for all we know, were probably manipulated by her. It is now known that she edits, changes and deletes messages.

I’m not a villain for exposing the truth to people I now care about. To people who have been nothing but nice to me even tho they are aware I said awful things about them based on what this individual told me. She tried to brainwash me with her lies and almost succeeded.

The past few weeks have been hard. But it’s harder to see how many others she hurt.

She’s not a good person no matter how much she tried to act like one. Her disgusting behavior led to so much damage and she got me involved in it, using me until the end.

This behavior is not ‘fandom drama,’ it is dangerous behavior, one that should not be tolerated or accepted. Fandom is not a place to escalate in popularity, to surround yourself with popular artists just to get something from them. Fandom should be a safe place for us to enjoy, to escape from reality, from the real world that is hard enough for so many of us.

I will not let her step on me anymore. I will not be her scapegoat. And she will not get my sympathy anymore.

Please be safe out there, do not let these people harm us anymore. This individual and her fucking terf friend can go fuck themselves.

I am so tired.

#fandom wank #dangerous behavior #I’m so sorry you had to go through this #there should be no space for terfs in this fandom