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Does anyone have that ao3 plugin/skin whatever it was that allowed you to choose which name to use between Ren and Akira? I need it, please, i'm begging on hands and knees

#ao3 #fanfiction #ren amamiya #akira kusuru

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Another No More What Ifs Analysis

Okay, so... between wanting to analyze this and Our Light, and the kpop posts that I'll be doing that overlap with this. This blog will turn into Persona Music Analysis hour. Long post. Heavy spoilers for P5R, Proof of Justice, and Mementos Mission. BEGIN!

Let's begin with some context for the song. I think this is crucial to understanding why it is associated with Akechi's character. If you're familiar with this, you can skip to the lyrical analysis! The best analogy is that Beneath the Mask is to Akira as NMWI is to Akechi, in my opinion. Proof of Justice was an OVA released with the P5 anime (in May 2019) a couple months before the release of Persona 5 Royal in Japan (October of the same year). This OVA is centered around the relationship between Akira and Akechi. Specifically, Akira's grieving process as he goes through the places where they used to meet to find clues about the phrase "Proof of Justice" which was written in the Leblanc crossword. The Jazz Jin, as noted by Muhen here, is a place where Akechi would typically go alone. He also notes in confidant rank 4 that it wasn't necessarily a place that he was keeping secret, but that he never brought people around there since it was his personal space to reflect. As we'll examine, the content of the lyrics is too specific to not be related to the story, and there aren't any other characters or themes I could think are as associated with the song as Goro Akechi. Just wanted to clear this up first, as for some it's not entirely clear why the song is specifically Akechi's (since it's not explicitly stated, and the lyrics are hard to catch while you're playing through normally).

Lyrical Analysis

people come and they go some people may stay with you though I am all alone tonight and I kept on asking myself questions

The very first line is one of the easiest to dissect. Goro, since the death of his mother, has had few stable figures in his life, whether it is his parents, family, or friends. This also extends to his line of work as a celebrity detective, as he is kept so busy that there are very few people he sees on a regular basis, at all. He notes in the second confidant rank (if you choose to ask if he has no friends) that he doesn't have people that he chooses to spend time with. [I chose this option on my last play through and remember it but I can't find the dialogue anywhere].

The doubt that grows in this verse comes from the second line. He is taken by surprise that there is someone he is giving thought to for more than a couple seconds at time. Someone he is... to some degree choosing to spend time with even though he is doing it for the mission. At first, to investigate the Phantom Thieves identity to prevent them from interfering in his revenge plot, and then to lure Akira into a death trap. Tying it back to the first line analysis with the third and fourth line, this dissonance has put the first example of his doubt in this song.

Conceited I was at time I never really doubted myself But tonight got me thinking about it all if I am the fool or what not

There is a self-awareness that Goro always has about his personas (in the metaphorical sense). Goro kind of knows that he's arrogant and it was not ever something that bothered him. Even his character flaws will not get in the way of his plan, even if those flaws are just his humanity peeking through. There's a longing in Lyn's delivery of the last two lines here. He's stumped as to why he feels this way and the inner conflict makes him pause more than he is comfortable with.

"If I am the fool or what not." This line, is literally perfect, the double meaning is just ugh! We'll see this idea again near the end of the song, but I want to take an opportunity to talk about it now. For two years, Goro was the only Persona-user he knew, so he had no reason to believe anyone would ever stand a chance against him. Not only is he angered at himself for allowing Akira to get close to him and cause these doubts but he's also questioning what his role was.

I do not regret with my choices I'm rather proud ooh I know I won't change anything because I can only be me so

I had already written parts of this analysis like two months ago but I saw a post written by @vashtijoy here on how Mementos mission has a sneaky reference to this song. So check that out! It's something I never noticed.

Before Shido's palace, there's an acceptance of the circumstances in this line, that he has to do it regardless of what he may think because he has a goal. Throughout the third semester, we see an Akechi that is alive and tried to deal with the consequences of his actions before Maruki took that opportunity away from him. But he does not show remorse for what he did, that it was the only path he could have chosen with the information he knew.

How can I be so sure? at a crossroads I'm afraid too But I can't let fear get the best of me Someone once said burn my dread babe

This verse... this verse makes me wanna cry. I cannot even lie to you. The direct statement that there is fear behind the fact that he doesn't want to kill Akira and the acknowledgement in the last two lines that one of them has to end up dead. That he is also acknowledging that Akira must also be fearful, by playing with fire through continuing to lead the Phantom Thieves. The doubt is consuming him in this verse. The crossroad offers two choices, one where he sacrifices himself for Akira and one where Akira no longer is with him. The reference to Persona 3 really carries the weight here with this theory. I would explain more but I only spoiler tagged for P5R so we move.

