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I don’t ever post, but at this point I just need to vent or I’m gonna have a break down. Sorry to anyone who knows me.

I’m so fucking tired. Like, deep within my bones, my soul, my atoms, I’m exhausted.

I don’t know what to do at this point. My apartment is unlivable. My medical bills are almost as much as I make in a year. My health is declining and I can’t afford to do anything about it. It feels like things just keep getting worse and there isn’t anything to help.

I’m so so so tired of trying to function like I’m not constantly fighting autistic burnout or meltdown. It takes all my energy just to mask enough that I can survive.

I just want a safe place to live and start a family. Somewhere my rescue turtles can be safe from the thousands of cockroaches that have made my apartment absolute hell.

There are so many of them that I had to put a camping tent over my bed just to sleep. The kitchen is unusable because there are thousands of them. We can’t eat. The complex won’t do anything about it. Our sink was broken for 4 months before they fixed it. I can hear the roaches crawling around at night on the walls. I’ve tried every treatment my lease will allow me to do and they just get worse and worse. Nothing is sealed.

I’ve literally been working more than half of my life now and I still can’t afford groceries. I don’t understand how people are meant to survive if they aren’t born into money.

It’s not like I buy anything other than essentials ever, nor do I want anything extravagant. All my dreams and goals really don’t amount to much. I just want a safe place to exist with a few minor comforts. Like a working freezer. Or to be able to stand still without bugs crawling all over me.

What the actual fuck am I supposed to do?

#vent #housing crisis #infestation #autistic #desperate #need help #exhausted #rant

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#gofundme #help #emergency

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Who is chasing who? <source>

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The God of Hair Flips 💁‍♂️

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Source 

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DO NOT SUPPORT SALVATION ARMY 

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Her name is Katalin Karikó. Hungarian. Daughter of a butcher. Her thesis work became the basis of the mRNA vaccine technology. Read the article here.

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PSA: Google and Autism Speaks are collaborating to create a genomic database on autism.

Yes, you read that right.

On the eve of Autism Acceptance Month, Google, the most widely used search engine, is teaming up with Autism Speaks to collect and send data to researchers in order to essentially “eliminate” autism. I don’t think I can understate how eugenicist this is. It is genocide by definition.

It is imperative that we speak up about this. Every autistic person (including myself) know that Autism Speaks is a hate group in all but name.

There’s not much to say about this except it is VERY wrong.

Nothing about us without us. Listen to autistic people.

(autistic people, feel free to add. allistics are encouraged to reblog but don’t be clowns)

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Never forget the fact that in lnx’s interview in 2019 he admitted that he used to try to pray the gay away and now here he is literally depicting his sexuality as being kicked out of Eden, stoned to death, & then ending up in hell but it isn’t in a shameful way anymore, he’s proud and comfortable with himself, saying “you told me to go to hell, well here I am” & it’s so important to see how far he’s come & I’m so proud of him

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this is the best possible version of fred

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the “holding out as married” rule is so fucked up

like… not only can I not marry the love of my life without losing my health insurance and the $800 or so a month I’m forced to survive on

but I can’t even CALL her “my wife” casually

like literally the US gov’t has people whose job it is to go and interview the family, friends, & neighbors of disabled people to just make sure that they never refer to anyone in their life as “my wife” or “my husband” etc

and if you DO, then SNAP! You’re defrauding the US gov’t of the pittance you can barely survive on and you are no longer entitled to your disability benefits

(some kinds of benefits might remain in diminished form but if you were disabled before age 22 you are fucked COMPLETELY and can’t get them back even if you divorce… the only loophole is if the other person was ALSO deemed disabled before 22, because that fucking makes sense)

and this is just… legal and no one but disabled activists ever talks about this shit

so yeah I’d love some of that gay marriage shit but I will never be able to get married, and to add insult to injury, I can’t even casually refer to my partner as “my wife” without risking the health insurance and income I need to survive as a disabled lesbian

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This is it

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exactly.

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Toadstools Art Print // BeatrixCromwell