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It’s 5am and I just realized

If I spent the time I am currently spending on Tumblr on things that actually make me happy, like creating art, going for walks, singing, going on day trips, etc. I would probably be substantially happier.

Correlation doesn’t equal causality but there has been a shockingly strong correlation between my depression and my Tumblr use (probably a feedback loop of causality.)

Tumblr has been really helpful when I needed a distraction from automatic negative thoughts. But when it is a distraction from the positive things I want to do with my life, it may be doing me more harm than good.

I think I should go back to only posting my own art when I create it, and stop playing the like and reblog game for the most part. Delete the app and bookmark and only visit the site when I have a real reason to instead of by default all the time when I am bored.

Mutuals- message me if there’s anything you want me to see/comment on.

Hopefully this will decrease the quantity but dramatically increase the quality of my posts.

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I found an old flash drive circa 2012 with some lineart on it that I always meant to finish.

This was my pop surrealist phase, and my life’s ambition was to get a design printed on Threadless.  The ducklings were going to be a seamlessly tiling fabric pattern for, like, scarves and shit.

What do you think?  Should I finish some of these up for t-shirts and such?

#surreal #ducklings #plague doctor #catrina #lion #kangaroo #seahorse #cassette tape #crocodile #daffodil #actually my name was going to to be crockodill instead of giraffodil at first #I think crockodill was taken on whatever site it was #and giraffes are sweeter anyways

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happy one year

#we'll meet again don't know where don't know when #damn it Moldy making me cry

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Flustered!

(This was the start of a Pearlmethyst comic I abandoned, wherein our Amethyst gets pissed that Pearl only acts this way around the big Quartzes, and Pearl puts her foot so far in her mouth it comes out the back of her head.)

#morning reblog

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Flustered!

(This was the start of a Pearlmethyst comic I abandoned, wherein our Amethyst gets pissed that Pearl only acts this way around the big Quartzes, and Pearl puts her foot so far in her mouth it comes out the back of her head.)

#pearl #famethyst #sharky amethyst #8xj #skinny jasper #7xk #kay amethyst #I forget who the fifth one was meant to be #maybe the one who pranks Steven at the gates when he arrives #beta gems #prime gems #pearlmethyst #but not that pearlmethyst #pearl gets pets

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Finally, a little tidbit for anyone who’s wondering if antagonist Jasper and former Crystal Gem Bismuth are still around: they are. ‘You haven’t seen the last of them,’ Sugar promises. ‘I love them both too much.’

http://www.newsweek.com/steven-universe-vinyl-sdcc-rebecca-sugar-638202 (via pearl-likes-pi)

SHE LOVES THEM SHE LOVES THEM

I AM CRYING

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This is why I have a beautiful multi-chapter Bismuth redemption comic like 80% finished but am terrified to publish it. The SU fandom is intimidating on that front.

shame is a learned emotion

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(This me)

It's my birthday!

At one point I was born and now here I am.

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Sparring practice!

Sharky is big and bad, but Jay is a clever fighter.

Famethyst weapons

I was wondering what the weapons of the Famethyst Quartzes are.  We know from Bismuth that a whip isn’t a common Amethyst weapon, and we know from the Rubies that gems of the same type don’t necessarily have the same or similar weapons, so apart from “probably not a whip” you can imagine a whole range.

Some that I imagine, based on my personality headcanons/fanfic shared with @molded-from-clay and assorted others:

8XJ/Jay: I always imagine there’s a romantic, chivalrous streak in Jay.  She expresses it a little coarsely because she’s still an Amethyst, but a rapier with a twirly basket hilt out of Three Musketeers-land seems appropriate.

Sharky/Cheeky: A kanabō, like an oni.  She likes to make a loud gross “sssschluck” noise as she pulls it out of her cheek.  

Skinny Jasper: In one fic I gave her a small knife that was basically a boxcutter but I think it’d also be a lot of fun if she had a weapon that let her engage from a distance with stealth, like shuriken or darts.

