exactlyyoungchaos

[exactlyyoungchaos]

#ABOUT ME!!!

HI! Hello everyone! WELCOME!

I am introducing myself.

You can call me Ali, it's short for my real name. I'm 21, Female (she\her) and I write what I want.

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I will write for fandoms that I'm obsessed with, it can be any of them.

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Non-con (anything related to it)

Incest.

Underage Characters.

Fetish.

Extreme Kinks.

I will update this list further.

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-ALI 💋💋💋

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[exactlyyoungchaos]

till forever falls apart.

bestfriendSimon x F!Reader

Part 2.

CW: Character death, trauma, angst, inaccurate military stuff, fluff, probable smut, mental health issues. Proceed with Caution!!!!!

(not proofread, it's 4.30 in the morning here)

It's been five months, six days, twelve hours, and counting since you reunited with Simon in that cafe. Life has been great since then.

He has changed a lot, he's quieter, more gruff, and talks through grunts only. he had scars both physically and emotionally, but you didn't care about any of that. He was your Simon, the only boy you ever loved.

he told you a lot about his life after you left, his job, his teammates his scars, but there were still many things to know and love. You told him stuff about your life, and now that you had him again, all you had was time. to live your life and grow old with him.

he promised you that this assignment would be the last one, after that, he was all yours.

you didn't want him to quit something he loved. but all he said was "It's bout' time love. I have you now, I don't need anything else."

The day you sent him off was very emotional for you. you had just met him again and didn't wanna let him go. You wanted to stay with him.

It was lonely after he left, it felt like somebody took oxygen away from you making it hard to breathe again. His letters and short calls were the only things that kept you from spiraling into depression but you pulled through, just for him.

now you were waiting for his return eagerly. This was the last time you'd ever have to. After this, it was just you and him.

You hadn't heard from him in a few days but you knew he would return today. You cleaned the whole apartment, made his favorite meal, and wore his favorite dress of yours to welcome him.

you were still fussing over the food as your doorbell rang. your heart skipped a beat in excitement. why is he ringing the doorbell? you mused as you went to open the door. Maybe he lost his keys or something...

You opened the door. " welcome back, Si...." but confusion slammed into you when you realized it wasn't Simon but his captain John Price, standing in his full glory.

It was easy to recognize him after Simon had shown you so many pictures of him and his teammates.

"Captain? What are you doing here? Where's Simon? he didn't tell me his team was coming too but it's alright..."

"love" he cuts you off in a soft voice, eyes full of emotion.

That's when you see it, the dog chains in his hand. The same chain Simon had around his neck. You look at him and understanding dawns on you.

"I'm so sorry, luv," he starts

but you stop him.

" No. this isn't funny Mr. Price. Where is he? Where Simon?" you asked harshly.

your heart was beating out of your chest, your vision got blurry.

One look at his face and it all came crashing down.

No, no, no, no. This isn't happening. you kept chanting in your head as Simons's words came back rushing to you

"This's the last one lovie, after that, it's you and me."

He wasn't gone. he can't be gone. you just got him back.

You felt the world tilting on its axis and suddenly two strong arms held you up.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" a soft voice whispered above you. You didn't care about any of that.

He was gone. Simon was gone. Just like that.

You felt John sitting you down on the sofa and he knelt in front of you.

you looked at him. looked at the man who came to tell you that your future would not be here anymore.

"How?" is all you managed to get out. Simon wasn't a rookie, he didn't make mistakes. He was The Ghost.

"Took the bullet meant for Soap," he told you softly.

Soap. you knew that name, but none of it was registering.

Simon is dead. He left you. Permanently.

you can't sit on the laptop and stalk every Simon in the world in hopes of finding yours. he was gone. the one person you gave your whole life searching for, is gone, not coming back.

why? why did this always happen to you? you never asked anything from anyone, never meant bad for anyone. never cursed anyone, then why?

