thirt33ntr3nd

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Oakland, California

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Its Over..

I was accused of having affairs again and again.

She has being doing this all the time.

I guess its good bye... may what she seeked will comes to what she sowed.

Messing with your husband feelings while she enoying her time with other guys..

Soneday she realised and its already too late.

May Allah guide her heart doubting negatives things on someone so sincered with her.

Let the matter rest.

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10 posts!

#10 posts #tumblr milestone

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Loose End

Somehow in me i felt i already lose. I am very sure now is one sided. Definately i am the one who always look out for her. She seems unbothered with my calls my texts even the presences of me.

I had this feelings that theres someone who had took my placed in her the only logical reasons to all these.

Even now she sleeps facing against me. 😔

She dont even replied or answers me when questions asked by ignoring.

What should i do?

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Day 5, Getting in BadShaped

Unable to sleep well for the past few days also a heavy chemical smoker now i am also facing another Bad Coughs and had to seek medical consultations. see attached photo

However, i had managed to Video Calll my wife 😊.

Of coursed! As usuals we dont talk or exchanges words. But it is a good signs of recovery steps.

Moving forward, Hopefully things gets better along the way..

Taking my medicine now and bow to sleep in drowsey.

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Day 4, Gradually adapting and accepting.

4 Feburary 2024 was a records broken. Me being and outcast from this marriages. Tried videocontacting her severals times to no avails. However we managed to exchanges few words out of a sentances in a short voice call, No doubts the small talks do not last more then 25 seconds less than a minutes doesnt served any purposes for both of us. Truthfully and sincerely me hearing her voices even in a harshed hard tone presented somehow had me relieved from missing her. Even at this moment thinking of her in words and sentances vetting this blogs sometimes in idle listening to null surround, this very moment right now somehow teared flushing rolling down my cheek in silenced. i doubt myself for having this huges feeling for her, heartfelt so sacred in sincerely in loved with her, there's also strong instinct tells me we are fated tied together in bond as one companion, in his mighty decreed that had already written in the stars and also me being hopeful. 🥺😔 , How much i missed her! Even thinking someone like her were able to managed tolerating me to tamed, these are usually rare me being blessed by having her around me regardless in any dues what had written or fated in eternity or temporary. With pure gratitudes me presenting to her also this heartfelt moment i would like to expresses my greatful much appreciates thanking her in endurances, High Probability she might took the most hits in between a two crossfire that i might not be awared off in any harm intentions set in placed or planned in due cost manipulating her to unfortunated ordeals causing collateral damaged that had being affecting us in doubting than trusting each others in scars that haunts us.

These are us before and will in future to comes me still having faiths embracing loves and empathys without looking back in hatred.

YOURS TRULY.

#embraced #graduallysteadfast

#LoveNhAtes #intruce #uphold #justices #hopeful

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Lost Soul.

Today is the 3rd day seperated from my wife due to our current situations and our role responsibilties we had to live in different homeland.

We usually get along very well adoring teasing each other when we are together.

When we seperated, we too frequent having communications breakdown in disputes.

Mark 03.02.2024 married since 16.12.2022. Progessively things had changed, All seems soured and faded.

I myself understood the proccess that there is no such thing as Happy Ending other then Movies Fantasy.

We humans are vunerables to error, mistakes and negligence.

All of this are indeed a process to perfections.

Some are possesives, impulsives, naives, defensives and worst yet was narcisist.

I believes that every individuals had all this embed in characteristic. By moving forward facing challenges and obsticle we learned to grow by experiences by understanding socials factors.

However my current challenges was the greatest compared to the past i had walked.

I was trampled into Emotional Invalidations where i am lost in the middle of nowhere wondering worrying what will be our future? When we started walked alongside we both had most thing in commons like having visions to strived.

Today i had understood my assignment of being a husband. A visions you seeked should be yours alone not shared in companion. Caused the vision u had in planned was only a sections of her chapters.

Never placed to much hopes and be so hopeful for the things you believes that u could acheives. Caused the results might ended in disaapointment.

The pained and suffering of being Emotional Invalidations. I dont even know how to put into words or elaborates futher the suffering nobody to share or shoulder to leaned on other then her, the bombardment i took upon were undescrible. Where you sees everything started to shattered falls all over you crushing you down, besides the pained and suffering you endured in hopes u still failed to hate her other then missing her presences still cared for and love her, even in inconsistency.

While she implied no empathy towards her actions declining rejecting any of your thoughts in good will perspectives views or suggestions will revert back to your incompetency.

To those who are still single my advised, Live yourself, Love yourself first before giving others only when u can affords. Regardless in any needs and figures.

Loving is easy, sustaning harmony with each other in compesating understanding within the boundaries is not what you could have thought might be at your finger tips.

Never live in denials.

Signing Off

Jinx13

#Dear Diary #love #hate #faded

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Emotional invalidation

Emotional Invalidation: A Form of Emotional AbuseBy Dr. Sharon Martin / August 26, 2018Emotional invalidation is painful. Sometimes it’s unintentional, but it’s a sign of emotional abuse when done repeatedly and intentionally.Have others minimized, shamed, or invalidated your feelings?Having your feelings diminished, ignored, or rejected is a painful experience for all of us – but even more so if you’re a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP) or survivor of abuse or other trauma.It’s important to have a sense of belonging and to be a part of a group — a family or community. And part of belonging to any group is to be known, understood, and accepted. But, while it’s normal to want to be understood, we can’t depend on others to validate who we are, what we believe in, and how we feel. When we do, we compromise pieces of who we are in order to fit in and let others determine our self-worth.Your feelings are validYour feelings matter. Emotions serve an important purpose and shouldn’t be ignored. For example, feeling angry, afraid, or sad tells you that something’s wrong. You don’t want to miss these crucial pieces of information because they can help you to take care of yourself and make decisions to keep yourself safe.Feelings aren’t right or wrong. They are a reflection of your thoughts, experiences, and perceptions, which is why two people can have the same experience, but feel differently.It’s also important to note that validation – saying that someone’s feelings are acceptable or worthwhile – isn’t the same as agreeing with their feelings. We can certainly feel differently, but make the effort to try to understand and empathize with our loved one’s feelings.

Generally, the closer the relationship you have with someone, the more important it is for them to understand your feelings. However, you have to be realistic about other people’s capabilities to do so.If this person repeatedly invalidates your feelings and isn’t interested or motivated to change, you need to take steps to distance yourself and take care of your own feelings. You may want to calmly and without blame state that you feel invalidated. This acknowledges that you’ve been hurt and gives the other person the opportunity to make it right.The key, again, is not to get drawn into a debate about who is right or wrong, but to set a boundary that states how you want to be treated and to leave the situation if your needs aren’t respected.

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Sometimes u have to distance your self with the people u cared most in order for them not to get entangled with your pathetic life where they could get easily hurts.

You may be reminded of your past and teared. Pained had thought you everything that u need to know and how to survives, These are the odds you might face, Do not attempt to avoid or you shall fall back to where u started, Stead Fast! Move Forward dont look back in anger just face your demons your destiny.

#unconditional #sacrifices

#jinx13

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Sometimes you just don't try too hard, What you need is to laid back.

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