idridian

[idridian]

i love when tragedies are like “the love was there. it didnt change anything. it didnt save anyone. there were just too many forces against it. but it still matters that the love was there”

#regarding writing

[idridian]

the purest form of serotonin is when a cat looks at u and u go like “what?” and it meows at u

#cute critters

[idridian]

hm not me suddenly caring about the star wars oc i made up when i was six years old when i don’t even care about star wars

#star wars #i havent been into this franchise for so long but i was always here for yoda specifically and nobody else

[idridian]

motivational quote of the day, courtesy of douglas rain (3 june 1974)

#douglas rain #every day i learn new and unhinged things about him <3

[idridian]

#fanfiction #as a person who both doesn't like coffee and has worked enough customer service to know i would never want to be hit on at work #the answer is obvious #i've read fun and interesting takes of all the others #but coffeeshop au just. does not appeal to me. not even a little bit

[idridian]

“how dare you say we piss on the poor” is perhaps THEE best piece of vernacular to come out of tumblr dot com in the past decade. along with “what were you doing at the devils sacrament” (cheeky. inspired. relevant in every context) and “harold, they're lesbians” (timeless. funny as hell. gay)

#amusing stuff

[idridian]

Dreams, the ones where you are fearless Can't break what's broken, you are tearless Steal back your innocence That's what they stole from you

You're gonna sleep like a baby tonight Not everything can be so black and white There are demons in the broad daylight But you can sleep like a baby tonight

#crimson sun #final fantasy 7 #lucrecia crescent #professor hojo #vincent valentine #the composition of these pieces you do!!!!

[idridian]

A lot of times, when people talk about mad scientists, they mean medical or biology or chemistry, sometimes you'll have a physicist or mathematician or even an engineer... But let's not forget about the hard working mad science geologists who help people scout out and build their "evil lair in a volcano" while furthering their own plot to rid the world of their competition by using their own egos against them. Meanwhile they're bending the secrets of the earth to their will, making new and strange crystalline mineral structures, and dialing in the frequency of their earthquake generators to only destroy what they're aiming at. They deserve attention too!

#regarding linguistics #amusing stuff

[idridian]

btw go follow @douglas-rain where i am definitely being normal about the life and work of douglas rain and not at all descending into madness at random intervals

#ramblings o' mine #listen i'm not horny but i AM crying in disappointment about the fact that there are no pictures of him shirtless anywhere

[idridian]

#the OCEAN #other: all of the above

[idridian]

DR: *calmly explaining the canadian music industry*

(three minutes of footage of Some Band performing a song)

DR: *continues to explain the canadian music industry*

#douglas rain #rock-a-bye (1973) #well that was fun. anyway

[idridian]

Send me a “ 🔥 “ for an unpopular opinion.

Bonus points if you include a topic. ( IE. shipping, roleplaying, ect. )

#ask meme

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randomly found another work featuring DR let's gooooooooo

#douglas rain #babe wake up new scrap of mr rain's filmography just dropped!!!!

[idridian]

also one real post about this and like, plenty of ink has been spilt on how disconnected watcher entertainment seems to be from its fans but i think the missing piece here is how disconnected watcher is from the rest of youtube. when the catastrophe hit i went to all my terminally online friends, the same way i did after the hbomberguy james somerton video, or after the ned fulmer fiasco, or the creepshowart scandal etc, or every time jenny nicholson dropped a new evermore video, including the ones behind the $2 patreon paywall we all gladly pay for, and for the first time...

no one knew who i was talking about.

these are not insulated people. these are people i can trust to have at least name recognition of almost any youtuber i mention. they know downtherabbithole and strangeaeons and cjthex and kappakaiju and miniminuteman773 and kazrowe and somemorenews etc etc etc

so when i put in the group chat, with no context, 'he wasnt even on cribs' or 'we have no cats kathleen' or 'only humble pagan commune schemes' or whatever, i usually do so with great trust that at least half the group will know what im on about.

this time, crickets.

i backpedaled a little and pulled up the 'ive connected them' meme and the fuzzy blue professor, and i got nothing at all. the only recognition i got was when someone belatedly realized that he had seen the goatman video when it dropped (although he had no idea that they had their own company now), and another person remembered that they had offered to collab with danny gonzalez, a youtuber with twice the subscribers

because she had checked back to see if danny went ghost hunting again, and lost interest because he hadnt.

i also brought it up in my dedicated buzzfeed unsolved group chat but ummmmm i am the only one in that group still watching ever since the shift to watcher oops

the only splash they had made in my again, TERMINALLY ONLINE friend group that watches hours and hours of youtube a day was a buzzfeed video seven years ago, and when they had failed to collab with someone more famous than them. i found myself in the unusual position of having to explain the situation to a bunch of dirty internet gremlins, all of whom heard the whole story and said 'why would they do that'

not 'why would they do that to their fans' but 'why would they do that as youtubers'

even aside from the moneygrubbing, we watcher stans were confused about why they tried to offer us a service we didn't need or want, and i think it obscured the confusion on why they thought it was a good idea at all, when so many other models were available to them. why werent they using their patreon like other youtubers? why weren't they collaborating with other youtubers? why weren't they putting out regular, lower quality content like other youtubers? if they wanted higher quality content, why weren't they partnering with nebula, like lindsay ellis, or netflix, like bo burnham. why didn't they run their ideas past someone like the green brothers, who have jumpstarted scishow and many other similar projects successfully, and are famously good to work with/consult with? why would they try to pull a roosterteeth? don't they know what happened?

