#yeah yeah sappy post i know

[moonflwer-gutz]

I'm seeing Across The Spiderverse on Saturday and I just

I wanna talk about how much the original means to me for a second

bc I am not going to be normal about it when I see it (obviously I won't post spoilers without tagging/warning so dw)

so Into The Spiderverse came out in December 2018. which not only was around my 13th birthday, but also was when I was making decisions about highschool. I already knew that I wanted to do art, I was sure of that part. But I was still conflicted on just doing art at a normal school, or going to a high school that actually specialized in art.

and then i saw ITSV. and just. holy shit.

the way the characters moved. the way the story was told. the way that every little detail, every single frame had years of thought and care behind it. from the texturing to the framerate. i fell in love. i was always an animation fan, i had always wanted to make my own, i had always wanted to bring art to life and create the things that shaped my childhood. animation was my dream and always had been.i made my decision then and there. it had always been in my mind and that was the last push i needed.

i was going to study animation. i was gonna pursue my dream.

fast forward one year, i passed the audition and got into the art school. fast forward another year and, despite the tribulations of quarantine, i was accepted into the animation major--the most competitive major in the school.

to this day, i cannot watch ITSV without referring to it as the movie that shaped me as a person. it literally permanently set me on my path to my dream career. and to this day, i cannot watch it without randomly bursting into tears. its just. its something that means so much to me and no matter how many times i rewatch it i always notice some little detail that makes me froth at the mouth-

and the Leap of Faith scene....God the Leap of Faith scene. i ugly cry every time. because i hear them talking to me. applying to that school, trying for the animation program, that was my leap of faith. and it worked. and i persevered.

so now, being exactly 25 days away from graduating from that very same school, i find myself extremely emotional that the sequel to the film that changed my life is coming out at the same time. ITSV set me up for high school, ATSV is setting me up for college. and while my college situation is a bit complicated rn (im on a waitlist for my dream school and theres a possibility i won't know the answer until july) i can't help but feel that everything is going to be ok. it just feels like history repeating itself yknow?

ive had this film to guide me on my journey these past four years, and soon it'll be films to guide me.

i already know i'm going to ugly sob during this movie same way i always do for the original. and i cannot wait to see how Miles and Gwen have grown. because i grew with them. and i can't wait to see where our journeys go from here <3

#yeah yeah sappy post i know #itsv means a lot to me and i needed to talk about this #my friends and family already know all this i cant even listen to the soundtrack or look at the art book without crying #yeah just some mel lore for you #this movie shaped the trajectory of the last four years of my life and thats not even a joke <3 #i cannot wait for saturday #into the spiderverse #across the spiderverse #miles morales #moonflwer thoughts

[miralyk]

the martyr, the monster, and a mortal

#protocreed #rbs are off and this post may be deleted too bc these Are self portraits and you know i’m v self conscious and rarely post stuff like this #but yeah was playing w the artemus pencils for the texture and these accidentally came out better than expected #something something parallels of growing up under the wing of a martyr who died by horrifically burning a hand that used to guide yours #and being raised under a monster’s protection by being shielded within the grasp of claws that slaughter and strike down everyone else #i Have sappy retrospective pmv ideas for des and alex w these but self consciousness hits again w the cringe ‘personal experience’ LMAO #ghosts in the machine au

[good-beanswrites]

I wanted to bring up a silly ship idea. Just for fun.

03, 06, 09, 10

Was this before Kotoko attacked them? After? I dunno.

Thoughts?

YES the cringefail 20yo polycule 👏👏👏 Thank you for the request! I've seen a lot about the individual pairs, so it was really fun to think about all their dynamics together! I have a set of hcs that could work in the current canon Milgram, and then a normal au set because it's so fun thinking about them :3

Milgram-focused

The I’m-a-loner-who’s-doing-it-for-justice-don’t-TOUCH-me pair finally meet their match when confronted with the I-loved-someone-so-much-and-don’t-plan-on-stopping pair. They all go into the relationship with grand ideas of love: they think it’s all heroic acts of saving, massive gestures or love, and dramatic confessions. Over time, they realize the real heroism/romance is in the little things. 

Mahiru has her hands full with three people who neglect themselves for the sake of their work/interests, but she always loves feeding them and helping give them what they need. In turn, they can give her more affection and attention than she could ever ask for. They make sure someone is always around to spend time with her.