Why would the universe do this do you? take the one thing that kept you going all these years. Do you not deserve it? was your destiny cursed like this?

you gave everything up just for him, sacrificed everything, your life, your innocence all to just find him and when you finally did, he was taken away from you.

why was this world so cruel? what have you done to deserve this? Is this a sign? your life was over now. was this the end?

tears kept coming out of your eyes as you sat and stared at the wall. you didn't scream or shout. just sat there and willed that this nightmare would be over. but it didn't.

John sat there, in front of you, looking at your state. Simon told him all about his bird. That he found her again.

"Gonna lock her down Cap'n, the second I get out of here."

But he didn't make it out. John failed him, he failed his team. Now that he stared at your faraway gaze, he realized that he failed you too.

but none of that mattered to you. You couldn't feel anything but everything at the same time.

you were numb but every part of you ached for something that's gone. Claws were ripping your insides out. Your heart ripped out from you. You were bleeding inside, and all of the wounds you had acquired over the years that were not on your skin were open and throbbing.

and no one was to blame.

It was in the lines of your hands and the scroll of your fate to never have something you want. You hoped and prayed that this time it would be different. But it wasn't.

everything you touch becomes sick with sadness or death. you weren't worthy of any grace by the universe.

so it took away the only person you ever called yours. The only one who knew you for who you are. what you are.

He was gone, all that was left of him was the memory of his faint chuckle and the crinkle in the corner of his eye when you said something ridiculous, the rumble in his chest when you hugged him, the feel of his lips on your own, his clothes in the closet that you shared and the house that was in his name. nothing else.

you had nothing else anymore.

UHMMMMM!!! HIII! THIS IS I. ALI. AND I APOLOGIZE FOR THE HURT CAUSED BY THIS.

I hope you guys liked it. I'm still writing part 3 of Loml. so enjoy this in the meantime.

I'm struggling with where to take this story next. Do you guys have any ideas? if you do, please suggest them in my inbox. And do tell me if you want to be tagged in the next part.

Thank you so much for reading!!!!

Until next time!!!

ALI-💋💋💋

#simon ghost riley #simon riley x reader #cod mw x reader #john price #cod fic #angst #call of duty modern warfare 2 #cod #bestfriend simon x reader #cod mwiii #cod mw3 #ghost x reader

[exactlyyoungchaos]

hello. hi. HELLO!! HI??? just read the “loss of my life” fic and i haven’t felt such a heartache after reading a fic in SO LONG YOUR WRITING IS INSANE. sorry i keep commenting but GAHDJEHW IM A SIMON HATER (in that fic) 😡😡😡 gotta feel the consequences of his actions I AINT LETTING THAT SLIDE 😒😒 ANYWAYS just here to drop by andsay how much i love your work!! and would be nice if u tagged me in ur future works/next part <33 U HAVE GAINED ANOTHER FAN ILYYY

OMG!!! HIIII!!! HELLO!!!!!

Thank you so much for reading.😘😘

And as for hating Simon, I'm with you on this one. But you might like him in the other fic( til forever falls apart). I'm currently writing the next part of it and I would definitely tag you.

I'm all oiled up (hair. OILED HAIR!)

So long London, the prophecy, how did it end by TS IS PLAYING on a loop. I'M GONNA DROP PARTS FOR BOTH OF FICS AND HIDE SOMEWHERE!!!!

AND PLEASE KEEP COMMENTING. IT MAKES ME INCREDIBLY HAPPY READING ALL OF YOUR THOUGHTS.😁😁😁

SEE YOU SOON!!!!

(a little teaser of LOML 3 for you)

"A lesser woman would have lost hope, a greater woman wouldn't beg, but I look to the sky and say, please......"

ALI-💋💋💋

#simon ghost riley #cod fic #ask answered #cod mw x reader

[exactlyyoungchaos]

She is not joining 141 again.🤭🤭

ALI -💋💋💋

Loss of my life.

