#your life is shit? wonderful

[saint-ambrosef]

everyone wants to make fun of "im not like other girls" and "im only friends with boys" kind of girls and accuse them of being pick-mes, but nobody is ready for the conversation about how that kind of attitude often originates in girls who have been ostracized, ridiculed, and traumatized by other women in their lives due to toxic feminine culture.

#nobody wants to talk about how internalized misogyny can often originate from interactions with OTHER WOMEN rather than from men #when women in your life routinely treat you like shit for being slightly outside norms of accepted feminine behavior/interests #is it any wonder that girls want to distance themselves from other women both emotionally and physically?? #this goes for some AFAB trans/nb people too btw. they have such a negative experience with femininity that they disassociate from it

[rocicrew]

#all their problems were solved because drummer finally pegged hold-[gunshot]

#the expanse #theexpanseedit #james holden #camina drummer #& bc i can #draolden #mine : gifs. #i committed to the bit #turns out it was the most effective way to shut him up #you were an ass jimmy and then wondered why your gf's gf didn't like you #and then you saved her life #and then she was an ass #and then she saved your life #and then everything was shit but it turned out fine somehow #[sex & naomi that's the somehow]

[blood-and-better-honey]

found this book and this card was inside; needless to say i was crying in half price books

cards reads:

dear jamie, i’m sitting here at paradise cafe watching people and eating my cookie (love,love,love) thinking back when i was your age and all the boy problems. it’s one of those times when you wonder if you will ever find someone normal or thinks like you think. it was a time of growing and learning about yourself and what you want out of life. remember i moved 800 miles away from the (a family name and boys)(heehee) you really grow during these times. someday when you least expect it you will meet someone that you think he’s different >:) . but you need to be happy with you and your wonderful self. you have everything going for you and right now you are wonderful being you. so i don’t want you to think that something is wrong because this is all part of growing up and we all go through it. and in the long run it will make you well-rounded, and for sure to know what you want out of life, relationships, etc. i love you so much, mom

#i’m not fucking okay at all #holy fucking shit like i’m crying i’m crying i’m crying #i’m being so normal about this #queer #queer shit #lgbtq #books #gay #it speaks #actually tagging this one bc i want people to see it #if you need a reminder let this be yours that you are going through life and you will find your person (if you desire a person) and #and it will be wonderful

[wheretheresawyll]

still boggles my mind that in the year 2024 most players still ignore anora's character just to reduce her to a lying backstabber, when she only goes against you if:

you reveal her identity to ser cautherine and howe's soldiers, defeating the entire purpose of her disguise and also ignoring what she told you literally one minute before about how they can't know she's escaping with you - thereby betraying her first

you ignore her completely in denerim after she asks you to come talk to her, and only show up to the landsmeet

you bring up loghain's fate, and when she tells you that she would rather him be spared if possible, you tell her to her face that her father has to die

#also ppl saying that anora isnt a people person and thats why cailan/alistair are better rulers or necessary on the throne #when the game repeatedly talks about how it was ANORA who was popular and loved #loghain even tells you that she knows how to appeal to peoples emotions #'in another life she could've been a bard' #< thats not someone who doesn't know how to connect with and move people #like! youre a stranger who is aligned with eamon who wants to replace anora with alistair just to preserve a royal bloodline! #no wonder! she is not! the most open and friendly character to you!! #even that being said - she IS personable to you #she tells you personal stories about cailan and her dad #if you ask if she needs anything she is genuinely surprised and thanks you for asking #anora has flaws! you dont have to make shit up! #dragon age #dragon age origins #anora mac tir #queen anora

[jessiesjaded]

I really, really wish people who don't have the capacity to properly take care of animals would simply accept and acknowledge that about themselves. This isn't even a post of me trying to be mean or judge anyone, I'm sure most people go into getting an animal with good intentions, but intentions and actions are different. If you don't have the time and the space and the care an animal needs, the animal will suffer. The fleeting joy of having a kitten or puppy or anything else doesn't last forever and they aren't toys to be put down and forgotten once you've moved past the inital excitement. If you don't have the ability to properly care for an animal, just accept that and simply admire them from a distance.

