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I walked 4 miles in 80 minutes today. This time last year, I could barely walk 4 minutes without stopping for a break. It got easier as I chipped away at it. I’ll do the same with marketing my book series until it’s a bestseller. Anything is possible. ✨manifesting ✨

#manifesting #empowerment #i’m so proud #i can do this

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I love that she stayed in character.

they shouldve kept this in

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I once found a mixed CD on the street outside my house. It had “Wonderwall” written on it with black marker. I took it inside and listened to it. So many great songs were on there, “One Headlight” among them. I wanted to keep the CD so badly, but something told me it was in the street for a reason, so I put it in a pink jewel case (if you remember those) and set it on the sidewalk. It was gone the next morning. I hope the person who was meant to have it got it back.

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They’re judging your life choices. And mine.

#cats #cats of tumblr #judgment

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THE X FILES 7.07

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At a glance, this is a random assortment of grocery items. But it’s more a representation of my little family. Sandor’s favorite chips, my favorite chocolate, and one can of the cats’ favorite food. Because everyone deserves to have what they like the most.

❤️❤️❤️❤️

#favorite #a sign of affection

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THE X-FILES | 2.03

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Frederick, CO for the win on nostalgia today.

#nostalgia #pay phone

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Such a pretty kitty.

#pretty kitty #cats of tumblr #cats

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It’s at times like this, when I can’t sleep, that I think of all the other times life has redirected me. All the times I wished for things that didn’t come true. All the times I cried. All the times I was sure I’d reached my limit. And now I’m here. I’ll know the reason some day.

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There’s nothing quite like the smell of old paper. I cracked open the next box of my romance book inheritance from my aunt, and it’s like a waft of perfume. Beautiful.

#old books #perfume #I could bathe in it

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Every time someone adds one of my books to their Goodreads “to-read” shelf my grateful author hearts leaps like a little froggy going “ribbit, ribbit, ribbit!”

#goodreads #so excited #thanks for reading

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Tell me more about my eyes.

#cats #cats of tumblr #my cat #catlover

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(same anon) what do you think sculy's actions in never again are brought on by? stress? loneliness? her cancer? SORRY but i just really wanna hear you talk more about this episode which i agree is fantastic

I think it’s a combination of a lot of things, but not her cancer. I mean, it’s easy to read it that way but the truth is that the episode was actually supposed to air BEFORE Leonard Betts, not after, so Gillian played this episode as if Scully didn’t know that she had cancer, so that’s how I choose to interpret it. Gillian said she’d have definitely played it differently had she known the episode would air out of order.

Scully’s actions are brought on by a lot of things, but most importantly I think she’s recognizing something in her life and relationship with Mulder that is starting to really worry her the deeper she goes into it. Scully is recognizing and voicing the opinion that I absolutely remember having upon my first watch of the show which is: what is Scully getting out of this and how does it make her feel that Mulder occasionally, inadvertently, treats her like a sidekick and takes her for granted? It was so refreshing to me to know that Scully not only SEES this, but is willing to say something about it.

The unfortunate thing is that she doesn’t communicate it well and then lashes out when her statements (which are wrapped up in passive aggressive commentary on her lack of office furniture) end up being misread by Mulder. Mulder’s at his absolute worst in this episode but I love it because it’s nice to see them be real. It’s nice to see the “ideal” partners fuck up.

So Scully is a lot of things in Never Again but the thing she is the most is unsure. Unsure where she’s going in her life, unsure how she’s somehow been here for four years without her name on the door or a desk to show to the outside world that she belongs here, unsure what she wants to get out of this journey, unsure how she fits in the office and in Mulder’s life. 

So yes, she’s stressed and she’s lonely but she’s also just needing some steady ground to stand on and The X-Files and Mulder do not provide that for her because a) they can’t and b) she doesn’t make it clear that that’s what she actually needs. So she rebels against what she thinks is holding her back because that’s what she does. That’s Scully’s admitted pattern. 

Never Again is so good because it was a matter of time. It was a long time coming, in my opinion, for Scully to stop and say “hey, wait a minute, what have I gotten myself into and where am I going?” and I love the fact that it doesn’t really work. It doesn’t play out the way the audience would want it to. It doesn’t end up with a nice desk waiting for her with a bow on it because Mulder understands the problem. It doesn’t end up with Scully feeling more secure in her job/life with Mulder. It ends in painful, awkward silence because these are two people who became so entwined with each other and it happened without them realizing it and now nobody knows whose life is whose anymore.

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I think this is it, my favorite X Files gif. Reasons include, but are not limited to: 1) beer; 2) fish tank; 3) Mulder’s couch; 4) Scully is fairly happy; 5) clink; 6) the look on Scully’s face as she tries to gauge her partner’s reaction; 7) Mulder in a black t-shirt; 8) Scully in a just a normal white shirt; 9) bowl of popcorn; and 10) Scully’s dainty pinky when she holds her beer.

Anything I missed?

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Link in bio.

#free ebooks #free smut #valentines day

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It was 7 years ago today I went to the tattoo convention in Philly and asked a burly artist to give me a T-Rex on my middle finger. He laughed so hard I thought he’d hurt himself. He said it was his favorite piece all day. ❤️🥰🦖

His name is Thaddeus, btw.

#tattoos #t rex #rawr means i love you in dinosaur