(ex) husband Simon X f!Reader

Part 2.

CW: divorce, hurt, angst, emotional cheating, trauma. let me know if I missed any, enjoy!!!!

(Don't mind the mistakes.)

If you know it in one glimpse, it's legendary

You and I go from one kiss to gettin married

Still alive, killing time at the cemetery

Nobody prepares you for something like this. What do you do when someone you loved more than your own life, rips apart your soul in pieces? What do you do when the one person you trusted your heart with, leaves you to gather scraps of whatever is left of it?

It's been months since that day. The day you found out that the man you love loved someone else. You moved out the next day, he didn't try and stop you, didn't try to argue or make you stay, he just stood in the corner and watched as you packed up your whole life in a suitcase and left.

When your lawyer served him divorce papers, he didn't hesitate. he signed it immediately as if he was trying to get rid of you, or maybe he was. you don't know, you don't know anything anymore.

When you were young, you were scared to be in relationships because the idea of trusting somebody with everything and giving them the power to hurt you was ridiculous. you always thought love was a sham, just something for romance books and movies.

it was when you met Simon you realized it was all real. the chemical reaction inside your brain that makes you want to stay with someone forever. Laughing at their stupid jokes, waking up next to them, love them was all real. Or maybe it wasn't.

now all you recall, was how you almost had it all. how it all just slipped from your hands without warning.

maybe it was your fault. maybe you weren't enough. maybe you didn't know how to love properly, maybe you were unlovable.

maybe, maybe, maybe.......

Or perhaps it was a sign that a prophecy in your name had already been written. you are not meant for love, you were sent here to be alone, to be betrayed by whoever you trust, to be unworthy. so others would know what not to be.

You sat on the bed of your new apartment, looking at your wedding ring that was still on your finger. you couldn't get yourself to take it off. your heart wasn't ready to accept what your brain already knew.

You couldn't cry anymore, your tears were gone, and all that was left was a deep ache of loss in your chest.

Why? Why did he do this to you? why did he make those vows when he never meant to keep them? you wanted answers, that you knew you'd never get.

If your parents saw you in this state, they would be ashamed of you. you're ashamed of yourself. you can't eat, you can't get out of your bed, because something counterfeits dead.

The house you once called home is haunted by the ghost of lies and deceit. How long has it been going on? how many times did you aly with him in your bed and he wished it was her instead of you?

You were driving yourself crazy. Day by day you were losing your sanity as you combed through your whole life trying to find where it all went wrong.

you've been getting calls from your friends, and messages that you keep ignoring. What were you going to tell them? They bought his lies too.

He said forever and you bought it.

And the worst part is, you miss him. You miss your life, how it used to be filled with laughter, love, and light with him. How he used to hold you when you broke down. How he caressed you when you were in pain, how he made love to you.

Now you're sitting in a cold, dark, and empty apartment on another continent, you don't know who to call and ask for help.

All of your things remind you of him. Do you throw all of the things you built together or keep it? you were tired, mending your gashes on your own. He dealt a final blow and left you to deal with it.

And he doesn't care. He's already with her. he already replaced you. Nothing you two had was real.

But then why do you feel like dying? Why was it that you can't feel anything anymore? Is this how it will always be? Will you ever be okay enough to want to live?

all of these were very big questions you weren't ready to ask yet, or maybe you never will be.

you needed a distraction and you needed it fast.

you picked up your phone for the first time in the day and went straight to the one person you knew who could give you a reprieve from yourself.

Laswell.

You felt numb as you dialed her number as if a switch had been turned off in your brain. She picked up on the third ring.

"Sparrow,"

She still called you by your code name. Your first team that you were assigned to as a rookie medic gave it to you.

"I need a job," is all you said.

AN: SOOOOO!! DID WE LIKE IT? THOTS? I might have shed a tear or two writing this. don't mind me.

@ssc7514 @rrtxcmt

If you want to be tagged in the next part do tell me.

Until next time sugarplums.

