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Does anyone remember / know the jily fanfiction where Lily and James are head boy and girl. I think they have their own Heads apartment. Lily is an outcast and James is still popular and bullied and humiliated her in front of their classmates. But then they start a secret relationship and she’s being harassed with notes and sick drawings of her. She thinks it’s James at first but when he finds them he’s super upset someone is doing this to her. She then suspects Sirius and tells James but he knows it’s not him. They find out it’s actually regulus. And then Sirius and James get into a tiny spat because of Lily and regulus but talk it out and understand where the other is coming from. It was never finished and ends there. I had read it on fanfic net.

Please help

#jily #jily fanfiction #jily fic

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Sometimes I open Ao3 as one would a fridge in the middle of the night. Hungry, but not willing to commit to anything that is in there and hopping a miracle will make something new and appetising appear out of thin air if only I close it and open again.

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same person

#charmed

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#sad boi Chris looking down to hide his smiles 🥹

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I'm not big, but I wouldn't say I'm small.

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Modern Bridgerton Brides (+ additional notes from Ginny Delacroix )

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The thing about Colin...

So I've been seeing a lot of discourse lately about how Polin shippers never seem to care about Colin. And it made me realize I've never actually done a deep dive on why I find his character so interesting. The way I've done with Anthony and sometimes Benedict. So let's have a talk about Colin Bridgerton

I am very much attached to book Colin in the sense that in RMB we get to see something cute Luke hasn't shown yet: the depth behind his smiling face. And pretty much in the same way Hunger games movie viewers don't realize how they become part of the capitol when they reduce Katniss struggle to just her relationship with Peeta and Gale. Colin Bridgerton is the perfect example of how we become part of 'the ton' when we reduce Colin to simply his smiling happy go lucky looking self.

Because Colin is a great friend, I've said it many times, I would love to have a friend like him, he's very loyal, wouldn't abandon someone in need if he could help it, he has a great sense of humor, he is supportive and kind, roots for the people he loves and encourages them to follow their dreams. It makes sense for his favorite sister to be Daphne because, during Daphne's book, the reason she couldn't find a husband was because men got to know her and saw her as such a good friend it didn't register that she was also a woman.

Colin on the outside is in fact the quintessential happy, smiling, friendly gentleman. Penelope thinks that, lady Whistledown writes that. We as readers are fooled into thinking that as well. This is where it gets fun.

Because there's a point in the narrative where Colin shows his dark side and the reader is like 'wait where did that come from? I've never seen him act like that before ' and of course you didn't dear reader, you're the ton, you're the person who only knows him from Lady Whistledown. That's the trick. Because he didn't show his dark side to you! He's never shown it to anyone! He's charming Colin!

And this is where I absolutely love Colin. Because yes, he's funny and charming and a riot to hang out with, he's well read, well traveled and an excellent conversationalist. But behind all that, is a man who feels deeply and loves passionately and gets easily frustrated, what I mean to say is that underneath Charming Colin, is someone completely different who doesn't know how to break out of the label everyone has put on him for so many years and expresses his emotions in a clumsy extravagant way that is so Colin. Also behold, surprise surprise, he has a temper, he's got a responsible streak that's more in line with Anthony's years of conditioning than he would care to admit. And insecurities about his place in the world that lead him to lash out a time or two.

So if you ask me, I like the Colin we get to know underneath the superficial charming Colin thing he's got going on, more than I like the version we get in Lady Whistledown.

And it's funny seeing so many show viewers take his character at face value. Even Polin shippers, write him off as ' cute cuddly wouldn't harm a fly Colin, super friendly, clueless Colin ' when he's actually one of the most deep characters there is, exactly because he's a social chameleon and tailors himself to be what he thinks people expect him to be. As a third son, as a brother and as a friend. Never actually showing anyone his negative side because he thinks people won't like him any more ( and from the comments I see dissing his characterization in RMB that may very well be true)

The man may not have created a whole alter ego to blow off his negative emotions but believe me he has them and he's self aware enough to know he's expected to never show them. Which is actually worse in the long run because he ends up a mess of surpressed dissatisfaction and frustration.

