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First reaction???

But also...

Like, is this being held in Tukwila? Maybe Fife? I don't dare Google this because then the algorithm will think that I will have suddenly found the urge to join a trashy revival event. And please know, I judge not your inspiration, but in the PNW, we see God(dess) in the trees, the ocean, our mountains, and each other; this is D-list religious quackery selling something(which appears mighty cracker-y if you ask me). And as far as I'm concerned...

#me #just my opinion #religious fruits and nuts #not even a delicious pnw delicacy #aplets and cotletes #those are welcome always #this wingnuttery? #hard no

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In "tales from the front office..."

I have a varied and often interesting workday. Like today, for example, I led our 6 am teams call and then put on my rain gear, gloved up, and helped my team butcher crab that were returned from a customer. Then, after changing out of said gear and working on inventory and account reconciliations, our new CFO paid us a visit and we showed him the place. He is coo and totally engaged, but for the fun bits: Part of the tour was going to our (not up and running yet) 2nd shrimp production facility, which took me right by a printer I asked our tech team to set up for the new production document flow. And the tour just conveniently sauntered by the same printer where I sent this test page a few days ago, and forgot about it until we were walking by with said new CFO. It reads...

Of course, I folded it up rapidly and shoved it in my pocket. But somewhere, if the inspiration for this page knew, I'm sure this would be his reaction...

NICE WORK HIRSCH!!!!

(PS- if you got the reference without my big clue, thank you...)

#me #this is my life #at work #dadlife #foo fighters #dave grohl #im trying to grow up #supply chain management #its not working #however i am #they even bought a nice lunch today #from a local restaurant with the best tartar sauce EVER #middle management blues

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In her tags, there was something about somebody who had a kink about open heart surgery and I was like...

every day I am forced against my will to learn about some real intense fuckin kinks on this website

#no kink shaming AT ALL #but how does this work #like #i have a really good imagination #and mine compared to this are the most boring flavour of vanilla EVER #ok not all of them #but 99.999% are #the other .001% barely make neopolitan compared to this... #not to kink shame but the guy into OPEN HEART SURGERY still haunts my dreams

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TT: I have today "off" because I have jury duty. But is it really off when you are on the 6am teams call, working at 515 because the call needs prep, then are waiting for info from one of your floor lads so you can get a load of product off? Oh, and still trying to fix a problem from yesterday???

Not really off, but I got to sleep in till 5... lol. I'm off to the halls of justice...

#me #this is my life #dadlife #exhausted #shenanigans #jury duty #in repair #got altoids #and coffee #and water #and a yellow pad #and blue pens

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#me #this is my life #my brain #exhausted #this is me #think im kidding #im not

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Proof of life

- I am earning my stripes as a middle manager these days. I don't know if it's the restrait I'm showing when I really want to jump through the screen and kill members of our tech team for guaranteeing we wouldn't have problems with SAP(news flash- nothing is going right), or saying major problems are fixed(they're not), or assuring us we would be supported the entire way(also on the 11 o'clock broadcast: they're as consistentvas ghosts). Or maybe it's how I've dealing with 6 or 7 languages being spoken in one work crew; or maybe it's the way I haven't started drinking... all of these things are to my credit. But rest assured, my fuckscapacitor needs a rebuild.

- I have a A this term in global finance which means that somehow, after working 6-7 days a week I've found a way to understand how triangular exchange arbitrage and WACC variations. Go me? Fuck I'm stubborn...

- Thankfully, with all this change and things going on, I'm still sick. But I lost 10 lbs, am exhausted, and now have a great cough/sharp pain in the middle of my back to go with a lack of sleep. I mean, if you're gonna go, go big or go home, right?

- So yeah... the best part of all of this is that it's really easy to not hurt emotionally when you have to sleep on the couch because your child is sick and you want your child to snuggle someone but 3 is a hard fit in your bed. So 'those kinds of dreams' have been replaced by ones where I just go and buy a new couch. I mean, it's still a sexy thought, right?

-Anyhow, I don't mean to complain so damn much, and theres a high likelihood this post will self destruct. But here's to you all, and thanks for sharing all the beauty that is you. Truthfully you are lovely- mean it! Much love!