Each of the three is a perfect match for dealing with John’s reveal. Mahiru is calming and helps tone down Mikoto’s initial stress. Fuuta is honest and will help Mikoto finally confront his own situation and move forward. And since Kotoko can match his strength, Mikoto doesn’t need to be afraid of accidentally hurting anyone. Mikoto becomes less stressed with the overall situation as well as more accepting of himself/John.

I always love the idea that Fuuta is secretly starstruck by Kotoko and John’s strength. He’ll never admit how much he admires their ability to stand up and fight. He feels really safe around them. He’s glad to have the opportunity to fight for someone else, too – he likes to be Mahiru’s self-proclaimed protector and hero. (Even though most of the time she can stand up for herself, she still likes letting him take care of her.)

Kotoko’s experiences let her hold solid conversations with everyone. She’s similar enough to Fuuta where they share some interests (social issues, schooling, etc.) She understands hard work and burnout to earn Mikoto’s respect. She understands physical strength to earn John’s. She has a lot of people-knowledge, so she can gossip and talk about Tokyo life to Mahiru (Mappi’s doing most of the ‘gossiping,’ but Kotoko has solid additions). She's a good listener and has a good memory, so everyone feels heard by her.

They start to rub off on each other. Mahiru and Mikoto learn to be a bit tougher in standing up for herself. Fuuta, John, and Kotoko learn to take a breath before jumping right to violence. They stay very much who they are, but pick up on just a few habits that make their lives easier.

Their styles also influence one another: Fuuta gets pointers from all three about piercing his ears (though it takes him a long time to get up the nerve to do it). Mahiru helps the others dress more trendy and boost their confidence, and they teach her to worry less about her appearance and relax more. 

If they get together T1, Kotoko is shocked by the T1 verdicts. She might pull away from everyone in initial horror, but after developing a relationship ahead of time, she doesn’t follow through with her attacks. If not, then maybe in T3 when Kotoko is suffering from her guilty verdict, Mahiru and Mikoto are able to bridge the gap and develop a friendship, leading to more. Fuuta would take longer to come around, but I think seeing Kotoko got through the same pain as him, his hero instincts would kick in and he’d gradually help. 

Normal-au

Mahiru once again tries out her lovers’ interests, and gets a bunch of new hobbies. Fuuta teaches her to game, she works out with Kotoko, and she tries out photography with Mikoto. She becomes close with Fuuta’s beautician sister, and enjoys bonding over fashion and hair. She helps redye Mikoto’s hair, and give the other two pointers on style now and then. When going to nicer events, she and Mikoto have to step in and stop the others from their sneaker/hoodie combos. As the only one with a license, she’s the designated driver at all events, but doesn’t mind. 

Fuuta uses his tech skills to set up social media accounts for the others. He helps Mahiru network her flower shop, fighting anyone who leaves a bad comment/review. He helps set up a complex online portfolio for Mikoto. He and Kotoko still have a passion for justice, and he becomes the tech brains behind her vigilante operations (very Ron Stoppable - Kim Possible) It’s not necessarily healthy growth, but they’re happy with it lmao

Mikoto is the only full-time worker, the others are all still in university, and he makes sure to keep them all on track. He knows the most efficient tricks and cheats about getting papers done, pulling all-nighters, and cramming before an exam. The others have learned to spot when he’s burning himself out for others, and will stop him when he tries to take on too much. They’ll take care of him and force him to rest. While he can still get into a bit of trouble, John learns to call them first and get some help. 

Kotoko has trained herself to find people and information easily to catch criminals, but she finds use for it in much more mundane ways – she tracks down clients for Mahiru, snoops around Mikoto’s company to make sure he’s being treated right, and keeps an eye out for the people Fuuta is calling out and/or hanging out with. She goes on runs with Mahiru, and bike rides with Mikoto. Fuuta tags along sometimes to strengthen his legs for soccer. 

There’s definitely potential for them all to have their murders pre- or mid- relationship, and they help one another improve themselves and heal. I’m also a sucker for the relationship itself to cause them to change their ways and narrowly avoid the murder in the first place. (For the latter, Mahiru would ironically be the last to join the relationship, since she’d still be with her bf until the other three inspire her to break it off with him gently.)

