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the whole point of fanfic is to read about a guy who is literally just existing and then everything goes wrong and then everything goes wrong and then everything goes wrong and then everything goes wrong and then he fucks nasty style and then everything goes wrong and then everything gets all cute for a moment and then everything goes wrong and then everything goes wrong and th- Chapters: 35/? Updated: 2022-09-05

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Do you care about detransitioners or do you care about gnc people re-conforming to the expectations of their assigned sex? Do you care about lesbians, gay men, bi people, and any other gnc person, or do you care about hyperfeminine women supposedly being “nature’s counterpart” to hypermasculine men, both of whom are expected to perform heterosexuality and only heterosexuality (these concepts, in the Western world, backed up by oppressive Christian ideals)? Do you care about doctors and surgeons, most of whom are NOT TRANS OR GNC, coercing gnc people into “acceptable” binary gender and promoting treatments that can sometimes decrease quality of life and cause health issues, or are you only interested in pointing & laughing at trans people and gnc people because you consider us to be freaks of nature? Do I embarrass you? Does my noncompliance make your skin crawl?

Do you only celebrate detransitioners “finding ourselves” when that involves re-conforming to the standards we initially ran from, or do you support those of us (in fact, a majority) who still look to the outside world like trans people/gnc nonbinary people and are treated as such? Do you actually believe that biological sex exists regardless of physical appearance, chromosomes, secondary sex characteristics, “gendered” behavior, and sexual orientation, or are you a servant of the binary gender spectrum just like those you claim to disagree with?

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Me towards cishets: Okay, so the short version is if I had to choose a binary gender I’d not even have to think before choosing to be a guy

Also me: if you would like to really get into shit. First off, I’m agender-genderqueer. Like, both. That’s not negotiable. I’m agender in a way that’s inherently genderqueer. And I’m genderqueer in a way that feels like a lot of nothing but like, queer nothing. But I’m also masc. But that’s dependent on me being agender-genderqueer first and foremost. Masc like a planet drifting through the vastness of agender & genderqueer. Like, you need to understand that I’m agender-genderqueer and only within that, within that framework, I’m masc. my gender is a whole lot of dark swirliness but it’s masc in nature swirliness. I’m more transneutral, but because that isn’t an achievable transition goal in the way I want it to be, I’m transneu-masc. I’m an agender guy, a genderqueer guy, because I’m only a guy in the sense that I like the word. I’m not a boy, I’m not a man. But a guy in like a genderneutral way. In an “adjacent to masculinity” way. In a “it isn’t entirely correct but let’s just stick with it” way. In an “if you say masc you have to say agender” and an “if you say masc you have to say genderqueer” way. Because I claim “guy” and make it genderneutral. My gender is the vast emptiness of agender and the swirling, bouncing lavalamp-blobs of genderqueer. But perceive me as a guy. I am no more masc than the color green. No more masc than the color purple. My gender is nothing but that nothing is queer to its core. And where the river of agender and the river of genderqueer intermingle, there drifts a tiny little paper boat of masculinity. The few, meticulously placed off-color masc stitches on my cross-stitch tapestry of agender-genderqueerness.

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does anyone else here have a weird connection to intelligence? i really try not to define myself after something that literally cant be changed by me but theres something about it and IQ scores where im like "if im very intelligent then i hold a lot of value."

i hate it and i want to get it out of my head but it feels like i looked into Pandora's box and now i cant get it out of my head anymore..

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anyway stream montero

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Painted a Swallow-tailed Kite. These are such magical-looking birds!

#birdwatching #swallow tailed kite #birds #ornithology #digital painting #chrismho #artblr #artists on tumblr #pastel pink #pastel aesthetic #birdwatcher #digital art

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stole this meme from twitter

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#These kens are gay for each other #anime #neon genesis evangelion #shinji ikari #kaworu nagisa #kawoshin #barbie

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This gif out of context will never not be funny.

First of all, Belch looking like he’s amused himself by saying something stupid. Like there’s not fucking way anyone else said anything to him. Look at them, nobody said shit. Homeboy is just laughing at nothing.

Next we have Patrick. Looking gay af my boy. I mean you’re just smiling at Ritchie from down the hall. I know it’s because he’s about to bully him. But like Patrick my love, that’s a bit obsessive. You find way to much joy in bullying this kid. Not gonna lie, I think it turns him on. But also, who the fuck stands Like that? Get your thumbs out your back pocket boy, you ain’t from Texas. Get yourself a cowboy hat while you’re at it and trade out them Docs for cowboy boots.

Henry, Henry looks like a fucking toddler throwing a tantrum. Wtf is he looking at? He’s just kinda standing there. Like he looks like he hasn’t had a single thought in weeks. Head fucking empty. He’s so zoned you’d have to tackle him to bring him back to reality. Like does he do that often or is he just being pissy for no reason? Also can we talk about his bracelets? Which one of the Bowers Gang made them for him? 🤨 who was it?!?

