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happy birthday trent reznor

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HAPPY TRENT REZNOR DAY TO THOSE WHO CELEBRATE WOOHOOO!!!!

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Just want to vent a little. My BPD symptoms are better but my anxiety is terrible. I've been smoking a lot and that's only bad because I need to conserve my vape until next month when I get money. My mom is raising my son but he's so regressive and not making any progress. He's still not potty trained. He still uses a bottle frequently. He doesn't want to feed himself without help. He won't sleep in his own bed. And he's five years old. I'm pretty sure he's autistic but not low functioning. He's on wait lists for a diagnosis. He needs so much help and I don't know what to do. My mom is overwhelmed. I feel like there's no resources. He's in occupational therapy but it's not doing much. He needs to go to school sooner than later but he's completely unprepared. All I can hope is he'll be able to go to a special needs school. It's giving me terrible anxiety. If my mom can't get him to make progress, how could I ever? He's defiant and refuses to listen. He's very dependent. He won't leave my mother alone for five minutes. I can't even get him to come stay with me anymore. I don't know what to do.

#personal vent #vent post #venting #vent #anxiety disorder

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No one tells you how easy it is to withdraw from the world

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I don't understand extroverts/People that don't get uncomfortable around people.

I hate when people are too close/group around me.

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can we normalize talking about how fucking debilitating agoraphobia is cool thanks

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Mental health-related thought of the day:

I wish the commercial structure of society (grocery stores, doctors' offices, the post office, etc.) were friendlier toward people with social anxiety.

As an adult with severe social anxiety, it is painfully difficult to do basic "normal" adult things.

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"People with generalized anxiety disorder feel like worrying means being responsible and not worrying means being irresponsible."

I HATE i hate i hate i hate whywhy wyhwyhyyy

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I’m always afraid

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anxiety is really simple it just means you have to face 10000 knives attack anytime you deviate even slightly from familiarity

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A horror film a day keeps the real life horrors away 🙃

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to all the ppl struggling with becoming independent and breaking the cycle of being codependent:

you are doing amazing, take one day at a time and remember to take care of yourself. you’re doing this for a reason and it will pay off. you’re so strong for doing this for yourself.

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I need someone to tell me I’m not a monster because of my bpd, please. I really really need this

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I can see the sun, but even if I cannot see the sun, I know that it exists. And to know that the sun is there - that is living.

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I am really bad at handling my FP caring about people other than me. But I want to be better. And part of that is opening myself to others. He deserves to have other people in his life and so do I.

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happy bpd awareness month to all my fellow borderlines who are trying their very best despite their circumstances! your struggles are valid all year long and there are people out there who will offer you the patience, support and tenderness you deserve. keep on keeping on, little doves. 🫂🤍

[thebpdcrybaby]

Sometimes suffering is just suffering. It doesn’t make you stronger. It doesn’t build character. It just hurts. And that’s okay.