Much love!!!!

#me #this is my life #dadlife #exhausted #henry adam #in repair #dead bedroom

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“parkour"  I say as I roll to the other side of the bed 

#me #this is my life #dadlife #my back huuuuurts #everything hurts #life during wartime #i mean parenthood

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“The worst pain in the world is shame. I spend a lot of time trying to not do anything bad to anyone, but you can’t live your life and not hurt people. Pretty recently, I did something that I’m really not proud of, and it shocked me. I thought, “I’m a really fucking bad person.” But I realized that something good came out of it because now I have to be a lot less judgmental of others. Everything can make you a more compassionate person if you use it that way.”

— Fiona Apple for Pitchfork, JUNE 4 2012

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My grandmother took care of me as a wee lad, and instead of children's songs, she sang me show tunes. And as she was a little enamored with Robert Goulet, this entered my lexicon at an early age as some of my first spoken words.

Say in the tags!

#camelot #about the author #i sing henry show tunes #phantom mostly #Youtube

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Yes, I'm most certainly paying attention during this meeting... can't wait to hold all of "the world is going to end with the eclipse" people's feet to the fire after this.

#me #this is my life #eclipse #mentally exhausted #i heart science

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And 8 years later, Layne...

As my lead guitar player/dear friend pointed out, Seattle is a fucking brutal music scene filled with so much tragedy and drug use. AIC was a gift to me, a dark refuge for a kid trying to shake off guilt and emptiness of loss with chemicals. So many of my friends didn't get clean and followed that road too, just like Layne, Mike Starr, Cornell, and too many...

Peace be with you Layne, and thanks for drowning out the noise in my head. Seeing you w/Gruntruck, before you got big, was transformative and a masterclass in how to rock.

#this is my life #music is my life #singersongwriter #alice in chains #layne staley #gone too soon #seattle #seattle scene #fuck grunge #Spotify

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Nirvana - Sliver (Official Music Video)

It's strange to think it's been 30 years since Kurt died. I know where I was(school), what I was doing(coming back from lunch, stoned), and how I felt... just sad. I go by his house in Aberdeen, over his bridge, and even feel the strange buzz that is in my mom's garage where the Melvins used to practice and young Kurt and Krist would hang out.(long before my moms time there, but it's just a cool vibe that's inescapable).

Thanks for the music.

#me #singer songwriter #washington state #aberdeen wa #nirvana #kurt cobain #see you again #27 club #Youtube

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This was really difficult as I've seen so much great music in my life...

put in the tags:

your first concert

your last concert

your next concert

your favourite concert

#sting on the soul cages tour #john mayer in Seattle w/H #tie for favourite #Pearl Jam at Key Arena #Tom Petty in San Diego #U2 when I was 15 #Next show: my friend Randy and I are going Foo Fighting #im hoping to see the Highwomen this summer #and the cult are touring #stupid work getting in the way of rock n roll

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Saw this on FB. Soo funny!

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And if you need inspiration in a musical form:

Everyone has an alibi

Reasons why they never took a chance

I can't remember mine

See I let go of that dance

You see I know what I can really do I'm gonna keep my head

See things through

Turn this life into something real

Friendly reminder that you don’t have to aim for a normal life.

You’re allowed to aim for a stable one. You’re allowed to aim for a fulfilling one. You’re allowed to aim for a meaningful one. You’re allowed to aim for a happy one. You’re allowed to aim for a manageable one. You’re allowed to aim for a sustainable one.

Yes, even when that means following a different road than the one most people walk. Yes, even when that means going in a wildly different direction than the one society expects and pressures you to move towards. Yes, even when it means disappointing society, other people or even yourself.

Living a normal life doesn’t have to be your goal.

#me #in repair #rebuilding #the rockfords #Carrie Akre #mike mccready #danny newcomb #love this band #turn it up #turn it to 11 #Spotify

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On this day in 1984, five students report at 7:00 a.m. for all-day detention at Shermer High School in Shermer, Illinois.

#Spotify