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“We are dying from overthinking. We are slowly killing ourselves by thinking about everything. Think. Think. Think. You can never trust the human mind anyway. It’s a death trap.”

— Anthony Hopkins

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A Conversation with Amy Winehouse

She has been channeled by so many people I didn’t know what would be different about this time but she seemed very willing to talk. I was listening to my play list at dinner and one of her songs came on and instead of hearing it from a speaker, I was hearing her sing it as if she was at my table. I didn’t think I would have time to channel her, but it was like time was carved out and even though I had to go and come back, it’s like it was just this ongoing talk with no pauses. Her energy was very easy to follow and pick up on. She was a little wistful and gave off this air of what if. What if people…yadda yadda. Some of her answers I wasn’t expecting. It seemed like she, sometimes, purposely hid herself away. Anyway, I appreciated her candor. She looked really healthy and alive. It was like she was fully healed…how could she not be, right? Here is my conversation with Amy Winehouse.

K: I have to say that I’m pretty confused.

A: Why?

K: Because you’ve been channeled and interviewed so many times since your death and I’m not completely sure that this is what you want to do again?

A: It’s always something that I like to do. I don’t think that my life as Amy was completely understood or…it was boiled down to one aspect of my life that just really stood out and life should never be boiled down to only one aspect of a person. I think that the questions that are always asked pertain to that darker image of me and I know you’ll probably ask that of me too but underneath all of that, was a brilliant light and it’s the light that’s more often ignored from a person when the dark or the shadow is very present or seen.

K: Well, I probably will get into things. I mean that’s what I do but you are right. I mean, a person’s demons are highlighted a lot. Is that what we’re supposed to learn from? People’s demons/struggles?

A: Of course, but to a point. It’s because in some way, I think people want to experience that through what another person went through, or they want the pity that they feel for the other person to be justified. But when looking at the shadows or the…struggle that people go through, all that stuff can’t be justified as an excuse for me to do what I did. I can’t justify all that sorrow into one reason why. There are lots of different reasons but because people’s focus is so drawn to only one or the other, it’s hard to see beyond that.

K: I think that’s the same with even humans watching humans or just facing our personal assumptions about another. It’s because we focus on just that one aspect of them that gives us an excuse to feel sorry for or to have pity for or gives us a reason to stay angry with. It’s that focus on that one behavior.

A: Exactly, the behavior so the person or what’s underneath all of that other crazy shit is ignored as people brainwash themselves into believing that it’s the behavior of a person that makes them. To an extent, of course, that’s true. It has to be but underneath all of that is a whole different side that the person, struggling, is. They are different than their struggles. I was different than my struggles but because my struggles were the focus, people, to this day, lost sight of who I was. I don’t even know if they ever knew who I was.

K: Did you?

A: Sometimes.

K: Did you lose sight of who you were through that behavior?

A: I did. I really, really did. I needed someone to say who I was and then I could be that.

K: So, you needed permission. But on the outside, or what people saw, you seemed to be this renegade.

A: I was influenced. My…people in my circle were very influential and as much as I knew what I was drawn to, I was also drawn to people who really seemed to know who they were and what they wanted. I wanted that courage too, but it wasn’t until I was in that inner circle that I knew what gave that courage to them.

K: Drugs and alcohol?

A: Yeah. I mean, when you first meet a person, you don’t know they’re an addict. And when you first party with them, you still don’t know. They just offer a good time, and one hit won’t make you an addict. At first, I liked that I could be like them. I could be focused and direct and brave and courageous and say what I needed to say and do what I needed to do with what and how I wanted. I thought that drugs or alcohol gave me this ability to just come out of my fears or my lack of confidence. I didn’t realize it was fake or it wasn’t real. I just thought all of that (substances) got rid of what I didn’t like about myself to uncover what I did like about myself. It was…opposite. It hid those special things about me or that I liked about me, deeper and sort of took over. Like, okay, so drugs are like the overbearing parent, right? And this kid…this little girl is just trying to be herself because she believes she’s pretty cool or she thinks she could be cool. But this overbearing parent has other ideas and to just make them shut up, this little girl acts that out until it just becomes a part of her, and you forget that little girl that had that individuality and life about her…she just gets buried in what that parent wants. That parent is the alcohol and drugs. It’s a different…personality.

K: Interesting way to look at it for sure.

A: And then you just get numb to it all and there are all these blurred lines.

K: What’s real and what’s not.

A: Yeah. And when you get a hint of what’s real, it doesn’t feel good enough anymore, so you keep that secret hidden away.

K: The true you.

A: The true me.

K: Did you ever know the true you?

A: Um…before it got crazy, I did. I think that even when I was a girl and tried to be just who I was, school or…people around just couldn’t understand. My dad really understood me. My Gran understood me. They encouraged me but sometimes I just thought they had to be encouraging because that was the job of family, the duty. I sort of convinced myself that they weren’t being truthful with me, so I started to branch out and try to find that truth about me from others. It was a really fucked up mentality because the ones that knew me best…I failed to listen to believing they had to be on my side. It was their obligation…I thought.

K: That’s so interesting to me that the ones that would be the most comforting or the most supportive… you believed it was only because they had to.

A: Yeah. Weird.

K: Very. But I get it. It’s just about validation from the people that don’t’ know you that sometimes we crave because it’s maybe new or we just want to be loved and accepted from something different than what we’ve known instead of what’s always been. New…whatever, people, places…whatever; it always seems better than what you already have and know.

A: Isn’t that, like, so confusing?

K: It is. I get it though. Did you feel like you needed to run away from something? Escape?

A: The more I look on it, the more I feel that I wasn’t necessarily looking for an escape. I think I was trying to run towards something. I was always looking for something to run to or chase. I was always chasing something. I like that better.

K: Do you feel you ever caught it or caught up to what that was?

A: In terms of career…it was never the career that I was chasing. It was always people. I chased people because I wanted to feel loved or wanted.

K: You’re showing me the ugly duckling.

A: It’s how I felt about myself for a long time. Whenever someone made me feel important or cool or whatever, I was attracted to that, and I’d follow. Whatever they were into was okay because they accepted me. I was beautiful then.

K: Your dark or your demons that you felt everyone was focused on…was that because of people or fame?

A: People made your fame, didn’t they?

K: But you chased?

A: It wasn’t the crowds that I wanted the love from. It was easy for me to perform because to me…the fans or the people that came to see me…I already had that mass approval. I had the love and approval from family. It was the one on one from strangers or new faces…introductions that I really needed to feel acceptance from. It wasn’t from a shy place. It was from a place of please love me or if I fuck this up, they won’t like me or they won’t love me or they won’t call me.

K: How many times did you look at your phone in a day?

A: If I was alone…all the time.

K: Anxious?

A: Yes.

K: I’ve talked a few addicts in spirit, and they all have this sort of theme of feeling alone or numb or just needing something to fill a hole of some sort. Is that the same for you? You talked about feeling the need to escape. Was it a combo of all these things?

A: Um…yeah. I mean all those things, but you know when someone’s really small and skinny and they wear baggy clothes to hide it because if you’re too thin, it’s something to be shameful of…but you aren’t’ doing it on purpose…just people, again, make a lot of assumptions.

K: Yes. I had a friend that just couldn’t put weight on and she was teased.

A: So that hiding under baggy clothes, thinking that it would make you appear larger or bigger than what you are…

K: Yes.

A: Those clothes were my substance abuse addictions. Who I was, was totally okay. That girl…that light under all of that…it was okay to be that but I felt shame, so I covered up.

K: Shame for?

A: I don’t know. I couldn’t pinpoint it. I really just felt different. I didn’t feel like I really fit in even though I really tried. But my try was always because of some sort of outside influence.

K: You’re showing me multiple personalities.

A: Yes.

K: But you didn’t have that as a diagnosis.

A: No. My multiple personalities were…because I was hanging out with this person, this is how I had to be and if I was with this person, then I had to be that. And if I was stoned or drunk…I was this.

K: Do you ever consider yourself the innovative voice or person that we considered you as, watching you or listening to you? Did you ever consider yourself this amazing original piece of wonderful that we all believed you to be?

A: Wow. Really? Wow.

K: Sure. I’m sure you know that now but when you lived?

A: I took a lot of that for granted. The big ocean of people…the group of 50…that wasn’t scary for me. When I did my thing, they were all a blur. I didn’t see out there (using her hands to push in an outward direction) because that group was so out of reach that I could be anything. It was when they got closer that I was very unsure of if I would be accepted.

K: I don’t believe you considered yourself a lighthouse then.

A: (smiles shyly) No. Too much responsibility.

K: Because you were saying earlier that people tend to disregard the light of someone but you shone that light when you performed. That’s why people considered you that innovator or that original in your vocals, looks…whatever it was.

A: Sure. I mean, when I didn’t have to try and attract was when I felt I could be me and only me.

K: This is very interesting because if I was to stand in front of a crowd and teach, I’d piss myself but the one on one is good.

A: I don’t think that’s true. I think you’d surprise yourself.

K: Hhhmmm…maybe. Let’s talk mental illness.

A: Okay.

K: Cause of addiction or a result of your addiction?

A: I think we can all be a little fucked up or crazy. But…because of how I felt, I needed to chase, or I needed to prove myself with people to become what they wanted me to be…it was a little of both. I think it just escalated as I got older, and I had to be this person or this performer or I had to be Amy Winehouse.

K: Do you think with the fame, it exasperated those feelings or assumptions that were already there?

A: Yes.

K: So, in your day to day, without that fame factor, it would have been different?

A: That sort of makes me sound like I’m blaming it a little, doesn’t it?

K: A little.

A: But how can I put all the blame on fame? Because I loved singing and music. That’s not fair of me and I can’t.

K: How do you feel about talking about cutting (self-harm)?

A: For me…it was an addiction. It was the same as injecting, smoking, drinking, inhaling. It was just another form of abuse but just with a different substance.

K: Wow. Thank you for that. Were you suicidal?

A: No. I was lost. I was misplaced but I wasn’t suicidal.

K: Did you ever consider death as the outcome?

A: Yes. I knew. It’s that little voice of reason that sort of just sits back there and chirps away. Annoying. (laughs a little)

K: Did the substances ever become…not fun anymore?

A: It was never fun. Escaping or chasing is never fun. It loses its thrill and that’s why you do more or try more…to get that thrill. Cigarette smokers know about that. It starts at one but then it’s 2 – 3 packs a day just to get that thrill.

K: Okay. Done with dark; the big cloaks. Let’s talk about your light.

All of a sudden, she just grows and vibrates joy.

K: Ultimately, under all of that. Putting all that shit to the side, did you love or even like who you were?

A: (smiles) I used to play a little game with myself, usually at night when no one could hear or see. I would just give myself a little hug and tell myself I was good…I was a good person. It’s because I still saw her. I still recognized her. She was all there. I loved that. It was really small for a while but sometimes it was how I would get to sleep. I’d give myself a little hug and tell myself I was good. It was all okay.

She’s singing This Little Light of Mine.

A: For some reason…even though the perception was that I had turned into a lost cause, I still noticed that little girl I was and hugged her. That was on a good day. We all are capable of recognizing what’s under everything that’s not going so well. I recognized that when I sang and when I wrote music. I recognized that. Near the end…it was harder to but I liked giving that light of me pep talks every now and then even if it wasn’t light I saw and just Amy.

She’s being very sweet with herself in the images she’s showing me. Like an older sister to a younger one.

K: I think that for a lot of people, you seemed to be a lost cause.

A: I did.

K: But you acknowledging your light as that part of you that sang and wrote…did that help because obviously it still existed for you.

A: It prolonged the inevitable.

K: When you say that, there was no veering off that path?

A: Once I made those choices to perform on that incredibly high level…that was the inevitable. Choice really played a part in my life. It does with everyone, but every choice was black or white with me. There was no gray. Either this would happen or that would happen.

K: When you connected with that light of you that couldn’t always shine…was that love? And were you able to show that light, eventually, to people in your life?

A: Yes. Of course. Yes. When I was off the drugs, I could express that easily. I liked to gather people around me and when I did that, people were a bit relieved because it seemed I would survive whatever I was putting myself though. When an addict or a depressed or unstable person shows that part of themselves that’s light because it’s never gone…it’s that hope. You said I was a lighthouse, and I was. When I was sober, I showed hope. It never became false hope because I would relapse or whatever. I was able to be me sober and when you’re you without the cover-up…it shows as truth, and it shows as real. It shows in smiles and looks and when I was just me and singing and connecting to music without the baggy clothes that were substances…I felt good and that shone out as good. It was just me and at those times, I never understood why I would think that I wasn’t good enough.

K: When you surrounded yourself with people that you authentically loved and who authentically loved you…why didn’t it stick?

A: (shrugs) It should’ve, I guess maybe because the chase was gone. I couldn’t say one way or the other. Eventually the need for the chase was stronger. New people, new faces, that need to be accepted was stronger and to do that was easier with the baggy clothes...to showcase myself as something that I really wasn’t.

K: The masks went back on.

A: In my heart and in my mind, I was always living in a mascaraed ball. Always. I…flirted with the cover without getting to know what was under all of that because under all of that…a disappointment.

K: I get it.

A: I wore a lot of masks. It was tiring.

K: Did people get upset?

A: Oh yes. Of course. Yeah.

Thinks a bit.

A: Yeah. I think people need to focus more on the light of someone.

Picks at her fingers.

A: I know it can be hard to do that, but it would just make things better.

K: What would that make better?

A: Because if people focused more on the light of someone, they would believe it’s real and it would grow. I think that if we looked at people, in general, with those eyes that saw everything that was good about them, that would make a person realize just how special and wanted they are. People don’t get the opportunity to feel special anymore. There’s always the critics or the comments or the…but if you could do this…people don’t recognize others by who they really are anymore. They always recognize them by who they aren’t or who they’re pretending to be or what they’re most insecure about. I don’t know if it would’ve made a difference for me. Maybe but…maybe I could be, or I could give that idea that…I don’t know. Recognize someone by their light without comparing it to something it should be according to someone else. It sounds par for the course a little bit. But it doesn’t happen as much as it should.

K: Do you feel people could see your light through your behaviors?

A: It depends on who was looking, to be honest. I felt a lot of people didn’t want to because if they saw mine, they had to see theirs because that’s just the natural state of …that relationship but they wouldn’t see mine because they were hiding from theirs as well.

K: Your marriage to Blake. I know it wasn’t the healthiest.

A: No.

K: Did he see your light?

A: If I let him. I think that we enabled each other to stay blind because that, to a certain extent, was easier.

K: Did you love him? Could you love him sober?

A: I did love him. I think that if we were both committed under different circumstances that we’d have five babies by now, but I loved who I thought he was or who I protected, what I believed he was, from other people.

K: Did other people not like him?

A: I think…well I know they blamed him a lot for what I had become. But that love for me from my family was a little bit blind because they didn’t see that I already was an addict or pretty messed up before that as well. I think Blake and I competed for each other’s attention a lot as well. It was the spiral or the drama that made us ignore health and keep that attention on what we were chasing including with each other. I think we could both be very elusive with our true feelings because feelings were…hidden. To feel, at that point, was overwhelming when you were used to hiding feeling or emotion under those addictions. Feelings, for an addict, are scary because they’re big. Addicts tend to feel to these really intense degrees that it’s hard to integrate and accept so a lot of the time…it’s easier to numb because numb keeps that state of normalcy where everything isn’t so manic.