#the amount of people i know who flippantly just. buy a random pet with no prior planning or thought #and like its not always outright neglect #you can technically feed and groom a pet get them flee treatments etc but if you lock it outside 24/7 and spend no actual time #like why do you have that animal? #you should not have that aninal #if you have too much in your life to adequately care for one its vetter for YOU and for the animal to not have one #like this little cat is so sweet #actually the sweetest cat ive ever known and my cat tigs has always been a massive sweety already #so its saying something that shes been even sweeter #i mean i brushed her teeth and got matted fur off her and cleaned her eyes and she NEVER bit or scratched me once #shes so quiet and sweet #but the people across the road clearly just left her outside to her own devices her whole life #seemingly no vet checks. didnt feed her properly and i sometimes wonder if at all bc their next door neighbour was feeding her apparently #and he has no pets!! even he knew that shit was wrong #and now shes so sickly and small and malnourished and her teeth are rotting out of her head #and its just like ???? #why have her #you could have realized you werent really the type for pets and given her to a shelter #and she would have been adopted 100% #but they kept her all this time but also not really bc its not like she was kept properly at all #its sad she didnt come over here sooner #i wish id had since she was a baby or even a year ago #bc then maybe i could have helped her more #its just so unnecessary. Animals are a privilege not a right. #and again like. go visit your cousin or uncle or sister or friends pet in that case #you might not have the time or ability but you could still enjoy animals wothout directly having one

[dollypopup]

'colin needs to grovel' 'colin should suffer' 'pen can't let him off easy'

please, his mother in law is about to be PORTIA, doesn't the man have enough curses in his life?

#colin bridgerton #polin #portia featherington #colin at the beginning realizing he's marrying into the Featheringtons: oh god i have truly met some insufferable people in my life #colin hours later full of spite and w/ approx. 0 patience for Portia's shit deciding he's gonna become The Problem: but also they've met me #Colin decides he's going to be the permanent thorn in her side and it's wonderful #don't get me wrong #but damn. . .pour one out for our boy #you KNOW he loves Pen because who the fuck else would deal with Portia of all people as a mother in law???? #'woe portia as your MIL upon thee' is like. . .THE ultimate curse #but Colin went 'it's rotten work but not if it's for Pen' #we should all be so lucky

[greenerteacups]

Love how Draco goes from desperate pining mess to overconfident smug prat in .0001 seconds once it finally clicks that Hermione fancies him back

draco at the end of chapter 63: i'm miserable. i'm worthless. i'm unlovable. no one look at me. my life has no meaning and my friends only claim to desire my presence as feeble gestures of pity and charity. hermione probably wants me dead.

draco at the end of chapter 64: I Am Your God And None Of You Fuckers Can Take Me

#greenteacup asks #lionheart spoilers #literally insufferable man. annoying ass <3 #no wonder hermione repressed that shit smh imagine your best friend is already the smuggest cockiest guy you know #and then he finds out you (teenage girl genius love of his life) LIKE him? like LIKE like him? #it's over. it's done. his ego's hit the event horizon it's never coming back

[proudfreakmetarusonniku]

not to make angst out of a fucking gag but also thinking about the silly au rei in the final episode makes me think about how different rei would be if she didn’t have literally the worst dad ever. like, no, she probably wouldn’t have been the upbeat adhd whirlwind in the high school au lmao. but it does just make me think. because while all the pilots lives are incredibly marked by trauma, rei's the only one to have never had access to any sort of normal life. her entire personality and worldview is shaped from being isolated, groomed, and taught to see herself as a tool and not a person. and then i just get so sad that she never had any chance of a normal life where she could discover herself and what she is. she went from being abused and manipulated by gendō (which is made even worse with the implications certain scenes leave about their relationship) to becoming god. she never had any chance of living a normal life. and just like. fuck.

#like when people talk about gendō being a bad dad it’s normally to do with shinji but like. he was an utterly abysmal dad to rei as well. #outside of the implications of csa even. like even outside of that she was isolated confined and used as a tool her whole life #like. it’s not like she can just leave. I mean none of the Eva pilots can just leave because they’re being groomed it’s horrible and awful #But like Rei specifically physically can’t leave. both bc she needs her medication which. I doubt anywhere else makes stuff to stop your #body from falling apart bc your at field aka like your fucking soul more or less just is failing. #but also bc like. she’s kinda literally vital for gendōs plans. there’s no way nerv would physically allow her to leave #god like. no wonder she was so insistent on her not getting better treatment than the rest despite the obvious favouritism of gendō #like. yeah maybe she gets scraps of affection but she’s also like. trapped. and also being abused. #fucking biting #free my girl she didn't do shit #Neon Genesis Evangelion

[constantvariations]

So uhh...

Anyone wanna talk about this?

