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“ -- i’m not sure how i’m meant to take that, but i’ll pretend it was intended as a compliment. yes, i’m an auror. finally finished my training a few months ago. just before the world went to complete and utter shit. ” there’s a burning question on the tip of her tongue that almost slips out against her better judgment. did your brother not tell you that? she wants to ask him. leon knows she’s an auror. she knows that he must know. there’s no doubt in her mind that he’s kept tabs on her, just as there’s no doubt in her mind that he will find out about this later, but she tries to push those thoughts away -- for now. she doesn’t want to talk about leon right now. she doesn’t want to even THINK about him right now. unfortunately, that is exactly what her superior has ordered her to do -- to question archie fairfax about the one person she never wants to see ever again. the truth of the matter is that she doesn’t want to be doing this. ( interrogating archie in this case. if she’s being completely honest, there’s a lot of things she doesn’t want to be doing right now. fighting this war for instance. but that’s another thought she can’t afford to have right now. ) but there’s no getting out of it, not unless she wants to tell her boss about the conflict of interest, about how she knows archie -- and more importantly -- his identical twin brother. how leon had dug a knife into her back and archie had twisted it. that’s not a conversation she’s willing to have with anyone, much less with someone she desperately wants to impress. so just as archie’s stuck right now, she’s also stuck.

“ and yes, you’re absolutely right. we can’t keep you here long. ” lily admits plainly. and thank god for that is a thought that she keeps all to herself. archie is far from subtle, so she’s very aware of how uncomfortable he is right now, and it only heightens her own discomfort. she doesn’t like watching him squirm in front of her. there’s no satisfaction in this, knowing that she’s the sole cause of his distress right now and being forced to sit here and watch it. more than that, she’s just tired. bone-tired. it’s been a long day -- just as it has been for her every single day -- and she wants nothing more right now than to go home, to the comfort and privacy of her flat, where she can try to forget this ever happened. unless the ministry forces her to work overtime again, her shift is almost over, and then she has a rare day off tomorrow. maybe there’s a way out of this for the both of them, if she can just think.

absent-mindedly, she glances down at the papers in her hands and pretends to be reading them intently in an attempt to buy herself some time, her brows furrowing as she mulls over the best way to handle this. after about a minute of agonizing silence, she looks back up at him. tries to lock eyes with him, but of course, he’s not really letting her. “ look, fairfax -- ” she starts. even she isn’t completely sure where she’s going with this, how exactly she should word this. “ -- i know it’s been...a while since we’ve last seen each other -- ” despite her best efforts, there’s just the slightest edge in her voice when she says this, a bitterness that this is the first time they’ve properly spoken in years, that if he had it his way he truly would have never spoken to her again after kissing theodore burke. never explained. never apologized. ( or maybe it’s not bitterness she’s feeling but something more like sadness. heartache. not that she’ll call it for what it is. much like leon, she’s more than capable of feeding lies to people, especially herself. )

“ -- but you look like PURE SHIT. you seem really sick actually. ” she continues after a beat, her voice frank. “ you’re covered in sweat. your pupils are dilated. you’re trembling. your breathing seems a little irregular. you look you’re about to throw up. i don’t even have to do a diagnostic spell to know that you must be high right now. do you need...medical attention? ” there’s an intentional emphasis on those last two words, and she gives him an incredibly pointed look that she isn’t even sure he catches due to his determination not to look at her. in fact, she doesn’t even know if he’s listening to her at all right now. lily intakes a sharp breath and fights the overwhelming urge to bury her face in her hands and scream. how much clearer can she make this? “ you’re showing signs that could point to a potential drug overdose. let me know if that might be the case. ” she continues, hoping that will push him in the right direction. she knows full well it’s not a drug overdose, but the ministry of magic will be much more likely to release him into the care of the healers for that over a panic attack. 