Who knows what tomorrow holds? just wanna live my life the way I want what fills up my soul is passionate music that makes me want to sing

The first line, to me, reads that he's given up on allowing himself to think if there's another way to resolve his doubts. That there's another path where neither of them die and that it can't exist. He wants to live freely, which is what he thinks is assured once his revenge plan is complete. In another world, maybe it was one where both of them could be together without this chasing them. The last two lines I don't have a particular opinion about, but I think they add to the fact that Goro has given up entertaining other possibilities.

my story will be starring me just like yours ooh ooh who knows when will it end what matters most is how you bring joy to life so

I think about confidant rank 8. It feels written all over this line, and we come back to an idea that was present with "If I am the fool or what not." I think there's a bit of that 'hatred' that he talks about, that he's resentful that Akira story will end differently than his own. He's waiting for the day to come and resolves by centering himself, that once his goal is achieved, that he will achieve joy for the first time in his life. Refusing to acknowledge that Akira was showing him companionship that brought him happiness for one last time.

The Theme of Doubt

One of the things I have had trouble defining is what the doubt Goro is referring to is, or why the doubt is there. It's one of the things that is left in the air. Speculating here a little more than I usually will try to: the doubt stems from the fact that Goro is enjoying his time with the protagonist and is unsure what that means. In terms of what he is doubting, I'm not sure, I don't think he is referring to his plan, but rather the fact that Akira is caught up in it at all. His resolve to complete his plan never changes, but he wishes he could choose to leave him out of this. This tracks with a line stated by the SIU director which implies that some of the cruel actions carried out by the conspiracy/antisocial force by Akechi are not entirely his idea. He still carries them out without hesitation, but he never thinks of them himself. One of the reasons I wrote out this analysis was to see if there were any opinions on what this part of the song meant since I have trouble wrapping my head around it myself.

Goro, in base game and third semester, never shows any form of doubt or regret to the protagonist directly, only brief flickers and implications from dialogue. But this song is layered with it and bashes you in by telling you that it is what he is struggling with most when it comes to executing his plan. It's what nags at me even though I've tried to analyze this song a couple of times on my own.

IN CONCLUSION: I obviously hate goro akechi. (lying is fun)

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Pspspsps, ShuAkeshu shippers who can draw and make animatics, pspspspssp

Psspspsps Too sweet by Hozier and Downside by IDKHOW pspspspssp

(i can't draw for the life of me, so may i aswell throw some songs that could work to make an animatic, maybe it can inspire someone)

(ir someone is interested on the Downside vr, i have a google doc with the mapping of the scenes(?)

#shuake #akeshu #persona 5 #persona 5 royal #goro akechi #akira kusuru #fanfiction #this is a reccomendation #a prompt even #not something you must do #just throwing at the wall and see if someone likes it

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refusing an impossible wish and settling for one last game of chess.

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still rotting in the bottom of that damn ship

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Peak romance. I too want to be taken out with a- *gets taken off the stage*

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Joker is so real, moments after he was given demonic super powers he started laughing manically and yelling things like "Go down!" and "RAVAGE THEM!"

not beating the scary delinquent transfer student allegations

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Might come back to him later..

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justice

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And I hate that you wished for me. And I hate that I wished for you. Don't leave.

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So like, i haven't watched any playthrough of SMT V, neither i have a really good idea of the plot. Yet, i read a lot of AoShu fanfiction on the past week (mostly by KivaEmber) and i must ask.

Is the fandom of the ship dead or-?

#aoshu #shin megami tensei V #smt v #V-kun #aogami #if is alive #where i can read more fanfic like dawg #you are telling me this is a ship between an almost robot and a human who are the missing parts of their soul #that can fuse to become a fully fused better part of their existence that share thoughts and sensations #and feelings #and also are a big tall bulky guy and a short skinny guy with massive size difference and age gap #AND YOU ARE TELLING ME THAT PEOPLE AREN'T SHIPPING THIS ENOUGH? #THE TASTE THIS SHIP HAS? WHAT THE FLUFF #THE FALLING IN LOVE OF YOUR OTHER SIDE OF YOUR SOUL #THE CONFUSE NEW FEELINGS AND HOW TO LEARN TO EXPRESS YOURSELF #AND ALL THE OTHER ASPECTS ARE JUST *RIGHT THERE* #This is a crime

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SHUAKE PETPET AU FULL COMIC 36 pages w/ color

this has been a fun comic i've been working on for a long time! i hope you enjoy their story ^___^

read here or on twt link

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One wish dictated by the other

I can't believe his wish was playing chess with Joker all along 😞😞 stinky hypocrite

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akira's wish could've been that the wrong assault charges never happened akechi's wish could've been that his mother was still alive, or that he could get his revenge on shido himself and yet here they are. wishing only for the others presence. canonically. their wishes became one. to be together. fellas is it you know. homosexual

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literally how fucked up is it that you could wish for anything in the world, knowing that your life got fucked up at so many turns by other people, yet your one wish is easing the regret that you never got the chance to truly know him, understand him until it was too late. you were rivals; you weren't real friends but you were, you wanted to be. you wanted to be something else too. you wanted your wish to be more than undoing someone else's bad decisions, you wanted it to be something - or someone - good that you chose.

you wanted to just spend time together; little more than playing chess with each other fulfilled your deepest desires. and it's no less than what both of them wanted. it's so gay it kills me

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