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Lucy, Aquarius and Brandi at the Beach!

I was gonna do a quick Aquarius for Mermay but the call of Fairy Tail is too much so I did a whole scene.

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having adult adhd the most confusing and tiring sh*t ever

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idk if this is a shared experience by neurodivergent people but... i feel so out of place when i'm with people my age? it's like they're in a completely different stage of life. sometimes when i listen to them is like... wow you really sound like my parents. however, when i'm with my flatmates and the friends i've made at uni when i changed my degree... i feel that i click with them even if they are a few years younger. i feel that we're in the same wavelength. it's like... i only connect with people that are older if they are neurodivergent as well. idk i feel that these friends that i've made later in life really know me and connect with me meanwhile peers my age have been infantilizing me / not treating me equally / behave like boomers. at the same time, i'm afraid of being judged or being called weird

#adhd #adult adhd #adhd friendships #cw: rantpers

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cw: ed

i feel that my therapist is right and that the root of my problems this year is one of my friend's wedding. last year i've improved so much and i thought i finally felt good with myself and finally accept who i am. however, i had to buy a fancy dress for the wedding and both my mum and the person from the shop shamed me for my body shape and i had to buy the biggest size. then, my mom doesn't stop telling me that i have to lose weight. that my cousin is on a diet and she is losing more weight than me. and i've told her so many times that that is so triggering. every time someone compares me to others triggers me so much. and in the end i fell on old habits and my ed made a comeback!!!!!!!!!!! haahahahah!!!!!!!!! love that for me!!!!!!!!!!!! and still i hate my body so much like... i dread taking pictures in the wedding because i will see myself so f*t and ugly in comparison with my friends, who all have normative bodies. i really want to cry thinking about it. i feel so out of place...

#cw: ed #cw: ed mention #kirara.txt

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i feel so alone when i have to spend the holidays in my hometown. well... when i have to spend a long time in my hometown in general. i feel that in general i have to mask more than normal and that, even then, i feel so out of place. i feel that ever since i live in the city i have gone to uni and, above all, coming back from my erasmus year, i don't click with my friends. i feel like i'm not the same person and that we aren't in the same page. however, they're the only people i know here and if i want some socialization, i have to meet them as my hometown is small. i feel so alone.

#kirara.txt #personal #mental health #yikes

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Achievement unlocked: discovered piece of media at exact right time in your life to experience maximum peak emotional impact and infatuation

#me with bnha and naruto during the pandemic #and now with one piece

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Have a Mr Prince appreciation post 😎♥️

#DILOOOOOO #that when i decided to stan #op #op sanji

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Good luck to all the disabled students going back soon, please be kind to yourself and do what you need to to get through it

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bedtime stories~

#AAAAA #CUTIES! #spyxfamily

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enies lobby reunion ^_^

#havent seen this yet but #ahhh this is so pretty #one piece

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old commission i forgot to post T_T !!!!!

(for @katakurismouthwash )

#AAAAA #BABIESSSS #one piece

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𝕒𝕝𝕒𝕓𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕒 𝕘𝕒𝕟𝕘

#gotta love the arabasta gang #really liked the arc! #i'm still a one piece baby tho #hahahaha #but i'm enjoying the journey! #one piece

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Meanwhile Chopper:

#hahahahahah #accurate tho #one piece

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out of hand pinterest studies that turned into strawhats

#my squad!!!!!!!!!!! #love them so much! #nami looks so cool in this one! #really like this style! #one piece

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I bring more brainrot of my little guy

#still havent reached that point in the anime but #wow this is such nice art #really like it! #one piece

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Thought on AuDHD

Often times my adhd and my autism just drive each other up the wall. On one hand, autism wants order and predictability. On the other, adhd wants novel experiences and new stimuli. They clash a lot. And a lot of the advice people with adhd get is along the lines of "just be more organized" or "have a routine" which is sort of like trying to tell a cat not to sleep on the sweater you laid out on the bed. Like you could try, but it's just gonna end up covered in cat fur anyway.

Something I find helps me is Flexible Routine, building a routine that allows for some variation. So for example, every morning I have the same routine: Wake up, boil water, bathroom, make tea, wash face, make cereal, eat cereal, do makeup, get dressed. I do this even on days when I don't have to go to work or else it just doesn't feel like I've started my system correctly. But within that routine, I can switch up what kind of make up I wanna wear that day, or I can switch out my cereal if I don't feel like cereal that day.

Another way of implementing this would be tasks for the day. On days off I'll have a list of tasks I want to accomplish. I'm working with limited attention span and limited energy so sometimes I know I'm not going to get everything done. But I have two categories of tasks: "functionally necessary" and "bonus" and I'll set the expectation of how many things need to get done (half, two-thirds, but never 100%) So if my work clothes are dirty and I work tomorrow, that gets put in the "functionally necessary" category, but if I have clean clothes for the next few days, that can be put into "bonus." If all my bowls are dirty, dishwasher is necessary, but if not then it can be bonus for the day. Framing it as functional rather than a measure of character helps to put your plan in perspective and takes some of that pressure off. And again, we see a routine that has some flexibility built in: would I like everything on that list to get done? Of course. But giving myself the space to acknowledge my limitations allows for more effective use of my time and energy.

Basically, knowing the general gist of the plan without needing to adhere to the letter is what I find works for me to get my adhd and autism to get along. Is it perfect? No! But it protects me from overwhelm, streamlines my day, and ensures that my basic needs are met. :)

(PS the idea of chores as functional vs moral is something I learned from KC Davis, of domesticblisters on tiktok, who makes content that has helped me immensely. She's also written a book, though I haven't read it but I very much want to.)

#for future reference

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i feel so sad and so useless im