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This baby safety warning in my car is so funny

#YEET IT #To be fair anyone in a plane with babies can relate

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When i get top surgery i want the scars to be messy af so i can make a metal logo out of them

#If I was getting double incision this would be an idea #True kvlt Black metal #Though considering I'm getting peri I don't think that would work

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Hey, trans man here. I support gender non-conforming women. Binding your chest and masculinising your appearance can be a female journey. It wasn't for me, but it can be for you. I am fully male, and feel zero connection with my assigned gender at birth, but you don't have to feel the same way in your own life. If you're a tomboy, a butch, a masculine woman, or you don't quite know yet- I support you. However you identify. Gender is a messy thing. So is being a woman in a world that demonises and fetishises your expression of self.

You wouldn't be the first butch to get top surgery or a reduction, if that's something you're interested in. Cis gender-conforming women get breast implants all the time, after all, and nobody questions their right to do that from a gender standpoint. It's your body. Do with it what you wish.

I am 100% male. I'm not threatened by people who aren't. Female masculinity is beautiful. We can coexist and share our resources. We can love each other. And I love y'all.

#Yesss #This #Experiences are not universal #Like OP I might be a trans man but someone who just... prefers a flat chest isn't necessarily also trans

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We try.

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Top surgery

So, I sort of disappeared for a few months - things got a bit mad with learning to drive (bit late with that for various reasons), sorting a new job, organising a new apartment because I'll be moving to Scotland for the job, and other stuff... Bit overloaded to put it mildly.

Anyway, my surgery is tomorrow and my preoperative tests are today.

My surgery will be with Dr Lago in Madrid, with periareolar technique, so if anyone is considering this technique or surgeon, maybe I'll find out some useful information.

Also afterwards I'll have one or two postop binders to give away second hand, maybe someone here knows how to do that?

I never wore a binder preop due to small chest and also Autism Says No to tight pressure across my chest, plus it would actually have made me more dysphoria from the feeling reminding me all the time of that zone. So yeah, totally clueless about trans clothing giveaways and exchanges, whoops.

I'm excited but also nervous - not because of the pain or the surgery itself (I have medical background and a high as feck pain threshold), but mostly due to the recovery, and the anaesthetic. But yeah, wearing the binder for recovery, I hate the idea of it but it is only temporary at least.

So yeah, I think that's about it. Also, I passed a fair bit pre T, I'm on 7 months now and some changes are slowly happening... but have to admit it was kinda cool to get called "sir" /"señor" the whole way through both airports

#ftm #trans #trans man #transgender #hrt #testogel #testosterone #transition #update #top surgery #surgery #periareolar #binder #Binder giveaway

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Thoughts on Minoxidil?

Been thinking about giving it a try at some point, but I wasn’t really sure how much it would be worthwhile etc. I’m fairly sure I will eventually have some decent facial hair, considering I’m 4 months on T, and even pre-HRT I had some facial hair. My dad had a beard when younger too and has to shave frequently, and I take after him in a lot of things. I was wondering, if anyone has used it - does it make much of a difference? And if it does, do you have to keep applying it to maintain the effects on stimulating hair growth? I.e., if you stop applying it and shave a few times, does the hair go back to how it was before (finer, paler etc.) or does it stay how it has grown in? I think in my case, I’ve not been on HRT long and I presume it’s just a waiting game, but was considering giving it a try to see if I could accelerate things a bit. I already have noticed a difference on T - I have a patchy as feck chin beard, a fair bit of neckbeard (which I shave more often because it looks scruffy and itches when wearing a mask) and a crappy almost-visible moustache... I notice I’m starting to get some more hairs along my jawline and just below my sideburns, so... stuff is happening. Just not sure if Minoxidil can help it happen a bit QUICKER, or even darken some of what I already have (most of it is proper beard hairs already but some of the newer ones are kinda fine, so if they got darker/thicker it would help quite a bit).

Talking about topical Minoxidil of course, I don’t want to take any oral medication if I can avoid it... systemic effects and all that.

So, any thoughts, or anyone with experience? Any brands/types you’d recommend?

#trans #transgender #trans man #ftm #trans guy #facial hair #beard #minoxidil #transition #topical minoxidil

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4 Month Update

Damn, I can't believe it's 4 months already since I started Testogel...

