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Fuck bulimia I despise it I know for a fact that 'this is the last time' or 'I'll restrict tomorrow' never works. I need a new interest, something that's better than getting tipsy and eating 10000 calories and throwing up 200 of them, I need something to center me

#fuck bulimia

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No matter how skinny you wanna be babies do not open that pack of cigarettes.

The coughing isnt worth it

The bad breath isnt worth it

Cancer isnt worth it

Your head is already spinning why smoke it up with withdrawal too?

I know cigs and skinny go together aesthetically but there are other ways to supress your appetite. Throw a handfull of Dill in your salad. Start a chore that keeps you preoccupied and distracted.

But i beg all of you for the clean air in your beautiful skinny lungs- drink your monsters and throw away the cigs.

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Restaurants Safe Foods Masterpost

Food from my master post, this is just so you don’t have to scroll through the whole thing if you didn’t want to on my masterpost

A&W

Applebees

Arbys

Bojangles

Burger King

Bj’s

Carrabas

Cheddars

Chick-Fil-A

Chilis

Chipotle

Chuck E Cheese

Cici’s

Cracker Barrel

Culivers

Dairy Queen/Orange Julius

Denny’s

Dominos

Dunkin Donuts

Fire House Subs

Five Guys

Fuddruckers

Golden Coral

Hard Rock

In and Out Burger

IHOP

Jasons Deli

KFC

Krispy Kreme

Little Caesers

Krystals

Logans Road House

Long Horn Steak House

McAlisters Deli

McDonalds

Movie Theaters

Olive Garden

Outback Steak House

Panda Express

Panera Bread Co.

Papa Johns

Papa Murphys

Pizza Hut

Popeyes

PF Changs

Red Robins (yuUUMMM)

Ruby Tuesday

Sonic

Steak and Shake

Subway

Taco Bell

Texas Road House

Tim Hortons

Waffle House

Wendy’s

White Castle

Zaxbys

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I feel empty I got great news today and I didn't feel any emotions about it, just some fear I couldn't bring myself to get excited at all I feel broken also I made myself throw up tonight, didn't want to, but felt so shitty about myself for eating more than I'd planned today. It wasn't even to get the food out, it just felt like I needed to punish myself what a shitty day...

#disordered eating #i feel like nothing #m1a

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Gothica (2023)

D.M. Nagu

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EXPERIMENT WEEK Friday theme: liquid planned to just have protein drinks and soup, end of the day had a real curve ball with a LOT of sudden life changes so I ended up having wine and some canned tuna but I'm still under 600 cals so I'm not going to kick myself could be the end of low restriction, I'm in the process of getting my life together again and I can't afford to be braindead anymore, I legit can barely think lately we'll see what happens was hoping to get a lower weight but we'll see

#disordered eating #lets see if i can be normal for a spell

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EXPERIMENT WEEK Thursday theme: Sweets Original concept: eating snack cakes all day to fill out my calories How it turned out: A protein bar at lunch, and a protein brownie at dinner. Let it be known that these, despite being high protein, do not eliminate hunger. Anyway, both tasted good, the bar was better than the brownie, but both enjoyable to eat. I'm starting to think this whole relapse might collapse in on itself. I have a life change that I NEED my brain for, it's coming up, and I have no real solid plans. I'm not sick enough for a hospital or treatment, in that awkward space of '15 pounds overweight', that's not an emergency for anyone. idk... I'm going to hold out until my weigh in. I need a good drop. Tomorrow is liquid day, I might not do it I woke up very in my ED and now I don't know what to think. I'll at least start with a liquid idk

#disordered eating #eating so little and still looking fat fucking sucks

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EXPERIMENT WEEK Wednesday theme: Pizza It's funny how this theme evolved overtime... So the whole plan of this week was to break the usual meal mold and make things interesting and giving myself a max of 1000, basically giving myself permission to experiment. Welp. It started out as me thinking I'd get a 700 calorie Hungry Man meal, but I really worried because the chicken pieces were fried and it's really hard to know how much they're really worth So it switched to a 590 pizza, a good sized one and a brand I liked... but then I worried it would feel like a binge because it was too big. In the end, I had a 370 cal lean cuisine protein pizza. I ate half at lunch and the second half at dinner. I almost threw the other half out, but I wanted to get a good night's sleep. This is how it goes when using a calorie counting app tho, the temptation to cut calories and see the number go down.