#milgram #fuuta kajiyama #mahiru shiina #mikoto kayano #john milgram #kotoko yuzuriha #you got a peek at some in the first set but i cleaned them up and finally finished the second set >:3 #thank you for waiting asdfdsf these were really fun to think about :D #im loving the image of the four workout buddies asdfdsf #and id imagine their home is filled with photos as mikoto and mappi take a bunch of everyone :') #even in milgram i can see them snapping lots of shots #i know its harder to swing a post-attack relationship but i do think its possible given how intense everything is #just as prisoners were friends one day in t1 and enemies the next in t2 i think things can change fast #and yeah... im so sappy over them all picturing these massive gestures of love: #beating someone up to protect their lover - gifting them something elaborate - saving them from a burning building - planning an exotic dat #and instead they find that preparing a meal after a long day means the world to them #getting up early to workout and keep them company is huge #remembering little details about them and their interests changes their lives #<333 #OUGH now i just want them to be happy ;---; #headcanon time milgram

[33-001]

Mob taking Reigen as last name, because the sound of it means so much to them both after years of adressing his soon-to-be husband with that name. Mob taking Reigen as last name to put the family part into Arataka's family name.

vs

Arataka taking Kageyama as last name, because Mob's family is important to Mob while the only importance the name Reigen has for Arataka is that Mob adressed him as such for years. Arataka taking Kageyama as last name because Mob wants him to become part of the Kageyama family.

(it's a draw)

#reimob #mobrei #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #I forgot this in my drafts for weeks #i love both... both very valid. both very wholesome. #i see Kageyama much more often but personally I am a bit partial to Reigen... Mob will not lose any family ties over that after all #& well. I'd miss the name we all know Reigen by #plus uh ... the japanese same-sex adoption workaround... yeah #while I love the thought of it not being needed and all being well in the world etc etc #I personally hc that they'll use the adoption workaround to be recognized as a family unit by law so that means older adopts younger #I also hc that Reigen slowly reconciles with his family post-canon. they'll never be on great terms but they'll get better. #Mob helps tbh. like just by being Mob y'know how he does it #on my sappy bullshit again aren't I #immoral gr**ming ship they say & I'm out here full of the sappiest brainworms I've ever had about some fictional guys

[cubesugarss]

YAAAAAAAAAAAAY

#want to explain a few of these #for confession and first kiss. i tried thinking for a solid 5 mins about which way it would be #i DONT KNOW. I THINK IT WOULD WORK EITHER WAY. #please feel free to input i am tormented #ive read too many fics of it going both ways so i just. OGH #for better with money its more like hiiro doesnt blow his money on impulsive purchases rather than #actually being good w finance bc i dont. think they really need to be yet #But when they get older then yeah hiiro pays their taxes. fire emoji #songs. Ohhhhh songs #you(=i) is so. sappy .. its the perfect aira love song to hiiro #i could make a separate post about these #but um. dakishimete is like evil hiiai #andddd betelgeuse is my single hiiro pov song #hiiai and stars... if you know #⭑ tea doodles #⭑ tea rambles #hiiai #enstars

[d0d0-b0i]

it’s weird how much lighter my life feels now. not that i don’t have any issues (because there are many in my life, as i am sure there are in yours), but they’re just so much more manageable than they were a year ago.

​what’s more; i love myself now. i may not be perfect. but i am trying my best, and i can tell that i am! i see myself in the mirror, and sometimes i just examine myself, and my features, and i smile. i feel so much more authentic when talking to people, not worrying about how they view me, because i don’t have to anymore. i wish i could’ve told 15-year old me just how good it’s gotten so far, i know that he would’ve loved hearing about the shitty sideburns we’re growing out right now :’)

#it gets better :) #i used to think that transitioning medically wouldn’t lessen the sadness and depression i felt #and to some degree it is still there since t isn’t a cure all #but by the gods it is so much fucking easier to deal with everything #when a major reason for my mental health being the way it was has been abated #it’s like the fog cleared enough for me to actually see the road i’m driving on #instead of assuming blindly that i won’t crash #once i get top surgery. #idk. i wonder if things will be even easier? #i’m almost a year in and already my life feels so much brighter. yeah there’s problems with keeping the house. and yeah #i don’t have an income yet and i don’t know if the internship will even be in the cards for me #but. i just feel that everything will work out. enough for me to enjoy the time i have here :) #sorry i am being sappy but god! i love and i love! so much now!! i feel so much and i enjoy nearly every day despite the Issues #the world is getting worse but still i find reasons to love and live #so maybe one day it will get better? maybe one day my love will have helped even #if you’re reading. i love you. even if you’re just a follower #even if we’re mutuals that haven’t talked before #i think about you often. i wonder where my oldest mutual went after they stopped posting years ago #i don’t think i can forget. and i love you. and i wish i. could give you a hug. we all need one from time to time #i love the friends i’ve made and the friends i’ve had. i love. and this past year has opened up my floodgates of emotion