but he seems as though he’s somewhere else, faraway from here, from her. he’s the closest to her that he’s been in years -- so close she could reach out and touch him if she wanted to, not that she would ever dare -- but somehow, he feels further away than ever. it’s heart-wrenching to watch, to see him break down and know that it’s entirely her fault. “ ...archie...can you hear me? ” she murmurs after several seconds, calling him by his first name, something she hasn’t done in years. it’s completely unintentional. a slip-up. just as he’s cracking in front of her, she’s cracking in front of him, simply in a different way. she feels the steel in her voice slipping away, her tone softening, an instinctual reaction. she can’t help it. even now, as much as she loathes him -- and there is definitely loathing there, stirring somewhere in the pit of her stomach, only now it’s being overpowered by something else, a residual love that she can’t seem to shake -- as much as she hates him, she still doesn’t enjoy seeing him in pain, not really. is this really what the mere sight of her does to him? as trapped in this room as he is, she’s forced to sit with the thought -- to watch him unravel in front of her -- and there’s a lump in her throat. archie hasn’t been able to look her in the eye since their sixth year, and some of those reasons are his own fault, but he also has PLENTY of valid reasons to fear her, she knows. what does it say about her, that the simple presence of her terrifies someone else this much? she feels like there must be something heinous within her -- something monstruous -- if archie is this panicky right now about what she might say to him. might do to him. leon creeps into her mind again, a nagging voice that’s always goading her, telling her that she’s just as awful as him, and she shuts her eyes for just a moment, trying to will him out of her head. she really can’t be thinking about him right now. but that’s a difficult feet to accomplish when his mirror is right in front of her, reflecting nothing but genuine emotion, a complete contrast to the boy who haunted her still.

—  interview room,  ministry of magic,  with lily potter.  @boggart​

“ i don’t know shit, man! this is such a waste of fuckin’ time–”  and other such protests have been the exclusive sound coming from this fairfax’s lips since auror’s made themselves known in the—albiet shady—bar archie and other known offenders frequent. but those protests fall uncharacteristically short once the auror stuck with questioning him opens the door. he only needs a second for his brain to link the red hair ( and eyes that have killed him countless times in nightmares ) and the awful dread that fills his rib cage to the right name: lily potter. archie’s bravado fizzles out and without giving his mouth permission, “ fucking terrific.”  he mutters into his palm, dragging a hand down his face and taking a tired breath. eye contact is now a thing of the past. he can’t stomach it. as she moves closer to the table he’s tethered to, archie pulls down the sleeves of his shirt. her presence reminds him of a lot of emotions he’s spent years numbing with the very substance the auror’s are trying to pin his twin for selling.

among the other tattoos that cover the entirety of his left arm, his fully formed dark mark blends in a little too well. and while he might be the stupid fairfax, he’s not brainless. if anyone is going to be looking for that mark on his inner forearm, it would be the daughter of the war hero they just killed. hands frantically fidget with the cuffs of his sleeves, pointless little repetitions to soothe himself as he pulls his hands as close to his lap as he can with the restraints. “ ‘course you’re an auror.”  his tone is strangely neutral, a result of not quite knowing how to react. he’s not even sure himself if that was meant as a compliment or an insult. “ gonna say the same thing to you that i told them. they got no proof. you can’t keep me here. long.”

#panic attack tw #drug overdose tw #drugs tw #vomit tw #nausea tw #SDLSDLKDSKLLDSK idk why i'm replying to this so late and i also don't know why it's so long help!!! #i just decided to try to write lily to distract myself from shit and this was the first reply to do but it got away from me aklslklkasllask #hopefully it's alright but just let me know if it isn't!! #you really don't need to reply to this at all honestly but if you do pls don't match alkaldalslassakl #( &. i want to make love‚ but my hair smells of war and running and running. | lily ) #( &. everything you say is fire. | lily interaction ) #( &. tag tbd | lily and archie )

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the original images can be found here. (i shoddily colored the dress blue.)

her hair and makeup is something like this, and these are the stiletto heels she’s wearing, but she’s fully planning on kicking them off if she needs to run or if -- god forbid -- a battle breaks out.

