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Today so far:

- coffee with 125ml of oat milk

- 1cup rice crispies with 125ml oat milk

- 2 eggs, 32g cheddar cheese, handful of kale, handful of spinach, around 7g of butter, 1tsp oil, 1 slice of granary bread and 1tbsp of ketchup

(Scrambled eggs with cheese, kale, spinach and toast)

I’m going to drink some water now and then go for a walk. Going to aim for 3k ish, would go further but my dog is old and she can’t walk too far. I’ve reclaimed my gallon water bottle and I’m getting through it slowly, the timings start at 7am though so I’m a bit behind because I only started drinking at 9…

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Okay so 1st of April is pretty much done and gone so I’m gonna give you an overview:

Things I’m glad I did:

- washed my face morning and night

- at breakfast (oats with cinnamon)

- skipped lunch

- took both rounds of medication

- didn’t binge on dinner/sweets afterwards

Things I wish I did and will try to do tomorrow:

- go on a proper walk (I walked a bit but I don’t feel like it was enough)

- workout

- tidy my room

- drink more water (gonna try to get a gallon in tomorrow)

Overall I’m glad with how today went just because it’s the first time in a long time that I’ve genuinely felt in control of my eating. My IBS pain was so so bad today though which made it feel less satisfying because of the bloating. Tonight, I’m in bed and I don’t feel uncomfortably full and in pain, and I feel full enough to be satisfied but not stuffed. I have a slight urge to binge but I need to learn to ignore that (I’m trying to break the binge-purge cycle).

Today’s food:

- Quaker Oats cinnamon sachet with 60ml plant milk and a teaspoon of honey

- 2 kiwis

- black coffee

- Coke Zero

- tuna steak with cooked cabbage, green beans and potatoes

- 14 jellytots

- 6 squares of green and blacks 70% dark chocolate

- tea with 60ml oat milk

The lasts two were just to avoid binging and to participate with my family. If I don’t let myself have a little bit, I know I’m more likely to binge.

Hope your day went okay :)

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Happy April

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My stats: If you look right to the bottom (September), that’s my goal weight and when I’ll be starting college. The numbers I put in were 1,400 per day with moderate exercise 3-5 times per week. I think this looks doable and not too restrictive.

So, some rules:

- I am active on here at least once a week posting my progress

- minimum 2,400ml of water per day (excluding tea/coffee)

- a gallon of water per day on the weekends

- stay under calorie limit (on period raise by 200cal)

- 3 meals and 1 snack if necessary, 1 helping of food

- in April I want to try to walk everyday. My dog needs exercise and I can go before school now that it’s light

- weigh on Sunday

- stick to medical diet without exception

- no eating at work (take cup soups and crackers)

- take medication daily plus vitamins

- make lunch the night before, don’t eat lunch if you haven’t made it

- workout full body 3x per week (minimum 2x)

Excited to see how this goes :)

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Do you eat at school? Sometimes I find it embarassing, I might make it a rule

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Please can people comment what works best to avoid bingeing. Mentally I don’t want to but I always seem to go towards it. Last year I was obsessively counting calories but realistically u can’t anymore because it’s noticeable. 3 meals a day? Exercise? What helps??

Also, please dm me if interested in talking about this, I need someone to relate to.

#anorex1c #anarexsick #ana dairy #anorexja #tw ed things #tw ed content #tw ed stuff #eating disoder things

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Hate myself might start purging again

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Just started a 20hr fast, I was off school today recovering from pain after a binge. I literally hate myself and the only way the cycle breaks is if I condition my brain to be scared of food.

#ana fast #anarexsick #ana dairy #tw ed things #ednso

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Hey, update:

The last three days haven’t been super restrictive or strict because I know that I end up bingeing if I go full in straight away. So instead I have gotten my food intake down to a normal sort of range with limited snacks and some foods completely off the table. I have managed to plank everyday for 2 minutes so far which I’m happy about. I’m taking it slowly because I know small progress is still progress and I’m more likely to stay consistent if I give myself some leeway.

Todays food:

- Quaker Oats golden syrup sachet with almond milk

- banana

- hula hoops

- gluten free white roll with red pepper hummus and salad leaves

- trek protein flapjack

- pear

- medium jacket potato with vegetarian bolognese sauce and 30g (ish/max) of cheddar

- oat milk with honey

- 1 chocolate digestive

I did do an almost 4 hour shift after school so I’ve been standing for a lot of the day too :)

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Hi to anyone seeing this,

Setting myself some daily non negotiables.

1- Wash face and brush teeth every morning and night

2- At least 4 bottles of water per day (mine is 800ml so it would add up to 3.2l)

3- Plank for minimum 2mins per day

4- Shower every night before bed, even if it’s only for 5 minutes.

I’ll definitely add more but starting at an achievable standard. I’ve watched a friend relapse and suddenly Ed’s back and extremely competitive. Wanna be tiny by September x

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i want to give up food

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Hi guys, it’s been a while

I haven’t posted for a while because i’ve just been busy in general but i’m back now because i’ve gained a lot after bingeing this month. I think what i want to aim for is to stay below 1000cals per day and fill up on water and coffee. I want to get back down to 55kg but the end of july, i just need to stick to that now.

so far today i’ve had 2 cups of coffee, 9 bottles of water and an apple bake bar. I wasn’t going to eat anything at all but i’ve felt really dizzy and it has only come to 128cals. I just want to stay on track now.

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the fact that my mum put oil on my burger and i washed it so much to the point where it was falling apart just sums up life with an ed really

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okay so i’ve binged a lot recently and relapsed with sh. the good new is the weather is getting better so i can start walking again. i swim now every thursday and i hope to start everything else back up again as well. i haven’t been strict enough.

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i wish i could say that i’m one of those people that can restrict and not binge, but fuck me i lose control sometimes. for around 2 weeks i’ve been in this cycle where i binge and restrict and i can feel myself coming out of it but it just makes me feel like shit. i’m getting weighed at the doctors on monday which i wasn’t expecting and now i just hate myself for not staying on track because now my weight is going to be higher than i want it to be. i’m disassociating myself from all of my friends, i hate eating i hate food yet i go to it for comfort. i feel disgusting. i just want to disappear

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scared to weigh myself, i’m exited though because i’ve booked myself to go swimming every thursday now so i have to exercise. it’s for an hour but in the future i might do two. i want to get the hang of it first

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wait, 10 cal jelly is vegetarian??? wtf i’ve avoided it for years because of the gelatine for it just to be vegetarian????

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