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Japonya: Tokyo, Kyoto, Nara, Osaka

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The Catalan Lara Croft.

'Delirio De Grandeza', Rosalía

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POOR THINGS

Yorgos Lanthimos & Atsushi Nishijima. 🎞: Kodak Portra 400

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So many stories we were told about a safety net, but when I look for it, it's just a hand that's holding mine.

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instagram | inbloomflowerfarm

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2005 Nintendogs plush keychain

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i'm seeing a lot of new ppl join tumblr who aren't making any spontaneous semi pathetic, oversharing personal textposts whatsoever and i just want to say you're doing it all wrong... this is not like instagram like meant to be some shiny highlight reel used to make u look good its supposed to be an incriminatingly revealing dark intimate look into your life & inner psyche while simultaneously no one knows who u are or gives a fuck... anyway hope this helps some of u get on the right track

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Yoshitomo Nara: Forever Alone (2006)

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Oh, bedrooms were made to dream in! And you know one can dream so much better in a room where there are pretty things.

L.M. Montgomery, Anne of Green Gables

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Anton Chekhov, from The Complete Plays of Anton Chekhov; "The Seagull,"

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#15 The hate

Everyone hates me.

Everyone hates me at work when I try to strike conversation as I pull a thread from my visibly worn-out green cardigan.

Everyone hates me at home when I sound too excited recounting my day.

Everyone hates me on a night out when I want to keep dancing instead of going home – it’s rare, but it happens.

Everyone hates me at the doctors when I complain about being in pain. It stings, it breaks, it bends me in unimageable ways…

Everyone hates me all the time, everywhere I go.

I would love to have a cheeky rhyme and positive conclusion to this bit.

I hate this chapter.

I lay down at home watching stim board and mukbang videos to calm down. The ones with pretty water sounds and people eating sushi graded salmon, respectively. It is a temporary solution for a long-term fight with everyone that hates me – which is surprising, given my phobia of seeing people eat a lot of food at once. The things we most hate bring us a reassuring comfort to watch, in some cases. A sense of ownership and accomplishment washes over me when I see things that remind of the bad times I´ve been through. Some people can’t stand to even think about it but I get curious, impressionable – almost as if I’m grasping at the concept for the first time. It’s an itch you can’t scratch. Lingers on your clothes, on the way you can’t joke with everyone else at office Christmas parties, at the extra quiet seconds when your mum tries to decipher if you still think about it. You do. I do.

I hate it.

#writing #journal #reflection #caffeine withdrawal #sushi #mukbang #stimboard #diary #no coffee #quarter life crisis

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arakii fw23 ‘frost jacket’

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words from anything by adrianne lenker