[ she cast an extension charm on her purse that is similar to hermione’s moleskin pouch. in there, there are a variety of items she might need throughout the night, including her new wand (harry’s old wand), an antidote to veritaserum, an antidote to common poisons, an antidote to uncommon poisons, an antidote to amortentia, essence of dittany, and pepper spray. she doesn’t expect she’ll need most of these items, but when you knowingly walk into the lion’s den, you better come prepared. ]

#me: for my next trick i will pretend i know about fashion even though if you look at my closet it is clear that i do not -- #( &. i want to make love‚ but my hair smells of war and running and running. | lily ) #drugs tw #jic?

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i’m howl when he said “theres no point in living unless i’m beautiful” then called upon the dark spirits bc he didn’t like his hair color

#( &. lions in her heart and a fire in her soul | lily musings )

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—Greta Gerwig, Little Women (2019) Script

#( &. what if i'm someone you won't talk about? | lily and theo ) #( &. lions in her heart and a fire in her soul | lily musings ) #( &. i want to make love‚ but my hair smells of war and running and running. | lily )

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LITTLE WOMEN (2019) DIR. GRETA GERWIG

#( &. the water hears and understands. the ice does not forgive. | lydia and dove ) #( &. what does it mean to be descendant of something monstrous? | lydia ) #( &. mostly‚ i want to be kind. | lydia musings )

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@poudlard

#( &. i want to make love‚ but my hair smells of war and running and running. | lily ) #( &. lions in her heart and a fire in her soul | lily musings ) #( &. tag tbd | lily and albus ) #blood tw #violence tw #lily would only smack him v lightly if at all but #this is adam dimarco and he's calling the character lil so i had to reblog it

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#( &. tag tbd | leo ) #( &. tag tbd | leo musings ) #depression tw #maybe??

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#violence tw #( &. tag tbd | leo ) #( &. tag tbd | leo musings )

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“ what do you see when you look into my eyes? ” ( archie & lily )

“Brown.” Lily responds immediately, voice clipped. “Not a pretty brown either. A SHIT-COLORED brown.” She’s clearly deflecting, not wanting to answer the real question Archie is asking her. Why should she? It’s not like they’re friends, not anymore. As far as Lily’s concerned, it’s a little too late for him to be asking these sorts of questions -- about five years too late, actually. It ENRAGES her, that he’s waited until now to finally try -- to give a damn about her -- so she can’t help herself from digging in the knife further. “I see a spineless coward. A selfish prick. A Death Eater. Just an overall pathetic excuse of a person.” she continues. “I don’t need your pity or whatever the fuck this is. I’m fine. I’ve long moved past Theo and you and -- and your brother, but that doesn’t mean that I forgive you or want to see you. So if you really want to pretend like you care about me, just leave me the fuck alone already.”

#god lily will you please stop? #she's so mean i'm sorry #ccacoethes #( &. i'm the hero of the story. don't need to be saved. | lily ask meme ) #( &. i want to make love‚ but my hair smells of war and running and running. | lily ) #( &. tag tbd | lily and archie )

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not over it + leo

Send “Not Over It” and my muse will talk about something from their past that still haunts them to this day.

“Fuck, I don’t know.” Leo murmurs, a poor excuse of a lie. There’s a lot that haunts him. He stalls, taking a drag from his spliff, watching the puffs of smoke fade away into the crisp night air. What he’d give to be able to disappear like that right now. “...I wish I had a proper mum, I guess?” he admits finally, voice ragged and hoarse. Leo’d like to be able to blame it on the cigarette. “I wish she hadn’t left me. I wish I knew her.” He looks down at the pavement, refusing to meet anyone’s eyes. “I know it’s more complicated than that, that it was more than just not wanting kids or whatever. But it still feels like shit, pure shit, whenever I think about it. There was a part of me that thought -- or just hoped, I guess -- that she’d show back up after Dad died, but she never did. I don’t think she ever will. And I don’t know -- I mean, I’m fine, I am. It’s not like I lie awake every night crying about it, but it just sucks. It really fucking sucks.”

