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yeochikin · 2 years

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warning(s): reader being anxious of the storm.

[ 02:11 ]

“it’s just a little rain, nothing more. maybe thunder’s a bit too loud, while the lightning’s too-”

it was those soft murmurs, that bounced throughout the walls of the shared bedroom, that managed to make yeosang stir ever so slightly in his sleep, a low grumble slipping from his lips.

his eyes, that were still heavy with sleep, forced themselves to open despite the oh so tempting urge of just going back to sleep, yet he managed to fight the feeling away as soon as his tired eyes landed on what seems to be a silhouette curled up into a ball right next to him.

it took the male a few seconds to finally let the current situation sink in.

to your own perspective, you were hugging your knees close to your chest with your eyes glued to the window to your shared bed.

it wasn’t that you were terrified of rainy nights, you loved them even! however, it was those particular stormy nights that made you feel a little anxious ever since you were a child. the crackling sound of thunder mixed in with the eerie gusts of wind filling your ears were enough to make your heart increase its pace.

you were so busy with your own thoughts that you had failed to notice your name being called out by your lover, only for you to emit a low yelp as soon as you felt something against your shoulder, ripping your gaze from the window to look at said object, or rather, someone.

yeosang, on the other hand, smiled guiltily at the feeling of your flinch underneath his touch, before properly sitting up on the bed, both hands now sliding down to find your own so he could give it a soothing squeeze.

“are you alright, sun?”

his deep (and not to mention, sleep-induced) voice along with the way the warmth of his hands enveloped your own managed to ease your nerves as a little smile formed itself over your lips.

“the storm woke me up, ‘is all. i’m sorry for waking you up, my moon.” you murmured, reaching into the darkness with your free hand to cup his cheek, to which, yeosang leaned into your touch.

“not at all. how are you holding up? i know how much heavy storms could bother you.”

as he said those words, you could feel him wrapping his arm around your shoulders to keep you close against his side, effectively making you melt in his warm embrace before reciprocating the action by burying your face against his shoulder.

yeosang was never one to show affection easily, whether the two of you are out in public or it is just the both of you in a room. the most he would do out in public would be holding your hand, or an occasional peck on the cheek. despite all that, you were fine with it as you knew that deep down, he has his own way of showing affection towards you.

much like right now, with the way his hand leaving your own to reach up and play with the strands of your hair, his lips brushing against your temple every now and then, and with the way the arm that was around your shoulders pulled you closer to him whenever lightning made its appearance as you brace yourself from the crack of thunder…

you knew just how much love he has for you.

“my sun?”

not hearing a response from you, yeosang moved ever so carefully to check up on you, worried that you might burst into tears from the way the storm had not ceased. however, that was not the case.

the corners of his lips tilted up in pure adoration upon seeing that you had fallen asleep in his arms, leaning in to press a feather light kiss against your forehead, and then, with careful movements, the male managed to make you lie down on your side of the bed.

yeosang adjusted the blanket over you to make sure you were all warm and snug before taking one last look, eyes now getting all used to the darkness surrounding the both of you, and how the streetlights from outside, with the occasional lightning, managed to cast a dim light in the room through the crevices of the curtains.

the way your face finally looked at peace during your sleep managed to lighten the weight of concern in his chest, a low sigh out of content leaving his lips as he, too, slowly laid down on the bed next to you.

with a final look of your sleeping form, yeosang inched himself closer to you so he could wrap his arm around your waist, grinning to himself with the way you snuggled closer into his arms, to which that never failed to make his heart run wild.

gently kissing your forehead once more, it was finally time for yeosang to let sleep take over him once more, letting the sounds of raindrops hitting the roof mixed in with your quiet breathing to lull him to sleep.

a/n: hehe so who popped up after two months (?) dfhgsjd but yeh this is another quick one! ngl bcs this is self indulgent ig??? bcs i, too, have a small fear of thunderstorms aaaaa anyways, hope you enjoyed it!