ALI-💋💋💋

[exactlyyoungchaos]

Ooh I manifest thet Simon, his new girl, and anyone supporting their relationship are going to get a case karmic backhanding🙏🏼 I hope reader has a happy ending somehow, whether it is finding peace with herself or building a healthier relationship with someone new. And maybe Laswell could be a good support system for her, I mean at the least the lady is helping her get a job?? My heart of hearts wants Simon to realize his folly and return to his one love, the reader, but I know if isn’t so idealistic, and I don’t know if I could ever forgive him if I was reader.

Your writing is fabulous; I’m so excited to see where you take this story!!

Oh my god!! I laughed so hard at the "karmic backhanding" part.😂😂😂

The thing with Laswell is that she is a neutral entity in all of this. And there is a pure selfish motive of her helping the reader.

But the reader is also not naive, after being in service for so many years she has contacts of her own as well.

Laswell can be a support system, but I feel like she would be more inclined towards 141. And Simon ends back with her? Idk how I feel about that. If I even consider taking the story in that direction, I'm gonna torture him to even be able to exist in the same vicinity as her.

And spoiler alert!!! Reader's gonna work with KorTac. 😁😁😁.

Thanks for reading!!!!

Love ya. ❤️

ALI- 💋💋

#simon ghost riley #cod fic #simon riley x reader #ask answered #cod mw x reader #. #karmic backhanding ia my new favorite phrase.

[exactlyyoungchaos]

Loss of my life.

(ex) husband Simon X f!Reader

Part 2.

CW: divorce, hurt, angst, emotional cheating, trauma. let me know if I missed any, enjoy!!!!

(Don't mind the mistakes.)

If you know it in one glimpse, it's legendary

You and I go from one kiss to gettin married

Still alive, killing time at the cemetery

Nobody prepares you for something like this. What do you do when someone you loved more than your own life, rips apart your soul in pieces? What do you do when the one person you trusted your heart with, leaves you to gather scraps of whatever is left of it?

It's been months since that day. The day you found out that the man you love loved someone else. You moved out the next day, he didn't try and stop you, didn't try to argue or make you stay, he just stood in the corner and watched as you packed up your whole life in a suitcase and left.

When your lawyer served him divorce papers, he didn't hesitate. he signed it immediately as if he was trying to get rid of you, or maybe he was. you don't know, you don't know anything anymore.

When you were young, you were scared to be in relationships because the idea of trusting somebody with everything and giving them the power to hurt you was ridiculous. you always thought love was a sham, just something for romance books and movies.

it was when you met Simon you realized it was all real. the chemical reaction inside your brain that makes you want to stay with someone forever. Laughing at their stupid jokes, waking up next to them, love them was all real. Or maybe it wasn't.

now all you recall, was how you almost had it all. how it all just slipped from your hands without warning.

maybe it was your fault. maybe you weren't enough. maybe you didn't know how to love properly, maybe you were unlovable.

maybe, maybe, maybe.......

Or perhaps it was a sign that a prophecy in your name had already been written. you are not meant for love, you were sent here to be alone, to be betrayed by whoever you trust, to be unworthy. so others would know what not to be.

You sat on the bed of your new apartment, looking at your wedding ring that was still on your finger. you couldn't get yourself to take it off. your heart wasn't ready to accept what your brain already knew.

You couldn't cry anymore, your tears were gone, and all that was left was a deep ache of loss in your chest.

Why? Why did he do this to you? why did he make those vows when he never meant to keep them? you wanted answers, that you knew you'd never get.

If your parents saw you in this state, they would be ashamed of you. you're ashamed of yourself. you can't eat, you can't get out of your bed, because something counterfeits dead.

The house you once called home is haunted by the ghost of lies and deceit. How long has it been going on? how many times did you aly with him in your bed and he wished it was her instead of you?