Carnelian: fuckin’ two-headed battle-axe that looks way too big for her right up until she slams it into your knee (Carnelian fights like a Discworld dwarf, making the most of short stature to knock taller opponents to the ground)

#8xj #jay amethyst #sharky amethyst #cheeky amethyst #famethyst #su headcannons #steven universe #meanwhile everyone watching these two go at it is doing some heavy breathing and sweating of their own #big athletic lesbians with flowing hair and fantasy weapons respectfully beating the shit out of each other might be my aesthetic #my art

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!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My bae!

Flirty with Pearl!

"Let your freak flag fly!"

AAAAA!AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

holy fuck these are great

#I can't see straight I am much too gay

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Telling stories, sharing, being together on a warm summer evening...

This is a crop of an image with an *ahem* very different tone, but I just love this completely SFW piece of it.  They could be talking about anything.  And nothing, and everything.

Please do not tag or reblog with /su/critical/

#bisnet #bismuth #garnet #steven universe #su #su shipping

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Ok!  I’ve updated the colors on my icon:

I hope there will be a lot of commercially available products with the full set of colors soon, so it will be easy to use this flag for everything.

Philadelphia’s new pride flag honors LGBTQ people of color

follow @the-movemnt

#bismuth #pride flag #philadelphia pride flag #su #steven universe

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Inspired by @mummuart‘s 50′s Gems

I tried to color this properly, but I couldn’t get Pear’s makeup to stop looking like a terrifying clown.  So here’s a minimalist take.

#pearlnet #pearl #garnet #fusion dance #50s au #steven universe #su #su au #steven universe au #steven universe fanart #su fanart #fanartception #fanart fanart #mummuart

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Honestly, I would be kind of in crisis if someone bought me a gift that cost as much as 4 months rent and it was SNEAKERS. First of all, do you know what a windfall like that of actually useable resources could do for me and my folks? At least jewelry holds its value and doesn't wear out. Or, if you're going to have one extravagant pair of shoes, at least let them be ones you could wear to, like, a job interview or graduation or your wedding.

Although, I am pretty sure Jay would be like my favorite cousin and want to wear shoes exactly like these to her wedding if she ever had one. (The cousin wore combat boots under her dress, and let me [the flower girl] pick what color she should dye her hair for the wedding. I picked purple.)

I am definitely the kind of person who high key can't handle gifts that are too generous. I cry and try to give them back and it takes me a few days to accept that this just happened and it is ok.

Human Holly Blue Agate and Jay Prime (Amethyst 5-8XJ) from @airyairyquiteinappropriate‘s Petting Zoo fic (NSFW)

I think I realism-ed myself into a corner with this piece going “Shit, I have no idea how to draw/shade that, I had better stay as close to my references as I can” and it quickly snowballed into the single most technically difficult piece I have attempted for any non-fine-art project.  Which is a little bit disproportionate for a reference that maybe 12 people are going to get, so I think I’m going to have to just share these WIPs and move along.  But it’s been fun.  I couldn’t duplicate the effect on Jay’s hair if my life depended on it, as it is made of 98% bullshit, but hey it worked!

AAAAAaaaaannnnndddd… it turns out the age I had in my head for human Holly this whole time was off… by a couple decades.  I guess the whole “dutchess” business got me thinking like,

Half way through sketching this piece I thought I’d re-read the fic, and in the second goddamn sentence it says she is under forty.  

But whatever.  She can be a silver-haired 60+ in my own imagination.  Played by someone along the lines of Helen Mirren, Meryl Streep, Maggie Smith, or Judi Dench, (who gets to have a break and be not-skinny for the part.)   You know, sort of Mama Mia-ish but with lesbians and polyamory? (Which, frankly, would vastly improve Mama Mia:  “Mom, why did you never get in touch with my bio dad?”  “Oh sweety, I am gay as fuck.  And look!  My three girlfriends are here for your wedding!”  And then exactly the same storyline, but forget the dads entirely and all four women end up together.)  Can you tell I grew up with an older mom who likes rom-coms?