#parental death tw #death tw #drugs tw #smoking tw #( &. tag tbd | leo ) #( &. tag tbd | leo ask meme ) #( &. tag tbd | leo and sirius ) #( &. tag tbd | leo and mary ) #unchosens

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🏹 - for natalia

🏹- For a talent they wish they had

If someone actually asked Natalia this, she would definitely give a frivolous answer. Something along the lines of “Ooh, I would love to be able to tie a cherry stem into a knot with my tongue because I made out with someone who could do that once, and she was like the best kisser!” or “I wish my eyebrow game was as good as Cara Delevingne!” But Natalia keeps her deepest desires to herself. More than anything, she wants to be the sort of person that people just love easily -- the sort of person she feels like her twin sister was. Annette had been adored by so many, and it always came off as entirely effortless to Natalia (perhaps unfairly). She’s jealous of it, even now, and the guilt of it eats away at her. Sometimes she feels like she should have been the twin who died, and honestly, if she had been there, she would have begged the death eater to just take her instead. She doesn’t know how to do this without Annie. She doesn’t know if she ever will.

#this doesn't really need a gif but i'm going to put one anyways because vanessa is pretty! #death tw #( &. tag tbd | natalia ) #( &. tag tbd | natalia ask meme ) #( &. i love my sister more than anything in this life. | natalia and annette ) #Anonymous

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not me,  not my hands, not my eyes searching, never still, rolling in my head like the sun in the sky. i wish i was that bright, i wish i was gold,  something never touched  because sometimes i wake up and his hand roams my skin like a memory like something i’m not allowed to forget. i wish i would sear across his eyelids every time he blinked, glowing white-hot.  sometimes i feel like i’m burning, but not like that. never like that.

Emily Palermo, SUN HANDS.  (via starredsoul)

#:/// #( &. he is trying to kill you‚ and you deserve it‚ you do‚ you know this. | lily and leon ) #( &. lions in her heart and a fire in her soul | lily musings ) #( &. i want to make love‚ but my hair smells of war and running and running. | lily )

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Force my Muse to Spill their Secrets

🌧- For a heavy, emotional secret

🙃- For a lighter, slightly embarrassing secret

🌟- For a secret wish or desire of theirs

🍏- For something they secretly wish didn’t exist

🍎- For something they secretly wish did exist

❤️- For a secret crush

📲- Talk about someone/something you dislike, but only pretend to like

👁‍🗨- Talk about someone/something you like, but pretend to dislike

🍻- For something bad/mischievous you did as a child or teen that your parents don’t know about

🌜- For a ‘weird’ habit or tic that no one knows about

💃- For a talent that they like to keep hidden from others

🏹- For a talent they wish they had

👻- For something that scares or disturbs them, but they refuse to tell anyone

☢️- For a controversy or scandal they have been able to keep mostly under wraps

🐇- For a secret item they keep (stuffed animal, comfort object, etc)

📒- For a secret journal/diary they keep (Bonus: Share an entry from it!)

📔- For a secret sketchbook they keep (Bonus: Share a sketch or doodle within it!)

🖤- For something they secretly wish they could do with your muse

❓- Free Space! Ask them about a specific secret!

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𝐬𝐨𝐟𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭  \  sentence starter pack,  i.  feel free to change wording  \  pronouns as you see fit. 

don’t go. 

please, don’t go. 

it hurts. 

this hurts. 

we can’t be friends. 

you shouldn’t be here. 

stay here with me. 

it doesn’t feel like you care. 

i can’t feel your heart. 

i’m so alone. 

i need you here, with me. 

there’s nothing left. 

we’re up in flames, the both of us. 

it all comes crashing down. 

i don’t know what to do. 

you won’t go with me? 

why don’t you stay here? 

i’m going alone.

my heart’s broken. 

they broke your heart. 

where did this come from? 

how did you get this scar? 

who is {name}? 

what are you saying? 

i shouldn’t have come here. 

it’s like we’ve become strangers. 

who hurt you? 

who did this to you? 

please, don’t ignore me.

please, say something. 

is there something i should know?

i’m not leaving you here. 

you can’t do this to me. 

after all that we’ve been through… 

there’s something you need to know. 