#srb #ateez scenarios #ateez yeosang

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yeochikin · 2 years

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selfish. | j. yunho

a/n: i know this is a little late but happy new year everyone! this is quite a self-indulgent fic ig with how i've been feeling lately haha but luckily i managed to sort things out! anyways, enjoy the fic and have a good day bubs! 💕

word count: 1.6k

main focus: jeong yunho x fem!reader

warning(s): slight angst, reader having insecure thoughts, long distance relationship, please do not read if this makes you uncomfortable, not edited!

your eyes were focused on the monitor as you watched your partner, jung yunho and his friends play a random co-op game. they have been interested in this particular game for about two weeks now. though, you won’t lie, the game is pretty entertaining, especially with more people joining in. tonight, however, your mind seemed to be a tad restless so it was best for you to sit out and watch them in hopes of lightening up your mood.

your eyes peeked over yunho’s name, watching as a green light occasionally flickers around his display picture, indicating that he was speaking throughout the gaming session. yet, your mind wasn’t able to comprehend even the simplest of sentences. moving your gaze towards the clock in the bottom right of your monitor, you have noticed how late into the night it had become.

usually, you wouldn’t mind staying up, be it listening and talking to your friends in the group, or spending the night with your long distance partner. but tonight, the unbearable feeling deep down in your chest was a bit too much for you, and it was taking a toll on your mind.

you don’t even know when this feeling surfaced up into your mind. has it been that long since you and yunho had your own private time together? now that you think of it, even if you had some alone time with him, the two of you are doing your own thing with the occasional ‘i love you’s being uttered along with idle chatter about how one’s day has been for them, but other than that? it was just silence being shared between the both of you.

you wanted to at least be a little selfish and have him for yourself, just for one night or two, yet at the same time, you didn’t want to make his friends see you as this demanding partner for hogging him whenever they ask if he wanted to join up in a game later on.

the more you spend your time in the group voice call on this server, the more you feel the thoughts gnawing at you in the back of your mind. your friends and your long distance partner were just having the time of their lives playing a co-op game together, to which, you would join in as well but tonight?

you didn’t have that much energy for some reason.

you hated how you were feeling lately.

you hated how clingy you’ve been feeling.

you hated how selfish you would sound if you were to ask for some time alone with yunho.

but most of all…

you absolutely hated how your past relationships had led you with a mindset like this.

letting out a low heavy sigh, you unmute your mic before speaking.

“hey, guys. i think i’m gonna head off to sleep, i feel a little tired.”

a chorus of ‘good night’s along with ‘sleep well were heard from your side of the line, but oddly enough, you didn’t hear yunho’s voice in return. instead of feeling a little down at the thought, you merely shrugged it away, thinking that he is just too engrossed in the game to have heard you speak.

turning off your computer, you got up from your desk to do your nightly routine, at least that could help you take your mind off of things, and hopefully, it would never resurface ever again so you can go on about your days and nights without being troubled by the thought.

just as you were finishing up, you heard your phone go off. wiping your face dry with your face towel, you made your way to your room to pick up the phone, eyes widening ever so slightly at the flash of a certain caller id that was displayed on the screen of your phone. without wasting your time, you sat down on the edge of your bed and answered.

“hey, love. something wrong?”

“hello to you too, buns. rather than me, is something the matter with you?”

your teeth sank down against your lower lip at yunho’s question, now bringing your legs up to your chest as you stared down at your free hand, that was busily playing with your soft blanket. you wondered if you should really tell him what’s wrong, but in the span of a couple of seconds, you have decided to keep it to yourself.

“huh? oh nah, i was just a little tired. i had quite a day today, that’s all.” you answered, internally scolding yourself for sounding so meek all of the sudden.

on the other end of the line, however, yunho furrowed his eyebrows at the slight pitch of your voice, sensing that something was wrong with you.

though you never noticed, yunho had always been quite observant with your little quirks and habits, from the way you would rub your nose due to being flustered whenever you two have your video call sessions, to the way your voice turn a tad softer than usual whenever you were down. and as for tonight, it was the latter. to which, made his worries start to grow.

before he even had the chance to reply, you cut him off.

“go continue playing with them, okay? have fun, my love.”