#devil may cry #recreating your tormentors methods/philosophies and imitating them to project the total control they had over you is... certainly smth #mundus straight up affected vergil so thoroughly that even w those memories removed he copies the behaviors #thats probs why he made lady and trish into hosts. hes literally recreating his trauma from the seat of power #i wonder if trish understood that once she knew exactly who urizen was and thats part of why she was kind to V #but holy shit am i OBSESSED w this #also anyone notice how the qliphoth vines on his face go up into a crown? #hes such a drama king even when hes on demon life support lmaoooo

[wildflowercryptid]

potentially batshit headcanon, but i think it'd be funny if these two were related somehow.

#i'm inclined to say they're cousins but it'd also be interesting if they were siblings ngl #gustafa hasn't really brought up his own upbringing so far in my playthrough so i'm running hogwild w/ his backstory #i hc that gustafa's parents were classical musicians and pretty strict (very much the types to force what they think is best on their kids) #he felt like the environment was too stifling not only for his music but also his spirit so he left home as soon as he could #he's still proud about his family's history as musicians but definitely doesn't want to raise his kids like his parents raised him #so that's why he's pretty laid back when it comes to raising bea and encourages whatever she loves doing no matter what #wait now that i think about it carter organizes the music festival in mineral town doesn't he? #shit i'm connecting the dots #carter would probably be older than gustafa so i guess he left home as soon as possible too #he just went the route of joining the clergy to get out of town rather than becoming a hippie like gus #imagine going to the next town over to check out their music festival only to be reunited w/ your estranged older bro >>> #you haven't spoken to in like 10+ years #i feel like they'd be okay terms tho they'd definitely bond over how shitty their parents were #okay i'm having fun w/ this headcanon i'm gonna keep it i think #story of seasons #bokujou monogatari #a wonderful life #friends of mineral town #sos awl #sos fomt #sos gustafa #gustafa (awl) #sos carter #carter (fomt) #hc : (sos) awl / fomt #mj.txt

[horsechestnut]

Reading Batgirl 2000 is making me want to write a Dark Batman fic.

#as a Stephanie Brown fan I thought I understood the worst parts of Bruce Wayne #but jesus christ the way he treats Cass in this comic is infuriating #no fucking wonder she decides perfect for a year is better than a life of mediocrity #the girl with no family who can barely communicate and you've shown zero interest in interacting with outside of Batman #doesn't give a shit about her secret identity? #NO SHIT #WHY SHOULD SHE??? #And your response to her making a 'mistake' #(one that literally any other bat would have intentionally chosen to make by the way) #is to take her away from the one person who's making any sort of attempt to give her a sense of identity #i will strangle this man #like i barely even have to do anything he's already doing the dark shit for me in canon #i read comics #batgirl 2000 #anti bruce wayne #cassandra cain #batgirl #batgirl ii #also glad to say that batgirl 2000 is actually as good as everyone says it is :) #the art isn't my favorite and I'm going to throttle bruce but I love the way Cass is characterized it's so fucking good

[otterlyotterott]

A cat sits alone in the cemetery

Inspired by @circuscountdowns's bishop death comic.

cw: grief, slow mental deterioration by way of immortality

Mortal minds were not meant to live forever. Not alone. 

It’s the middle of the night and they kneel before the grave. In one of their hands they grip a shovel that had been gifted to them a long time ago. At the base of the handle is an engraving that matches the stone crown on the gravestone.

There is a pendant on their chest, and it gleams gold in the moonlight.

They close their eyes, and breathe. Out slow, in slow.  

Camellias smell like sugar and dirt, like three thousand years of longing. The flowers on this grave are always fresh. always redder than blood, even in the winter, when every other plant on cult grounds wilts and turns bare and hibernates. The camellias on his grave are always there, always beautiful. One might call them blessed.

They are not afraid of dying—they are devoted to Death. They simply cannot die yet. Their Gods and leaders need them. The rest of the flock needs their wisdom. Someone who can speak to them as an equal, but who knows more and has seen more than the rest. 

Mortal minds were not meant to live forever, but they’re still doing pretty well. They lose days or weeks sometimes, but it’s not a problem yet. They suspect it’ll take another five thousand or so before their mind becomes a problem, assuming something else doesn’t kill them first.

So, they cannot leave. Not of their own accord. They have no need to.

They want to stay, to be content with the impossible life they live, but something is missing. They’ve been missing the sandpaper edges of his voice for the last few centuries. They’ve been yearning for the feel of his fur on their own—green and yellow, a sunbeam shining over a bed of moss.

