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imagine getting home at almost 1am ON A FRIDAY bc uve been out STUDYING and still fail

#ill commit arson and homicide if i dont pass these #i need scholarship 💔 #/jk btw @/police

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been eleven hours sat in a chair my ass flat its chair shaped

#still three more hours to go #im about to start having to pay rent to this library i only leave to sleep

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so sick and tired of the pity in people's eyes when they learn I've never been in a relationship

#“aaww she's never loved anyone:((” #not like you no #but i do love #just not romantically #i dont want it ew yucky #im good i am platonically married👍 #aromantic #aroace #arospec #acespec #asexual

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sad slut gets mercilessly fucked hard by life (hardcore) (extreme)

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i think if this was a lesson to learn from then god should be more specific

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i wrote another poem, if yall wanna read it (this one is sad, btw)

Proof

You say that you love me with certainty in your voice.

But your actions say otherwise.

You never go out of your way to talk to me.

I sit next to you, at a table full of people I don’t know.

I reach out to hold your hand when we’re walking. I text you first, the moment I get home. I ask if you’re free to hang out on Saturday.

And then you ignore me at the table.

Your grip is loose and your hand is slipping away.

You do nothing to continue our conversation.

You never tell me what you’re doing that weekend.

I hide it so well, when I talk to you over my phone,

Because I can tell you I love you when I’m mad

And you can’t see the streaming tears,

You can’t hear my voice breaking,

You can’t see the regret and terror in my eyes.

I tell you I love you every night and you say it back,

But the next day you turn around

And act like nothing ever happened.

Like we never happened.

You say that you love me with certainly in your text,

But everything else about you says otherwise.

#aufh #snek you are mean </3 #:((

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i looove reading something written 170 years ago and finding stuff I've been thinking since i was 8

#it's such a “omg same” situation #rip thoreau u wouldve loved me (i dont think so)

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y'all agree with tøp dropping a song about checking on your friends' mental health before it's too late and say "yesss tyler youre so righttt" but will bully to death anyone who doesn't like the same songs as you/likes SAI

#the clique is one of the worst things ive seen and im so sorry for saying this but like #please just respect eachother its really not that hard #twenty one pilots #tøp #at the risk of feeling dumb #clancy

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the imagery of a shore is the epitome of sex in nature and NOBODY will convince me otherwise

#i will go into HEAVY detail if asked about it #i might hate sex with a passion but it's really beautiful if you think about it #i think people just messed it up a little

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healing is yelling and venting and post it privately

#sometimes i wish they could read it #but its not really worth it #gotta find ways to let things out #found out if i don't i end up resenting people even though i still love them #dont want that

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THEYRE EVERYWHERE FOR FUCKS SAKE LEAVE ME ALONE PLEASE I NEED TO STUDY

#can't do this #how am i supposed to live laugh love in these conditions #im just trying to pass my finals man #don't do this to me #twenty one pilots #tøp

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'I'm a bit too old to run away' hit a bit too close home!!!! felt a little attacked even!!!!!! wow tyler!!!!!

#won't even comment on that #twenty one pilots #tøp #clancy #midwest indigo

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"hey we haven't spoken since we graduated school 5 years ago but you were in my room once and my walls still remember you"

people's presence as absence save me.....saveme..

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people's presence as absence save me.....saveme..

#i think its such a beautiful concept actually #something about someone not being present anymore but their presence still lingers through what they left behind #its just augh

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APA 8 CAME OUT????

#i still dont know how to use the 7..... #ill just pretend i didnt know it came out.

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google.com how do i know if someone's flirting with me...... um..... girl step back please.... ill sob....

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can everyone turn their lights off i wanna see the stars in the night sky