“y/n, come now. talk to me, hm?” yunho spoke softly.

from your side, you could feel the feelings starting to emphasise the longer you stay in the call to the point where you could feel the back of your throat aching, your eyes starting to sting ever so slightly. you wanted to say it, you cannot bear it any longer.

“yunho.. am i.. am i selfish?”

with those words being uttered out of your lips, yunho could feel his heart shatter from the shakiness laced in your throat as soon as you spoke. it was moments like these where he wished that he could live closer to wherever you were, wanting nothing more but to shower you with his affection and affirmations.

“my love, no, never! what made you feel this way?”

it was the gentleness in his voice that finally made your tears cascade down your cheeks, as small sobs escaped your lips, yunho patiently waiting for you to calm down as he gently cooed into the phone, letting you know that he was there to listen whenever you were ready.

once you were finally calmed down, despite the occasional hiccups, you finally decided to tell him everything.

you told him as to why you have been feeling down lately, why you were feeling a little moody the past few days. you told him as to how you wanted to spend more time with him. granted that he does call you for a short while before joining up with the others, yet you still felt that it wasn’t enough.

yet at the same time, you are afraid of telling him you wanted to spend some time together, fearing that you would strip him away from having fun with his friends, you don’t want him to feel left out from all the fun they were having. you feared for the day that he had gotten tired of wanting to have some time alone with you, thinking that the other would find it boring rather than entertaining.

so, instead of telling him, you decided to push away your needs and put his first, even if it means sacrificing for your own happiness after his own.

from the other line, yunho could already feel his already shattered heart break into more tiny pieces, deep down he felt like a bad boyfriend for making you feel that way. it really wasn’t his intention of doing so! yet, he couldn’t help but to blame himself for putting you up with these thoughts alone.

heaving out a heavy sigh, yunho finally parted his lips to speak.

“little bun, i am sorry for making you feel this way, and i am forever thankful that you decided to share how you are feeling with me.” he reassured, knowing all too well that you, too, felt bad for making him feel this way.

“i am sorry that the past had made you this way to the point of sacrificing your happiness for others,” he continued.

“i want you to know that it was never my intention to hurt you this way, it is the last thing i wanted to do. i want you to know that to never bottle your feelings up when i did something to upset you, alright?”

“i want you to know that i enjoy our calls, i feel at ease with you, knowing that you are my safe haven from the rough days i’m having. in fact, the way you would say random things so out of pocket are the highlights during our calls, no?” your lover ended, smiling softly in the end as an attempt to lighten the mood.

you won’t lie, as soon as the words were left by yunho you felt as if a huge weight has been lifted off of your shoulders, finally able to smile without any force.

you know that it was hard to share your concerns, fearing that he would see you as being a burden, even if he is your partner. however, you need to remember that the both of you are a team in this, one thing needs to be solved and be confronted rather than running away and hiding it deep down.

“now, little bun, can i make a request?” your lover spoke after things have calmed down. “what is it?”

“let’s both be selfish of each other, hm?”

letting out a low chuckle, you gave him a hum of response, indicating that you were agreeing to his proposal. and with that, the two of you spent a little more time talking through the phone, this time, no more having dark thoughts clouding your mind.

#srb #ateez jeong yunho #ateez yunho #i'm back for a bit hehe

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yeochikin · 2 years

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People who leave long detailed comments on fics and also quote their favorite lines: do u know how important u are? Do u know how deeply I cherish u? Do u know that there is nothing on this earth that I would not do for u?

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yeochikin · 2 years

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Hello world, tumblr has deleted my old account, which means I lost all the scenarios and fan fictions that I posted, as well as all the other content.

My old blog was called yoon-han-byeol and I used to post scenarios for kpop groups, but mainly ateez. I had started writing anime scenarios too, but well… now everything’s lost.

I will be reposting SOME of my old writings here.

If you remember me from my old blog, or if you’d like to help me reach my old followers in any way, a like and a reblog would be really useful. Even a follow, if you like the content :)

I’m literally so pissed at tumblr and I’ve been fighting with them for three weeks now but it seems like they won’t let me win

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