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things that you want to hear.

change pronouns as needed for things you DON’T WANT to hear, click here!!

❝ you’re good enough. ❞

❝ you’re important. ❞

❝ everything’s gonna be okay. ❞

❝ she pulled through. ❞

❝ i forgive you. ❞

❝ i love you. ❞

❝ you’re not alone. ❞

❝ you’re my favorite person in the world. ❞

❝ i’m so glad you’re doing better. ❞

❝ it’s so nice to hear you laugh again. ❞ 

❝ your laugh is contagious! ❞

❝ you can do this on your own. i believe in you. ❞

❝ you know what i love about you? ❞

❝ i love spending time with you. ❞

❝ i’m here for you. ❞

❝ you’re right. ❞ 

❝ i can’t stop thinking about you. ❞

❝ you look amazing. ❞

❝ we’re in this together. ❞

❝ you’ve got this! ❞

❝ i missed you. ❞

❝ i did the dishes! ❞

❝ last night was incredible. ❞

❝ if you wanna talk, i’m here. ❞

❝ i don’t understand, but i want to try. ❞

❝ how can i help? ❞

❝ breakfast in bed? ❞

❝ dinner was great. ❞

❝ let me make dinner tonight? ❞

❝ lets go to the park. ❞

❝ thank you. really. ❞

❝ you’re wanted. ❞

❝ i got you a coffee. ❞

❝ can i ask your opinion on something? ❞

❝ there’s my beautiful bride! ❞

❝ i’m the luckiest man alive. ❞

❝ so, i made plans for us. ❞

❝ don’t worry, i’ll take care of it! ❞

❝ go do something for yourself. ❞

❝ i took a day off work tomorrow. ❞

❝ go hang out with the girls tonight. ❞

❝ what do you need from me? ❞

❝ tell me about your day. ❞

❝ i trust you. ❞

❝ i feel like i can tell you anything. ❞

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things that are hard to hear.

**possible triggers - abuse / death / suicidal implications change pronouns as needed for things you’d WANT to hear, click here!!

