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I visited and tried a nearby coffee shop. I ordered Spanish latte! I liked its nutty flavor and it wasn't too creamy as well. Just a perfect balance of caffeine and milk. There was also a taco restaurant adjacent to the coffee shop. I tried their beef quesadillas and it didn't disappoint.

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I'm getting tired of my routine - waking up, cooking, watching Kdrama, sleeping, repeat. I planned to read this summer break but I can't bring myself to grab a book.

Since the start of my break, I have finished watching eight Kdramas and it rather makes me feel guilty than relaxed because I am wasting so much of my time instead of doing something productive. I also wake up when its noon already. This past few days, I've been consuming too much coffee content by watching youtube videos and following coffee instagram accounts to the extent where I desire to have my own coffee shop and it frustrates me that I can't have my own lol. So, I guess I will have dive into the world of coffee! Hence, the new URL.

After all the time I wasted, I've realized I have so many hobbies I want to learn. I want to learn painting, baking, calligraphy, video editing, to name a few. These hobbies are only waiting for me to start actually doing them. I've noticed I am ambitious yet I lack the initiative. Perhaps, the reason why I cannot begin them is because I lack the commitment, consistency, confidence , and that I am not resourceful enough. I think I just have to start doing the easiest one and show up everyday.

Good luck to me!

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Last Ramadan, I applied for a job at my dream agency. I was thrilled because I've been waiting for so long and finally, they were hiring. It gave me a sense of hope. I thought perhaps this will be the solution to my long time dilemma. So I prayed.

I told my best friend to download series of K-Drama for me to watch so I have something to entertain myself while I'm waiting for my dreaded exams results and for the agency's reply. So I prayed.

A week has passed since our final exams. While I was watching Kdrama, I was drinking coffee. It was my first time trying this coffee and it was too strong or may be I've been drinking my coffee with too much milk. Few minutes later, my heart was pounding. Surely, this was because of the coffee. Then I received an email that I've been waiting for.

"We regret to inform you ... "

I put my phone down and prayed. I uttered Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

My heart continued to pound. Heavily. Repeatedly.

I continued watching but so much was going on at the back of my mind, I couldn't focus on the drama because I became the drama (lol).

Questions that I tried to toss away came back and I still don't have the answers. Doubts carry on to haunt me. My fear remains unaddressed. Nevertheless, I was quite amazed that I somewhat do not dwell on them unlike before, though they are still present. Does that make sense? I don't know if I've become indifferent to my own thoughts and struggles or I have found acceptance to my current state. But either way, I am thankful. I am thankful that somehow these doubts and fears do not strongly affect my mental health like it used to before. Thankful also because I have learned to trust others and ultimately, to trust and surrender it all to Him.

I don't know how long this will go. Of course, there will always be times where I will feel overwhelmed and defeated, but I will continue to pray and trust. Prayers do really help, especially in this unprecedented time. I was ready to play another role, but He has better plans.

But they plan and Allah plans. And Allah is the best of all planners. (Qur'an 8:30)

My heart is still pounding, yet breathing calmly.

So I pray.

Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.

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Hey!

I am sipping coffee in a local cafe while waiting for my software update to get finished. I've been waiting for almost 2 hours now. It's taking too long that I finished reading three blogs about FSO Exam (My stomach was twitching as I was reading glimpse of their experience during the five-phase exam. Marami pa akong kakaining libro), instead of studying for my class later, which is primarily my goal why I went here. Foolish me.

So, here I am.

I've been visiting my Tumblr since last month. I wanted to delete my account, but I thought sayang naman yung mga blogs ko before. Although it was all jeje and nene, I thought it is worth keeping and to read it once in a while to remind myself how idealist, driven, and motivated I was before. Where did it all go?

Kumusta naman ako? Tayo?

It's been what? 7 years? Where am I now? A lot has happened in between. Traveled to many places. Finished college. People come and go. Pandemic. Some plans happened, other plans didn't go as I expected them to be. Nevertheless, Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah. This is all part of His plans.

I actually miss posting. I miss speaking my mind. Though I learned to control it because I've realized not everything that crosses my mind makes sense and some of my thoughts are uninformed and bias. It's humbling to be surrounded with people of intellect, not only physically, but also virtually. I also miss taking pictures and posting them. The other day, my friend asked me paano ko daw na-tetake na hindi mag-story, I answered sanayan lang. It led me to think that our lives have been tangled with social media which is if not regulated can be unhealthy and toxic. If left unchecked, it could build habits that may be detrimental to ourselves. You know my point.

Well, back to my question. Kumusta? Where did time go?

Perhaps, still confused with where I am now. Is this what I really want? Can't really tell. So many doubts that haunt me and questions that are left unanswered. I'm just going to free fall with tawakkul.

I'm not sure where this is going. I just want to write. The main purpose why I created this account was to write about my exchange year. I wanted to improve my writing, but it never happened.

Salaam!

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I'm no writer but I always want to write. I write when I'm sad, happy, confuse, bored, angry or hurt. Sometimes, my mind is full of words, yet my paper remains empty. It happens particularly when I'm overwhelmed, but i'd still write. It's my way of keeping my chill before I actually burst out.

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Alahumma Ameen. 💕❤

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No more regrets, please.

Have you ever ask yourself about your decision that made you who you became today? Are you happy? Satisfied? Is it just me that feels like if we only knew about what will be the ending of our certain decision, then I guess we will live our lives to the fullest and wouldn't mind what others have to say about us or perhaps, regretting would be hard. I'm having a moment of realizations. I lived my whole life pleasing others, living people's expectations. I am actually a pessimistic person. I wanted to perfect what I'm doing because I don't want people to get disappointed. It's difficult especially when some people whom you are doing a favor don't appreciate a bit of your effort. I believe some of you can relate. I guess it's not too late to live my life the way I wanted to live it. #NoMoreRegretsPlease #charcharlangnielly

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Flemsteiner 💕 #STCDEdge

#stcdedge

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STC D' EDGE! #042425262015

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#OkayNotOkay 😪

#okaynotokay

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It's been so long since I last updated my Tumblr. How I miss blogging! I wish Internet is free and fast here in the Philippines, but it isn't. Need to do lots of catching up about my favorite bloggers.

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My lil bro knows how to take selfie na. But I guess, nowadays, everybody does.