K: Could you be manic?

A: I could. It was that example of that little girl and the overbearing parent that if faced with a charge or a complaint, that parent would defend that girl to the end because if that parent raised them, that kid could do no wrong. I’m sorry. I keep using these examples. I hope they are understood.

K: I understand them. It’s cool. I can see what you’re saying though.

A: Thank you.

K: Your image…was that all you? Did you enjoy the retro look? Retro slash biker chick slash…I don’t know…Vanity Fair?

A: (laughs) Yeah. It was cool and I could pull it off. I often thought of what it would be like to live back then. I mean, it was a style and an…era that brought me a lot of nostalgia. I clicked with it, and it was easy for me to bring that out of myself. When you just jive with something, it’s probably already with you in some way.

K: Would it have something to do with another life?

A: Yeah. Now I know that. I love being an entertainer and through every life I have been and will continue to do that. It’s a distinct river that sort of flows through what I lived and as Amy, that history was still very recent, so I felt, almost, as if I picked up where I left off.

K: You keep playing me that song, Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow. And Rehab but that one more. I hear you singing it as you wait for me to come back. It must have meant something to you.

A: It did. It spoke of insecurity and those what if you don’t really love me thoughts that I had and, in the song…it’s like this woman is ready to give everything but is her lover willing to give it in return or is it just a one-night thing to fulfill his needs? I loved with that. If I gave my all, my light…if it came to the point where I let myself be vulnerable enough to do that, would I only suffer heartbreak and for months that would be my every day. Would people on that one-to-one level, if I were to show my true colors, would that be enough for them and most times I didn’t believe it was. So that song summed up a lot of what I was too proud or shy to express.

K: I love it. I love the way you sing it because you sing it in a way that it’s a part of you somehow. It’s a vulnerable place to be in and if that’s a way that you could show that…I mean it’s pretty moving.

A: Thank you.

K: And I think that you’re very correct in saying how people only focus on what went wrong or how someone sabotaged themselves without stepping into that role and considering there were other factors other than fame or money or…those superficial things we like to blame because it’s easy to.

A: Those things did contribute of course. They made it easy to get my hands on what I needed…it was connection and while a lot of my connections were well intended, some weren’t, or with that fame factor, people around you didn’t feel they could be honest with me or say no to me because that would ruin their career or whatever. Status is used to an advantage…and to disadvantage as well.

K: Yeah. It’s almost like a shitty cycle.

A: Sometimes.

K: Who realized your talent? Was it your dad that sort of nurtured that?

A: Yes. It was always my choice though. It was easier to let others make decisions or push me towards something themselves than me actually doing that. I’m not saying I let people run over me but obviously I wasn’t the best decision maker.

K: Was your body failing you or was it your spirit that was failing you?

A: Um…I was failing me. Through my actions I was failing me and through all of that was the consequence or the outcome. The body takes direction from you. It has to but there comes a point where it can’t keep up.

K: You died of “alcohol poisoning” (finger quote).

A: It wasn’t just that one night that I drank too much and that was it. It’s just; I had been at it so hard and so long that…it was poisoned by a lot of stuff over time.

K: Was it expected?

A: I think it was more a fear that it would actually happen. Sort of that head in the sand thing. All the signs were there. I even knew that to some extent. I was told by my physicians, but I didn’t completely get how serious they were. It never occurred to me and people who are addicts can’t. They don’t want to. It’s just another topic to avoid; another thing to avoid because it’s another disappointment or let down.

K: Why, if you were aware of your light, did you choose to…as that soul, experience such contrast?

A: Fuck if I know but…yeah. I don’t know. Why does anyone choose these things? Maybe for the challenge? I don’t think I would ever admit to coming and living that life for the only purpose of being an addict. (thinks with her chin on her curled knuckles) I think I just wanted to experience how much I could still shine or show up while being at war with…all my insecurities or buried treasures. I always knew I was treasured. I gave that to myself when I felt whole enough to. I don’t think I wanted to explore recovery. I think I just wanted to explore contrast and how different those things could be while still living as one person.

K: I’m pretty sure you fulfilled that.

A: What anyone decides to believe about me as that, I held onto a lot that I kept hidden because ultimately, I didn’t feel safe enough to share. What I could share I did mostly through music.

K: Did you want people’s pity?

A: No. No one wants pity. That just says I don’t believe you can be any better. I didn’t want anyone’s pity, disappointment, exhaustion…all of that because people only focused on what was loudest about me and that was addiction. Only a few people saw my little light. That was hope. I loved to feel the hope people had for me because if hope comes form a good place, it equals encouragement.

K: That’s awesome. Thank you for that.

A: Thanks so much. It’s been cool. This has been cool.

K: I apologize if it was a little bit of a repeat.

Waves me away.

A: I wouldn’t have come if I didn’t feel like it would make a difference. Thanks for keeping things honest.

K: No problem. Thank you for yours. Did you have fun while it lasted? With the parts that connected you to that light?

A: I had a blast. I really…the good was really good. Again, that contrast.

K: Yes. I guess to maintain some sort of equilibrium…I guess we can only try.

A: That’s all we can do. Thanks, Kim.

K: Thanks Amy.

Blows me a kiss, winks and waves.

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A Conversation with Tina Turner

T: Is it time?

K: I don’t know. I should be asking you.

T: (grins) I know, I know. I’ve been dragging my heels a little bit about this.

K: Can you tell me why?

T: Let’s see…(thinks) I can’t put my finger on one answer for you. I guess…you know, I’ve been requested by numerous mediums since my death, and it was immediate (snaps fingers) which was a lot.

K: Huh. That’s interesting that you should say that because there’s these ideas that some people have that when a person dies, it’s like going back to something that you never left but then for others, it’s like…they want to get their feet wet a little bit and come into some sort of full remembrance before reaching back to people here.

T: Yes. I guess I would fall into the middle of that.

K: Okay.

T: (pauses and thinks) It’s all so different depending on…who dies. I would have liked to subscribe to your first point about how it’s going back to something you never left but I had fun in my life. At the heart of it, I had a lot of fun and I knew that I was dying. I was sick and then got sicker and sicker so, of course, I knew that I was dying but even with that awareness…it was not like going back to something that I never felt I left.

K: Do you believe you were…summoned…by people?

We both start laughing.

K: Do you think people wanted to interview you because of the icon that is Tina Turner.

T: I think…there is that, but I also think that people in this field of study or work…that work of psychic…mediumship stuff…I feel like the assumption is…when someone dies, that life they lived…that persona that they lived is now a totally open book. All of that intimacy of a life…all of those complexities is now free to know…the privacy aspect is gone. So, being invited or asked or scheduled by people for an interview, in my death and transition, and have that assumption that my life was an open book for all to read, now that I was no longer living…that was hard for me.

K: Did you keep some of your life private…still? Even with the interviews as a spirit being communicated with?

T: There were mediums that were very respectful and only asked for deeper clarification on events that were already discussed or that I had already discussed as a woman…living woman. The questions just evolved into how I saw things with an expanded view and not so narrow. But that was the assumption, by people asking me questions, that I had a narrow view living as Tina Turner. I don’t believe I lived with a narrow view of life…of my life. I believe I was very aware of who I was and that is why I lived and made the choices that I did. There were also mediums that couldn’t grasp the information…what I was saying or the vibe that I was offering and so they filled in the blanks with what they knew or what they believed…what they could relate to or were comfortable with. Honestly, there were more of the ones that filled in the gaps which is part of my hesitancy with speaking to mediums. Also, I have done many, many interviews in my time and it’s also about…what more can I offer that would even be useful as a message.

K: To me, what you just admitted or what you just shared with me is something of value. I feel like…there are a lot of assumptions about connecting with spirits and what they actually say or what they actually portray, and I feel that…it’s really the spirit who has to connect with the “fingerprint” (finger quote) of the medium and they can only share to the extent of their ability and they can only share based on their personal awareness. I think that, in general, the message will be similar but there will be differences between mediums. Maybe part of that is the creative aspect because creativity is so…individual and personal.

T: It is. (nods) It is so, so personal. Thank you for saying that. I guess it’s…even in the entertainment industry. The longevity…I do believe that the longevity of a career is very dependent on the originality and the ability to invent and reinvent yourself over and over. (moving her hands in a circular motion) That keeps something everlasting because there is movement. The cookie cutter of the entertainment industry has no movement and is relevant or popular for a very small amount of time…only a moment. I feel that the same holds true for anything. Everything is in motion. Everything. The point is to keep up with the motion of that or to try as much as you’re able to. There is a necessity for pause in life. There is a necessity to pull yourself out of the race of motion and to simply be a presence without work. There were avenues that I took to ensure that for me. A part of that was where I chose to live.

K: You’re talking about Switzerland.

T: Yes. While the world continues to turn, the world turns differently in Switzerland as well as a lot of different countries, but Switzerland is the land of pause, of stopping and observing, of being held in a place of safety amongst an ever…ever evolving fast paced world. Of course, there are places…the bigger city centers where it is faster but in general, it’s a place where you can join the flow or you can climb out of that flow and just enjoy your own space, your own breath, your own view of heaven for as long as you want. Switzerland is the land of pause. I enjoyed it there.

K: Do you think it hampered or put a stop to your career in ways?

T: I wanted it to. When I made the choice to make Switzerland my home, that’s what I wanted. If I wanted to continue to strive…it would have been the States, but I didn’t want to continue to strive. I wanted to breathe clean air and I wanted my body to feel peaceful. I did have illness. I did have a tough time sometimes. I did have a past of being abused. I did need to keep up with Tina because Tina paid the bills…(laughing). So, there was all of that. But, even with all of what I lived, I was wise enough to know that I needed to take care of myself because if I didn’t, I would have died sooner than when I did. To me, that included where I lived. I was very…attached to environments. Environments had their…influence on me and knowing this, is how I decided where I needed to be. Wanted…that’s different. I lived where I needed to be, so I still had longevity.

K: Did that include…your partner as well? Did that include where he needed to be and was there some compromise with that?

T: There was. (nodding) I think just travelling there, it was a moment of looking at each other and it clicked for both of us…deep down that this is where our best-foot-forward felt. Have you ever had an opportunity where you knew…you just knew that…wherever you were walking, you knew you couldn’t leave because it was that puzzle piece that was missing and now that you had that piece and locked it into place, you couldn’t imagine being anywhere else?

K: I haven’t had that yet to that extent. There have been moments, for sure. Like, in a certain moment, I would be where I was meant to be which had this settling feeling but overall, I don’t think I ‘ve had that yet.

T: Some people are lucky in their life to find that when they are young. Some have to live some time…to really know who they are before they can find that puzzle piece. It’s all part of a long journey.

K: Do you think that when it doesn’t happen right away…that people tend to be focused on the happiness of others and not so much themselves?

T: (nods her head in big movements) Yes, my dear. Yes, my dear. Others are the priority. When a person finds their importance and their needs just as important as the needs they are fulfilling or completing or supporting in others…they will find what they eventually have been looking for and that’s not to say that when you’re fulfilling the needs of others that you’re missing out. It’s all about the purpose of the journey or the mission of the journey…the life that you choose. For some people, that means choosing the care-giver role or the role that supports others for a time but usually in those instances, supporting others is also fulfilling as well.

K: What if it’s not always. What if it’s draining?

T: Those are the moments where you are being shown that you just need a vacation. The issue I find with pleasing others or supporting others…when they are tuckered out…it’s a failure to voice their own truth just in case it disrupts the peace of others. The journey of life is always balance and eventually, it does get that balance. I don’t…personally I don’t believe anyone dies with unfinished business even though they might think they do. Death comes at the moment when business is done. It’s the fears of not…living or haven’t lived enough that people feel they have unfinished business. But if that is an honest fear of someone and they have held that fear…not just at the moment of death but ten years before…it’s in the little things that will ease that. No, you didn’t travel to some foreign land or live in a tree house in the middle of the woods but there were opportunities to mend broken relationships…say apologies that needed to be said…validate another’s…frustrations with a situation you both lived. The big stuff…no. When you’re dying…the big stuff can be done when you’re dead. There are endless opportunities of experiences when you die. I have continued my life, and it continues to fulfill me. But the little things are easy to get done so no one has to sit in regret and fear those things that they should have done but didn’t.

K: Yeah. It doesn’t take much to pick up the phone.

T: But for some people…it takes a considerable amount of effort to do something like that when they’ve never had to before. That is their Everest.

K: Do you think you climbed your Everest?

T: I climbed many, many, many Everests. I have. To some, they could appear small. To some, they believe that I should have abandoned the climb because it was…way out of my league and for some, they cheered me on until I reached the summit of all my climbs and they celebrated me…truly celebrated me at the core of my humanness…even with all my faults, my stubborn nature…my heated pride. They celebrated me and I think that’s what made dying…a bit tough for me. Sometimes I would sit in my room…with my tea…and acknowledge that I was celebrated but did I celebrate those in my life…did I celebrate them enough? Those are natural thoughts, and I did have them.

K: I can, very much relate to that, for sure. Thank you for saying that. You said earlier that you had some…the immediate calls for interviews bothered you.

T: Yes.

K: There is this idea that when you’re spirit, you are able to split yourself and do a hundred interviews at the same time while remaining whole.

T: (laughs) I would like those people that believe that…to come talk to me after they have lived their lives, come here, and tell me that when only ten people call their name. It takes practice. Again, for some, it’s like they never left but for many…it takes a little coaching to learn all of this stuff again and not only that…but as Tina I’m new. I never lived and died as Tina Turner. I had other lives that have done that, but Tina was the new kid on the block. Yes, you become whole, but I was still Tina and knew nothing about dying…death…living in heaven. Nothing. I had to remember that as a…newbie.

K: That makes so much sense. Yes! So many assumptions like you would just remember but Tina was a new creation. That is so true. Thank you for that.

T: The spirit…it’s such a generalized concept when it’s very much based on an individual life.

K: How do you feel about the spirit becoming a general topic of discussion.

T: I have no hard feelings about it because it’s what anyone knows. To know about individuality within wholeness in heaven, people, first, must discover that on earth. That hasn’t been discovered yet. It is very much…a soup of God here. It’s the whole soup with so many different ingredients that make up the deliciousness of that. People on earth are still trying to get in the same pot! (laughing)

K: (laughing loudly) That’s hilarious!!! It’s soooooo true, though.

T: It is. If there is anything that I am learning and seeing more than what I did when I lived is the concept of humanity. It is a hard, hard concept to learn. Even for those who deem themselves awakened or…an expert…they really are not. Even deeming oneself awakened means they still got some waking up to do. (chuckles)

K: (LOL) You’re hilarious. I love that. Ha! Were you spiritual in life?