#I almost gave up my kitten that way #I was like #NO THIS IS TOO MUCH I CAN'T HANDLE HAVING A KITTEN ALL OF A SUDDEN #And took him to the city shelter before I could get attached #but boy howdy was I too late for that #I ran back to the shelter the next morning like #I HAVE MADE A TERRIBLE MISTAKE I ABANDONED MY ONLY SON #it worked out I got him back #but that's the kind of shit I do when overwhelmingly nice things happen to me

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Human Holly Blue Agate and Jay Prime (Amethyst 5-8XJ) from @airyairyquiteinappropriate‘s Petting Zoo fic (NSFW)

I think I realism-ed myself into a corner with this piece going “Shit, I have no idea how to draw/shade that, I had better stay as close to my references as I can” and it quickly snowballed into the single most technically difficult piece I have attempted for any non-fine-art project.  Which is a little bit disproportionate for a reference that maybe 12 people are going to get, so I think I’m going to have to just share these WIPs and move along.  But it’s been fun.  I couldn’t duplicate the effect on Jay’s hair if my life depended on it, as it is made of 98% bullshit, but hey it worked!

AAAAAaaaaannnnndddd... it turns out the age I had in my head for human Holly this whole time was off... by a couple decades.  I guess the whole “dutchess” business got me thinking like,

Half way through sketching this piece I thought I’d re-read the fic, and in the second goddamn sentence it says she is under forty.  

But whatever.  She can be a silver-haired 60+ in my own imagination.  Played by someone along the lines of Helen Mirren, Meryl Streep, Maggie Smith, or Judi Dench, (who gets to have a break and be not-skinny for the part.)   You know, sort of Mama Mia-ish but with lesbians and polyamory? (Which, frankly, would vastly improve Mama Mia:  “Mom, why did you never get in touch with my bio dad?”  “Oh sweety, I am gay as fuck.  And look!  My three girlfriends are here for your wedding!”  And then exactly the same storyline, but forget the dads entirely and all four women end up together.)  Can you tell I grew up with an older mom who likes rom-coms?

#petting zoo #famblue #holly blue agate #8xj #human au #su au #steven universe #airyairyquitecontrary #airyairyquiteinappropriate

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“Hey, hey there.  It’s ok.  There’s nothing to be embarrassed about.  All of us who have been to war know what it’s like to have lost a lover.”

“We’re here for you, beautiful Pearl.  Just let it wash over you.  You don’t have to do anything right now but feel anyways.  Whatever you need to feel, we’ve got you.”

“So, what kind of Quartz was she… this gem you were in love with?”

“Ah… a… she was… she was a Rose… Quartz, actually.”

“FUuuuuuuuccccckkk….”

“Oh, you poor baby. I’m so sorry.  I am SO sorry.”

“It’s hard enough to… to lose someone.  Without getting politics involved.  My Diamond! You never deserved this. She never deserved…”

“Ahahaha… you don’t know the half of it!  If you only knew what we… what Rose and I… have been through together.  You wouldn’t… It’s all so complicated!  I’m a mess without her. And I’m never without her, and I’m always without her.  If you knew the gem I really am, you wouldn’t be.. I should just go.  I don’t know why I ever thought…”

“Listen you sweet, precious, tender-hearted Pearl.  We’re not the kind of gems who you need to be good enough for.  We’re just here to love you.  All of you. And if this Rose Quartz and her memory are a part of you, well then we’re gunna love that too.  Just love you through it.  You’re all right with us.  Just be here with us right now, and let yourself love and be loved.  Us, and your Rose Quartz, and yourself.  Love, love love.  Ok?”

“Yeah, you don’t have to tell us anything.  You don’t owe us anything.  But there’s literally no baggage you can drop off at our station that we can’t deal with.”

AU where Pearl is loved and supported and accepted by ALL THE BEEFY QUARTZ BEAUTIES she could ever want.

(first post on a new blog- support of any kind is appreciated!)

#pearl #famethyst #8xj #sharky amethyst #pearlmethyst #sort of #jaspearl #also sort of #holly blue agate #if you want #the soft-eyed lioness in the middle is my favorite background Amethyst who comforts Y6 after Greg breaks his heart #Who I headcanon as #7XK #the existential grunt from #holly blue agate is desperate pass it on #Kay #steven universe #su #pearlrose #crying #8xj amethyst #cheeky amethyst #su au