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frankie4n4 · 2 months

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yk maybe i need a therapist?

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frankie4n4 · 2 months

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♡ routine for tomorrow + affirmations (manifesting tomorrow won't go awful)!!! ♡

4:00 a.m. - wake up

4:15 a.m. - shower + skincare

5:15 a.m. - diffuse and style hair

5:45 a.m. - walk around neighbourhood

6:45 a.m. - grounding/journaling and mental prep

7:00 a.m. - monologue memorisation

8:00 a.m. - break + read

8:30 a.m. - monologue memorisation

10:00 a.m. - walk around the neighbourhood

11:00 a.m. - german vocab memorisation

12:30 p.m. - break + pinterest

1:00 p.m. - german speaking answer find + memorisation

2:30 p.m. - make something for grieving family

3:30 p.m. - break

4:00 p.m. - physics revision

5:30 p.m. - break + first meal of day <500 cals

6:00 p.m. - maths revision

8:00 p.m. - finish revision

8:15 p.m. - icy drink

9:00 p.m. - skincare + hygiene stuff + prep for rehearsal day

9:45 p.m. - sleep ♡ affirmations ♡

i am worthy and capable of doing well

i am capable of restricting

i am capable of getting perfect grades

i have perfect grades

i am a genius

i am an academic weapon

i am skinny

i have the body of my dreams

i am a skinny legend

i have perfect skin

i am stunning

i am tiny

i am my teachers' favourite

i get perfect grades all the time

school is easy for me

i love school

i am amazing at restricting

i am a genuinely nice, loving person

i never get angry or descend to a low vibration

i am happy

i am worthy of love

i am worthy of affection

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frankie4n4 · 2 months

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i fucking binged again i want to kms (i need tips for not binging so badly please)

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frankie4n4 · 3 months

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today is a new day. the binge i had yesterday can mean nothing if i just do it right today. i will be perfect today.

#34t1ng d1s0rd3r #3dtumblr #pro for me not for thee #anasp0 #tw ana trigger #tw m1a #tw thinspi #ed not sheeren #high grades low bmi #4n0r3xia

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frankie4n4 · 3 months

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ed schedule for today after binge yesterday (half term)

cal limit - 600 cals

11:00 a.m. - skincare

11:30 a.m. - manifestation

11:45 a.m. - begin revision

1:00 p.m. - break

1:30 p.m. - revision

3:00 p.m. - break + short walk around neighbourhood

3:30 p.m. - final bit of revision

4:15 p.m. - get ready for blood test + small snack <200 cals

4:30 p.m. - travel to hospital

5:30 p.m. - arrive at hospital and read in waiting room

5:40 p.m. - blood test

7:00 p.m. - arrive home

7:30 p.m. - have tea + snack <200 cals

7:45 p.m. - revision

9:15 p.m. - finish revision

9:20 p.m. - short workout

9:30 p.m. - read

10:30 p.m. - bed

#34t1ng d1s0rd3r #3dtumblr #anasp0 #pro for me not for thee #tw ana trigger #tw m1a #tw thinspi #ed not sheeren #high grades low bmi #4n0r3xia

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frankie4n4 · 3 months

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ed schedule for today! - liquid fast

4:30 a.m. - wake up, slow start to day, revise menstrual cycle for biology

5:30 a.m. - skincare, brush teeth, do hair, 5 min workout

6:00 a.m. - get ready for school, pack bag and book, bring extra flashcards, revise if i have time

6:40 a.m. - leave for school, consolidate last maths lessons on bus

7:30 a.m. - get to school, revise hormones for mini test, read cantos 2 and 3 of inferno

8:30 a.m. - 3:30 p.m. - school

3:30 - 4:30 p.m. - senior and chamber choir

4:30 p.m. - leave school, complete homework on the bus and revise notes

5:30 p.m. - get home, change, finish homework,

6:30 p.m. - begin revision - biology, history, physics, maths

10:30 p.m. - get ready to sleep

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frankie4n4 · 3 months

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the anxiety i feel about getting bad grades due to my ed is eating away at me but i don't want to stop. i can't stop. i won't stop.

#34t1ng d1s0rd3r #3dtumblr #anasp0 #pro for me not for thee #tw ana trigger #tw m1a #tw thinspi #ed not sheeren #high grades low bmi #4n0r3xia

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frankie4n4 · 3 months

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just imagine this: you wake up - it's results day. you look in the mirror and you can't help but love what you see; your stomach caves in just perfectly, your thighs never touch, your ribs are unmissable, your waist is like that of a ballerina's. you move with such ease - you are weightless. your books lay strewn across your desk alongside your unfinished cup of tea from last night. on your chair are three folded clothing items - they are dainty, beautiful, and most importantly they are in the smallest size available. you dress without inspecting your body of its imperfections as you have none to inspect. as you travel to school, you catch the envious glances of those you brush past. you move with an air of elegance, grace and perfection. and that is what you are. all you can ever be. as such, being handed your results is exhilarating. you know what you are going to achieve, but nothing can compare to the rush of joy that overcomes you as you see those perfect grades. perfect like you are.

you can make this a reality, the choice is yours: continue dreaming, or become the dream?

(this is for myself)

#3dtumblr #34t1ng d1s0rd3r #anasp0 #pro for me not for thee #tw ana trigger #tw m1a #tw thinspi #ed not sheeren #high grades low bmi #4n0r3xia

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frankie4n4 · 3 months

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perfection is within your grasp, why ruin it now?

