averagenickyrothfan

[averagenickyrothfan]

Diary Entry

I've decided to leave. Once and for all. I have to.

How am I supposed to face them again? To look them in the eyes every morning with the face of the son that isn't theirs. Their son wouldn't have come to them to tell them what they already knew. He wouldn't be failing his classes. Their son was an "unmotivated genius".

I made her cry again, and maybe it's my own guilt showing through, but it felt like she cried more hearing the words she knew were coming than when they finally found me. Found the thing that replaced their child and ruined his life.

If I had become anything at all, following after them, or becoming an engineer, or even just a member of society that did more than bus dishes and flip burgers, they would've been happy. But instead, I'm nothing. I'll always be nothing now.

I tried so hard to keep up with everything, I even thought I was doing okay for a while but no, I just couldn't. Almost ten essential credits short. 20 failed classes in four years. I couldn't do it.

They'd never see their boy in a cap and gown. They will never see him walk up on a stage after someone spoke the name "Nicholas Roth" for all to hear.

I still don't know which hurt more to see, mom burying her head in dad's shoulder, or dad lying through his teeth.

"It's okay" if it was mom wouldn't be crying.

"There are plenty of amazing people who dropped out" of college. Geniuses dropped out of college. Only idiots couldn't graduate highschool.

"It's not your fault, I mean, he told us this might happen" But they didn't want to believe it, why would they? Their son couldn't still be so broken from something that happened in middle school. Who cares if he still has to take medication and put a sack on his head just to fall asleep? If he struggled to even sit in a classroom without having a panic attack? He was better than what some doctor thought. He was stronger than that.

Nicholas Michael Roth was. I wasn't.

Trinity is letting me stay with her. I don't know for how long until we both decide I might have better chances sitting in an alleyway and rotting.

I've failed everyone and will continue to fail, I just know it.

My parents, my partners, the club...

Aaron...

Makes me wish I'd died in that stupid basement.

#delicious nicky angst #hes so relatable #i get him #heart emoji x100000

[averagenickyrothfan]

in stars and time, ey...? :)

IVAN: Nicky? What's wrong..?

MARITZA: Yo, basement kid, why's he lookin at you like that?

AARON: I can't do anything to change it...! There's nothing I can do! Nothing!

AARON: I should have known it would do something like this...

ENZO: Huh? What are you talking about?

TRINITY: Nicky?

NICKY: (You can't move.)

NICKY: (Your body won't respond to you.)

TRINITY: Nicky, what's- ah!

IVAN: What's going on..?!

MARITZA: The air feels so heavy all of a sudden- what the hell?!

ENZO: How is this- What is-

AARON: This is all my fault. If only I hadn't...

TRINITY: NICKY!!!

NICKY: (They're all reaching towards you.)

NICKY: (Look at them. Trying to reach out to you. Trying to grab you.)

NICKY: (Trying to *save* you.)

NICKY: (You really are an idiot.)

TRINITY: Nicky, get over here! Something is wrong!

NICKY: (You can't move, no matter how much you want to.)

MARITZA: Nicky, get your dumb butt over here!!!

NICKY: (They don't know it yet. Not like you do.)

ENZO: Nicky, please...!

NICKY: (It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter how far you run. How loud you scream. Or how much you help your friends.)

IVAN: Nicky!!!

NICKY: (You can't escape it.)

AARON: I just hope that one day...

NICKY: (You know his lines by heart.)

AARON: You might learn-

NICKY: (You can't stop smiling.)

AARON: To forgive-

Start Again.

#hello neighbor #hello neighbor welcome to raven brooks #welcome to raven brooks #wtrb #fanart #hello neighbour au #trinity bales #nicky roth #enzo esposito #maritza esposito #ivan torre #aaron peterson

[averagenickyrothfan]

do you guys think putting nicky in a timeloop would fix him

#nicky fan original

[averagenickyrothfan]

just a simple doodle lol

#hello neighbor #hello neighbor welcome to raven brooks #welcome to raven brooks #wtrb #nicky roth #fanart

[averagenickyrothfan]

When I Was Done Dying - Dan Deacon

if i could properly motivate myself i would actually make this an edit or animatic lol

#hello neighbor #hello neighbor welcome to raven brooks #hello neighbour au #welcome to raven brooks #wtrb #nicky roth #theodore peterson #trinity bales #fanart

[averagenickyrothfan]

people love my self indulgent au comics

#hello neighbor #hello neighbor welcome to raven brooks #hello neighbour au #welcome to raven brooks #wtrb #nicky roth #trinity bales #fanart

[averagenickyrothfan]

As a fellow Nicky fan I love this blog 😀👍

YAY im very glad. bc i love drawing nicky and putting him in Situations. its good for my health

not for his tho lol

#nicky fan original #ask #fazbearedits

[averagenickyrothfan]

why is writing fics hard 💔💔💔 i just wanna write guest eldritch horror living house angst propaganda....