T: I considered myself spiritual but was I connected to my spirit…that was a timing thing. I think for the most part, I was. But with anything, life got tiring and when life got tiring, that tired little girl showed up and she cried, and she got angry and she got frustrated. But I did consider myself spiritual. Was it textbook spiritual? No. But that would fall under what I was saying before that the spiritual…is generalized. It’s the same theme of many different books that read very, very differently. Some are enjoyable. Some read like a horror novel, but the themes are still spiritual because we all come from spirit…the Great Spirit. Again, very general.

K: That’s very interesting and making me consider some things.

T: Which one?

K: Well, in honest terms, the rat race of spirituality.

T: (nods slowly) Uh-huh.

K: I find that I’m walking the line of fitting in or staying on my own personal path with what I do.

T: And what wins?

K: Usually just keepin’ on keepin’ on.

T: It’s your Proud Mary moments.

K: I hope you’re not mad, but I don’t really know the song.

T: (laughing) I’m not mad. I call them Proud Mary moments. When someone realizes…after slavin’ away…what really matters and walks that path…down to the river Jordan.

K: WOW!!!!!!! Just wow.

T: Now, Miss. Kim.

K: Yes.

T: I need to ask you something.

K: Go for it.

T: Where’s your script?

K: Excuse me?

T: Your script? Your list of questions that are standard…that you ask.

K: Oh…uh…I don’t work like that. I never really did. I just let the conversation do what it needs to do. I don’t have a standard list of questions.

T: Okay…(nods) Alright. I see you. You don’t box things up.

K: I mean, sure, sometimes but never with this. I try to give this as much breathing room as it needs, to do whatever it needs to do and take whatever direction it needs to go. Holding tight and controlling things like this is just fucking exhausting and I’ve burned out a few times…which is never fun.

T: I understand that. I understand that and I understand what that can do to someone. Makes a person run…fast…away.

K: 100%. Absolutely. Now…is there anything that you would like to close with?

T: I don’t think so. It felt…a little risky sharing how I felt about the interviews but I’m glad I was able to share my perspective on the whole thing…how I felt.

K: In general, how do you feel about it now?

T: I feel good. I have my bearings…I’ve learned to enjoy where I am now. It is enjoyable but the immensity of who I became, in a fraction of a second…personally it took me a bit to catch my breath.

K: For sure. I can understand that. Thank you. I feel for any new start, it can feel huge. Daunting wouldn’t be the right word because I don’t feel like daunting would be a word or a feeling in heaven…

T: No.

K: But huge…immense.

T: It’s huge and immense in a very welcoming and warm…heart-full-of-love kind of way. So, it’s not scary but it is intimate and personal. Like I said, some people just skip right back but some…when there is nothing to fear…when there is nothing to cause a person to look over their shoulder…when there is too-good-to-be-true but it really is true…sometimes it can take a moment.

K: And honestly, Tina, I hope that happens to me, so I don’t take that experience for granted.

T: (points to me) That’s it. That is exactly it. You want to absorb it all, so you don’t take any of it for granted and that includes life. Life is so very precious, and it shouldn’t take the threat of life to be taken away to understand and know that. To me…my message would be…realize that life is so very precious now and don’t wait to be hit over the head with that fact when it’s too late and you feel like you want to rewrite a story that you feel you never completed.

K: Are you complete?

T: I am complete and whole and loved and welcomed. I am home.

K: Thank you. Thank you for this. Thank you for taking a chance on me.

T: (smiles) You’re highly recommended.

K: Awe shucks. I’m grateful. Come back any time.

T: Thank you. I just might. Have a wonderful, wonderful day. Thank you for spending some time with me.

K: My pleasure.

(waves with her fingers and ripples out of my sight)

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[talkingwithghosts555]

Body Talk (Bone Broth & Carnivore Diet)-Conversation with Heath Ledger

K: It is the afternoon now.

I meant to connect with him earlier.

H: (smiles) The days go by so fast…quickly now, don’t they. Are you experiencing that?

K: I am. How are you my strong and silent friend.

H: (grins) I am very, very well.

K: Thank you for the dream the other night. That little boy and how happy you were to see him. It was just a sight that I won’t soon forget.

H: Yes. That little boy means very much. I wanted to introduce you.

K: Super cute. You know when babies and toddlers have those tummies that stick out…the Buddha bellies?

H: Yes.

K: I remember that on him and he was so picky about the clothes he wanted to wear.

H: He has his tastes. It’s very humorous when he’s like that because he’s so cute that he can pull it off.

K: I know…cuteness wins.

H: Cuteness always wins.

K: What did you want to talk about?

H: I don’t really have anything in mind. (sits back and relaxes) It’s just nice to see my friend.

K: The feeling is mutual. Maybe we can get into a bit of a curiosity of mine.

H: Sure. Sounds good.

K: I’m drinking homemade bone broth…beef bone broth. Not the store-bought kind. I like to have my own control about what goes into my bone broth.

H: That’s the best way.

K: I’m feeling better on it. There seems to be lots of benefits to it.

H: There is.

K: Can we get into the actual energetics of it? Are there energetics of it and are those what contributes to how healing it can be on the physical level of a person?

H: Well, I mean, if we think too much about it…it doesn’t have to be studied inside and out but bone broth is very wholesome and holistic on a lot of levels, but I feel like the main one is structure and stability…longevity. Anything that a person takes into the body, it can be looked at in that way…about what…how it is on the earth and if you take that into your body…how that can contribute to the body in either a positive way or a negative way.

K: Yes.

H: Bones…are the structure of something that are built onto. It’s stability but it’s also about longevity. If you look at archeological digs…they unearth skeletons that are…maybe thousands of years old.

K: For sure.

H: The bones are still there...they’re fragile but they are still there and create form. Bone broth has the energetics of stability and longevity. Bones are the skeletal system of a living person…animal and within bones is the marrow…all of that combined defines the age of something…the structural integrity of something. The time it takes for a bone to heal will show how intricately those bone compounds weave themselves together to maintain structure. When a person is ingesting bone broth, it’s supporting longevity and the structural integrity of the person. Not only at the ground level but as well as how that ripples out to the rest of the person. What is at the surface has its roots at the base. If the base isn’t sound…if the base is diseased, everything that ripples or spreads from that, is…for lack of a better word…diseased as well. Fragility isn’t just what people show when they walk around. It’s a response to what’s happening at the base. That’s the same for a lot of things out there. If a person is looking at the energetics of someone…the chakras of someone, if the base chakra isn’t stable or is deficient…that flow isn’t working and the others…in some way or another, will be deficient as well.

K: Wow. That’s a lot.

H: When someone ingests something into their body, a great way to see how it will perform is when you look at what it is, what it looks like, the structure…the metabolism…the shape, the color. It all means something and that’s why there is so much that people can ingest because all of it supports…at the base of it…supports someone at that level.

K: But then you get…so I’m doing bone broth, but I get bones from the grocery store and then you hear…it has to be grass fed beef bones or eat organic and I try but sometimes it’s really not affordable.

H: Where you live, it’s not always affordable but in other places it is. Really, it’s about doing the best you can with what you’ve been given. If a person gets way too hung up on the details, they’ll fail to have a balanced and complete nutritional base for their body which is depleting.

K: I have been seeing a lot about this “carnivore diet” which looks interesting but the amount of meat these people are eating…doesn’t sit well with me.

H: Because it’s flesh. Some people like to eat flesh and it gives them the nourishment they need. Some can take a little bit, and some can’t take any. Knowing your person…knowing your vessel and listening…hearing its nutritional needs is important. I’ve seen things about the carnivore diet and for some people, it’s the healing nourishment they need but it’s not meant to be a way of life for years and years. When a person comes back into balance with the nutrients, they’ve depleted themselves of, they no longer have to keep filling that glass…but balance it with introducing other things. Living food…fruits and vegetables…needs to be added to a carnivore diet once that protein and enzyme depletion has been nourished and brought back into balance.

K: Does blood type have anything to do with feeling good on a carnivore diet or a vegan diet?

H: Yes. It’s Easter so let me sort of relate it to something and people might not like it but…I’ll do it anyway.

K: Okay.

H: The blood and the body of Christ…the Eucharist.

K: Sure.

H: The blood and the body. The body doesn’t necessarily mean the flesh and bone. It’s the body and it’s based on the blood. Blood type diets…and meat has a lot to do with them, can be nourishing in some ways but when you eat according to the blood type, it’s not just eating the foods that the blood type likes. It’s also taking in the “neutral” (finger quote) foods because those foods can be incorporated for more of a balanced diet and not such an extreme one.

K: I’ve been getting in tune with what my body is needing, and I used to go by the rule book of diet to keep my pineal gland working which is so dumb. It really is dumb.

H: (chuckles)

K: God, Heath. In this journey I have fallen for anything just to keep up with what’s sexy.

H: Everyone does.

K: But I find I feel very very good eating beef. I don’t feel good eating pork. I do feel good with some fish and seafood…not all. But in saying I feel good eating beef, I do not like how I feel with veal.

H: Yes.

K: And I don’t really like chicken, but I do like turkey. Now, if I was to tell someone who’s really really into the whole…you can eat this and not that when you’re spiritual…

H: (laughs)

K: Beef is a no-no. It lowers a person’s vibration.

H: When you are eating the foods your body is telling you it needs, it doesn’t lower your “vibration” (finger quote). It enhances it and we’ve been teaching people that they really, really need to start listening to their physical bodies because there are lots of bodies connected with the physical one that are speaking through the physical that you’re experiencing. Some people do really well on…I don’t know…what’s bad?

K: Whiskey.

H: (grins) Good. Okay, whiskey. Some people feel good with a finger or two of whiskey a couple of times a week. Some do not. Some believe that it lowers the vibration of someone. Some think it’s good for blood flow. But nothing matters as long as you…are honest with yourself about why you’re drinking it…that you’re not using it as a means to escape but you honestly feel like…on a beneficial level, it’s helping and you can’t put your finger on why it is…you just know it is…it’s okay. But that’s a private discussion with you and yourself and no one else.

K: Got it.

H: There are so many people that call themselves influencers and they are popular because people are easily influenced. People are easily influenced because they don’t sit with their physical vessel and feel what it’s telling them. After Christmas… people go straight to dieting. Why?

K: I don’t know. It’s the staple New Year’s resolution.

H: Because their body is telling them it doesn’t feel great with the indulging that’s been happening for the last month. It needs a good clean-out and clean-up. People take that as…I have to lose twenty pounds. Well, maybe, sure. But it really means that the body just wants more balance in its diet.

K: Cool. What are your thoughts on sugar?

H: Sugar…can be a drug. There are a lot of sugars out there. Some are required…bodies do need sugars, but some are not necessary. Indulging is always good. Indulgence…it’s a part of life. Over-indulgence all the time…it does affect the support systems of the body. A treat, now and then, is a good thing because life isn’t always about rules, rules, rules. As long as there is balance and respect with the physical because there is that awareness that the physical is talking and rippling out to more than just what a person can see, hear, touch and smell…the occasional celebration and indulgence is a must.

K: Well, I’ve had my indulgence with the Easter candy.

H: I hope so.

K: It’s funny because it doesn’t take much for me to get tired of it. I think I had like…5 chocolate…those mini eggs…

H: Yes.

K: And a bit of jellybeans and my body’s telling me to stop right now.

H: It’s good that you have that relationship with your body. So many people are in a continuous battle with it instead of accepting it and listening to what it has to say.

K: For sure. I’ve been there especially because I think…the more someone gets to know their body, the more they feel it constantly changing and it gets frustrating because you want your body to be this one way, but it can’t always be that one way.

H: No. The physical body will never only be one way. It will morph and change all the time and daily…it does change daily but people just don’t notice. I feel like a daily check in is great. A thirty second body scan and sending positivity to what doesn’t necessarily feel great that day is a beneficial practice. But, at the end of the day…bone broth is a really, really good thing to do for your body.

K: What can vegans do to sort of mimic bone broth?

H: Seeds. Seeds can mimic what bone broth does. It’s on a smaller scale but seeds are something they can do to get somewhat similar benefits.

K: That’s so awesome. Thank you for that. That makes sense.

H: I try to make sense. But you’re okay? It’s been a minute since we connected.

K: I see you here and there.

H: Of course. What friend doesn’t check on a friend? That’s what friends do.

K: Yep. I have some really great friends.

H: Me too. Indulge a little bit today. Celebrations are celebrations and you’ve been through it the last two weeks.

K: I can’t even tell you, so I won’t. (winks)

H: I see it. Have a really great day. I miss you and I don’t miss you because you’re always with me in some way.

K: Awe. Thank you, my friend. I feel exactly the same way. Thank you.

H: I will see you again.

K: Of course.

H: What is it you say? Chat soon?

K: I do say that.

H: Chat soon, Kim.

K: Chat soon, Heath.

#spiritual growth #spiritual journey #mediumship #channeling #channeled message #spirit communication #psychic #message from spirit #Heath Ledger #the body #bone broth #carnivore diet

[talkingwithghosts555]

A Conversation with Matthew Perry

K: Good morning.

M: Good morning.

K: I’m going to do this while getting coffee and trying to wake up if that’s okay with you?

M: Please do whatever you need to do. I’m just happy to be here.

K: Thank you for visiting yesterday. It was a pleasant surprise.

M: Oh…the pleasure is really mine.

K: What made you decide to come?

M: Ah…(rubs his chin and thinks) to be honest, it was a different feeling. I was told that there are people that ask for these sorts of opportunities, to talk with…us (spreads his arms to indicate where he is now) and then there are people that don’t and the people that don’t sometimes…you know…it just clicks more.

K: Really?

M: Yeah. Absolutely.

K: You’ve done a few of these, I’m sure.

M: (nods while smiling) I feel like it’s all I’ve been doing since I got here. Can I just…(points to me and wiggles his finger a bit) add something.

K: Of course.

M: There are a lot of…interviewers…(smiles) that do this on video, and I feel like we’re…if we were “in person” (finger quote) you would be sitting with me, recording our conversation and typing it out for a magazine or something.

K: Pretty much.

M: Why not the video?

K: I tried the video and there are a couple things that have brought me back to the writing. It would be easier to interview a ghost on video if I had a partner that asked the questions and I answered because to do both isn’t easy. It is for some but I like to be totally present with the ghost and if I have to think of questions at the same time…I feel it’s very unbalanced.

M: (nods) I get that.

K: I have a really busy life and I couldn’t get time to do the videos consistently. To do a video took at least four hours for me and it just…I don’t have that time and really, I have done the automatic writing for so long that it’s faster…it still takes a couple of hours from start to finish but it’s faster and I can get more of a word for word message which I like and it’s also respectful to who I’m talking to.

M: I like it too. I think that it’s one of these mediums that…it’s a lost art a little bit. Blogging was big but vlogging took over and for the writers who get into the minds of people through writing, I guess they sort of lost out to attention spans.

K: Yeah. That too. Some of the videos could be over an hour and…I don’t know. I tried.

M: I think that’s all a person can do.

K: You said that you had a lot of interviews since your death so…

M: (chuckles while he waits)

K: I’m not really going to rehash a lot of that. If you’ve been interviewed, people can watch those, but I have a question about the interviews.

M: Okay.

K: What is the one question that…got on your nerves?