#34t1ng d1s0rd3r #3dtumblr #anasp0 #pro for me not for thee #tw ana trigger #tw m1a #tw thinspi #ed not sheeren #high grades low bmi #4n0r3xia

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frankie4n4 · 3 months

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help studying is fucking up my back

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frankie4n4 · 3 months

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my life is becoming an endless cycle of starvation, study, pinterest, tumblr, repeat... and i'm genuinely living for it??

#34t1ng d1s0rd3r #3dtumblr #anasp0 #tw ana trigger #pro for me not for thee #tw m1a #tw thinspi #ed not sheeren #high grades low bmi #4n0r3xia

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frankie4n4 · 3 months

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨♡୧⋆ ˚｡⋆ tips for the academic validation anorexics!! ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨♡୧⋆ ˚｡⋆

𖤐 disclaimer - this won't be starving tips, it's more about how to thrive in an academic setting especially with an ed 𖤐 ♡ ︎this is going to sound harsh, but being "mysterious" is an unattainable goal if you're doing it for others. no one actually cares enough to find you mysterious; it's more likely they genuinely won't even clock you're there if you aren't friends. however, trying to feel mysterious as a motivator isn't a bad thing at all - it's doing it for others that makes it a delusional goal to try and reach for.

♡ ︎this is a bit of a no-brainer, but if you actually want some sort of recognition at school, you need to socialise!!! obviously this can be a bit of an issue for the majority of us because of a little thing called mental illness (bonus points if you're also neurodivergent) but no one is going to care about you if they don't know who tf you are. joining clubs is such a good way to actually put yourself out there (albeit fucking terrifying and exhausting) and they can come in handy if you need an excuse to not eat at lunch.

♡ ︎okay this is a bit of a restriction tip but study when you want to eat! it's an excellent distraction, incredible motivator and will get you through school. be the person you were always meant to be - a skinny ass academic weapon. ♡ ︎build a good relationship with your teachers, for god's sake. it can make your life so much easier istg (this is a lot easier said than done for someone who's mentally ill and/or neurodivergent but yk)

♡ ︎romanticise studying and make that a part of romanticising your ed. if studying is connected to your ed, it will be so much easier to actually start and vice versa. they are one and the same and that is what makes you so powerful!

♡ ︎again a no-brainer but hot people aren't mean. look, i get it - i can be so mean sometimes. i know how easy it can be to be judgemental, or to gossip or be a bitch or complain but it will inevitably put more strain on your relationships then there likely already is. people are drawn to people who speak well of others, who are forgiving and don't "get the ick" over stupid shit. people prefer to be around someone who is nice to the people around them, including people that aren't necessarily the coolest people or the people closest to you (this is also just like common basic decency which i think the majority of students, especially teenagers - myself included - need a brief refresher in). ♡ to piggy-back off of that, most people don't enjoy the company of someone who is perpetually negative. look, for a lot of people isolating ourselves and seeing the world in what feels like shades of black and white is just how we work, but other people don't need to know that, or at least not have to hear about it all the time. your friends are not your therapists and you are putting their mental health at risk if you think it is okay to treat them as such. you are also putting yourself at risk of forced recovery depending on what you say. and for those of you who think you're the shit for making venty jokes your whole irl personality - you are not cool for having a shitty life! dark humour stays on edblr from now on - most people irl will just be uncomfortable or find you far too negative to be around if everything you talk about is how shitty things are going for you. it's okay to vent, but there is a time and place. 𖤐 thank you for reading, my loves!! please note that i have been a perpetrator of the things i have condemned, and i've also been on the receiving end of this behaviour. you aren't bad for doing this stuff - a lot of people do - but it's always good to learn and grow and i know i could have done with someone telling me some of this stuff when i was younger. also fyi i know this stuff probably seems obvious to a lot of people but for others it isn't - please be kind! 𖤐

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frankie4n4 · 3 months

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🕯️i will be the skinny academic weapon i was always meant to be🕯️

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frankie4n4 · 3 months

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oh, you're hungry? babe, don't worry, i've got the best cure for hunger right here: revision!! more specifically, past papers/exam practice is such a good distraction from hunger as it's essentially forcing you to sit in one place, away from food, preoccupied by exam questions, for 1.5hrs+, and it helps you with your education. if you do this, mark the exam immediately after as that will take time and is just a good thing to do anyways.

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frankie4n4 · 3 months

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doing dance or being involved in theatre in general is THE motivator. fucking hell, i'm a fatty!!

#34t1ng d1s0rd3r #anasp0 #3dtumblr #tw ana trigger #pro for me not for thee #tw m1a #4n0r3xia #high grades low bmi #ed not sheeren #tw thinspi

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frankie4n4 · 3 months

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ok i'm sorry, i'm genuinely such a junkorexic. like, i'll have choco hoop cereal and as long as i stay under my cal limit i tell myself it's fine. or like, i'll have 200 cals in a day and those 200 cals were a chocolate bar. wtf :D (please send help i hate myself)

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frankie4n4 · 3 months

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my favourite motivator is the little comments people make. the feigned concern which makes me just want to go deeper, starve better. my least favourite motivator is my mirror. it works, for sure, but i fucking hate looking in it.

#34t1ng d1s0rd3r #3dtumblr #pro for me not for thee #anasp0 #tw ana trigger #tw m1a #ed not sheeren #tw thinspi #high grades low bmi #4n0r3xia #an4r3xia #an0r3c1a #ana buddie #anarex14 #anorexcya #tw ana diary #ana trigger #tw mia #ana e mia

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