#nicky fan original

[averagenickyrothfan]

apologize apologize apologize

#hello neighbor welcome to raven brooks #hello neighbor #welcome to raven brooks #wtrb #nicky roth #so much blood #blood tw #blood cw #angst #??? #idk how to tag shit sorry everypony #fanart

[averagenickyrothfan]

by the way does anyone have good screenshots from the show. i wanna redraw a few in my art style. smiles.

#nicky fan original

[averagenickyrothfan]

@thewokemachine my gift to you... sorry enzo looks like ass this is my first time drawing him lol. anyways gay people real 👍

#hello neighbor welcome to raven brooks #hello neighbor #welcome to raven brooks #nicky roth #enzo esposito #nenzo #ducktales on the ps3 #nicky roth x ezo esposito #nicky x enzo #fanart

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i kno they knocked him out here but can u imagine them walkin thru the house with nicky being like "guys... um... what if we were friends with mr peterson!!" and everyone else is like "dude..."

Mr. Peterson's Guest: A Hello Neighbor Fanfic

By JJ

Summary: Nicky's been in the basement for a while now, and he seems to have lost more than his freedom.

Gift for @averagenickyrothfan

Trinity woke up, rubbing her temple. It hurt like hell. The first thing she saw was a window, she immediately got up and ran to it, but her hopes had been smashed to bits when she found out it was all just a charcoal drawing.

Just then, everyone else woke up, rubbing their temples.

"Where the hell are we?", Maritza asked.

"I don't know, but I don't like it! I don't want to die in here!", Ivan screamed.

Trinity ran to console Ivan, wrapping her arms around him. Everyone jumped up when they heard another voice.

"Guys! You're here!"

In the corner of the room, they saw Nicky. Nicky had been missing for weeks, Trinity knew he was down here in Mr. Peterson's basement, because she had helped him come in here. She couldn't do much from her room, and she knew if she told anyone, no one would believe her.

Trinity ran to Nicky and wrapped her arms around him.

"Nicky! Oh my God! Thank goodness you're okay! We were so worried!", she cried into his shoulder. She jumped back when she saw the giant laceration on her friend's arm.

"Your arm..."

"Oh, this? Yeah, one of my escape plans failed, and I accidentally cut myself. Mr. Peterson promised me he'd clean it, but I guess he forgot."

Maritza rolled her eyes. She tore off a piece of her shirt and wrapped it around Nicky's arm. "I know it won't do much, but it'll stop the bleeding."

"Thank you so much, Maritza."

"Yeah, whatever."

"Enough chit chat!", Trinity said. "We have to get out of here! Everyone start looking for a way out!", she ran to the door and started twisting the knob as hard as she could.

"No. Trinity, I don't want to leave."

Everyone turned to Nicky in shock.

"I don't want to leave the basement. I'm safe here, everything's okay."

"Nicky, everything is NOT okay. You've been missing for weeks, and people are starting to get worried.", said Enzo.

"Did anyone put up missing posters?"

"No."

"Were there any search parties?"

"No."

"Did either of my parents go crying to the police trying to find me?"

"Not that I know of."

"That doesn't sound like people are worried.", Nicky said. "They're all happy I'm gone. I don't blame them, though. I was such a jerk, I was a bad boy. Down here, I can be a good person. I have a playmate, and they're really nice as long as I play games with them."

Trinity was so fucking confused.

"But Mr. Peterson -"

"Is such a great caretaker. He's been feeding me, and he only let me out of the basement to go to the bathroom or when he wanted to make renovations. I know that sounds crazy, but I got used to it."

"Nicky, you're not making any sense!"

"He's just a lonely man who just wants a family, and he thinks I'm the perfect candidate. It makes sense since I've been stalking him and breaking into his house for the past few months."

"But -"

"And you guys are here with me! That makes it even better! Now I'm not alone!"

Trinity grabbed Nicky by the shoulders and shook him aggressively. "Nicky! He's clearly broken you! Don't you remember? He's not a lonely old man, he's a fucking psychopath!"

Nicky pushed Trinity away. "Don't say that! If you guys want to leave here, then go for it! But I'm not leaving."

"Oh yes you are.", Maritza said before hitting Nicky over the head with a loose board.

Nicky fell over, now unconscious. Trinity hoisted the boy over her shoulder, like she was going to carry him.