Last but not least, my baby Victor. Over here looking like a blonde Troy Sivan. The fit, whack. Only Billy Loomis can get away with being that fucking boring when it comes to fashion. But that’s because he’s a main fucking character. Who are you Victor? What’s you’re personality? Why are you even here? Next thing you know homies gonna break in your house singing “it’s gonna be me!” I don’t know guys, I think he likes Huey Lewis and the News. Bout to have his “Hey Paul!” Moment. But my sweet baby boy, what are you looking at? He’s not looking at Reginald, and he’s looking past Patrick. And again with the pocket thumbs, like you look like you forgot how to use your arms buddy. Relax a little.

Like nobody in this group looks like they want to be in this fucking group. I don’t believe they ever actually talk about anything. When they aren’t bullying the losers they just sit in silence in Belch’s truck while Madonna plays softly in the background. Then Patrick just fiddles with his knife, Henry runs his hands through his mullet 500 times. Belch is tapping his fingers, but trying to pretend like he’s not enjoying himself. And Vic, Vic even forgot he was there. You can’t tell me these boys don’t fuck, cause what else are they doing spending so much time together? 🧐

#bowers #henry bowers #bowers game #it #it 2017 #Patrick hocksetter #victor criss #belch huggins

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Can we talk about the toxicity against queer men in fandom for wanting spaces to ourselves.

I'm a hirbdog weirdo but sometimes I just want stupid casual non sexuak spaces yet everything I sear h for them I'm just met with more negativity and misandristic BS.

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I want to escape from the anti-mlm and masandristic toxicity, but this terf shit ieverywhere you go in fandom.

#mlm community

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I despise gringey fandom queer politics but sometimes I truly wish for mlm/gay/trans only spaces.

Like is too much to ask for a quirky, nerdy, gay-boy friend group where we live in an isolated world of gay dude supremacy.

I can't take listening to to straight women talk about men in a straight way.

I WANNA HEAR ABOUT MEN IN A QUEER WAY!

Like straight women get tooo comfortable and treat us like we're their accessories. Bi guys get fucking erased and obliterated so there's hardly any to interact with. Gay spaces that aren't toxic are always sexual and hardly ever just chill and nerdy unless it's reddit or Discord (that should speak for itself). And don't even get me started on the mind-numbing tenderqueer politics f a lot of trans guys spaces. And usually no one interested in anything I like so there's just zero people to connect with.

GAY GUYS RULE AND IM SO MAD THAT IM NOT SURROUNDED BY THEM 24/7!

WHERE ARE MY BI GUYS, WHERE ARE MY ROCK GUYS, WHERE ARE MY QUIRKY FEMS!

I CANT TAKE BEING SURROUNDED BY ANYONE BUT QUEER MEN!

Anyways I'm in the trenches delusionally fantasies about my 90's-2000's middle/high school group of a bunch of looser boys who really like the popular guys at school and insult eachother like insecure pre-teens over who's the hottest and everyone is mlm and it's a perfect gay paradise the end.

#gay posting #mlm only #gay only #bi only #queer men rule #gay men rule #trans men rule #bi men rule #men likers>>> #gay supremacy #trans man supremacy #bi man supremacy #gay positivity #trans male positivity #bi male positivity #male queerness #i love men #men rule #men are beautiful #mlm please interact #im so gay #gay #mlm #gay yearning #gay youth #gay thoughts #gay community #bi mlm #gay trans

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♫ Venez à moi.. ♪

I like to believe Lestat sings to Louis, and Louis is happy to put his book down to listen.

#interview with the vampire #interview with the vampire fanart #iwtv #iwtv 2022 #iwtv series #lestat de lioncourt #louis de pointe du lac #lestat x louis #loustat #the vampire chronicles #anne rice #sam reid #jacob anderson #vampire #lgbt #lgbtq #gay #digital art #art #sketch

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I'm literally Patrick bateman and an Astral femboy. You can't fuckung stop me.

#gender posting

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Having very little internal sense of race while simultaneously being genderquuer and traumatized is so fucking wild.

I'll associate myself with the gendered vibe of a person or character and even use them as internal persona within my mind and then I'll look into the mirror and realize I am, in fact, not a traumatized Asian girl. Or a quirky golden receiver white boy. Or a toxic sad girl. Or a gruff old man. Or a regal queen. Or a-.

I very much love myself and my body But my five thousand disassociative disorders dictate that I need 1 million different characters to represent every emotional,psychological, and gendered state and my non socialized brain that never interacted with enough people to strictly internalize racial, sexual, and gender concepts/groups so it does not care who im mentally attaching to. As long as you fit the aesthetic and I associate with you, I will parasitically steal your identity.

I've had one too many gender-criciseas over whether I am actually a trans girl because on an genderless day I was feeling rather fem and was kinning a female character heavily and my agander disassociated mind confused that for being proper feminine gender.

I'm so unsocialized im borderline autistic dispite being neuro-typical.

So no, I am not goblin boy denji or prodigal Albedo. I am not Rick and morty and homura akemi.

I am a weird black guy with too many fictional fixations.

End monthly gender/self perception rant.

#kin #fiction kin #self perception #otherkin #agender #boyflux #internalized race #racial perception #gendered perception #structural dissociation #genderqueer #amab genderqueer #black queer #gay posting #poc posting #poc things #gender hell #monthly gender crisis #gender crisis #identity crisis