❝ i don’t want you in my life anymore. ❞

❝ i don’t want to have a relationship with you. ❞

❝ she’s not coming home. ❞

❝ that wasn’t meant for you. ❞

❝ i don’t love you, okay? i never did. i never will. ❞

❝ you’re wasting my time. ❞

❝ you’re wasting your time. ❞

❝ you’re not listening to me! ❞

❝ i feel like i can’t tell you anything. ❞

❝ you’re too late. ❞

❝ you don’t give yourself enough credit. ❞

❝ you don’t give me enough credit. ❞

❝ it’s time for things to change. ❞

❝ you failed me. ❞

❝ fuck you. ❞

❝ i can see right through you. ❞

❝ things are getting bad again. ❞

❝ are things getting bad again? ❞

❝ move on. ❞

❝ that’s on you. that’s your fault. ❞

❝ you’re holding on to things that are holding you back. ❞

❝ you haven’t changed. ❞

❝ i’m not changing my mind. ❞

❝ i’m dying. ❞

❝ you’re good – but you’re not as good as you could be. ❞

❝ it’s always about you. ❞

❝ nobody cares about your problems. ❞

❝ i don’t trust you. ❞

❝ you’re being taken advantage of! ❞

❝ i feel like you’re taking advantage of me. ❞

❝ did you hear what she said about you? ❞

❝ life isn’t fair. suck it up. ❞

❝ i didn’t mean i liked you that way– ❞

❝ maybe it’s better this way. ❞

❝ i wish i’d never met you. ❞

❝ you ruin my happiness. ❞

❝ i think we should see other people. ❞

❝ i’m not ready to settle down. ❞

❝ i want to love someone like you love me. ❞

❝ you can do anything you set your mind to, but you won’t. ❞

❝ stop crying. ❞

❝ don’t come back. ❞

❝ i’m not coming back. ❞

❝ i don’t care enough about you to hate you. ❞

❝ i feel like you’re dragging me down with you. ❞

❝ why don’t you smile anymore? ❞

❝ something happened today. ❞

❝ i don’t want to do this anymore. ❞

❝ stop letting it get to you. ❞

❝ i’m sorry. ❞

❝ i’m not sorry. ❞

❝ you’re not sorry. ❞

#death tw #suicide tw #abuse tw #implications possibly?? i feel like these are all v vague and could mean a lot of things but!! just in case

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** villain / hero sentence starters

VILLAIN

“  every  story  needs  a  hero  and  a  villain.  ”

“  this  is  going  to  be  a  little  uncomfortable.  ”

“  do  you  know  what  i've  done ?  what  i  would  do  again  if  given  the  chance ?  ”  

“  i  can't  stop.  it's  what  i  am.  “

“  they  hate  what  they  cannot  control.  ”

“  the  only  difference  between  a  hero  and  a  villain,  is  who’s  telling  the  story.  ”

“  i  have  my  reasons  for  being  this  way.  ”

“  your  death  will  mean  nothing  to  them.  ”

“  kill  me.  go  on,  i  dare  you.  ”

“  i  don’t  think  you’ve  got  it  in  you.  you’re  like  a  little  dove,  never  wanting  to  get  your  hands  dirty.  ”

“  what  do  i  want  ?  i  want  to  see  the  world  burn.  i  want  to  see  a  new  world  born  from  it’s  ashes.  ”

“  one  day  i  will  kill  you.  and  you  can  be  safe  in  the  knowledge  that  you  will  have  deserved  it.  ”

“  fate  is  an  excuse  for  people  who  are  too  stupid  or  too  weak  to  make  their  own  future.  ”

“  let  you  go  ?  do  you  really  think  i’m  that  stupid ?  ”

“  i  could  keep  you  safe.  they’re  all  afraid  of  me. ”

“  ask  me  if  i  give  a  crap.  ”

“  you’re  playing  my  game  now.  ”

“  tell me;  would  you  kill  to  save  a  life ?  ”

“  what’s  more  important  to  you ?  their  life  or  your  reputation ?  ”

HERO

“  people  will  never  bleed  enough  to  fulfil  your  vision  of  justice.  ”

“  i  will  never  turn  my  back  on  people  who  need  me.  ”

“  i  don’t  need  to  be  saved.  ”

“  rebellions  are  built  on  hope.  ” 

“  i  will  win.  that’s  what  heroes  do.  ”

“  i  don’t  have  to  prove  anything  to  you.  ”

“  you  can’t  always  be  strong,  but  you  can  always  be  brave.  ”

“  i  will  catch  you.  i  will  bring  you  to  justice.  ”

“  once  there  is  blood  on  your  hands,  they  will  never  be  clean.  ”

“  don’t  carry  the  world  upon  your  shoulders.  ”

“  you  don’t  need  a  reason  to  save  people.  ”

“  i’m  not  a  hero.  ”

“  we  will  win.  ”

“  there’s  no  escape  this  time.  ”

“  i  really  don’t  want  to  fight.  ”

“  if  it  was  down  to  me  to  save  your  life,  would  you  trust  me  to  do  it ?  ”

“  i’ll  admit,  this  looks  bad.  ”

“  i’m  proud  of  what  i  am.  ”

“  i  know  my  value.  ”

“  you’re  wrong  about  them !  ”

“  let  them  go.  they  have  nothing  to  do  with  this  fight.  ”

“  it’s  not  too  late  to  change.  i  can  help  you.  ”

“  killing  me  will  not  end  this.  ”