You were driving yourself crazy. Day by day you were losing your sanity as you combed through your whole life trying to find where it all went wrong.

you've been getting calls from your friends, and messages that you keep ignoring. What were you going to tell them? They bought his lies too.

He said forever and you bought it.

And the worst part is, you miss him. You miss your life, how it used to be filled with laughter, love, and light with him. How he used to hold you when you broke down. How he caressed you when you were in pain, how he made love to you.

Now you're sitting in a cold, dark, and empty apartment on another continent, you don't know who to call and ask for help.

All of your things remind you of him. Do you throw all of the things you built together or keep it? you were tired, mending your gashes on your own. He dealt a final blow and left you to deal with it.

And he doesn't care. He's already with her. he already replaced you. Nothing you two had was real.

But then why do you feel like dying? Why was it that you can't feel anything anymore? Is this how it will always be? Will you ever be okay enough to want to live?

all of these were very big questions you weren't ready to ask yet, or maybe you never will be.

you needed a distraction and you needed it fast.

you picked up your phone for the first time in the day and went straight to the one person you knew who could give you a reprieve from yourself.

Laswell.

You felt numb as you dialed her number as if a switch had been turned off in your brain. She picked up on the third ring.

"Sparrow,"

She still called you by your code name. Your first team that you were assigned to as a rookie medic gave it to you.

"I need a job," is all you said.

AN: SOOOOO!! DID WE LIKE IT? THOTS? I might have shed a tear or two writing this. don't mind me.

@ssc7514 @rrtxcmt

If you want to be tagged in the next part do tell me.

Until next time sugarplums.

ALI-💋💋💋

#cod fic #cod mw x reader #simon ghost riley #simon riley x reader #angst #simon riley angst #ghost cod #call of duty modern warfare 2 #cod modern warfare #kate laswell

[exactlyyoungchaos]

Just came here. Already in love with your work♡♡♡

Thanku so much for being here!!!!!

ALI-💋💋💋

#cute anon

[exactlyyoungchaos]

For loss of my life, how about nobody saves the reader, except for herself!! Don’t get me wrong, I like the idea of another man swooping in to save the day, but I feel like being cheated on makes you weary of relationships.

And Simon can have his own version of a happy ending! People oftentimes cheat because of an insecurity about themselves rather than their partner, so maybe his happy ending would be getting freaking therapy and being a better person than he was before 😭😭

But I would love to see whatever you decide to come out with! Loved the story!

Reader saving herself is exactly where I was going to take the story. I'll write variations of how it is. And as for Simon? He is NOT getting a happy ending after hurting her like that.

He's gonna sit in the graveyard of his mistakes and mourn what could have been.

Love ya.

ALI-💋💋

#cod fic #cod mw x reader #simon ghost riley #cod mwiii #cod mw2 #ghost x reader #ask answered

[exactlyyoungchaos]

Adding onto part 2 of loss of life… what if after Simon and his bff get together their relationship implodes and reader gets to watch/enjoy the whole thing?? Or what if bff gets hurt and it’s up to reader to save her and reader just lets bff die because why let Simon be happy after what he did to reader. Is that too evil? 😈

No, it's not too evil.

But the thing is, the reader in this fic is a medic, so it's in her DNA to save people and no matter how much somebody hurt her, letting someone die in pettiness? That's not something this reader will do.

But the female character of the other fic (part 0.5 is out) I'm writing, well she is a different scenario, she might just do it. Follow along to know more.

ALI- 💋💋

#cod fic #cod mw x reader #simon ghost riley #ask answered

[exactlyyoungchaos]

till forever falls apart.

The bestfriendSimon x f!Reader fic I first talked about.

cw: all sorts of trauma, character death, fluff, probable smut, inaccurate military stuff, a little bit canon and a little bit AU. do tell me if i missed something.

Your history with Simon goes back to elementary school. He grew up in an abusive household and you grew up in foster care with guardians who only cared about the government money.

Both of you bonded over the same things and became inseparable.

