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2017 Resolutions

Physical 

- Long healthy hair : I want to grow long healthy hair - style it. 

- Abs : this is a continuous goal from 2016 which is going great. I want to keep up with this routine. Hope I can see a leaner stomach by summer

- Endurance:  Aiming for +30 mins on treadmill without stoping before summer and by the end of summer let’s do a 30 mins outdoor! 

- skinnier calves : Long and steady jog is the key

- Oral: floss and brush three times a day. Get a night guard?

- Food: More vegetable and grains (less nuts). 

Brain

- One book a month challenge! - book has to be more than 100 pages and can be any genre 

- Brush up my french (especially conversational). Once a month, either read french book out loud, find a convo group, listen or watch french TV

- Play a new sport

Mental 

- Keep in touch with friends and family. Let them know how much you appreciate them and their support. 

- Meditate 5 minutes twice week

- Being emotionally independent. Enjoy being alone.

- Able to cope with anger and destructive thoughts 

Finance 

- Use up half of my TSFA contribution... which i believe it’s $25K  (pretty ambitious)

- Budget for December!!!! 

- Set a budget for wellness.. this will go to dentist, gym, massage therapist, counselling etc. 

- If i get a raise, it would go to saving. 

- Subscribe to consumer report for frugality wet dream. 

Other

- Never have to pack for lunch in the morning. Have a weekly meal plan plan out

- Keep the room/desk tidy (get rid of half the stuff i own?)

- Check the fridge before grocery shopping.  Eat all the deli and produce before new trip to grocery. 

- Have a daily/weekly/monthly routine layout

- Spend free time at work reading and trying to understand new material

- Limit Reddit/Facebook to only the PM. 

- Pack lunch in less than 10 minutes

- Get a car before fall

- Do two professional (LOMA?) exams

- Buy a dry erase sharpie for my schedule board

- Don’t die in Peru

#me #resolution

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Just about when you think you are strong and start to enjoy simple things in life... some train of thoughts hit you and sent you back to that shower crying.  

How it reminded you that you’ve lost your love. 

How stupid you were that in these past days you were sane because of some optimism that one day you will be strong enough and perhaps we can find happiness with each other again, then you realized it was just your fantasy and you cannot speak for the other person that stop loving you.  

How you realized they would eventually have a better life but without you. 

How they are certain that they made the ‘right’ decision by cutting you off.

How you regret every moment you enjoyed because it would eventually lead to this pain. 

How you wish that memories belong to someone else but not you

because it’s unfair. just unfair. 

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AMA how worthless you feel when your partner played 'it's not you it's me' card

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AMA how it feels when your partner decided you're not the one after three years...

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You don't deserve love and affection. I hope you know this. You ruin people's lives

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Fuck you and your promises. Nothing but a bunch of bullshit. Fuck me for thinking we can be together forever. Fuck trust. Fuck. Fuck your pain. You deserve it.

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You're selfish. You sabotage what we built for the last three years so you can go back to your comfort zone. You made me feel worthless. I don't wish you well

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Last time when I was happy was a long time ago

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"I think that the hardest breakups are the ones where not everything was tried. When people made up their minds quickly or jumped to conclusions or didn't try to come up with creative solutions for how to stay together. When you've exhausted everything and it still dissolves then you know there was no chance. There's no "what ifs" and nothing to regret and you don't miss the person because you're finally sick of them. The thing that keeps people hurting is the "what if" of unfinished business. Of course the reality is that even if you try as hard as you can, the other person might not.... And that hurts just as much. So it's not always within your control."

#recovery

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IT BEGINS

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one time a friend of mine programmed a thing called “coke.exe” and all it did was bring up a little pop-up that asked you if you were thirsty for cola and if you clicked “yes” it opened your CD tray and said “here is a cup holder”

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sticks and stones may break my bones but words are even worse holy shit please dont say mean things to me

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There are Häagen-Dazs ice cream lids that can double as a 72mm lens cap. Source

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my favorite winter sporting events

Snow Peas

Beheading

Bat Impressions

Speed Cloning

Bad Ideas

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my textbook and i have a lot in common