and i think the answer is no. i think they just don't know those things. and they didnt bother to check, because they think all those things are beneath them. because they think corporate content is the only worthwhile kind there is.

why else would they think they have to have an office building, keep dozens of people on staff, buy expensive cameras, and build a streaming platform? why do they only collaborate with actors and singers who have corporate entertainment approval? why are they reinventing the wheel on buzzfeed when thousands of youtubers build perfectly stable careers with a mic and a camera, and sometimes hire an editor?

i guess my takeaway from this is that, at least they didnt break my heart as a fan entirely because they fundamentally misunderstood me. they did it, at least in part, because they do not understand how youtube works, or what part they play in it.

they dont understand how people use youtube. it is not a cinematic event worthy of the big tv, it is line goes up playing in the background for the 400th time as i wash my face and put my laundry away.

that is why they spent months and months planning this without ever noticing it was a bad idea, while millions of youtube viewers knew instantly. thats why they didn't start with a more moderate solution, why they never used their patreon properly, why they cared so much about the production value, why they thought a youtube audience, any audience at all, would jump at the chance to leave youtube.

bc youtube as a creator sucks, and we all know that, but youtube as a viewer is extremely comfortable. all i ask of youtube is to be mildly interesting in the background while i do other stuff. it is filler. some of the filler is extremely good, yes, but there is no room or reason in my life to give more of my money and attention to my filler, let alone to get a bigger screen for it.

and honestly, this is why i and others stayed on with the ghoul boys even though their quality dropped. because it's filler. im not even looking at the screen you apparently spent 100k on. im flipping my eggs. im washing my hair. im waiting for the bus with my headphones in and my phone in my pocket. thank you for being my background music. in return i will sit through your ads and push your view counter up by one. i may even hit the like button by accident bc my phone is in my pocket.

this is not to say i dont enjoy my filler. i would absolutely die without it. but it is not and never will be exchanged for the instances when i make popcorn in The Big Bowl and turn on a Real Movie on the Big Screen (my old laptop that is 15 whole inches) with my phone turned over so nothing can distract me.

my filler can't be my movie, and vice versa. nor should it be. but watcher doesnt understand that, apparently. they think youtube is cruelly preventing them from being netflix, and they think we want netflix, and they don't understand that, even with that half-assed apology that they didn't explain their dream correctly and they are jsut so destitute they had to take extreme measures after they went to europe 6 too many times...

there is a fundamental misunderstanding about how people use youtube , both as creators and as consumers. they didn't just misunderstand their fanbase. they continue to misunderstand the entire ecosystem. idk guys. maybe you should have learned something from those youtubers that you apparently think you are too good for.

and as for me, welp. i've booted people from my filler line-up for less. and there are soooooooooooooo many other fish in the sea, and they are not asking me to pay them 27 corporation salaries from my own pocket. they are asking for me to bump their view counter up by one.

goodbye boys. i really hope you find a way to fulfill yourselves artistically or whatever. but you have burned this particular bridge, like. forever. and i don't think i'm the only one who feels that way.

and not because i dont support people getting a living wage, you guilt-tripping vultures, or because i dont believe in following dreams and wishing on stars and whatnot.

but because i prefer to consume content from people who know what they're doing, and i simply no longer trust that includes you.

#watcher entertainment #this though. this is exactly it

[idridian]

"art thou lost, little creature?" (aka the aforementioned link to the fic. mind the tags, please and thank you! it has all the archive warnings on it for good reason)

that being said: thank you SO much for these, i absolutely adore them <3

finally i can stop sitting on this egg. i just... the last few... several... many months have been. H E H. long and meandering. but always full of some sorta growth. and that is good.

a commission, the last great one@! commission project, rather, that gave me the opportunity to do things; for my most esteemed patron, @idridian, whom had blessed me with much reading food. to give me a feeling of rawness, evisceration, otherworldliness even (because believe me i'm mostly dead inside irl lolol, so i needed me all of the above, that inspiration ensued).

mmmm. the thing what i fondly call watarimon, a.k.a. old wammy... and a wee 'godling.' from their fic "Never Were, Never Will Be". links will be provided.

a combination of concept, fanart, mood piece. i came, i read, i learned. i will grow. thank you. now i sleep

#sixrealmsbeneaththesea #spoiled monster #death note #me (a person who has never played bloodborne): hey what if watari/L but the aesthetic is entirely bloodborne #and by that i mean one of them is a horrible creecher and the other's a weird human doll or something #would that be anything

[idridian]

@comicaurora I was really inspired by your description of the eclipse, I haven't quite figured out how I want to draw a hole in the firmament of the sky but I am absolutely going to do it.

Also thank you so much for creating such a wonderful video about the eclipse! It was very cool

#overly sarcastic productions #regarding art #holy shit that third panel????

[idridian]

i have maybe the worst type of cuteness aggression about fiction characters that im attracted to

#callout post