No one dared to mess with you in school because they knew if they did, they would have to answer Simon, and nobody wanted to cross him.

Junior year of high school starts and you get a visit from your social service agent, who wants to relocate you, but you are adamant that you want to stay here, but alas she takes you kicking and screaming.

Simon promises that he will find you in the future, and so with tears in both of your eyes, you leave. The same year Simon ran away from home.

Now 12 years later, he is on an undercover intel mission in Australia with Johnny. that's when he spots you, sitting in a cafe, looking like a dream, writing furiously on your laptop.

How does he knows its you? why wouldn't he? You were, are everything to him. The only person who knows him better than himself.

He has been trying to find you for years but always came out empty handed. By joining the military he thought it would be easy but it wasn't.

Johnny notices him freezing in the middle of the sidewalk staring intently at the glass window of the cafe, he turns to see what caught his Lt's eye and he sees the prettiest bonnie lass that he's ever seen.

he smirks " see something you like Lt?"

"that's her" Simon barely whispers, his heart racing.

Johnny's head snaps in your direction again, everyone in the team knows who you are. the little bird Simon has been trying to find for years.

and here you are, sitting in the cafe, oblivious to the fact that the man you have been looking for is standing right outside.

You finish your work and pack up your stuff to leave, you turn around and slam face-first into a wall of muscle. A strong hand stabilizes you as a soft 'oomph" leaves your mouth.

now, you are not small in any proportions, but this man still dwarfs you.

you look up to apologize and the sorry dies on your tongue as you come face to face with a skull mask.

your brain short circuits for a minute, and you're trying to figure out what to say then suddenly a heavily accented voice speaks from behind him " A'm so sorry Bonnie, he wasn't keen" a bulky man with a mohawk speaks.

they both look like they came out of some military comic. scarred, bulky, and big.

"it's ok, I wasn't looking either" you reply, looking back to the big guy in the mask, who's still blocking your path.

"Birdie...." the big guy breathes in through his teeth.

Recognition hits you like a tsunami. only one person in your life called you that—your best friend.

your eyes turn comically wide as you ask "Simon?" in a small voice, not believing it's him.

His gloved hands frame your face and he traces every inch of you with his eyes.

You look into his eyes and familiarity hits you, the same warm brown eyes that used to comfort you, that was your home, now standing at almost 6ft 5 in.

"Found ya."

and any sense of where you are leaves your mind as you leap into his arms and hug him as tight as possible. his beefy arms come around you and crush you to his chest as he breathes in your sweet scent.

you hold him and sob, he's here you can't believe it. He's here.

finally, finally.......somebody clears their throat next to you. you turn your head from Simon's chest and see a line of people waiting to sidestep both of you but unsure because of the sheer size of the man in front of you.

"We are blocking the line Si," you giggle and sob simultaneously.

hearing your voice after so long, Simon feels like he can breathe again.

you are here, his birdie, his angel, his everything. and this time no one can take you away from him. No one.

SOOOOOOOO!! WHAT DO WE THINK????? This is going to be a multi-part series because I'm just starting with this. I have so much to add.

Do tell me your thoughts and theories. And feel free to ask anything

And if you have requests for COD more specifically Simon, do send them my way, I'll try my best to write them.

love ya!!!!!

ALI-❤️

#cod mw x reader #simon ghost riley #simon riley x reader #simon riley fluff #call of duty modern warfare 2 #fem reader #long lost friend #john soap mactavish #modern warfare

[exactlyyoungchaos]

Hi! Same anon here that you replied to about Part 2 of Loss of My Life,

I love your ideas for where this story could go! Simon’s mates being happy for him and bff is so hurtful because it means they are indirectly happy that he left reader :( but that makes the angst so much more delicious. I hope reader whoops Simon’s sorry butt by coming out of retirement haha, maybe make him realize why he chose to marry her instead of his bff (who he had how many years to marry but never did like??? There’s gotta be a reason for that Simon??)