He left them. They agreed to it. He was tired. They understood, or thought they did. They were with him for the rest of his life, and they loved him, and he died, in the end, like a mortal, but his heart was full, and when he was gone for good, they realized that their heart had gone with him. Stolen in a final prank.

At first they figured the pain would lie in the loss itself, but true moments of pain were every time they would forget that he was gone. It was every time they would look beside them, to whisper to him something that he would yell aloud to embarrass them both, only to find no one was there. It was every odd hole in the ground that they would feel the urge to crouch down beside, to talk to him, coax him out, before someone would ask what they were doing and they would remember that he wasn't there. It was every time they remembered that holes in the ground were for plants, and not Gods.

He would be severely annoyed to see them do anything but smile, but it was getting hard to smile without him.

And, and he would want this, wouldn’t he? Even if getting woken back up annoyed him at first.

His After was probably boring without them.

He'd think it was funny.

He’d grin impossibly wide and say, “ABOUT TIME YOU DID SOMETHING SELFISH.”

They stare at the old stone. The crown of the God of Chaos stares back. It's only another life. He won't even have to put on a necklace this time around.

Mortal minds were not meant to live forever. Not alone.

So, they stand and lurch forward. They take the shovel into both their hands, and they drive it like a spear into the dirt, into Leshy's grave. 

They don’t know how the ritual works, but they know they’ll need his bones for it. They'll figure the rest out later.

#cotl #cotl leshy #cotl yellow cat #leshy x yellow cat #i just kept wondering like #what if one of the spouses asked for their love's golden skull necklace #and then hung out for a couple thousand years just so the bishops would have someone other than lamb and nari to mourn them #yellow cat here won't succeed though #they'll either not be able to do the ritual or narinder's going to appear out of nowhere and talk them down from interrupting leshy's rest #ottscreeching #i've been in a cotl rabbit hole for the last two weeks my god #to be continued maybe #rlly into the idea of being a god-spouse but not being the main character like The Lamb is so you're kind on the outskirts of the wild ride #watching a bunch of crazy shit go down but your job and your skills are only in like #growing pumpkins #but the love of your life is a big green chaos worm #hello cotl fandom #i wrote this at like 1:30 in the morning

[solokabuto]

Imagine if during their mission summer had successfully managed to convince raven to come home WITH her once it was done. But summer ends up dead (possibly because of something raven did, or rather failed to do like always) and raven is left alone with her failure and another broken promise because what’s the use of returning home if not with her?

#summer rose #raven branwen #rwby #misc thoughts #rosebird #something something branwen twins and the lingering stench of failure that follows them #I wonder what their parents were like #anyways raven you can’t just halfass your entire life just because everything you commit to fully turns to shit #you’ve committed to so few things that atp it was prolly a fluke

[getvalentined]

Thinking about Angeal in DFFOO apparently throwing himself in front of a sword to protect Sephiroth, even knowing that he's unrepentantly evil at that point and has no goal except to hurt people and fuck with Cloud, because he just cares about him so much—

But in CC, Angeal is only upset about Genesis' alleged death because he didn't manage to kill him before Zack did. Even though he's completely aware that Genesis is doing all this in an attempt to either 1. not literally rot to death, or 2. take the company down with him in recompense for ruining all their lives from conception.

The only point that he gets genuinely upset after Genesis "dies" is when Hollander calls Gillian by name. That is more upsetting to him than the death of someone who he's known basically since birth. The only issue with his oldest childhood friend being dead is that Angeal didn't get to kill him.

But Sephiroth, openly malicious, violent, abusive—he is worth defending. He's worth protecting. He deserves every possible chance to prove that he's better than he was made, even when he's stated outright that he made his choice and doesn't intend to change.

Absolutely mindboggling that so few people seem to realize the extreme difference in how he feels about them, even when it's on full display.

(Also, I feel like it's more proof for my theory that Angeal is in love with Sephiroth too and the reason he treated Genesis the way he did is because if he wasn't good enough, then Genesis certainly wasn't, and couldn't be allowed to think otherwise. I don't think this was intentionally malicious, but I think Angeal was actually extremely immature and so self-righteous he'd rather they all be miserable than see someone he loved find support from someone he found unworthy.)