M: (rolls his eyes and laughs) That’s easy. (crosses an ankle over a knee and rubs his lips with his index finger) The question that I can’t stand…that has been asked over and over again…and it can take a lot of forms but it’s the same thing. What was your spiritual lesson or what was your spiritual mission and did you accomplish it sort of thing.

K: Ah.

M: I really really…the first couple of times I was like…whoa…that’s interesting and then the more that it was asked, I was done with being asked.

K: Why was that? With that specific line of questioning?

M: I really don’t think that’s anyone’s business because it’s not like anyone will learn from the answer and it’s more about answering to someone than celebrating what has happened in a person’s life. There’s this assumption that when people listen to these videos or these interviews from someone that died…that the audience will “be taught” (finger quote) something or “learn” something from someone that died. But what is a person supposed to teach through their death that someone can embody on earth? There are lessons that people live…they want to live but all of it is different because it has to be. Really, I think that kind of questioning is a cover up for…do you think you passed or failed. No one passes or fails. In terms of dying…people forget that it’s just the human experience…the human to be experienced…the human life with all of its ups and downs, highs and lows…it’s the human life to be experienced and there is no pass or fail.

K: So, then what do you think of the question or the inquiry of…what do you believe your spiritual purpose or mission was in life and did you accomplish that? I used to ask that, but I got examples of questions from watching the videos that you’re talking about because I really didn’t know what to ask the dead.

M: To me, (gestures to his chest) it’s the same kind of questioning and to put “spiritual” before anything…I think it creates a competition between a lot of different groups of people.

K: How so?

M: Just…makes the conversation or the understanding of something, easier for this group and not for this group because they don’t necessarily believe in that umbrella of spirituality and I thought that if I could tell my story from this side, (moves his hands towards his right) it would be for everyone but that largely depends on who’s asking the questions.

K: That’s so true because if you were being interviewed by someone in the news like…Diane Sawyer or something, it would have a completely different feel than if you were being interviewed by…I don’t know…I don’t want to name names.

M: I can respect that and you’re right. (shifts in his seat) You (points to me with clasped hands and pointer fingers together) have spoken with a few addicts.

K: I have, yes. But they aren’t addicts to me.

M: My point. (smiles) It’s refreshing.

K: Why do you say that? Do you feel like the label of “addict” (finger quote) followed you in death?

M: I do. I really do. I’ve gotten a lot of questions or need-to-know…dialogues about those aspects of myself which isn’t comfortable.

K: Why?

M: Because…I consider my actions…what I did within that label…that wasn’t all of who I was but because it was everywhere and it’s what I wrestled with…that’s that I became the face of and so that’s what I was ultimately remembered for, plus, the behavior that went with that and…it wasn’t good behavior. My behavior, a lot of the time when I was in those dark places, was not good. That’s when anger really came to the forefront of who I was because that’s the emotion that I had in me…I also felt resentfulness for what wasn’t happening or what I couldn’t express or who I wasn’t…it came out when I was using because when you use a substance, the reason why you use it or what you try to cover with it…comes out because inhibition is gone.

K: Then, when someone says something like…they’re an “angry drunk”…

M: Exactly. (gestures to me)

K: They have unexpressed anger in them, and the alcohol takes that inhibition away and so they show that anger…that suppressed emotion.

M: Yes. You get it.

K: I do.

M: Eventually…those emotions that come out when using substances…is what is remembered about a person, and I feel like that followed me in my death and what is the most frequently wondered about and what is most frequently asked…about.

K: Do you understand it…why?

M: I do. But even understanding that, I wish it was different. I wish people could see the ultimate of someone and by ultimate…the love and the good of someone…what they tried very hard to be or accomplish instead of what their downfall or supposed downfall was.

K: I totally agree with you. I really do. It’s funny that we’re going down this road because there are two things that I saw with you.

M: Okay. I would love to hear about that.

K: First, when I was looking for an image to connect with…to put with this conversation, I didn’t really see one that had a full smile. It was a lot of…struggling to smile but there was a lot that…in that half smile…that was said…unsaid and unspoken.

M: Thank you for noticing that. Thank you. I appreciate you seeing that.

K: Why no…full smile?

M: A genuine full smile requires genuine complete happiness. So much of who I was…I couldn’t find that complete happiness or I never felt comfortable within myself as Matthew to show that I was happy and completely satisfied. The issue was that I was constantly trying to make things better and brighter for everyone outside of me which left me feeling tired and depleted and not really knowing how to give myself that same attention that I would give to others, and it was sad. It was really sad, and I couldn’t find a smile because of feeling…why can’t I.

K: I really really feel that at a very deep level.

M: When I was alone, the resentment came up and then the feeling tired. I felt really tired.

K: Do you think, as an actor, it was easier to get tired because maybe you had the means to do more but also, people wanted more from you, and it was tough to find a balance with that?

M: Yes. Yes. 100% yes. (pats the arms of the chair)

K: Wow. Okay. Awesome. The other thing that I saw when I saw your picture was behind the image there was…like a void and it’s not a bad thing. It’s not like you were filled with darkness.

M: No.

K: But there was a void there…a hole. Why did you show that to me?

M: The same…mostly…that we talked about.

K: When you died…where did that void go?

M: Something that I can’t really explain with words…filled that. I felt a profound sense of worth and immediate discovery of who I really, really was.

K: That happened right away?

M: It did.

K: And what was your response to that?

M: I felt like I could breathe again. I felt really big. I felt like I stood straighter. I felt young. It was so different, and I looked around and said, what is this place…am I dreaming? It felt like a dream.

K: What was something that you loved in your life. Really, really loved and connected with?

M: My siblings. I didn’t have children, but my siblings gave me…they gave me a lot. They saw and watched what I went through even though it wasn’t every day. They knew I struggled but they loved me. They loved me anyway. There was no ultimatum with my siblings. There were ultimatums and threats…coming from a well-intentioned place from others but there were threats from people that loved me that were impatient with who I was becoming in the really dark times but I never got that from my siblings and that…that meant a lot to me.

K: That’s incredible. Thank you for sharing that.

M: I have to thank you though.

K: For what?

M: For this. Having a sit down of this nature is great. It’s really great.

K: I used to interview in terms of dying and how someone lived but that doesn’t interest me so much anymore. If a ghost wants to come in, it’s just a space held for them to have a conversation about what they want to say…that final word that they never got to speak or what they see now.

M: It’s incredibly…I feel very heard and supported so thank you for this.

K: It’s my pleasure. Do you think that ghosts still…there are still ghosts that want that final say?

M: Yes. Absolutely they do. For sure.

K: I never read your book.

M: That’s okay.

K: Why did you feel the need to put out a book?

M: It was something that I needed to do as something cathartic and getting everything out the way I saw it…the way I lived it and felt it because what people were seeing of me were their own versions of me and there were so many different versions of me that were being told and I wanted to put out the version of me that I was…who I thought I was so that I could feel like someone had my back even if that person was only me.

K: Did you feel support from others?

M: I did. I felt support from others, but people only know how to give support based on what they know and the support they received in life. Sometimes that intention hit good and sometimes it hit bad. I think…(pauses and reflects) people only know others to the extent that they’re willing to know themselves and I think that the more you know yourself, the more you’re going to know someone else or the world around you.

K: That’s amazing. That really is.

M: I met people at where I was or where I could be. Sometimes that wasn’t enough and sometimes people got frustrated with that, but I had difficulty meeting myself where I was because it lacked. If people understood that someone can only meet another person from where they’re at…at any given time, I really believe there would be more understanding, compassion, and forgiveness in people.

K: Yes. Thank you for that.

M: I think the whole…expectations from others would…it wouldn’t feel so heavy or so big to try to meet expectations and continually feel like you pass or fail.

K: (smiling) You’re an amazing man.

M: Nah. (shakes his head) I’ve just learned a lot, but you know, just that…is the simplicity of knowing people.

K: Meeting them where they’re at.

M: Yeah. I feel like there is a lot more…there’s an opportunity for more understanding.

K: Or maybe showing the consideration to yourself…meeting yourself where you’re at and being okay with that because every day there will be different levels to that.

M: Which would ease the expectations a person has on themselves to be perfect in some way.

K: What do you think of perfection?

M: It doesn’t exist. People strive for perfection…a concept that doesn’t exist. There is no perfect. Even God is still learning because every experience a person has, God has too so everything is always perfecting but it’s never perfect.

K: Wow. That just filled my heart and soul with a lot of peace. Thank you for that.

M: Evolution wasn’t something that only happened thousands and thousands of years ago. Evolution is still happening on every level throughout space and time because nothing gets smaller…everything always expands in some way, at some point. How that looks can appear like an end or a death or a hard stop or a quit…whatever but if a person could look at it in those ways, I think that it would bring so much hope that there are lights at the ends of tunnels and that nothing is ever out of reach…even healing or fulfillment…peace.

K: Yes. Absolutely.

M: Now…I wanted to ask…

K: Ask away, Professor Perry.

M: I hesitate because your circle is so big.

K: Circles only expand, Matthew.

M: (grins) Thank you. That means more than you know. Thank you.

K: Thank you. You’re pretty amazing. I loved this sit down and introduction. I feel like you are very wise and have a lot of wisdom to share.

M: Sometimes. Sometimes I do. Sometimes I really don’t. I’ll continue to learn and do better.

K: Because you’re still not perfect? (winks)

M: Nope. Not by a long shot. But…I feel pretty good about that now.

K: Good. I’m glad. So…what would your final word be? Just one word that you never got to say but that you can say now?

M: Ouch.

K: That’s your final word?

M: Yep. When your heart stops…it sort of really hurts. Ouch. Ouch would be my final say.

K: (laughing) Thank you, Matthew. You are so profound.

M: (laughing) Thank you. I hope you have a wonderful Easter.

K: Meh. I don’t really celebrate it. I like the candy though.

M: (chuckles) Me too. It’s a bonus. Have a good day. Enjoy the sunshine while it lasts.

K: Thank you. You too. Chat soon.

M: Bye.

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Trauma, Cellular Trauma, Cellular Memory-Conversation with Paul Walker

K: Hey. I’ve felt you around. How are you?

P: I’m good. You know…(bringing an ankle over a knee) I’m good.

K: Thank you for your help for the last couple of weeks. Working with Sam and all that.

P: You’re welcome. (picks at the cuff of his jeans) Life…right?

K: For sure, life. Just keeps on goin’.

P: I don’t know if you’ve felt it lately…that charge in the air. The picking up speed?

K: I have. It generally feels like there is a hard line drawn in the sand of what was and what’s going to be. It’s not even anything general or subtle. There is a hard line and you either cross it or you don’t because now is the time to choose.

P: That’s part of it, for sure, that’s part of it. I think people are having a difficult time in recognizing that because it’s really never happened before. It feels a little like now or never but that’s a bit extreme.

K: That’s exactly what it feels like though.

P: I feel it too. I really do. Which, you know, is why I’m here. (shrugs like it’s no big deal)

K: I had a curiosity about cellular memory including the trauma that’s stored there.

P: Okay.

K: In the past few weeks or months, I have had this very heavy suspicion that the back stuff that I have…

P: Yep.

K: Isn’t an injury. I feel like it’s deep trauma that’s coming from my root and to move that, it’s causing a lot of discomfort and pain.

P: I would have to agree with you there.

K: Can a person tell that the body is releasing past trauma through the kind of pain it’s experiencing.

P: Absolutely. But before we get into it, we have to let people know the usual.

K: That we aren’t doctors or healthcare professionals and anything here is not intended to be used as diagnosis or as a health resource. (blah, blah, blah)

P: It just protects you, Kim.

K: I know.

P: There you go. Now everyone knows. That’s done. Have you ever had the experience of trying to take something from a child and they hold onto it for dear life and there’s this bit of a tug of war?

K: Sure.

P: Because they don’t want to release what they have in their grasp and the thought of losing that, even if it’s something that can hurt them, is really scary.

K: Yes.

P: That is what’s happening at a cellular level right now. Let’s take you, for example.

K: Sure.

P: That spasm you feel, at a cellular level, is the back and forth of your trauma not wanting to let go of the place that it’s held in the body for a long time. And when there is that pretty big tug of war happening, it can feel crippling. Again, people need to make sure if they’re having a lot of pain, to see a doctor but if we’re gonna put it in the energetic or spiritual sense, it’s trauma being forced to vacate but it’s not willing so it’s gonna cop a squat where it wants to. If a person has had trauma while growing up, it will manifest in the root of that person. If the person was sexually abused, they will have those trauma stores in the root and sacral…heart…throat…it can spread like a virus into any center of the body that had anything to do with feeling that, going through that…enduring that. That’s a pretty extreme example so let’s look at something simple. If a person grew up poor…they had nothing. They lived in the slums…that can give serious hip and back pain. If someone felt neglect, they can have that pain or discomfort in the chest that feels like heartburn or upper back pain. If people needed to grow up before their time…they can feel that a lot in the neck and shoulders and find it really hard to express themselves. I will put out there that the diagnosis of “fibromyalgia” (finger quote) is an umbrella term for pain that can’t be diagnosed. They don’t know why it happens…where is this inflammation coming from and it’s really coming from a cellular level where there was trauma, at some point, that happened and now it’s being felt in the physical and mental bodies because it’s stuck there.

K: I see a lot of pain coming up for a lot of people. I also see a lot of…over-awareness…hyperawareness about it that’s causing the other extreme and trying to do everything to get rid of it.

P: And the over-awareness or the hyperawareness of it is trying to solve a problem as fast as possible so it can be done as soon as possible without really understanding why it’s there in the first place and not doing the work to really heal it, so it doesn’t come back. That hyperawareness about trauma is fleeing for your life…trying not to get caught with your hand in the cookie jar. If traumatic cellular memories aren’t cleared properly or intentionally with that love…that self-love and self-awareness and truth, they will continue to thrive.

K: I know people do a lot of past life regression and things of that nature to try to heal a specific pain in the body…

P: They do and that’s cool. That’s cool to clear all that past life stuff from a body because we all carry it. Me, living as Paul, carried it and I died from it…but that’s a side conversation that we’ve had.

K: Yes.

P: But that’s past life stuff and that’s stuff that maybe makes up 10% of the pain someone is feeling. The other 90% is this life right here (pointing down) that people tend to forget about because they’re so wrapped up in what happened as they played a different part that they ignore who they are right now and the importance of that. Especially when there’s trauma involved. Let’s talk about birth for a second.

K: Okay.

P: No matter which way you slice it, birth is traumatizing. Some women handle it and love it and that’s great. A lot of what goes unsaid from women is that they don’t love it, it caused them to feel dissociation and a lack of connection with their child and it takes months to even feel like they can call themselves human, let alone a woman again. I’ve seen it. I’m pretty passionate about this actually.

K: I know.

P: That’s stored in the body for the next child, if they choose to have another one so not only is it affecting the mother that doesn’t want to talk about it because they might feel shamed for feeling something different than what’s the “norm” (finger quote) that a woman “should” (finger quote) feel after birth, it’s also affecting the child and creating a trickle down generational affect. That’s huge and that’s from that first woman worried about shame and being judged for honest feelings of trauma and not being able to heal from that because birth is “beautiful” and connection to the woman’s body and what it can do…and that child…is “blissful”.

