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Few year later uodate

Got diagnosed with adhd, idk if I've mentioned that before on here. Got on mefs, got a new job and the team I work for are fucking gr8 and understanding if neurodivergencies

So dw about it past me

Really can't be fucked with this job

Need to get back to working in the daytime BC night shifts are just making me stressed, anxious and fat

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Went into my old work today and my former boss asked if I was expecting again. At the time I just laughed it off and said nah I’m just fat and like it didn’t sink in that it’s bothered me in l hours later and now I want to cry and restrict forever.

#eating disorder #ednos #personal #anorexia

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Moon is My Soulmate

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Someone explain to me, why I feel like a shit human for telling someone how their actions hurt me?

Is it because I didn’t get an apology? Or any acknowledgment from this person that their actions were shitty? Maybe?

Idfk my brain is mush.

#relationships #friendships #narcissistic #narcissist #toxic friendship #toxic friend #narcissistic friend

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It is not your duty to comfort the people who hurt you.

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Finally told my toxic/narcissist friend why I’d limited contact.

Then ofc the blame is shifted back onto me. Because yea they were the one who made all the effort.

Clearly I should of hoped on a train and 2 buses with a newborn to see them instead of them coming 45 minutes in a car??

I’d even offered to pay for petrol before. Offered to come see them when I was heavily pregnant. Made so many plans that they cancelled in but were ok to go beer gardens and get drunk with other friends?.

There’s so much I want to say but what’s the point. They love an argument and it’ll only be turned round on me to make me seem like the bad person.

I’m fucking done with it. I’m not gonna rise to your games.

It took you 3 months to even notice I deleted Facebook. You only contacted me when you wanted something off me.

If you cared that much, if I was your “best friend” surely you’d of noticed before then.

#toxic friends #narcissist

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So I had sex the other night and I could literally feel my back fat jiggling

I'm gross.

I hate myself.

Not having sex till I lose weight and definitely never going on top till I've lost all the weight I gained during pregnancy

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Really can't be fucked with this job

Need to get back to working in the daytime BC night shifts are just making me stressed, anxious and fat

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