irisdarling22

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i think being lobotomized and having anything resembling human surgically removed and and then integrating whatever’s left of me into a finely tuned machine honed to excel at carnage on a scale that’s hard to reckon would fix me, actually

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when i have a crush i dont kick my feet or twirl my hair instead i am in my kitchen at 3am pacing in circles with my hands clasped behind my back like a middle-aged divorced detective haunted by a cold case he just cant crack

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It's kind of tragic how homophobia affects insecure men.

Like sometimes they want to experiment with a bit of anal and instead of just buying a sex toy and some lube like a normal person, they instead shove random objects up their ass that inevitably get stuck and then they try to get them out by themselves which makes things worse and then they lie to doctors about it and like this all leads to all kinds of extra complications like internal damage, risk of infections, bleeding, the fall of Yugoslavia, etc.

Come on guys, just buy a dildo. It's way safer and it leads to way fewer problems.

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This is about to be a long, kind of rambly post so stick with me if you want to, but I feel like a lot of people who make posts about Anakin have not experienced what it’s like to be groomed into doing what you don’t want to.

And no, I’m not calling Sheev a pedophile. Grooming isn’t inherently sexual. I suppose you could swap the word out for manipulated if that’s what makes you more comfortable.

Anakin did not jump from a good home life to the Jedi temple. He went from being a literal slave with an unhealthy attachment to his mother out of necessity for survival into an environment where he was immediately told that he was wrong. I’m not here to debate whether the Jedi were wrong or if their rules were wrong- I am ONLY saying they were wrong for taking this child, 9 years old, and telling him that he is wrong and a coward for doing what he needed to to survive day to day not even a full week ago.

Anakin was raised as a slave. We see multiple times what it’s like for slaves, but what impacted me the most were the Clone Wars episodes where Obi-wan and Rex are sold into slavery. It’s said explicitly in the episode that the slavers we see frequently make deals with the Hutts, and that fact alone makes it very likely that Shmi and even possibly Anakin were in those camps themselves at one point. These slavers whip and abuse the people there, force them to wear shock collars and leave lasting scars on both Obi-wan and Rex when they were both only there for a couple weeks.

Shmi would have been in one of those camps for years. If Anakin had, it would have been when he was an infant.

We even learn in one episode in season 2 that it’s commonplace to perform surgery on new slaves in order to implant a tracker in them so they can never be free. Anakin was not a normal kid with a normal, happy life.

Enter Sheev, who is immediately in a position of power over him and, not only that, but has consistent access to him. Anakin probably already felt wronged by the Jedi for being told he was a coward, but wow! The senator of Naboo later Chancellor thinks he’s very brave!

Anakin spent his entire life struggling with the Jedi Code- not because he’s inherently evil or selfish like some people like to act, but because he grew up being told the exact opposite. He couldn’t leave his attachments, if he did neither of them would be protected and they would both be killed. He showed anger when told not to because that was all he had ever been shown unless by his mother.

But all the while, he had a little voice in his ear telling him that he’s not like the other Jedi, he’s special, he’s better. Sheev played on his insecurities in every single scene we see them in together. He tells him to react to his anger, to keep his attachments and to be selfish. Anakin only gets worse from there.

Anakin’s problem has never been that he is inherently selfish or inherently evil. His problem was that he had no one close to him to tell him no- and anyone who did he was told to cut off by Sheev.

The tragedy of Anakin’s story has never been that he’s uncaring or cares only about himself, it’s that he was a child (22 in ROTS! i have mutuals older than that!) who was being told what to do and how to act by a man well over three times his age and he listened.

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i like socializing with other queer people but man there is nothing quite like having a married straight guy as a friend

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I couldn't get over the way she looks here, it's like she can't quite believe what she's hearing I love this disaster padawan

#star wars #ahsoka spoilers #ahsoka #ahsoka series #ahsoka show #spoilers #starwarsblr #sabine wren #rebels sabine #ahsokaedit #my gifs

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He is deliciously evil and creepier than I could've hoped for I'm so pleased

You helped my cause. Now I shall help yours. — Grand Admiral Thrawn in Ahsoka: Far, Far Away (2023)