Anyways, I’m loving your work :)

Thank you!!!!

You are right!!! She thought that 141 was her family, but coming back and seeing how openly they embraced the new relationship just made the reader more sad.

But she is harsh now. Not the sweet-spoken, kind-hearted lovie they knew. There is no softness left in her after getting betrayed like that. She came back as a completely different person.

I will make alternate chapters, so I can fit all the narratives. Don't mind me.💋💋

#cod fic #cod mw x reader #simon ghost riley #ask answered

[exactlyyoungchaos]

Ahh you’re too good at writing angst. Imagine that Simon only divorced reader because of the immense guilt for cheating on her, even though he knows he doesn’t love his bff as much as reader his guilt pushes him to divorce her.

And who is there to save our heartbroken damsel? John freaking Price. An older, more well-adjusted man who knows Simon pulled a douche move and reader didn’t deserve that.

Honestly, a lot of people imagine the friend group being on the side of the man who ditches his girlfriend for his bff, but I see Johnny, Kyle, and John all sticking to reader’s side like looking at Simon like “you’re moronic loss, our gain”

Thank you for giving us such a great story!

I--I--- anon don't do this to me!!!! Now all I can think about is John swooping in to save the reader. Oh lord!!!

But the reader is too broken to trust anyone ever again. She does her job and keeps to herself. The soft-spoken and sweet reader is now harsh and straightforward.

So more angst!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!

I might need to make this a short series.

#ask answered #cod fic #john price #simon ghost riley #simon riley x reader

[exactlyyoungchaos]

Your writing is too good omg. Talk about angst. If you do part 2 of Loss of My Life, would you possibly make Simon realize him leaving reader for his best friend was a mistake (maybe a rash decision made during the heat of battle, or there is only platonic love and not romantic love between him and bff) and he does everything he can for reader to take him back?

No matter how you would approach part 2, I can’t wait :)

First of all, thank you so much for the compliment, means a lot to me.❤️❤️❤️

And as for part two, this is a very good direction butttttttttttt, like what if the reader leaves and he gets into the relationship with the best friend and everyone around him are like " about time" and shit like that. As if his marriage didn't even matter. And then the reader comes back from the retirement, and Laswell hires them again!!!!!!

Like more angst!??!?!?! How's that?

#cod #cod fic #ask answered #angst #simon riley x reader #simon ghost riley

[exactlyyoungchaos]

Loss of my Life.

Husband Simon X Reader.

My first time writing here!!! Please don't mind the mistakes as I'm writing this at 5 in the morning. enjoy!!!

TW: loss of a relationship, hurt, angst, little comfort, cursing, trauma(loss of family, mention of miscarriage), "its not you, its me bullshit" let me know if i missed something!

You used be a medic working with TF141 for years before you retired. that's how you met your now husband Simon Riley. he was the most loving, attentive and responsible partner you could've asked for, he was ghost to everyone but not you, never you. But something's changed recently.

ever since his last mission eight months ago, he's been detached, not talking to you properly, coming home extremely late and drunk. he hasn't even touched you since he came back and its saying something for a guy who used to be attached to your hips whenever he could.

you tried talking to him, tried asking what's wrong but you always got the same answer, " you're thinkin too much lovie, nothings wrong."

but you know your husband so you start digging, and that's the biggest mistake you have made.

you found a note in his vest pocket, where he keeps his wedding ring during missions that read " be safe and come back to me" in a handwriting you knew by heart but it wasn't yours.

it was of his childhood best friend. she was in the special forces as well, and recently worked with Simon's team on the last mission.

you knew then and there, the reason of the detachment, the curt responses. your husband was in love with the woman he told you not to worry about.

your eyes blur with the realization that the life you once knew is soon going to come to an end, the man you're in love with , who's ring you have been wearing for years is not yours anymore or maybe he never was.

you sat there in your closet, tears streaming down your face, gut wrenching sobs coming out of you mouth. he isn't home, like usual so there is no one to witness the loss of your life.