K: Holy crap. You’re on a pedestal about this.

P: I’m glad you’re bringing this up. (slaps the back of his hand into the palm of the other) People, get your trauma helped. Get it out. Understand that you are not your trauma, and it isn’t your fault and let it go so you can feel better in your body, mind, and heart and be an example to others that shit happens but so do you and you’re worth a life without pain, suffering, shame…blame.

K: Cancer?

P: I want to talk about breast cancer.

K: Oh boy.

P: How much hurt, pain, abuse, self-loathing…no self-confidence…lack of self-acceptance does a woman need to inflict on herself…telling herself some story that she’s not before her body says enough, I can’t take your hate anymore.

K: Again, we are not doctors.

P: No, we’re not. Cancer…the term…it spreads like a cancer…

K: Yes.

P: Cancer hears the negative that you don’t speak out loud and women do this to themselves a lot and it will start very small…something harmless…and feed and build and get bigger until you cannot ignore your health anymore. Cancer doesn’t just feed off cells or manipulate itself into your cells. It feeds off the negativity that you have stored and it loves it. Miracle healings take place with acts of love. They take place with acts of care. They take place when two or more gather in HIS name but when people gather in HIS name it isn’t gathering to gossip or judge or hate…they gather in love for themselves and for another because that’s what Jesus stood for. I see it, time and time again with women. The comparing. The lack of self-esteem because someone told them or they told themselves they don’t make the cut…they don’t make the grade. Cancer…it hears that and even when there is a history of cancer in the family…that’s that generational stuff that I was talking about. Grandmothers, mothers, daughters…

K: The trauma that gets stored through the mother…in those genetics from mother but even father? Because the father came from a mother at some point.

P: Absolutely.

K: Wow.

P: Cells are wise. They are smart. They are loving but they are also very innocent and just doin’ what they do and they can be imprinted on and they keep that imprint like a child not wanting to give up what’s in their hands even if it’s dangerous.

K: So then how can we support the healing…the cellular trauma healing.

P: Let it happen. You need to let it express itself to free itself and there are supports out there. Depending on the trauma is how hard or difficult that process will be. When is the last time someone really took a look at their pain or their illness and spoke to it and showed it love and compassion instead of covering it…despising it?

K: But people don’t look at pain and trauma like that. It’s looked at as something to fix or deal with. Not love.

P: We have always told people…when tragedy strikes…to love those effected back to standing. When tragedy strikes the body…love it back to standing. There are certain feelings that people experience when their body doesn’t cooperate or doesn’t feel like their own or just gives them a hard time. They can get resentful of their bodies. That can get mad…mourn themselves because they aren’t “healthy”. The word can’t escapes their lips more than it should. Do they show it love? Is it easy to show pain love when you are feeling the worst of it? Is it easy to show a mental illness, brought on by trauma…love? This is a key factor in healing. Acceptance that things happened is a key factor for healing. Healing doesn’t happen when a person tries to forget what’s happened. Accepting it…accepting that trauma has happened, that your body is trying it’s best to let go of its trauma is really the first step in true intentional healing. People don’t like to hear that they chose this path. They hate that. They hate being told that they chose it. Sorry. That’s the human experience you chose. But you also choose how to live it. You also choose how to love it. You choose how you want to look at it through the eyes of perspective. It’s a tough love lesson from Paul right now because these sorts of things are…it’s seen a lot right now.

K: Yes. For sure.

P: No one likes to hear, you chose this path before you came. But trust me when I say that no one loves to hear…when you get here to my side…You missed the point. You forgot yourself.

K: Wow!

P: My work here is so people don’t have to hear that when they get to my side.

K: Do you think that trauma is part of the human experience…it’s meant to be a part of it?

P: It doesn’t have to be. There are some people that equate the human experience to one of hardship but that’s not…that’s not correct. The human experience is a really cool experience. It’s the ultimate experience right now but people are always searching for that experience that they believe exists beyond this one. Knowing and understanding that this experience is your creation and your response to the ultimate creation…it doesn’t have to be filled with trauma. It can be filled with something different but it’s a choice. Yes, shitty things do happen. Trauma does happen. It’s what you do with it that creates the outcome. A person never has to be a victim of something. That is continuing the story that trauma is part of the human experience. Thriving over surviving…that’s a true human experience and…you know…it’s considering that there’s more than what you assume there is…there’s more than what you feel you’ve been handed…that’s the human experience. There’s always more through the lens of perspective. It’s just where a person’s head and heart are at that determines that. Trauma is being released right now but that’s not something to fear or succumb to. It’s something to sort of get happy and excited about because…think about it…what does the human life…the planet’s landscape look like when trauma’s released…loved back to standing and doesn’t exist anymore?

K: I guess that’s a personal question for anyone.

P: Exactly. It’s a choice to answer that…honestly. Roll those credits.

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“The goal isn’t to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.”

— Chuck Palahniuk, Diary

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A Conversation with King Henry VIII

When I first saw Henry, I was trepidatious because he was an ugly man. He looked mean and entitled. He reminded me of Harvey Weinstein. I’ll admit, those were my own preconceived assumptions about him because of how history paints his picture and I forgot, for a moment, why it is I have these conversations with spirit. When I took a step back and I allowed Sam to slowly introduce us, I started to relax and the energy from this man turned into one of counsel, of kinship…anything but what my blinders were giving me. There are reasons why my guardians had rules for him, and it was partly because of what I was assuming was true. He was pleasant. We got along very well together. It’s a situation of not assuming something about someone based on another’s perceptions. Really try to get to know someone one on one rather through rumor and assumption. It was a very good conversation. Very enlightening and it was long. We spent about four hours together. So here, in words, is my conversation with King Henry VIII

H: I will apologize in advance for my forwardness. I realize by observing your life in these moments that you are quite busy. I would like, however, to take an opportunity to introduce myself…formally as well as be very informal at the same time. I come to you has Henry. Only Henry. I do not require formality as that part of my life has been over for quite some time. Do you have a moment to speak?

K: Wow. Thank you. I’m surprised you would like to keep things so casual.

H: I will not disturb you unless you have time to be disturbed.

K: I have some off and on time. I would appreciate your patience as I have a lot of fingers in a lot of pots lately.

H: You have my patience. Of course. I would not ask for anything more but this. I have wanted to come in for some time. You have spoken to Diana.

K: Paul and I have, and I think recently she came in but I honestly can’t remember. Cory had shared with me that there were rules for you coming in, the most important one being honesty.

H: (shifts in his seat and thinks about how to answer) There is a reason for me…procrastinating on such things; to agree to such things.

K: Why?

H: My dear lady, do you realize how many times I have been the subject of personal trials by mediums and messengers such as yourself?

K: I can only imagine.

H: And I say trial quite lightly. I believe you have a saying of nail one to a cross?

K: For sure there is that saying.

H: I have been nailed to many crosses. My wish is that by speaking with you, there will be no crosses involved.

K: The only one I tried to nail to a cross was Pontius Pilate and he surprised me.

H: (sits back and relaxes) How so?

K: He came in very…entitled. He came in like I owed him something and that fueled the flames about how I felt about things…because I’m being shown, in my third eye, what actually transpired…

H: (nods) Of course.

K: We didn’t see eye to eye and then I called him a coward and that’s when his demeanor changed and he admitted that he was (a coward) and after that, he was actually a really nice guy.

H: I do not allow my guard down for many. When your party requested honesty from me, I had not yet seen you or introduced my energy to yours…respectfully. Of course, you have your angel that permits that to happen…

K: I do. Yes.

H: Before he let that happen, and I was introduced to you through him, I assumed a lot. Diana had assured me that this place was different, that there was no judge and no jury however, I was skeptical because of those that have come before you. You sensed that in me…that…false sense of authority because I needed to protect myself.

K: I did. I did sense that and until I didn’t, I knew this wouldn’t happen.

H: You have many working on your behalf to protect your best interest. That is to be respected by someone like me.

K: I appreciate that. Thank you.

H: I will not come as Pontius. I will come as Henry, and I will give you what I can in all honesty and transparency because I believe we can meet at a level of understanding that being human causes all sorts of ignorance and false senses of power and authority that can destroy someone from the inside out.

K: Wow. Yes. I do understand there is a greater understanding of spirits when they have passed. How long did it take for you to pass. Did you stay as a ghost…on the earth plane for a little bit? I don’t know why I just saw that.

H: You would be correct that I did not transition into this light that everyone talks about…I did not transition for at least a hundred years. When one dies and loses their physical body, they continue to feel earth-bound. They do not remember…immediately…what it is to be…not human and simply a piece of energy and so, until that is understood, they are earth-bound. I remained earth-bound for about a hundred years.

K: That is so interesting. Did time pass quickly?

H: I had no sense of time. It’s as if one looks at their children and suddenly, they are adults and one wonders how that time went by so quickly.

K: Totally get it. What made you fully transition?

H: A wonderful medium understood what was happening and spoke with me and told me I was not in the right place. She was instrumental in opening that gateway for me…something that I didn’t know to do until it was shown to me.

K: Wasn’t it shown to you when you died?

H: When I died, I thought that I was in a black room and the curtains were opened for me and the sun shone brightly through my window. I felt that I was in such a deep slumber that any light shone on me would create my eyes to burn and it did, so I demanded that the curtains be shut and I continue to be allowed to sleep. It was a deep sleep. It was a sleep that one is gifted when they are unwell and their body is recovering from illness. I dreamed.

K: Do you remember what you dreamed?

H: I dreamt of my mother. When I was sick and the end felt like it was near, even though I would not admit that it was, I dreamt of my mother many many times. I did not realize that she was there to bring me home.

K: Wow. That’s beautiful. I did read something that when you were younger, you were well read and well spoken and did have that Tudor sort of romantic spark.

H: Yes. You’re correct and I wrestled with connecting with that again because of who I died as. I will be honest and tell you that it flips back and forth depending on what human is speaking with me. I do get rather ruffled when I am put on trial, which we have previously spoken about.

K: Well, I promise. I won’t put you on trial because your energy feels way better than when I first got a glimpse of you.

H: Very good.

K: How’s your mom?

H: Mommy (pronounces it mummy) is very well. Thank you for asking.

K: You two were close.

H: We were extremely close. My father’s attention was on my brother most of the time and so I was given my mother’s. No words can express her importance and her influence in my life as a young boy. I never quite got over her death. I thought it cruel and unfair, and I kept those feelings inside. They were my first feelings of losing control and I did not enjoy losing control over my senses…my abilities…nothing that allowed me to seem vulnerable to the outside world. Mommy kept me safe. After she died, I needed to keep myself safe however, I took that to an extreme time and again…too often.

K: You’re showing me that because you buried your feelings and tried to keep control of yourself, that it was partly what caused a mental illness?

H: Yes. Trauma, especially in a child’s life, can contribute heavily to mental illness in the later years.

K: Makes sense.

H: When I became a man, my mental state started to decline though I hid it well.

K: What really made it worse? What really made your mental illness spiral?

H: A bump to the head.

K: Your jousting accident.

H: Yes. I damaged the part of my brain that controlled rage…emotion…anger.

K: Smacked yourself head on…so to speak.

H: I did.

K: Well, I sort of collected some questions. Feel up to them?

H: I do. Yes. I feel as though we’ve had a smooth introduction. You may proceed with your questions.

K: Cool. I think…when I sat with Paul and tried to figure out what to ask, he had…and he wasn’t smiling when he said it, what were you thinking? What happened?

H: (chuckles) Your Paul…

K: Oh…no, no. He’s not mine. You can’t own anyone. (winking)

H: (grins) Very well. Paul…was absolute in his reservations of me coming here. I am not surprised with the question and to answer it very simply, I was not thinking. Many do not when they act out of…abuse of power and no regard for the outcome of that abuse of power.

K: Agreed.

H: When a person acts without thinking and acts only with their power or perceived power, many people suffer the consequence of that. Many, under my…neglect…suffered from my pursuit of authority.

K: You have no problem admitting that?

H: No.

K: What do you think of the current monarchy? Do you like seeing that they hold less power than you did?

H: This question is based on the assumption that you would be speaking to a tyrant.

K: For sure it is, but I still ask you the same.

H: The world changes and with that, the idea of a monarchy. When government…government of a people...when it was introduced, there was no question that a monarchy would not head that. The monarchy never worked for the people even though the people were led to believe that a king or a queen would work on a public’s behalf. It was only with the introduction of a governing body that working for a collective’s best interest was possible. But even governments have their own agenda, and the system is not as it should be on most days. You have this concept or this idea of whistle blowers.

K: Yes.

H: They are important because both monarchy and government have missed the point. For hundreds upon hundreds of years, power has missed the point and who has been on the receiving end of that? People. Looking at the English monarchy today, they have done better. They have important causes to give their face to but in the end, it is a face so that people recognize charities through them and that’s what gives the charity its stamp of approval and front row seat. They are doing better but it is not the best. I was a king. I held the power of England and demanded the service and submittance of a people. They were not free under my reign. People began to feel freedom with government but depending on what type of government led a people…was the amount of freedom that was felt.

K: For sure. There are many types of governments.

H: There are. I only speak of the English monarchy. They are the ones that are front and center…continue to be most in the public eye. We kings and queens built that. We built an empire of protocol over years and years. It will take just as long…if not longer, to undo that.

K: Would you like to see it undone?

H: It has begun. With Elizabeth’s death, it will never be the same.

K: What did you think of Elizabeth’s reign?

H: I have spoken with her, and I congratulated her. She was the epitome of maintaining…great composure in very unpredictable times. Her reign is celebrated. She had many experiences and was made to educate herself through them. She is self-taught and a wonderful example of putting one’s best foot forward no matter the circumstances surrounding her.

K: That’s amazing. Thank you for that. I know there were struggles for her. If anything…I think she is the example of we only know to do what we know to do.

H: I agree and anything above and beyond that is working out of ignorance and greed. It is working…in the means of stupidity and nothing more. Wisdom is knowing and knowing does not mean that one knows all. Take it from a man who created his existence from that.

K: (chuckles) Well, if anything, you are being nothing but honest with me.

H: That was the deal.

K: Careful. I may get hungry for power.

H: Highly doubtful.

K: True. Next question. Now that you have seen the reign of both male and female monarchs…do you see a difference?

H: Now, no. I do not. I regret my stance on male heirs. I now find that to be truly ridiculous and I am unable to understand why that continues to be important in some countries, but it is not for us to figure that out. It is not our lesson or experience to create. We simply understand better and observe their journey.

K: Holy crap, man. You’ve totally upped your maturity game. I want to get into your mental health a little bit. Is that okay?

H: Yes. I insist.

K: When I first saw you, even though Sam hadn’t let you in all the way, I did hear you mention sex addiction.

H: Yes.

K: Were you a sex addict?

H: I equated love to be sex and sex to be love and I wanted love and that was shown through sex. I felt that I was unlovable so the more that I engaged in sexual behaviors, the more I felt loved. Does that make sense?

K: It does.