Haven't been updating regularly since I don't use this account so much, but anyway.

I certainly still have no regrets on starting - the difference in my emotional stability is hard to believe, I honestly don't know where I'd be mentally if it wasn't for HRT. Feels like my brain isn't constantly broken anymore, ha. I haven't cried once since starting, not one single time - which, considering the circumstances in life right now, says a lot.

Physically, I feel like there are some changes happening slowly, but I'm a bit frustrated that things still feel so slow - namely a couple of things, which I'll mention in a moment or two. Stuff is happening though, and I guess it's just a waiting game as is to be expected... but I'd like to know if anyone else can say about their own experiences if they've used gel (or even injections too). I know not everyone's transition happens at the same rate, but I still can't help but wonder if stuff is especially slow in my case. Also, I was 26 on Halloween when I first started T, so maybe that also makes things go slower.

Anyway, some stuff I've noticed since the last update:

- definite increase in arm hair. It's thicker, darker and longer than before. Always had a fair bit of arm hair but it definitely is more masculine-looking hair now... I'm hopeful. Not too bad already, and my dad is super hairy and I think I take after him that way. Encouraging enough for now. More also starting to come down the side of my hand.

- leg hair also thicker, darker and longer. More around my knees than before, this part was more bald previously but not anymore.

- eyebrows are now... like twice their original thickness. Makes me wonder where they will end up... and if I'll be squinting through them like an Old English Sheepdog, ha.

- shaved my moustache for the first time! (and cut my upper lip which bled like a mofo) Was still only a pathetic blonde fuzzy thing, but at least there was -something- to shave, hopefully the next time there will be more to shave off.

- my beard hair is definitely less patchy, slowly starting to get mini hairs in the previously blank spots, and the pre-existing hairs get darker.

- little bit more of a jawline, and from certain angles I'm noticing a bit of a decrease in the gods-awful BabyFace syndrome

- more upper-body muscle, even if only slightly... and did a thing recently where I used a hand-mirror and stood with my back to the mirror over the bathroom sink. Was surprised to see that actually from behind I have a bit more latissimus dorsii than I thought, and... I do actually look pretty much like a dude from the back. Not as feminine as I had dreaded, so... that's something.

- more of a snail trail now, the connecting hairs have filled in a bit more.

- also noticed this week... baby chest hairs? still quite fine and not very dense or long, but definitely not just downy fluff.

Things that HAVEN'T really changed noticeably so far...

- Public enemy no.1, aka MY VOICE. FUQ THAT SHIT. Haven't really noticed much of a change there yet, which is... frustrating AF since it's one of the things I'm most dysphoric about by far, and probably the thing that affects public perception of me the most. I don't have a super-high voice, but it's still far too feminine for me.

I know people talk about the so-called "tranny voice" and not wanting to end up with that, but tbh, I'd be ok with it... would still be an improvement on my current voice, plus I don't have feminine voice mannerisms so that wouldn't be too bad.

Also, as a small guy, on one hand I'm a bit dysphoric about my height (I'm 5ft 6, though much of that is tibia, ha...), but on the other hand, a higher-than-average voice wouldn't seem so out of place - whereas if I was a big dude with a high voice, I kinda feel like that would clash more... so in a weird way, there's one small advantage (excuse the pun) to being shorter.

- fat redistribution. Haven't noticed much of that at all yet BUT it is early, and I am aware that is usually something that takes a bit longer to notice, so not too worried yet. Also I'm not exactly heavyset, so there uh, isn't a huge amount to redistribute. I do think that the forbidden-chest-zone IS flatter though, I've always been smaller there and never needed to wear a binder, but now I don't even wear sports bras except on veeeeery rare occasions, so there is a bit of a change there. Hoping for more noticeable changes in the coming months.

Another update... I have top surgery booked for 7th June!!! However, I understand that there may be issues with travel since the UK is still in full lockdown and my surgeon is in Spain, BUT... I know travel for medical reasons is still apparently permitted SO... hopeful, but don't want to get too excited just in case. Will wait and see what happens.