Anywho, my 'review of the day'. Started off STARVING in the morning, but did some errands, bought diet food and protein drinks, then did a long walk, then had the lunch and dinner. Hunger came and went, but I did not break the day's theme. If anything this week is making me miss my old foods lmao Total cals: 370 Steps: 21,000 Tomorrow is treat day

#disordered eating #what a weird week lol

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EXPERIMENT WEEK Tuesday theme: Alcohol Morning started out strong, did an 8 mile walk, felt great an energized Had 2 Bang Energies 4pm was when I started faltering lol, started drinking around 4:30 pm, watched Sing 2 (love that movie) My original plan was to have some food today, but my thoughts today were, hey, it's theme week, go all the way, so no food for me. By the end of the night, I feel a lil nuts and can't tell if the headache is from the alcohol or lack of food idk Cal total: 420 (two big white claws) Steps: 24,000 Verdict: won't become a regular thing prob, but worth a try, kept the day interesting, pretty painful by the end. (Note: not promoting shit)

#disordered eating #im sure for some folk this is nbd #i feel kind of bad for complaining #bad fuckin headache rn #going to drink down some sleep aid and pass out soon #tomorrow is frozen pizza day lmao #shouldbe fun?

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alright going to do a project :) i've been getting pretty bored with low restriction, like a month of it is enough I'm switching it up for a t h e m e EXPERIMENT WEEK

every day I'm going to try a weird way of eating, probably involving drunkorexia or OMAD or maybe even a normal day of eating to really shake it up lmao rules: 1. I have to get at least 10k steps a day 2. The limit for the day in terms of eating is 1000 calories or under (net not included, so even if the net is low or in the negatives, 1000 is as high as I can consume) it might suck it might be fun idk, I just know I'm bored as hell and a theme week can shake things up I'm damn curious to see if my weight will still go down after a week of chaos, I'll let y'all know

#after a week of 'perfection' only led to a one pound drop #im trying a week of anarchy (with rules lol) #disordered eating #tw #lets see if i can pull it off

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How do you do, fellow sufferers~ You can call me Daizy A bit about me: -- I'm 26, developed ED tendencies a couple years ago -- 'Recovered' fully for half a year and after three months of binge drinking I'm back into restriction -- This is a vent blog, all about the love/hate relationship with my ED My first tangle with Ana: HW: 198.9 LW: 111 Mia/Binge weights were a total mystery, did not weigh myself at all during that :P Ana 2, The second coming of Ana: SW: 162.7 CW: 146.8 GW: 130 (UGW: 110, not interested in being UW, but I know how this godforsaken disorder works so of course it's on my mind) ((Note: Any 'positive feelings' or jokes I make about my ED are fuckin' delusional, not aspirational. The only Pro I am is Pro-Make It Through The Day))

#hopefully i can recover correctly this time #instead of switching out different addictions

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ok calmed down from the morning freakout certainly not going to give up, now I'm just going to focus on working out more I'm going to get back into running and start strength training, and of course keep restricting low not going to do any kind of 'metabolism' day, still overweight and I don't think my rolls need any kind of indulgence lol Next week, I'd better get the weight drop I've been working for, so help me god :D

#ed #ed relapse #ana #i will not be a 'failed dieter'

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first time posting long time lurker I've tried not to post anything because I don't want to be a 'pr0-ed' blog but I'm just deeply in a relapse and I need to scream I'm on week four, been in a month of low restriction. My average calorie intake is 450 calories. I walk 20,000 steps a day, I require myself to do that. I only take lax because I can't shit without it, I took some last night I weight myself only once a week to keep perspective I was looking forward to a 5 pound weight drop I stepped on the scale this morning.

1.3 pounds down 1.3 WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCKING HELL I AM STARVING MYSELF STARVING MYSELF THAT KIND OF WEIGHT DROP IS FOR SOMEONE ON A NORMAL MODERATE DIET

THATS A DROP FOR SOMEONE DOING 1400 CALORIES AND MINIMAL MOVEMENT WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IM SO FURIOUS IM CRYING MY EYES OUT WHY WHY FUCKING WHY

I DON'T BINGE, I HAVEN'T BINGED AT ALL IN A MONTH

I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK TO DO THIS IS ALL I HAVE THIS IS ALL I HAVE IM SHIT AT EVERYTHING BUT I KNOW I CAN LOSE WEIGHT I'VE BEEN GOOD IM IN CONTROL WHY WHY WHY

... My app tells me I should lose a pound and a half if I were to eat 1300 calories a day. I eat 450. I lose less than a pound and a half I wish I was dead. If anyone has advice feel free to share because I feel empty and furious (I'm 146.8 so it's not like im too skinny to lose idk)

#ed #ana #trigger warning #i hate myself #help me #an3 #suicide mention