"We have to get out of here."

#fanart #blood tw #<- ?

[averagenickyrothfan]

Mr. Peterson's Guest: A Hello Neighbor Fanfic

By JJ

Summary: Nicky's been in the basement for a while now, and he seems to have lost more than his freedom.

Gift for @averagenickyrothfan

Trinity woke up, rubbing her temple. It hurt like hell. The first thing she saw was a window, she immediately got up and ran to it, but her hopes had been smashed to bits when she found out it was all just a charcoal drawing.

Just then, everyone else woke up, rubbing their temples.

"Where the hell are we?", Maritza asked.

"I don't know, but I don't like it! I don't want to die in here!", Ivan screamed.

Trinity ran to console Ivan, wrapping her arms around him. Everyone jumped up when they heard another voice.

"Guys! You're here!"

In the corner of the room, they saw Nicky. Nicky had been missing for weeks, Trinity knew he was down here in Mr. Peterson's basement, because she had helped him come in here. She couldn't do much from her room, and she knew if she told anyone, no one would believe her.

Trinity ran to Nicky and wrapped her arms around him.

"Nicky! Oh my God! Thank goodness you're okay! We were so worried!", she cried into his shoulder. She jumped back when she saw the giant laceration on her friend's arm.

"Your arm..."

"Oh, this? Yeah, one of my escape plans failed, and I accidentally cut myself. Mr. Peterson promised me he'd clean it, but I guess he forgot."

Maritza rolled her eyes. She tore off a piece of her shirt and wrapped it around Nicky's arm. "I know it won't do much, but it'll stop the bleeding."

"Thank you so much, Maritza."

"Yeah, whatever."

"Enough chit chat!", Trinity said. "We have to get out of here! Everyone start looking for a way out!", she ran to the door and started twisting the knob as hard as she could.

"No. Trinity, I don't want to leave."

Everyone turned to Nicky in shock.

"I don't want to leave the basement. I'm safe here, everything's okay."

"Nicky, everything is NOT okay. You've been missing for weeks, and people are starting to get worried.", said Enzo.

"Did anyone put up missing posters?"

"No."

"Were there any search parties?"

"No."

"Did either of my parents go crying to the police trying to find me?"

"Not that I know of."

"That doesn't sound like people are worried.", Nicky said. "They're all happy I'm gone. I don't blame them, though. I was such a jerk, I was a bad boy. Down here, I can be a good person. I have a playmate, and they're really nice as long as I play games with them."

Trinity was so fucking confused.

"But Mr. Peterson -"

"Is such a great caretaker. He's been feeding me, and he only let me out of the basement to go to the bathroom or when he wanted to make renovations. I know that sounds crazy, but I got used to it."

"Nicky, you're not making any sense!"

"He's just a lonely man who just wants a family, and he thinks I'm the perfect candidate. It makes sense since I've been stalking him and breaking into his house for the past few months."

"But -"

"And you guys are here with me! That makes it even better! Now I'm not alone!"

Trinity grabbed Nicky by the shoulders and shook him aggressively. "Nicky! He's clearly broken you! Don't you remember? He's not a lonely old man, he's a fucking psychopath!"

Nicky pushed Trinity away. "Don't say that! If you guys want to leave here, then go for it! But I'm not leaving."

"Oh yes you are.", Maritza said before hitting Nicky over the head with a loose board.

Nicky fell over, now unconscious. Trinity hoisted the boy over her shoulder, like she was going to carry him.

"We have to get out of here."

#OH MY GOD???? #THIS IS SI GOOD THANK YOU???? #smiles. giggles. thinks about him #thank you so much!!!!!!!

[averagenickyrothfan]

i think the house is alive. i think the house is malevolent. i think the house is hungry.

im so normal about houses guys please believe me

#hello neighbor welcome to raven brooks #welcome to raven brooks #wtrb #nicky roth #hello neighbor #comic #fanart

[averagenickyrothfan]

do we all agree mr peterson's house is Alive or am i just a freak abt houses

#nicky fan original #<- tag for non art posts

[averagenickyrothfan]

guys look i can also draw things that arent sketches. sorry the only thing i draw is nicky crying and nicky being possessed. this will not change

#hello neighbor #hello neighbor welcome to raven brooks #welcome to raven brooks #nicky roth #wtrb #fanart

[averagenickyrothfan]

can u guys guess my favorite character. sorry.... i promise i like the others i just love drawing characters crying and shivering and being miserable its enrichment for me

anyways ignore how i draw his hair different every time. and that i forgot his freckles in half the drawings. u didnt see nothin shhhhh

#fanart