H: I was an addict. I filled emptiness with things…drink, food, sex, women…I wanted to feel nothing but pleasure which is the same as numbing oneself to anything they don’t wish to feel. When something failed to fulfill me or failed to continue to do so, it was never me that was the problem. It was them or that and there were repercussions. There is a term for what ailed me that is recognizable now. If I was to receive a diagnosis now, it would that of borderline personality disorder.

K: People might think that narcissism would be a better fit.

H: They are the same. Narcissism and addiction are part of that. They are under the umbrella of borderline personality disorder.

K: You said earlier that the bump on the head contributed to the mental illness that you had.

H: It exacerbated an already escalating mental issue.

K: Okay. How does that feel…admitting that you had a mental illness and that it wasn’t identified or couldn’t be helped in those times?

H: When I died and kept myself earth-bound…I could not rise to heaven without an education. The medium that worked with me…you have heard…showed me to myself.

K: I have. Love him!

H: (chuckles) She showed me to myself. Only then was it possible for me to move into light instead of staying in darkness. Darkness is simply another word for ignorance. I was ignorant to who I lived as, believing that it was all right and correct. To admit that I was not mentally…stable is nothing to me now. I sit with you in complete transparency because you are allowing that without assumption. It feels…good to sit in truth with someone and that only allows truth to be admitted. Admitting truth is not the same as apologizing.

K: Do you feel like you have apologies to make?

H: Not to anyone living. I have made my peace with those that were owed it. When a person dies and they come into their all-knowing, apologies are easier because understanding is easiest when here.

K: That’s awesome.

H: Even in death, people are still owed apologies so they may practice forgiveness in a way that is Holy. Forgiveness in a human…earth-bound way is very different than in a Holy way. Christ tried to show that. Most of that has been forgotten.

K: Ah, yes. You were a devout follower of the church before you left it.

H: I left the church because of a temper tantrum, nothing more. The church was correct to deny me a divorce. I wanted my way, and I would do anything to get my way. However, the church…held supreme power and my leaving the church was also about balancing the power it held.

K: But the English church still held power. The seat of that power just became King instead of Pope. Same coin, different sides.

H: Yes. I agree with you but with England leaving the church…it amounted to money. Money was power. England gave a lot of money to the church. Without England, the church’s resources diminished substantially, and they had to recoup that in any way they could.

K: Do you feel like the Catholic church was its own monarchy?

H: Yes. Instead of kings it had a pope. Instead of princes, it had cardinals and bishops and instead of princesses, it had its nuns. Same coin…as you say.

K: Wow. You are really…layin’ it all out there, Harry.

H: (chuckles) Harry? Well, yes…I guess it would be.

K: Do you feel…embarrassed…if that’s the right term, that it was always you and your swimmers (sperm) that determine the sex of a baby? Do you feel sorry?

H: No.

K: Why?

H: Because we did not know the science when I lived. How can I feel sorry for how I lived with what I knew…scientifically speaking, then? I can’t. I am sorry for not being the father to my children…to my girls, that my mother was to me. She treated her children, boys and girls, the same. She loved. I forgot her example, being determined to father a male heir. That is what I am sorry for. For my daughters, it was too late. But I am not sorry for the science that was not on earth at that time. Pregnancy and sex…because the woman created the child, it was assumed that the woman created sex. The men fertilized and the woman was responsible for everything after a moment of passion. I also regret…not respecting the woman’s part in bearing children because they did all of it.

K: We sure do. Thank you for that.

H: Yes.

K: I did speak to Anne.

H: I know.

K: How do you feel about putting her to death for things that you were doing as well?

H: I was the king. I gave myself permission. My wife did not have my permission. She was calculated…Anne was. She wanted power. She was my true match. I have great respect for her. We are great friends here. Now that the costumes have come off, we are able to be ourselves and we are great friends. She spoke honestly with you.

K: She did.

H: I’m happy she did. If she were here today, she would be part of the feminist movement. That still exists?

K: It does. For sure. There are extremes with it, but it does exist. What was with your leg? It seemed like it just never healed.

H: (laughs out loud) An addition to my pathetic-ness. I was fat.

K: (laughing loudly) Dear God.

H: I was fat. I was an alcoholic. My heart was in very bad shape. I did not have good circulation. I sat for most of the time. I was not active. I’m surprised that the leg didn’t kill me sooner. I had many physicians at my disposal who secretly knew witches…wise women who would make me various topical solutions…it prolonged my life.

K: Interesting. Physicians actually used witches…the same witches that were burned?

H: All the time. It was a secret that was never told. Witches knew more about pharmaceuticals than physicians did. It’s if a physician failed with what they were given by a witch…that’s when they wanted revenge and that’s when the witch would die. Everything, in those times, was about revenge…getting revenge or maintaining a power that you assumed you had.

K: What do you think of your painting that indicated that you were well…blessed in the manhood area?

H: (laughing while hiding his face and peeking through his fingers) I heard that you are not scared to ask the important questions.

K: (HUGE laughter) I’m flattered.

H: I liked it at the time. I was proud of that painting because that’s what led my actions.

K: Really?

H: Oh yes. Now, I’m happy I don’t look at it every day. Actually, I avoid looking at it.

K: I’m using it.

H: I would be insulted if you didn’t. It explains a lot, but it also shows…what I regret. A person doesn’t know what they don’t know. I know more and that is one of the reasons I chose to speak with you, spirit to spirit and not human to human.

K: Do you find that the mediums that you have spoken to…that you feel put you on trial…spoke to you human to spirit and didn’t really use their…language of spirit?

H: Yes. I do feel that. Yes.

K: Do you feel like you weren’t given a fair…trial?

H: I deserve the questions and I deserve the assumptions…to a point. I believe that any conversation had between two people is to come to an understanding. They speak what they perceive, and you speak what you perceive and there comes a moment of understanding. I don’t believe I really ever received understanding. I don’t ask for understanding as King Henry the eighth. I ask for understanding being who I am now and that I have learned from that life and have done better. We do not remain who we lived as. Many people believe that we do. We carry the same face when we present as that identity but there is an immediate maturity…a graduation that happens. Regretfully, people speak to spirits believing that they continue to be that person. However, we are not. We admit wrongdoings. We admit what we have learned. We admit what we continue to educate ourselves on. Much of the time, that is not enough. Our trials are constant. The people of the world that chose to live these parts to ensure the Earth continued on its trajectory of awakening…chose those before that life because they saw the higher understanding of it all. Embodied people cannot and so the trials continue so embodied people…humans can feel that they are in control and are powerful over spirits that have laid that to rest after much review with a much fuller and bigger heart and with God.

K: Wow. In all of my years doing this, I have never heard it put that way. Thank you for that. That’s powerful.

H: Put it this way, if I did not live how I lived…your English monarchy would be very, very different. The influence of Diana…of Catharine…of Harry…would not be what it is today. It all happens as it’s meant to for a greater awakening than just the singular human being.

K: You are a pleasant surprise, Henry.

H: Thank you. I must admit, you would have made an excellent queen.

K: I call bullshit. I’m not one for protocol.

H: Protocol has been taken to the extreme as all things have. There are rules for everything and everyone. To break those rules for the good of humanity and to forge a greater…wider…higher path, is what’s needed now. But it isn’t something that can be given up on. Even with its highs and its lows…the path must continue to be carved…forged because it is not just the paths of history that are well worn that lead home. It’s also the adventure of the new ones.

K: Do you feel like new paths are being carved out?

H: I feel they are being carved out with the tools of ancients that could see new ways but the timing of those ways is now. So, they hand the tools to people who will carve the new in these times where ancient and new can come together to build…eternity. With the ancient and with the new, it becomes divine.

K: Do you go all that way back to see what was started and only meant to be continued now?

H: Sometimes. (leans forward) But I do get jealous that I didn’t choose now to live. I believe I would have gotten the help and support that I needed and lived more of a life filled with love and companionship…friendship than what I experienced as Henry.

K: Awe. That must have been hard. Did you feel lonely?

H: Yes. I did feel lonely. I wanted friendship and love, but I did not know how to give that, so I didn’t receive it. At the end of my life is when I realized that.

K: Isn’t that always how it goes?

H: Yes. I agree. That is how it goes. Wouldn’t it be something for people to realize these things well before they are meant to die?

K: I think that’s starting now. With all the information out there…there’s a lot of understanding but “innerstanding” is something completely different. Understanding is one thing and using what we understand is something very different. I think people crave to understand to give themselves permission to innerstand but I believe if we start innerstanding first…understanding will become more natural.

H: Well said. I agree.

K: Anything else on your life that you would like to talk about?

H: I am very much at peace with what we have discussed. Thank you, Kimberly, for your patience and your willingness to hear all sides and not just what you have read about me.

K: That’s what I’m here for. Thanks for meeting with me. You are a lovely surprise. Thank you for your honesty. That’s all I ever ask for.

H: Me too. I used to be bothered by people’s honest thoughts because I was never honest with myself. To connect with pure intention is something I admire with people. Be well. Thank you. I hope we will meet again.

K: I’m open to it. Have a lovely rest of your day.

H: I shall report back to your circle and to mine and tell them that all was peaceful.

K: I’m sure they already know.

H: I asked for a private meeting with you. That was my only requirement. If I was to be honest, they would grant me a private meeting. I’m sure they will be pleased to hear that the meeting was a success.

K: I’ll let you do the announcement. I need to get some stuff done. Thank you…so much.

H: Thank you. (bows then straightens and walks into a bright spotlight)

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Knowing someone or knowing OF someone isn't a right. It's a privilege.-Channeling the spirit of Cory Monteith

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Henry, St. Patrick’s Day, and Gratitude-Conversation with Cory Monteith

C: Hey.

K: Hey yourself. How are you?

C: I’m good. Happy to be here and back and all of that stuff. Wow, what a break, hey?

K: Yes. For sure. It was a break but not…if that makes any sense.

C: It does.

K: I have to thank you for the dream the other night.

While we’re getting comfortable, I see a glowing white mist to my left.

C: Thank me for what?

K: It doesn’t happen too often where you ghosts are physically there, and I can feel you. Paul and Chris have been the only ones. Man, you have broad shoulders, my friend.

C: (laughs) It takes a lot of energy to bring that through but it’s worth it. It really is. That’s when you know it’s real. I’m happy you remember that.

K: It’s easy to remember the physical feeling of someone in that dream state because I don’t really think it’s a dream state. I think it’s an actual place that I’m going to.

C: You could describe it like that. Yeah. What’s with you? What’s with the hesitation? I have to ask because we’re friends and I want to make sure everything’s cool. (sips on something from a mug then puts the mug down)

K: Henry…

C: (nods in understanding, looks up and shakes his head while rubbing his hands on his thighs) Uh huh. I get it.

K: It’s just…blah AND…technology hasn’t been my best friend. Wix is a great website host but lacks in communicating with me about comments and stuff.

C: You haven’t missed much. In any event, email…to reach people, can sometimes be better.

K: I agree. I get those immediately. 

C: The whole Henry thing…don’t worry too much about it. Paul’s a little…he’s got his back up about it too and Roth’s been around a lot so don’t worry too much about it. The guy was king because he was born into it. Not because he was good at it, or people hired him for the job. I’ve met him. I’ve been in on the meetings about him coming in but he’s just a…(laughs)…really nothing to worry about. He’s got an attitude…he’s like that guy in a bar that hits on women because he’s so full of himself and he’ll think he’ll score but his confidence…as Henry, isn’t much to talk about. You haven’t sat with him yet because he’s…how do I put this…(thinks) contract negotiations are stalling.

K: (laughing) That’s one way to put it.

C: He thinks he can just come in now when that’s not the case and he tries to sneak in but he’s always caught. There are a couple things he needs to agree to and he’s dragging his heals a bit.

K: Like what?

C: Being honest.

K: Ah. Got it.

C: We don’t do these things just because we can. We do them because there’s a point to all of it so if there’s going to be dishonesty like Mark pulled with you, it’s not happening.

K: Got it. Thanks for that. Thanks for looking out for me.

C: Always. What else?

K: It’s St. Patrick’s Day today.

C: It is. Cool. I loved St. Patrick’s Day.

K: I used to celebrate it, but I saw something that made me think.

C: Think out loud. What did you see?

K: I saw this post that said this woman didn’t celebrate it because it celebrates the day that St. Patrick drove the snakes out of Ireland.

C: Yes.

K: But she said that the snake was a symbol for the feminine…

C: It is.

K: And it symbolizes wisdom and…you know…shedding of the old paradigms and growing the new ones…fertility…all of that sort of feminine stuff that we seem to be seeing more and more of, coming back or rising up again.

C: Absolutely. (shifts easily and comfortably)

K: When St. Patrick was in Ireland at that time, he was there on behalf of Christ…God…the church where it was very male dominated in its beliefs. So, this woman was saying that actually, St. Patrick wasn’t driving the snakes out because of evil or Satan. He was driving the feminine out of Ireland so the masculine could…win…I guess?

C: (grins) That’s a very…That’s very Wiccan which dates back to Avalon.

K: Really?

C: Yeah. And I can see the connections. Wiccan…Avalon…the Goddess…Pegan…evil, considered evil, right?

K: Yes.

C: I would have to agree with her.

K: Really?

C: I would but because I can see that point of view from here. But…rather than not celebrate the day…because of those female vs. male beliefs that creates hate against the male and what they did with the female…why not celebrate the fact that the female…the feminine is returning and use this day as a reminder that yes, the male dominance tried to keep that feminine down but it didn’t work.

K: True.

C: There’s a lot of extremes right now and to use St. Patrick’s Day as something to, again, create that divide…I’m not surprised but there would be a huge difference when using celebration instead of resentment about what’s changing rather than what has happened.

K: Wow. That’s so true. I love that. Thank you.

C: She’s right. She’s absolutely right to look at the snakes being driven out of Ireland that way. But to use that as something to hold against celebrating and just having fun…that’s fine. They can go have their witchy parties over there and these other people can drink green beer or Guinness over here and maybe one day it will come together to celebrate as one whole understanding and that green river water can flow right under that bridge. (moves his hand in a flowing motion)

K: (chuckles) Very true.

C: Some people take a lot of this stuff really seriously and that’s fine. It just takes more energy to do that.

K: For sure.

C: Can I talk to you about something that I’m seeing a lot of.

K: Absolutely. The doctor is in.

C: Great. 

K: What’s up.

C: I really don’t want to repeat what’s already been talked about.

K: Sometimes repetition is the only way it will click.

C: Okay…

Feeling hesitation in my gut coming from him.

K: What’s up, Cory?

C: I really need to talk about gratitude.

K: Ah…okay.

C: I feel like the genuine gratitude is a little lacking. I feel like gratitude is being a bit manipulated right now.

K: Okay.

C: So…people try to practice gratitude to obtain more. If I’m grateful or show gratefulness, then I can receive more or I can string someone along so they give of themselves…freely…more and more to me.

K: What? Seriously? That’s happening?

C: (rubs his hands over his face while talking) So much. I see it so much and I just…what the actual fuck is going on, Kim?

K: Then the actual act of gratitude is being manipulated as sort of…using it as manipulation and trying to work a system.