Regarding the voice thing... anyone else notice voice changes later in their transition? I know some people post about voice changes within a few weeks, but anyone notice theirs didn't change until several months down the line?

#transgender #trans #trans man #ftm #transition #update #4 months #Testogel #testosterone #HRT

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3 month blood tests tomorrow

Well, technically a few days shy of that, but still...

I’m hoping my dose can possibly be upped pending my bloods, but will have to wait and see.

I have noticed changes in this period of time - most notably mentally, but physical as well... ha, the YETIFICATION continues slowly but surely, and I’m now definitely certain I have a bit more arm and shoulder musculature and definition - modest, but a clear change.

Shitty moustache is in progress, still quite blonde but the hairs are there so will hopefully darken with time.

Hard to know if progress seems slower with lockdown - I often wonder if I need a higher dose to get things going more, or if it’s just expected to be this slow to start with and I just need to stick with this dose and it IS actually working. Hopefully the bloods will clear that up more. On a bit of a downside (though not much), my mom has said that she’s struggling a little with thinking of my proposed name change, and has said she found it hard to get it out and maybe a name starting with the same letter as my deadname might be easier. On one hand, I hadn’t settled 100% for certain just yet and am not yet using my planned name publicly outside of the internet, but on the downside... I don’t really want to be forced into rethinking just to pander to that. Still, I suppose I’ll need to just do some thinking again... Anyway, BLOOD TESTS tomorrow morning, then onwards with progress

#ftm #trans #trans man #transgender #testosterone #Testogel #HRT #update #3 months #bloods

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Hi there @fommo, posting here in case it’s useful for other people too.

So, I’m a trans man and my experience might be different to your friend.

Also, I’m 27, and came out late in 2020, so bear that in mind too - I don’t know anything about the adolescent pathways and procedures, so that might depend a bit with what age your friend is.

It costs £30 per month for subscription to their services and free advice and live chat help service, and I can’t remember exactly initial costs, but I had a consultation for £150 for information gathering, and I think a similar one-off charge for registration - after that it’s just the monthly subscription fee.

My Testosterone I get for free as my GP prescribes it - this may vary depending on whether your friend’s GP will do this, otherwise they may have to purchase privately. I don’t know much about that, nor do I know the price for Oestrogen, but GenderGP themselves can help with that.

Counselling, surgery referrals and letters are on top of the usual subscription for such one-off things - referrals are £150 I think and counselling is £60.

Regarding the subscription fee - that doesn’t mean you’ll be on that for life. You can pay the subscription while you’re getting started with treatments, and if you get to a point where you’re happy you no longer need their services (e.g. you’re on a stable dose and your GP is happy to just keep prescribing), you can stop the subscription at any time. You can also go back to them later if you change your mind, for a one-off resubscription fee.

As for timing... feck NHS waiting lists. Those are beyond screwed. With GenderGP, I completed the pathway appraisal form on 10th October, did my consultation on 12th, and started T on 31st October. It may take longer for some individuals depending on appraisal, on demand, and on their prescription situation with GP etc.

I hope this is helpful.

need help with GenderGP (UK)

Hi, has anyone here gone through GenderGP in the UK? I need to know how long it took and how much you paid in the end. This isn’t for me but for my friend who’s trying to go private because the waiting lists are just too long, she’s mtf.

#transgender #trans #ftm #mtf #gendergp #uk #transition #hormones #hrt

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has this been done LOL

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This is what Loki is trying to teach us.

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Ugh, I hate anything implying that autistic people are either stupid, or are children who don't know their own minds.

Often we're almost too aware of our own minds at times...

Even from a medical professional point of view, consent and understanding are not constricted by mental health or developmental disorders etc. etc. - consent and understanding must always be defined on an individual basis and never be assumed.

Why the general public can't manage to come to that understanding is beyond me.

Autistic  trans  people  are  not confused ,  they  know  who  they  are  just  as  much  as  anyone  .

#trans #transgender #actuallyautistic #autism #autistic #ftm #trans man

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has this been done LOL

#currently 10 weeks in #damn it feels both longer and shorter than that #I guess 2020 into 2021 just be like that though in general

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#metal #metalhead #\nn/ #doesn't include all the subgenres but that would be a loooong GIF