Maybe that's what I find so interesting about him that his character is just as two faced as Penelope. I'm not saying that Colin isn't genuinely nice and funny and friendly. I'm saying he's not like that 24/7 and that he pretends he is just to cover up his insecurities. Because deep down he wants to be liked and doesn't tolerate rejection well.

It takes a lot for him to come to terms with the fact that he wants to be liked for who he truly is and not just for the mask he puts up Infront of the ton and his family. Assimilating both his happy go lucky charming side, with his darker more temperamental and dominant side that he never showed to people before. It's as much of a journey of self discovery for Colin as it is for the reader.

I had hopes that in s3 we actually were led to find out that no Colin isn't actually some clueless himbo all the time, because underneath that he's just as restless and dissatisfied with himself as the rest of his family but he doesn't show it. I would love for s3 to take us behind the scenes of clueless Colin to show us exactly all those sides of him he doesn't share with anyone else. But I don't know, maybe Shondaland will keep him just as friendly and seemingly wonderful as it's been showing him so far.

And that's the tea

#polin

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Seems ao3 is down. I’m glad I was already on the last chapter of a fic so I could finish reading but I wanted to post my comment

#ao3 down #ao3

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#bridgerton #polin

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㋡🥀

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A (non-definitive) rating of Polin S1 & S2 touches for Polin Day

#polin #bridgerton

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So I’m not really active in jily fandom anymore, so forgive me because I’ve totally drawn a blank as to which wonderful writer has created algernon but this screamed James Potter’s cat, Algernon, to me

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Cbk4gUqJf_I/?utm_medium=copy_link

#harry potter #jily #jily fanfiction #james potter

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favortive gendya moments?

#gendrya

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My Gendry art through 2020~2023

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dair + art history (part one/?)

you and me, milt kobayashi / the storm, pierre-auguste cot / the kiss, francesco hayez / the bed, henri de toulouse-lautrec

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Question for your take on it: Why do you believe the writers made Dan and Blair’s first sex scene an awkward one?

Well, this is what Joshua Safran said about it

“For us, it’s more the fact that Dan has loved Blair for a long time and when you have those expectations for a very long time, they can cause problems because so much is riding on it,” Safran said. “For Blair, dating Dan Humphrey is not years in the making as it might be for Dan for her. There’s all those expectations of like, ‘Am I going here and what does this mean? We’ve been friends for so long, can we really transition?’ It’s both fun and reflective.”

I find it interesting that he said 'years in the making' with regards to Dan loving Blair because I was like ... he didn't love her before season 4 and it isn't years between season 4 and season 5 so that's ... interesting.

But for me I was like, I think it makes sense because this isn't Chair and Chuck and Blair's physical and sexual chemistry is the transcendental aspect of their relationship, like everything is tied up in it, which is why Chuck couldn't have sex with anyone else in season 2 and which is why they hold out on having sex with each other until one of them admits to loving the other but the sexual tension is eating away at them

and even on a lesser scale, Dan and Serena have a very significant physical and sexual chemistry, which is why this was said when Dan might have sex with someone else

Dan and Blair are unparalleled here

this is what comes easy to them, the physical aspect takes a bit more time, like Leighton said:

"I’ve always loved the dynamic between Blair and Dan even though she’s constantly going back and forth with Chuck. Blair finds Chuck to be much more sexually provocative and they have always had this very erotic chemistry. With Dan it’s different. They have more meaningful conversations and she finds something so attractive about that."

but what was really great about that wasn't that they didn't have physical chemistry at all, it was that there had been so much pressure like Safran said, there was all this build-up and desire to have sex with each other and they got in their heads about it

so all they needed to do was relax and not think too much about how monumental the act is and then they had hot elevator sex

and then just sex ... everywhere in New York?