#fandom vent #angeal critical #I'm not even talking shit about the character here mind you #this is what happens #this is the canon #this is how he ACTUALLY behaves IN GAME #he's brilliantly flawed #he's a WONDERFUL character #but fandom doesn't see that #do I think he cared about his friends? yeah #do I think he cared about the oldest one as much as fandom thinks he did? #absolutely the fuck not #you don't lament that you didn't get to kill your best friend #who was trying to SURVIVE #who TOLD YOU THE TRUTH when NO ONE ELSE DID #who ALLOWED YOU TO MAKE YOUR OWN DECISIONS #and then risk your own life defending your other friend #against people he has LITERALLY MURDERED #and he is TRYING TO MURDER AGAIN #FOR NO REASON OTHER THAN HIS OWN FUN #if you ACTUALLY LOVE BOTH OF YOUR FRIENDS EQUALLY #but fandom refuses to see that #there is so much about this character that could be explored #he could be brilliant #grey and greyer morality #facades of nobility covering up deep insecurity #he's SO well-written in-canon #but fandom goes 'oh he said he's good so he is' #YEAH HE ALSO SAID THAT STEALING FROM EVERYONE BUT HIS RICH FRIEND WAS HONORABLE #HE IS VERY VERY WRONG ABOUT MANY MANY THINGS

[ronon-dex]

the ego on cm punk is fucking crazy. let alone the way he's comfortable poisoning the well of pro wrestling for other people. the epitome of pulling the ladder up behind you. what a pathetic joke of a person, jesus, every word out of his mouth is the sort of humblebragging lie unique to men who think they're god's gift to the planet. and the way he delights in talking about taking the ugly way out of ANY confrontation. smiling while saying "i choked someone a little bit". I wish him the worst. I hope drew mcintyre takes his other arm

#the way he talks about the aew wrestlers is disgusting #the tantrums he throws in front of cameras and on podcasts and pretending to be this super calm person who was pushed to the edge #like no wonder they never warmed to you you absolute joke of an athlete. #go back to shitting your pants on camera #honestly the more i learn about the wrestling business the angrier i get #the way you have 1% of these people who trample over everyone #while the rest are destroying their bodies and putting on incredible shows and not getting shit for it #aew #we can't just be happy we have 2 cakes yknow some douchebag has to go on a podcast and ruin it for everyone #going on wrestlemania week to shit all over aew while wearing this mantle of the poor wise elder who was cast out for being too clever #while singing the praises of wwe as being 'well-structured' when HE WAS THE ONE to ALSO quit THAT in 2014 #i wish i could block his face in real life

[akkivee]

For the next BAT audio drama I kinda hope they put Kuukou through the horrors, I love Kuukou and all but I want to know what the absolute fuck is his problem. I really hope we get to finally find out what happened to Mama Harai. What I think happened to Mama Harai is something involving the ocean, I always found it ironic that Kuukou dislikes the ocean considering where he lives so I thought maybe that has to do with Mama Harai not being around.

all i want is for kuukou to have fun and live life but yeah, we have reached the point where it’ll be straight bizarre if we don’t get his backstory lol. kuukou enjoying nature to the point he takes solace in it but dislikes the ocean is soooo telling

and so i hope it’s mama harai too lol!!!!! whether the drama is she gave kuukou a reason to hate the ocean, or is the reason he hates smoking and alcohol, or is the reason he naturally turns to self sacrifice, or all of the above!!!!! i would like to know lol!!!!!

#vee got an ask #i saw a post that mentioned hypmic likes to make their very obvious soulmates the same age #with rosasa and dohifu being quite literally in your face lol and you look at them with their similar goals and experiences #and turn to ichiro and kuukou who are also the same age and have been called soulmates in the stage and it makes you wonder lol #we just found out mama yamada is still alive and is likely going to be a source of conflict in some capacity for ichiro down the road #with rosasa dual dealing with rei shit and dohifu dual dealing with honobono #it makes me wonder if ichikuu will be dual dealing with mommy drama lol #idk whether to assume she’s alive and left kuukou or she’s dead #and that’s mostly bc nemu is also 19 and her mother died by su*cide after protecting her kids #which is something i’ve been wondering about kuukou’s self sacrifice as a skewed version of su*cide this is a whole thought process lmao #but ichiro being shaken by sacrifice likely bc of his mom and kuukou very willing to stake his life on the line may also stem from his mom #and that tells me she’s probably not alive #which would make sense since the most pivotal people in bat’s lives are also not alive lol 😭😭😭 #like big fear for me is that she couldn’t stand temple life and drowned herself in the ocean #and kuukou with his uncanny ability to be in the right place watched it happen unable to save her and almost died himself trying #i have questions lol!!!!!! it’d be nice if i finally got SOME answers!!!!!!!!!!!