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[feladangelo]

PRIVATE DISCORD COMMUNITY: SEX WORKER SANCTUARY

For all my mutuals on Twitter and vetted allies from my various communities, I'm announcing SEX WORKER SANCTUARY! It's a private Discord Server for those of us in the adult industry who need a respite from fans with a focus on health, wellness and spirituality. If you're a verified SWer, follow me on Twitter and send me a DM to gain access. Find my all my links here!

#sex worker #resources #discord server

[feladangelo]

HEALTH VERSUS HUSTLE

As someone with chronic mental illness, I have been blessed. I have a support system which allows me to focus on my recovery, which was (relatively) easy to obtain, has remained with me for the past decade and may remain helpful for the rest of my life. Not many people in my position are lucky enough to acquire the support I have, which is sad, actually... because the world would be better for it if we focused on health instead of hustle.

So, How does this affect my sex work moving forward?

Let me explain the ground rules of my situation. I have no need to pursue a hustle because I am sustained in my food, healthcare and shelter needs. In fact, it would be detrimental to my health to leave such a program of support. But I still want to make adult content along with my other creative and spiritual pursuits as a comic artist and tarot consultant. Everything I do is in pursuit of my recovery and maintenance of my health because of my chronic mental illness.

That means that I need not be consistent, or even grow and maintain an audience. Everything I do is for the benefit of learning to regulate my physiological responses. I create art or adult content and read tarot as a way to maintain my path forward in healing. Everyone I have a meaningful conversation with about my path is impressed by how far I've come, and it inevitably inspires them, too.

I maintain a recovery-oriented path because that is what I need. It is also, it turns out, what many other people in this world need. To find respite from the hustle and grind, and to maintain a sense of wholeness, contentment and belonging. It is anti-Capitalist praxis to pursue your own well-being, in a dystopian wasteland where the average person is enslaved to their wages.

#sex worker #chronic illness #recovery

[feladangelo]

RAISON D'ETRE

Why, as an angel with chronic mental illness, have I chosen to be a sex worker? I could be anything, theoretically. It tends to be different in practice and, well, the struggle is always real on this side of paradise. I have other interests, namely art and spirituality. I could be a writer and comic artist devoted to the might of the pen while moonlighting as a tarot consultant.

I mean, am I not those things, too? But I have yet to be stable enough for attending art school or reliably advertising my tarot skills. My disabilities affect it all. We've seen it impact my sex work pursuits, too. I've fallen enough for a lifetime, and yet I still get up.

And honestly, sex work is probably the most challenging pursuit of them all. Not only does it require intense emotional intelligence, but also personal upkeep beyond the norm and a fierce diligence against the puritanical ideologies that society is currently drowning in.

Let me tell you a story, I suppose:

As a young cherub, nigh 19 years of age in this human body, I worked alongside many activists in my community on the local branch of Occupy Wall Street. It was, in hardly simple terms, a religious experience. Ever since, I have believed in being the change I wish to see in the world, and it suits me well. Sex work is incredibly difficult compared to civilian work, but so is the rest of my life.

Sex work also ties all my interests in a funky little bow, melding my spirituality and creativity... into something new and subversive. I get to challenge old models of faith while I seek and portray sexual liberation. Whores have always been on the cutting edge of culture. We dance in the primordial fire of creation, leading the way where others dare not tread.

And so, that is why. I am a trailblazer, despite my challenges. In fact, I am launched into totally new creative, spiritual and political territory because I have become so devoted to overcoming my challenges. It's my special interest. I love sex, whether solo or with others. Why not take advantage of this pleasure... as a form of activism and self-actualization?

#sex worker #disability #activism #be the change

[feladangelo]

STATUS UPDATE: BEGIN AGAIN

I've been interesting in sex work for years. Hell, I've been interested in a lot of things for years. I've wanted to get a BFA in Comic Art since High School, and I even got into my dream school a few years ago with a massive scholarship until I realized I still wasn't ready due to my chronic mental illness constantly causing me to run away in fear from amazing opportunities.

And so, enter my interest in camming and adult content creation. It's inspired me to work on my social skills, my self-care and my graphic design skills so far... and it will ultimately lead to honing my business acumen as I learn to get past the emotional blockages preventing me from the journey toward the sexual liberation and subversive performance art I am so invested in.

I had a PornHub, Fansly and ManyVids account set up my first go-around. I was uploading to my PH and starting a Fansly when I had a panic attack during a downswing before Christmas and deactivated all of my accounts. Of all people in this world, I know that anxiety is a physiological response of the nervous system. When it attaches to a thought, it can cause a series of cascading failures.

I've passed by many opportunities because of those physiological condition. I've passed up job opportunities, admission to art school and even regular meet-ups with social groups I want to invest myself in. The disappointment is palpable, and has sent me to the hospital in the past. This time, however, I'm not going to let my body's autonomic responses get in the way of what I'm passionate about.

In fact, I'm going to use my experience of chronic mental illness and reach out to the world in my own way. I am going to start this blog and keep my fans and mutuals updated on my recovery as I work through a self-assigned program of self-development at my own pace. I cannot promise consistency, but I can promise authenticity, vulnerability and courage in the face of adversity.

#sex worker #chronic illness #recovery #mental health #Spotify

[feladangelo]

FELA D'ANGELO: THE ONE, THE ONLY

Hello, hello! I am Fela D'Angelo. As it goes, I am an angel living life as a partnered, polyamorous gender non-conforming non-binary trans man. I am a non-traditional art student studying comic art and a christopagan polytheist tarot consultant.

But enough about that, most of that isn't why you're here. This blog is dedicated to my explorations and aspirations as a neurodivergent content creator and cam model in the adult entertainment industry with disabilities due to chronic mental illness.

I've made a lot of progress in my recovery over the years, as it has become one of the special interests to which I devote myself the most. I'd like to start this blog to explore what it means to work toward thriving with disabilities and engaged in sex work.

#sex worker #nonbinary #trans man #disabled #chronic illness #mental health #recovery #introduction