your brain conjure up all the good times you had with him but now all of it is tainted by the realization that none of it was true.

you remember every time you caught both of them looking at each other, the friendly adoration in Simon's eyes now looked like longing, with his hands still around your waist.

every time he said to you "you're the love of my life" with his lips on yours, was he wishing it was her? all these years, you were so in love, so blinded by the rose tinted glasses you had over your eyes that you never saw it?

you sat there for hours, mulling over your whole life. how the one person you thought was yours forever was never yours. so you got up, eyes hollow, bloodshot and puffy, your form trembling. you put the note back where it was and go lay on your bed.

you stare at the wall for hours, around three am, your front door opened and closed. you felt him as he walked in the bedroom and slipped under the sheets next to you.

for the first time in weeks, he put his arms around your waist and pulled you towards himself, " you awake love?" he murmured in your neck.

all that came out of your mouth was, " Am I not enough?" in a rough whisper.

his arms tense around you, he knows that you know. before he could say something, you turn to face him, still in his arms.

you look at his face, and trace his scars with your fingers as tears fell from your eyes on your pillow.

his expression is tortured, " Its not what you-" but you cut him off with a soft shush and a finger on his lips. the lips you called home for as long as you remember.

you don't want him to lie to you anymore so you smile, the same smile Simon has witnessed when you lost your whole family in an accident as he stood next to your shaking form during the funeral, the same smile you gave him when you had a miscarriage as he stood next to you on the hospital bed holding your hand, grieving with you.

his heart was breaking, he was cursing himself for doing this to you. but you don't blame him, you haven't said anything to him except "will you hold me for the last time? please?" and you bury your face in his chest, taking in his scent for the last time. feeling his erratic heartbeat for the last time.

Simon's hand tightened around you, he doesn't want to let you go. the only good thing that happened to him. he destroyed you, like he always does to anything he touches.

he knows he cant fix this, nothing he could say would fix this. so he held you, with all his might, for the last time.

part 2?

#simon ghost riley #simon riley x reader #angst #ghost cod #call of duty modern warfare 2 #first time writing

[exactlyyoungchaos]

Ohk guys. I need your help. Desperately.

A while back I read a fic about Gaz×Reader, where he falls in love with someone else during his mission and the reader finds a picture of them in his pocket. It was nothing explicit but there was a small message on the back of it.

Then the reader confronts him but he swears up and down that he didn't cheat on her but she says he did, maybe not physically but emotionally, and then leaves the last line where the reader says "I'm sorry my love wasn't enough for you."

Please!!! If anyone else has read this fic, please I beg of you tag the author or tell me the name of it. Please. This has been haunting me for days. I need to read it again.

Please. HELP.

#call of duty gaz garrick #call of duty modern warfare 2 #kyle gaz garrick #gaz garrick #help a girl out #cod mw x reader #cod fic

[exactlyyoungchaos]

Hi guys. So...I'm thinking of sharing my thots and I'm new to writing here(not new to writing in general) and I don't even know if people will actually see this but I'm having a brain rot about COD men, especially Mr. Ghost.

Would you guys want a short series-type thingy with simon×f!reader, where they are childhood best friends but got separated during their teens, and met again while Simon was on an Intel mission. Then everything was going great and he promised her that he'll retire after one last job. But what returned was Price with his tags. And then a lot of drama and angst and emotional stuff and happy ending?????

Would someone want that?

Asking for a friend🙏.

#simon riley x reader #ghost cod #cod mw2 #simon ghost riley #simon riley smut #john soap mactavish #john price #kyle gaz garrick #cod fic #the brainrot is real #cod mw x reader #simon riley fluff #angst with a happy ending #emotional damage #tw: blood #tw: death #tw: childhood trauma

[exactlyyoungchaos]

This is the real ending. Whoever says otherwise can disrespectfully argue with the wall.

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