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+ fast metabolisms (and the fact that I don’t have one, gross) 😋

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Not ED related… but this was nice 🤷‍♀️

I wrote this about a week ago and finished editing it yesterday.

Maybe I edited it a bit too much, but here's to my first posted poem of the year~ ˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆

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December drips through my nerves.

Charles Wright, from “December Journal”, The World of the Ten Thousand Things: Poems 1980-1990 (via soracities)

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Kpop boys talking about how they lose weight might be my favorite type of content

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Kpop boys talking about not eating to stay skinny definitely has to be inspiration

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“Horror”. Photographed by Sofia Sanchez & Mauro Mongiello for Numéro China December 2015

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Is this a terrible way of saying ‘I’m back’?

Personal rant, sorry.

So I know this terrible, but Park Jimin from BTS is my ultimate thinspo. I have no idea why him of all people triggers me the most, but every time I see him, I have get a renewed sense that I’m so fucking fat and that I need to get myself back on track.

It’s not healthy and I know this is the opposite of what he wants his fans to do, but I can’t stop it? Idk. I have this mindset that I need to weigh less than he does, or than he did at his thinnest, despite the fact that he is at least four inches shorter than I am..it’s gonna happen one way or another

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I will be thin in 3 days.

I will have zero calories for 3 days.

I will not eat for 3 days.

I will stay motivated and strong for 3 days.

I will be consistent for 3 days.

I will be beautiful after 3 days.

I will love my body after 3 days.

I will love myself after 3 days.

It’s only 3 days.

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Fucking relapse

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A letter to my followers

Hi, it’s been awhile :)

I wanted to update you guys and tell you why I’ve been so inactive. So for the pass few weeks, I’ve really been thinking and reflecting on my eating disorder and mental health. Really questioning everything I’ve put myself through and how long it’s been. Counting calories everyday, keeping up with diets and numbers, making excuses for every question I’m faced with, ignoring the side effects; the hair loss and extreme tiredness, my depression and so much more. Chasing and chasing this image I force myself to be. All this work for a goal that seems impossible.

After really giving it some thought, I’ve come to a realisation that this is all isn’t worth being ‘perfect’. It’s been a long (and exhausting) journey and it was a hard decision to make, but I’m choosing recovery. I’m seeking therapy and slowing working my way to a healthy lifestyle. I hope you all understand my choice. Good luck to the rest of you and goodbye!!

Chaela ❤️

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50cal GF CHOCOLATE CAKE

Emma's Goodies (Emma Fontanella, professional pastry chef) just uploaded a video for chocolate cake that has only fifty calories per slice sans icing!! and roughly 90 calories with icing!!

It is also gluten-free, but not vegan

Ingredients (cake) :

80g (⅓ cup) skim milk

180g (6.5oz) unsweetened plain yoghurt

60g (½ cup + 1tbsp) instant oats, two sachets if you're using Quakers Oats

100g (½ cup) sugar substitute/ sweetener - she used Truvia, bear in mind the sweetness of your sweetener and adjust for taste

1 room temp. egg

50g (⅓ cup + 1tbsp) cocoa powder

¾ tsp baking powder

optional - vanilla extract, approx. 6 extra calories depending on brand and amount

Ingredients (skinny icing) :

70g (2.5oz) melted chocolate

45g (3 tbsp) milk

20g (1 tbsp) yoghurt

sweetener, to taste

IF YOU ADD THE ICING, IT WILL BE ROUGHLY 90 CALORIES PER SLICE INSTEAD OF 50 CALS

Directions:

Preheat oven to 160C/ 320F

Mix yoghurt and milk (and vanilla, if using) together and microwave for approx. 45 seconds

Whisk in the cocoa powder till combined

Mix in the sweetener till adequately dissolved, followed by the egg

Grind oats and baking powder in a food processor to form a fine flour and add to wet mix

WORK FAST, mixing the dry and wet ingredients till combined, and then putting it into a lined cake pan

Bake for 35 minutes, until a toothpick comes out slightly fudgy

Leave it to cool for ten minutes, before removing

the top of the cake will look like a brownie at this stage, but still be springy and soft

For Icing:

Combine all icing ingredients, it will be quite a thin mixture

Refrigerate for approx. 10 minutes to firm it up and then spread it over the cake

bon appetit!

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black n’ white thinspo

#thinspo #ed #ana #edthings #notpro #bodygoals #thin #thinspiration #eatingdisorder

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🖤I feel like I’m drowning

Slowly losing my sanity with each breath I’m not taking 🥀

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#thinspo #ana #ed #edthings

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wowwowoowow

#thinspo #thin #ana #ed

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teddy quinlivan is so beautiful

#notpro #thinspo #ana #ed #edthings #bodygoals #eatingdisorder #thin

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this post is rlly useful

#anagirl #ana #notpro #anatips #edthings #anorexik #prorecovery #ed #it's not as simple as just eating