C: Yes…(points to me) that’s it. That’s exactly it. And those who are aware of it or feel it but can’t put their finger on what they’re feeling…they start to hold back or hide away so they’re left alone because they are so depleted and feeling so used that they don’t want to offer anymore and it sucks. It really sucks.

K: I get that. Then tell me what gratitude is.

C: Gratitude is being thankful just because it feels good and it’s not asking for anything more than what’s received. Gratitude is…it creates self-confidence so there’s nothing else to get because you have the confidence to work at it or get it or manifest it yourself without the help of someone to hold your hand every step of the way. Gratitude is being thankful for where you are right now and not needing anything more because your life feels absolutely full in this moment…that’s all you need. Gratitude doesn’t make other people or situations work more or harder for your behalf. It’s actually creating this honoring of someone or something so that grows bigger and naturally wants to give more but maybe not to you but others because it already gave to you and that gratitude grows strength and energy to be able to do the same for someone else because you got your treat. It’s like…a kid getting a piece of candy…right…

K: Okay.

C: And they see that the other person has more candy and instead of saying thank you, but can I have some more…they say, thank you and points to someone else that could use a sweet treat.

K: That makes sense.

C: I’m just seeing a lot of this…manipulated gratitude going around, and it’s been frustrating for me.

K: Then how do we correct that behavior?

C: An easy exercise it to write down three to five things that you’re really grateful for and just leave it. It can be the smallest thing to write down but to write down what you’re grateful for and mark it with a period and not a semi-colon…is a good start.

K: Okay. That’s great. What else?

C: Pay it forward. If someone isn’t asking for anything in return, pay that forward and show thanks that you were able to give to someone else because of the graciousness of the person your received from.

K: Wow. That’s so amazing that you said that. I really resonate with that.

C: When you receive something, let it be that. Let it be what it is because gratitude isn’t saying thank you, resenting the offering because it didn’t meet your expectations and then going to search for more from someone else. That’s just feeding a need or an addiction and not practicing gratitude at all.

K: You’re seeing this happen?

C: I am. I’m seeing…how do I put this without triggering people? (thinks)

K: Just say it. Triggering is sometimes necessary.

C: Entitlement is taking the place of gratitude and gratitude is looking like entitlement.

K: Whoa.

C: Crazy, right?

K: So crazy.

C: An example of this…someone has known someone longer than most and because of that…they assume they’re more of a priority and they take that priority leaving the other person weary of even knowing them.

K: Is that an extreme case?

C: Unfortunately, no. Not anymore. The longer they’ve known someone…the more they can get for free and that’s with anything. Time, attention, advice, drama…favors…I’m seeing this a lot in relationships and connections. Instead of feeling gratitude for the love of someone, it’s an attitude of entitlement and “shoulds” (finger quote) put on that person. Knowing someone or knowing of someone isn’t a right. It’s a privilege.

K: WOW!!!!! Just WOW, Cory. Holy. I felt that in my soul.

C: It creates a lot of divide. That right vs. privilege thing is creating a lot of separation right now.

K: I’m quoting that!

C: Feel free. It would mean a lot to me if you would.

K: I will and in regard to all of this gratitude stuff, I see it. It’s like…practice gratitude but because you’re grateful. Not because you’re greedy.

C: YES!!! I’m quoting you. That was great.

K: Well, I mean, doing what I do, I see it. I’ve been on the receiving end of it, and I’ve been triggered by it. I think we all have at some point in our life, but I think the best that we can do is just…if we’re on the receiving end of feeling like we’ve been used or obligated to fill that entitlement of another…just practice forgiveness and move on.

C: It’s sort of this co-dependency sometimes where…that’s the only way a person feels seen…is to serve the feelings of entitlement that are disguised as gratitude because their egos like the compliments.

K: (laughing) Yeah. I feel that. Lack of self-esteem is that double edged sword for anyone.

C: Ugh…(smiles and shakes his head) Life on earth can be such a paradox. It can be so confusing trying to do everything right but anything that’s right is based on someone’s personal preference that became popular or sexy at some point in time.

K: For sure but I think that’s why you and…all these ghosts that come in and have these talks…they try really hard to help that and I’m totally grateful and humbled that it would be me they want to work with to get that done.

C: And I can honestly say that I’m…we…are so grateful that you’ve put up with our crap for as long as you have and everything we’ve unintentionally brought with us.

We pause and then just burst out laughing hard.

K: Oh, man. It’s been such a trip…such a TRIP, Cory.

C: We should get tacos again soon. I haven’t been there since the first time we went.

K: I haven’t eaten that way in a long time. I’d love to go. And thank you, again, for the hug the other night. Thank you so much. I know it takes a lot of energy to be physically physical to someone instead of just a moving image like on a television.

C: It does but it’s worth it and we haven’t seen each other for a while so it was my pleasure. I really wanted a hug.

K: You’re super sweet. Thank you. Thank you so much.

C: Thanks, Kim. I’ll let you go. How’s the foot?

K: Let’s not talk about it. I go again next week.

C: It’ll get healed up soon. It’s a good thing you’re getting it taken care of. What an annoying thing to have.

K: Yeah. It’s annoying but all good. See you soon.

C: Bye, Kim. Love you.

K: Love you back.

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History is progressive even if it hasn’t been totally revealed yet. - Channeling the spirit of Anthony Bourdain

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ET/Alien Stuff Part 3-Conversation with Anton Yelchin

K: (laughing) The same person is also asking about the tic tac looking UFOs in the sky and I needed to see an image of them because I have no clue.

A: (grins) Sure.

K: Can you give me something on that? Is that allowed?

A: Yeah. Simplicity…there’s no ownership. They’re scouts. It’s not one race. It’s part of the Galactic Federation. It’s sort of a…policing mission. A call comes in, they go out. Think of Earth as a really big stadium and there’s a concert or a…world cup soccer match is playing and everyone’s there.

K: (laughing) Okay. Got the image.

A: And sometimes there are beings at functions…concerts and games that are up to no good so security gets involved and watches to see if it’s gonna be trouble or if things just work themselves out.

K: Yes.

A: That’s what those are. Security and it’s just one type. Some scouts are on a mission to explore, bring back things, education…school field trips…

K: Seriously?

A: Oh yeah. Fieldtrips are common with the learners…the kids of the ETs. (winks)

K: Hilarious.

A: That’s why there’s more than one sort of UFO because they all have their own specific reason about why they show up. But the tic tac…Galactic Federation scouts for security.

K: That actually gives me a lot of peace that we’re taken care of.

A: People really are. They really really are. Nothing is going to get out of hand. Even though it feels very chaotic and things are looking as if they’re falling apart…it’s more the illusion and the matrix crumbling even if it feels very real.

K: Which is easy for you to say from where you are now.

A: It is but I was in that so I can sympathize, and I really understand that it hasn’t been easy and it doesn’t feel like it’s getting any easier which is why people will be seeing more tic tacs.

K: Really?

A: Really. People need to understand how important they are. As the individual and the collective. Not only to the planet you walk on but to many other planets out there because we are all connected and we all share ties and they may not be blood but blood is one thing. Quantum and energy…celestial space is quite another and that’s what connects us.

K: Beautifully said.

K: I’m not really sure how to ask this question and I don’t know what it has to do with aliens but…

A: Um…yeah. I’m not really sure why that’s asked from aliens.

K: Let’s try this. Why isn’t there some sort of control on the algorithms by aliens to stop the damage done by social media? I’m assuming they mean that it seems that the algorithms are picked to glorify more of the propaganda type social media? I don’t know.

A: (laughs) Okay. Um…(shifts in his chair) the reality of social media is it’s a control thing. It brings out what’s popular, what’s sexy, what’s important according to a very small and select group of individuals which is what’s called a trend.

K: Yes.

A: And then that trend takes off and a lot of people copy it making algorithms stronger until this trend evolves into this trend and so on and so on.

K: Yes.

A: Some of these trends are pretty tame which is what gets people hooked because they are deemed “innocent”. (finger quote) “Innocence” is a stepping stone and it’s just a snowball effect from there.

K: Sure.

A: And I’m talking in generalities because I’m not about to get this conversation going in a direction of social media. I mean…that would take longer than the alien one. And I don’t think you have days to hang out with me and channel.

K: Absolutely. Talk in generalities and I would love to spend days with you but I really don’t want to spend days channeling about social media.

A: (laughs) The thing is…and it’s so repetitive and tiring…it’s dumb…but Earth is a free will zone. You can post any sort of anything on whatever platform fits you. It’s a choice to watch it and engage with it and be a part of that growing algorithm. Social media isn’t run by people. It’s run by code, a code built by humans.

K: Got it.

A: (holds out his hands in a questioning sort of gesture) What does that have to do with aliens?

K: I think it’s part of the conspiracy and maybe the white knight syndrome where the expectation of aliens is to free us from the mess we made including maybe those feeling trapped by social media?

A: That’s not the deal. Aliens aren’t coming to fix anything. They’re here to support humans as they clean the kitchens they burnt the casserole in. Here’s something though. Cole said…go against the grain.

K: Yes.

A: So go against the grain. Go against what’s trending. If you’re going to use any social media, provide something evolutionary. Not trending. Social media has people in a holding pattern and in…sort of like shackles…tied to the next and the next and the next. Jumping from this to this to this. Technology that people can get their hands on keeps the individual tied to something whether that’s social media, texting, virtual meetings…whatever. Going against the grain would be to start communicating human to human. Sharing human to human. Gathering in groups human to human. Yes, COVID sort of stopped that for a while but it showed how important it was to be human to human and not screen to screen. Social media is selling something you have or something you do…something you live to start a trend. Someone always has something to sell for a price. But what about gifting and gifting comes from human to human. Aliens can’t interfere with what humans choose to follow and to add to…support. That clusterfuck has to be unraveled by the people that created it and it’s not a great lesson to learn. That’s part of the disentanglement until 2026. And that’s not the responsibility of aliens.

K: Conspiracy about the man who got Facebook up and running?

A: (groans) Hard pass. Hard fuckin’ pass, Kim. Anything that sends humanity into a tailspin or into some sort of head in the sand scenario is automatically alien. The controlling, manipulators, billionaires…all of it are from the reptilian aliens or the dark lizzies…whatever. So, if Mark is reptilian…ET…whatever, and you’re Sirian…what’s not to say that you’re not building something that will control society but you haven’t released it yet?

K: You’ve outed me and I’m so not impressed. (sarcasm)

A: In your dark dungeon by your washing machine.

K: Yeah, I have soooo much room beside my washing machine.

A: Social media…part of the disentanglement that people need to work on. It’s not any ET’s responsibility. But it’s fun to watch. (winks)

K: I bet you have popcorn and everything.

A: I’m a chip guy.

K: (chuckles) Okay. Enough of that. It’s not really my thing so moving on.

A: Good.

K: Movies depicting aliens like War of the Worlds, Independence Day, Aliens…

A: I personally liked Cocoon. There’s more truth to that.

K: I forgot about that one.

A: Avatar.

K: Well sure.

A: What about them?

K: What are alien’s thoughts about them?

A: You want me to reach? See?

K: Please?

Takes a moment.

A: Honestly, they don’t pay much…just a second. (listens again) Huh. That’s interesting.

K: What?

A: The alien movies, that are made, are memories coming up.

K: What?

A: About the wars in space…people had lives there and creating the movies is like looking through a photo album of memories, but they’re sensationalized.

K: So, aliens killing people…abducting people…eating people.

A: I mean…yeah. But…(listens again) a lot of the stuff like that didn’t happen on Earth. It happened on other planets.

K: Are there still planets with that kind of thing…that still happens?

A: Those are no fly zones. There are very dark planets, yes. Um…they travel but Earth…isn’t a destination for them. It hasn’t been for about…(thinks) 150,000 years.

K: Wow.

A: It’s um…out there information but the ideas and the writers that come together to write a script or TV show or whatever…in the entertainment world, it’s a memory. But people have taken it from 0 to 60 really quickly which makes it less believable because if a person was to watch that life on a screen like a life review…

K: Yes.

A: It wouldn’t have the blood and guts…slime that people are fed that makes money.

K: Huh. Interesting.

A: More of the warm and fuzzy stuff is future prospects. Like the movie Cocoon. You’re wanting to know about disclosure? That’s how it’s meant to happen. Avatar is a window into those worlds in a way that a human can identify with it. Even back to Lemuria. So you have the memories of the wars for planets or you have the look into the future about how aliens want to be introduced. A lot of the alien species that are around Earth right now…99% of them, are benevolent and want to be reunited with their family but that physical disclosure will be the last stage. The first is through the quantum and the mind. (listens and smiles) The movies are fun for them. Sometimes they get surprised about how they’re portrayed. Surprised…never insulted because humans don’t really know so they can’t be insulted by people being naïve.

K: This is true and it’s a pleasant surprise when you say naïve and not ignorant.

A: It is naïve because people don’t know. If they knew and they did it anyway…that’s ignorance.

K: Yes. Makes sense. Um… (shifting through papers)

Anton rubs his hands together in anticipation but gives me the signal to take five minutes or more as a break. I’ll be back.

K: Thanks for the break.

A: It was feeling like you needed one. I know this is a lot of information and channeling like this takes a little bit more out of you than when you just go on camera.

K: I feel like the automatic writing gives room for me to do more specific things and I zone out and let you type which is an added benefit when I have trouble translating. I don’t think it’s just the channel. I don’t think I’m doing myself any favors with the amount of gym time I’m doing with little sleep. It’s been unbelievably hot. I told Mateo that the devil keeps farting in our house.

A: (shocked smile) What?

K: (shrugs) Because I have cute sayings like that.

A: (laughs) I’ve missed you!

K: Thank you. Missed you too. Are you ready for another?

A: I can’t believe you’re asking this. I’m ready. Let’s go.

K: Angels. Are they an alien species?

A: (cups his mouth and whispers) Shit disturber.

K: It’s what I do.

A: What’s the technical definition of alien?

K: Relating to or denoting beings supposedly from other worlds; extraterrestrial.

A: So, angels are aliens.

K: Give me more.

A: The thing is…there are so many religious connotations surrounding angels that have been there for eons.

K: Sure.

A: So now the definition of angel is religious. Angels are aliens. It’s a dimensional thing. The increase in dimension, the closer a being is to God Source, right?

K: Apparently.

A: For example, Roth is a ninth dimensional being. So is Simon.

K: Yes.

A: Let’s say there are twelve dimensions. From a human perspective.

K: Okay.

A: They would be closer to God Source so technically, you could consider them part of the angelic realms. But would you consider them angels?

K: I see your point. No, I wouldn’t consider them angels. They are angelic and so are you…

A: Aw…Kim. That’s so nice.

K: But you’re right. With the whole religious, biblical thinking around angels, I would have a difficult time saying that Roth was an angel.

A: Is that sort of a way to answer that question?

K: Yes. An angel is defined as a spiritual being believed to act as an attendant, agent, or messenger of God. But we are all spiritual beings living in these certain spiraling dimensions and some of us do that work. When someone discusses Earth Angels, aren’t they describing a spirit that takes on a human soul to do Earth Angel stuff in a loving and benevolent way?