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AHSOKA WAS THE FIRST SKYWALKER CHILD

i love how the juxtaposition of Obi-Wan's guilt about Anakin and Ahsoka's fear of becoming him reaches across the two shows. Like "I am what you made me" is paraphrased and said once more by Anakin to Ahsoka, that she has all of what he is inside of her. She is what *he* made, like he was of his Master. But instead of being contemptuous Anakin says it earnestly, that this is what a lineage is, knowledge passed down through a linear family tree. We get such an interesting insight into how differently both of them dealt with Vader's conception and when we see a split second of Anakin's face as Ahsoka reflects back to him what he became it's the lineage's chance to come full circle ("what have you become?" "I am what you made me") but Ahsoka proves that the cyclical grief of their line can be broken. Arguably Luke did this by bringing Vader back to the light (which is a whole other meta discussion about Anakin's personal view of family) but imo Ahsoka was the first Skywalker child (not in name or by blood OBVIOUSLY, don't come for me) so this particular break of the ouroboros is so special. This is Anakin and his first born to me. Anyway

#ahsoka spoilers #anakin meta #ahsoka meta #“you couldn't bring me back to the light but i can make sure you don't fall to the dark” #teen mom Anakin Skywalker lmao #GOOD POST OP #everyone thought it but you said it

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My boyfriend was showing me his cat and I leaned over to kiss the cat on his soft little baby head and he went "meow" and scrambled away because I'd been wearing my headphones and I accidentally jabbed him with the microphone.

And I said "Damn, this is exactly like in the Iliad"

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Be a whore! Post that pic! Be proud of it! Suck that gock! Throw that brick! Fuck her ass!

You can do whatever you want!

#nsfw #transgender #transgirl #keeping you guys on your toes #this is a girlblog #gockposting

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"I promise you, I will even learn to stop people from dying"

"I choose to live"

Anakin 'Stubborn' Skywalker got what he wanted in the end. He just had to do things the hard way, as usual.

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Something I've been struggling to explain to people who didn't grow up watching both the Star Wars movies and the cartoons, is just how much episode 5 of Ahsoka felt like a huge part of my childhood coming to a satisfying completion.

I have invested literally years - including some of my very earliest - of my life into understanding and knowing these characters, and seeing years of story telling culminate into a depiction of a truly and unabashedly 'Redeemed Anakin' makes my heart swell with joy.

Anakin was always my favourite growing up. I didn't care that I knew he was going to turn bad, and I didn't care that he was flawed. He was my hero. To me, it was always the greatest tragedy that Vader's rejection of evil was his final act. Anakin resigned himself to Vader as an act of utter defeat, and wore him like armour. Only when he finally found something he stood to lose, did he also find the strength to reject the dark, and it cost him his life. And having come to terms with that, I am suddenly offered Anakin Skywalker; Force Ghost. With all the knowledge and regret from his past as Vader, and all the passion of my favourite Jedi Knight.

It feels like a victory; a final, satisfying, perfect epilogue to the longest story I've ever read.

And he's smiling :)

#and i know how ahsoka felt! #i too was standing in the body of my 14 year old self #watching things unfold from a new persective #star wars #ahsoka #ahsoka spoilers #ahsoka series #ahsoka show #anakin skywalker #spoilers #starwarsblr #anakin and ahsoka #star wars anakin

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Luke Skywalker: What was it the Jedi said that got everybody so upset?

Obi-Wan Kenobi: Be kind to each other

Han Solo: Oh yeah that'll do it

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Whilst this is true, I actually think it ran so much deeper as well. Anakin was teaching Ahsoka yet another lesson here; he is trying throughout this sequence to get her to move on from that little girl caught up in the bloodiest war, to stop making excuses not to move forward because of the past, to stop mistaking neutrality for balance.

She rebukes Anakin's lesson yet again by basically saying "look at what you did, I'm not so bad". And he responds by saying "oh this is my fault? Vader did this to you? Then Vader is what you'll face" and in that moment, where she feels the full force of his attack, THAT is when she finally decides that she will not be beaten, she will not allow this terrible thing to happen to her, she will choose to live

#star wars #ahsoka #ahsoka spoilers #spoilers #anakin and ahsoka #star wars anakin #anakin skywalker #ahsoka series #ahsoka show

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I know filoni straight up retconned Ahsoka’s tube top, but I think the alternative and funnier explanation is that adult ahsoka was so embarrassed by her 14 year old fashion sense that she imagined herself wearing a better outfit in her own force vision

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No wonder the whole galaxy was obsessed with him in the war jesus ajkjjsinssk he’s so young and pretty with his saber and armor and only just growing over the ears curls. Hero with no fear getting EATEN ALIVE on the holonet by the besotted masses.

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there's just something inherently holy about a girl vibing alone in her room