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WHAT I WANT DOESNT MATTER AND IM MAKING IT MATTER TO ME BE MAD WHY DO YOU GIVE A FUCK ABOUT MY LIFE OR MY DREAM. DONT TALK ABOUT THAT SHIT ITS MINE. NO YOU CANT JOIN ME ITS MINE. I SINK MY FINGERS INTO EVERYTHING IVE EVER LOVED AND YOUR FINGER MARKS ARE FADING VERY VERY QUICKLY. BORING! NEXT!

#im hate work #i hate people #i hate having friends and i hate having crushes #fuck those hoes #actually bpd #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd #borderline personality disorder #mental illness #rage vent #old draft

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It's over. After like a whole year I finally escaped. I feel better than I ever have in the last 2 years. It was nice having this but I think by the end of this month I'm just gonna completely log myself out and keep it that way. Thanks.

#actually bpd #actually borderline #mental illness #borderline personality disorder #bpd vent #bpd #toxic relationship

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101 of not understanding BPD: a comprehensive list from my ex wife!

#eeheehee #actually bpd #actually borderline #mental illness #borderline personality disorder #bpd vent #bpd #borderline personality traits #favorite person #actually autistic #vent

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The cycle is ending btw

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Me staring at the teeth shaped bruise in my arm cause I was bullying him

#old draft #i think i was just hyperfixated on him #actually bpd #actually borderline #mental illness #borderline personality disorder #bpd #borderline personality traits

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Always debating if I'm making the right decisions and never seeing the results

#bad day #actually bpd #actually borderline #mental illness #borderline personality disorder #bpd vent #bpd #borderline personality traits #actually autistic

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I know I shouldn't talk about my craft until a cycle is complete but I always get so excited when it's happening :(

#the one and only time im talking about my work #i like other people being excited with me okay man #it feels nice #actually bpd #actually borderline #mental illness #borderline personality disorder #bpd vent #bpd #borderline personality traits #favorite person #vent #actually autistic

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Okay I've had my goal skinny body now I want my goal built body

#gym era #my wife pointed out my dysmorphia and now im hyperaware of hoa i actually look #also had the thought of “people like me best for the parts i hate about myself” but it didnt feel negative??? #like why do i try so hard to not be those things that people love about me? #anyway jojo bod era #actually bpd #actually borderline #mental illness #borderline personality disorder #bpd vent #bpd #borderline personality traits #actually autistic

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ALSO HE CALLED ME A TSUNDERE WHAT THE FUCK THAT IS SO FUCKING RUDE!!!

#god im gonn kiss him on the mouth #i swear to it #actually bpd #actually borderline #mental illness #borderline personality disorder #bpd vent #bpd #borderline personality traits #actually autistic

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So me my face when

real photo i swear

#totally normal and cool #actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #bpd shitposting #actually borderline #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #bpd problems #bpd #bpd vent #obsessive #tw obsessive love #obsessivelovedisorder #obsessive yandere

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I love making him squirm

#not even in the way you think #just bullying him #absolutely dunking on him #he dont even know that hes in love with me #actually bpd #actually borderline #yandere coping #yanderecore #mental illness #borderline personality disorder #bpd vent #bpd #borderline personality traits #favorite person #actually autistic

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I get what I want okay? This has been my dream, my goal since I was a literal fucking child. If I can't do this then I've got nothing, all my other plans depend on this one. I've got this I have this

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He doesn't text me ever but, after work when we sit in the car outside of his house and smoke weed, sometimes I can catch his eyes on me.

#yandere community #it doesnt actually mean anything since he stares too much at them but i can dream #i pretend at the very least #being normal about things #yanderecore #actually delusional #actually yandere #male yandere #irl yandere #quiet bpd #actually bpd #actually borderline #mental illness #borderline personality disorder #bpd #borderline personality traits #actually autistic

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✨️mixed signals✨️

#am i delusional or is he dumb #makes me wanna bang my head into a wall #and kiss him #crushcore #actually bpd #actually borderline #mental illness #borderline personality disorder #bpd vent #bpd #borderline personality traits #actually autistic #he bit me what

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And it was all in my head again

#i figured but now i have to actually believe it #its never ever me #always the best friend and never the lover #actually bpd #actually borderline #mental illness #borderline personality disorder #bpd vent #bpd #borderline personality traits #favorite person #vent #actually autistic #stupid fucking crush

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Me: sulking in the backseat after work, feeling like I'm 3rd wheeling my wife and my crush

My crush: passes me the weed w/o me asking

Me: 🥰oh my god heyyy🥰🥰

#he doesnt know hes in love with me yet >:] #feeling silly #im jealous of both of them and also neither??? #treating both my mommy and daddy issues #actually bpd #actually borderline #mental illness #borderline personality disorder #bpd #borderline personality traits #favorite person #actually autistic #bpd vent #cw weed #ig #crush posting

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Shout out to all the lesbians reblogging my posts

#i see you guys #mlm wlw solidarity #actually bpd #actually borderline #mental illness #borderline personality disorder #bpd vent #bpd #borderline personality traits #favorite person #actually autistic