A: And that’s my point. These beings are beings of pure light and they can do stuff or are given the authority to do stuff that maybe me or Simon can’t. There is still a divine order of things and those angelic realms started from somewhere too. To be able to call something an angel has a lot to do with things that not a lot of people are willing to understand or accept. And that’s why Earth is such a great place to learn that stuff. It’s one of the hardest places to learn that stuff. I mean…look at Uncle John (the Baptist). He’s an Ascended Master. That’s high up there in the rank of things so he’s accomplished a lot of things but he’s not an angel. And…he’s an alien.

K: We’re all aliens.

A: All of us are aliens. You’re an alien to someone from Arcturus. I’m an alien to the Aesir. The Aesir are alien to the Lyrans. But people keep things in separate jars to try to understand them better.

K: Dissecting.

A: (gestures to me) Exactly.

K: There’s this question that came in that says what can we do to help the current shift to higher ascension be more smooth for all species?

A: (furrows his brow) Uh…Can I just dive in? Look in? Can I get your permission?

K: Sure.

A: (takes a moment and I see his image ripple a little bit in the chair) Okay. What can people do to help the current shift happen in a less chaotic way for all species?

K: Thanks.

A: No problem. Um…(shifts in his chair) How easy is it to find the beauty in something?

K: Like how?

A: Can you see the beauty in…a storm?

K: Yes. That’s easy.

A: Can you see the beauty if the storm causes a flood or is it just considered destruction?

K: Okay.

A: If the most beautiful man walked up to you but turned into the biggest asshole…can you still see the beauty in the man?

K: No.

A: If a person looks in the mirror on a really bad day. They’re sick, they gained weight, they broke out in zits…they just got off Instagram and feel awful after seeing all the “perfection” (finger quote) they scrolled through. Can they see the beauty? Or are they stuck at face value?

K: It’s hard to see the beauty when comparing.

A: Even though there are different levels of ascension going on, the comparing and battling for top spot has never been higher. Are you comparing and competing for a top spot to be in the spotlight by standing on the backs of others or are you practicing inclusion and inviting community? Are you picking and choosing only what’s comfortable to you or are you willing to listen to others and consider what others feel or walk a mile in other shoes just to see what you can’t when you only walk in yours? But at the same time, are you honoring where you are right now, where you’ve been and really…being kind to yourself for all of it instead of wishing for more or putting yourself down because you’re not where others are or think you should be?

K: Okay.

A: Can you just observe instead of getting involved? Can you be at peace knowing that people will come to you when they need you but they need to live what they need to live without your two cents? This goes for anyone. I’m not just picking on Kim.

K: Can we stop hand-holding because we want to control something and start hand-holding out of loving support while others live what they need to live even if we have an opinion about whether it’s right or wrong?

A: Exactly. Can you concentrate on the inside and outside of you first before you concentrate on the spinning that’s happening outside of your energy field? Because if you are really centered and grounded and confident…that spreads as an example. Is there a purpose to being “right” all the time? Is there room for you to be “wrong” and learn something else? Do you always have to have the last word, write the last text or can you let things lie with the dot, dot, dot…with the unknown? Instead of preparing to battle, can you prepare to walk away on a higher road?

K: (thinking)

A: And can you see the beauty in all of what I just said? It’s easy to see the beauty in something you like or are experiencing that makes you happy. But if people are able to see the beauty in all of it, there’s peace there. There’s faith there. There’s knowing that it’s all going to work out because there’s trust there. A helicopter parent doesn’t do a kid any favors. That’s the same for aliens watching Earth. They watch, they let go because they trust and they have faith. It’s hard for a parent to watch their kid have to face the consequences of situations or choices that they made but the mom or dad has to sit and watch and have faith that it will all work out. Same goes for the aliens. A smoother ascension process requires seeing the beauty and having faith…belief that there’s a highest and best that’s playing out here. If there’s none of that, people will try to control outcomes of others because they feel out of control themselves. That just doesn’t work and creates more chaos. Control what you can control. Control your own actions and choices because you can work from your heart a lot of the time and just…fuckin’ relax because if you’re uptight…everything and everyone is going to seem uptight. You can’t control this. People think it’s already out of control. You can’t control anything outside of yourself. You can control you. So if you can find Self-Mastery…you’re 90% there.

K: And part of Self-Mastery is finding the beauty in it.

A: Yeah. I don’t mean looks either. Yeah, things can look pretty but pretty and beautiful are drastically different things.

K: One is surface, one is beyond what you see into what you can’t.

A: Exactly.

K: Because if we saw the beauty in everything…we’d fall out of judgement and into love.

A: Yup.

K: Wow.

A: Like Michael sang…starts with the man in the mirror.

Hearing the song in my ears right now.

A: Self-Mastery…is really important right now. And I’m going to end it there because this is going to be a lot of parts. (chuckles) If there are questions after, I’ll answer them in the comments if you don’t mind.

K: I don’t mind. Thanks. Thank you, Anton.

A: You’re welcome. Because of attention spans…I think you should do this in five parts but…you know…your call.

K: I have to figure out good chapter parts but I think you’re right. Hey…you’re lovely. Thanks so much.

A: I told you I wasn’t leaving.

K: And I believed you.

A: I know. I love you, Kim. Always will. We’ll talk soon.

K: Okay. Love you back. Take care.

A: See ya.

Ripples away.

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ET/Alien Stuff Part 2-Conversation with Anton Yelchin

K: Very cool. So that’s a little bit about communication. Let’s talk alphabet.

A: (grins) Okay.

K: Do alien races have their own alphabet?

A: So…letters are pretty archaic. A lot of alien species look at the human alphabet like a human would look at primitive art on walls of caves and sort of scoff at the simplicity of it. And I mean…very primitive art. I’m not talking about Gobekli Tepe or Egypt or anything.

K: Got it.

A: But language and communication has to start somewhere. The more sophisticated alphabets are Greek, Asian, Egypt…countries where it looks more like symbols.

K: Okay.

A: And it’s not about offending anyone. The letters of the alphabet are very very simplistic. Math…mathematical and scientific equations are more up an alien’s speed. Because it’s a language but it’s a really beautiful language and it speaks to more than just one letter would.

K: Then…does an alien language resemble more of a mathematical equation?

A: A mathematical equation plus hieroglyphics plus sacred geometry. Sentences…or whole paragraphs can be written with just one geometrical shape which can be translated into a specific sound which can generate a specific frequency which can resonate with a being or a person at a specific center in the brain or the body and be understood using a feeling or an emotion.

K: Holy poop. That’s a lot.

A: And it’s a lot to decipher. That’s why some channelers can be really good at picking these symbols up and translating them into human terms that can be easily understood but that takes practice.

K: So, if I were to channel an alien using automatic writing…

A: Well, you have channeled aliens before but it’s not the words or the specific English sentences that you’re grasping. It’s code that’s being fed into your crown and it’s being translated by specific centers in the brain to be able to be typed or spoken in a way that is understood. That’s why, sometimes, you had to decipher it first before you wrote it or spoke it because maybe the message would be a little bigger and so your brain centers needed a couple more seconds to unravel that code or that ticker tape to be able to translate it to English. A lot of people channel that way but they don’t know it. They think they’re just doing the human language from a spirit or an alien…angel to the human language that they can speak but it’s rarely like that. It’s code. It’s like musical notes that are being stretched out to reveal more. It’s like taking sacred geometry in a 3D concept and making it linear so it can be read by a person using letters that emerge from it.

K: This is a lot. My head is spinning.

A: It’s a really big concept. And honestly, that’s part of the definition of light. It’s what light language is. So, it sounds really funny and people are skeptical of it but it’s like speaking in sacred geometry and math equations.

K: Wow! I just really spoke it. I never dissected it. I never dissected my channeling either. I just did it.

A: But sometimes when a person dissects something, they get lost in all the little pieces and it distracts them from actually taking action. I’d like people to take channeling with a grain of salt and just do it because if they constantly sit there and dissect it or want reasoning or…proof of it, they procrastinate and it’s just a gift that gets wasted. And that’s channeling anything. Even energy work. If humans could stop dissecting everything and practice more acceptance…especially getting rid of the judgements about all of this stuff, then aliens would feel more comfortable landing on Earth and having beers.

K: (laughing) I get it. I do.

A: Reservations from aliens about landing on this planet are directly related to the constant…insecurities, questioning and judgements that people have about themselves and everything around them which keeps them locked up in a small little box with no windows.

K: But discernment?

A: Discernment isn’t judgement. Discernment is using truth and truth ends and begins in the heart and vibrates out from that.

K: Touché.

A: And you had this question a long time ago about crop circles. There’s a lot that goes into them. It’s not just one thing but it is a language, and they are messages but they’re also medicine for Earth. People like the easy…translation but if a crop circle is an alien’s way of using a healing technique for Earth…like an acupuncture needle on a person…there’s way more that’s going on under the surface of that crop circle than what a person will want to understand when they just want the quickest definition or the secrets that are encoded in that one shape.

K: Thanks for saying that. I appreciate it. But…if people learn about one translation of one crop circle…wouldn’t it be that door that opens to more?

A: Until people stop dissecting the one translation and allow it to be more than the one…not many doors are going to open. Just like dissecting a gift…whether that’s energy work or channeling or mediumship…whatever…the doors won’t open to more until faith and trust are used. Dissecting something is cutting it up into parts to understand it. With alien communication or talents and abilities…it’s cutting it up which breaks it and it doesn’t work. It breaks the connections.

K: That makes sense. For sure.

Took a break. My head is filled with so much energy that it’s tough to concentrate. He’s bringing in so much energy today that I have a feeling I should slow it down…drink lots of water and eat something.

K: I had a question come in about Sirians.

A: Okay.

K: They ask if you have ever met any Sirians?

A: Yes. I…I guess you could say that I hang out with a lot of Sirians.

K: That’s cool.

A: I mean, I’m in a position where I interact with a lot of different races.

K: Being introduced to what you do, like four years ago, I’m not surprised that you do (know).

A: (sits back and thinks) Hhhmmm…

K: What?

A: I mean, that’s a pretty simple question and it’s a yes but I’m wondering how to elaborate on it.

K: Any way you want.

A: I think…what’s really cool about Sirius is that you have the A and B…and I mean, I’ll just keep it simple.

K: For sure.

A: And the two planets and those from those planets are so different but they’re the same and it’s just…it’s really a great place to visit. I enjoy visiting.

K: Give me an example.

A: The Sirians from B are like these…how can I say this…they’re like these really easy going, hippie, peace out…the feeling like they’re constantly on another planet.

K: You mean high.

A: (laughs) Yeah. Like that. They sort of seem oblivious but it’s the opposite. They know. They really know. It’s like kids watching adults when adults don’t think they are. They play. They’re always playing. They’re always just…it’s not who they are…it’s the energy. It’s like they’re adolescents…sort of but smart. So smart. And I think that’s why they play so much is because they are smart and it’s that balance. They were the first ones to visit earth and they did it through water portals.

K: Water portals?

A: Yeah. They’re where the stories of the mermaids came from.

K: Ah. Got it.

A: But they swim through life like birds fly in the sky and sometimes it’s hard to navigate their…personality because it’s really really huge and free. Like a large body of water because they’re more…the element of water. Humans might think that yes, their planet is water and they’re aquatic and people take that very literally. But it’s in the Sirian B’s energy that that part of them is felt more. They don’t like clothing. They don’t like to cover up. When people…humans are told they need to learn about boundaries and not be taken advantage of…they probably can relate to these Sirians. It’s a lesson they had to learn because they have been manipulated and used, in their history, and it’s a part of their history that they still feel like…they have to answer for especially when it comes to explaining themselves to humans. But they don’t have to answer for it. It’s just that humans get attached to that one aspect…usually war…and it’s a constant explanation of who, what, where, when and why. Regardless, they are just really…full of innocence. Like these doe-eyed star-crossed lovers. And you can’t lose your patience with them because it’s impossible to lose your patience with a race that speaks to that inner child…innocence feeling.

K: Are the two races of Sirius very separate or have they created life with each other?

A: Like Sirian A having babies with Sirian B?

K: Yeah. I have to ask because sometimes people tend to think that it’s still that…segregation.

A: Because that’s what Earth is still working through. No. It’s not so separate anymore.

K: Thought so. It was just an intense feeling I had. What about Sirian A beings?

A: Well, you know Helena.

K: Yes.

A: Just really…intelligent, logical, not so warm and snuggly but they have moments of that. They’re regal. Very royal energy coming from them. They have a very strong light that is confidence but sometimes people think it’s stand-offish. They like to have wise and intelligent conversations with a goal. They plan. They are the architects. It’s that creativity that you see on Earth that’s about the language of math but they put the beauty in it. They are the dreamers and the thinkers combined. They know what sacred geometry is and they use it to build all things so things are built using that “All” mentality. They lead through learning. They don’t lead through teaching. They do both because it is both. Teaching is also learning because you can’t teach the same thing all the time. It has to be a constant awareness that there will always be more. They are very respected and right now they work very closely with the Andromedans.

K: Makes sense.

A: Right now, exploration is really important. So, there are these councils that are made up and they go out on these exploration missions for a really really long time…what people can think an exploration to Venus would be like…

K: Wow.

A: And that’s also on behalf of planets like Earth. It’s sort of like passing the baton in a race. Earth can only get to this point so they pass on the directive to races like the Sirians to take it to point B…then they pass it on and all of that information that is explored is shared equally. It’s been that way for eons but when Earth was lost in the draconian wars, Earth couldn’t get that information so Earth is playing a little bit of catch up right now.

K: Those are the wars that the Pleiadians talk about with the creator gods?

A: Yeah, the space wars.

K: Got it. So because we were kept in that low frequency for so long, we need to catch up on the exploration with the other benevolent ET races.

A: Exactly.

K: And how is that done?

A: By these types of things. By information. Sharing information. Travelling with humans that are done dissecting so the humans can bring back the knowledge like Billy Meier. The time travelling humans that are out there that conspiracists see in old photographs. The astral travelers who have the ability to break through the astral and into the celestial where they can see more than what’s just in front of them. If a person can get past the astral…it’s like the horse attached to the cart taking the blinders off and not needing to pull a load anymore.

K: So, it’s in ways that are more quantum. It’s in ways that aren’t taking a huge clunky spaceship to the moon.

A: It has to be in those ways or humanity wouldn’t be getting anywhere. It has to be with the people…the Starseeds that have that quantum ability to do the extraordinary. Physically, people don’t have the capability yet because they’re still evolving. Psychically and energetically, they do.

K: Which is a mind fuck…truthfully.

A: It is and it sounds really vague but if people look past the words or the story and dare to dive into the vague, they would see more than they ever could. Because the vague is defined by the brain. The mind takes it further which is Earth giving the baton to the Sirians to take it further. Things are not just on a physical level but the attachment to the physical is what defines vague and then the dissection starts, and the doors are closed. And…it’s frustrating. It really is because someone like me can see that potential but the potential is imbedded in the undefined that people are just waiting to be told definitions for so they can feel comfortable about it.

K: For sure. I feel that. I really do.

A: So…yeah. I’ve met Sirians and they’re very cool beings.

Stay tuned for part three...

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