[sweetie-peaches]

Three(four?) years ago I started watching tubbos streams and met some of my best friends because of it

Now in 2023 I am still watching tubbos streams and still making new friends, and I couldn’t have it any other way ❤️

#peaches posts #late night sappy post from peach #whoopises #qsmp qosts #qsmp tubbo #yeah I don’t know #this fandom is how I’ve met so many people and made so many friends #it’s just #great

[supercantaloupe]

yeah i know i should stop thinking about It already and just move on with my life (and i'm trying to, i promise) but it genuinely has been kind of rough here at supercantaloupe dot tumblr dot edu lately so uh if you've stuck with me through all this (mutuals especially) and/or offered even the gentlest of kind words/thoughts my way please know that i appreciate it so much and i'm very grateful knowing that there are people out there who care about me and my thoughts and/or feelings

#i wanna talk about me #sorry this is sappy. and or if it seems like it's coming out of nowhere. going thru stuff. you know how it is. #uh. yeah. love you guys #what is It you might wonder. well you can ask if you'd like but you gotta prommy to be cool about it... #but it's probably not difficult to gather if you've paid any amount of attention to my posts in the past couple weeks or smth idk

[the-kipsabian]

reminder that @midnightpretenders0 is the absolute best and i dont know what i would do without them and i love them so so so much 💜💜💜

#gonna be sappy on main dont @ me #i actually dont know i would do anything without them but yeah #love you bugs 💜💜💜 #i really need to sleep i can barely spell but yeah. this post needed to be made 💜💜 #night is an absolute mess on main

[pepsitwist]

i’ve got another 20 mins left in 2022 so i’ll get sappy rq. i’ve really, truly, genuinely enjoyed being on here w y’all this year. i joined wrestling tumblr near the end of 2021, so i’ve had this blog a little over a year now, and i’m really grateful i made it and joined you guys on here. thank you for looking at my silly little posts, thank you for thirsting abt wrestlers w me, thank you for sticking around and being generally welcoming to a new face around here. it’s been a really fun year enjoying wrestling with you guys, and i’m excited to do it more in 2023 💕💕

#as much as i enjoy talking abt wrestling w my family. it’s very different on here with you guys #i feel a lot safer to enjoy it how i WANT to enjoy it on here #i don’t have to make myself quiet on here. i don’t have to make myself smaller or downplay anything about how i feel #and i know i joke around a lot. i poke fun and i complain and i say hater stuff but genuinely #i have a lot of fun on here. i love coming on here and seeing what y’all have to say. i love spilling the most ridiculous posts on here #i love going from in depth analysis of storytelling and character motivations to incoherent abhorrent thirsting with u guys #so. yeah! i’m having a lot of fun. and you guys are all pretty damn cool #i don’t really talk with many people on here. i think i dm with like. two people. #but that doesn’t mean i don’t really like you guys and enjoy your posts and think you’re super cool #i’m not good with conversations or holding friendships like that one on one but im happy to be here #if you ever want to dm me they’re always open tho!! don’t take that as me saying i don’t wanna talk akskdnfn i just. don’t usually text 1st #okay. i’ll stop now but!! real sappy abt y’all. thanks for making 2022 fun

[rig-a-rendal]

Mike: /has hairy noodle arms/

The fans: Hell yeah 💙

Peter: /has hairless muscular arms/

The fans: Hell yeah 🧡

To Monkees fans; all arms are important arms

PREACH !

#you are SO RIGHT and in all honesty? #this fan space has really helped me to normalize physical attraction to men in a really mundane way that I had trouble with for a long time #I dont know why but there's this cultural attitude where women are mostly like “eh” about men's bodies? especially “average” bodies #like ALL the ones you see outside of like. action movies. and being here with everyone lusting after these four absolutely average #NORMAL-looking guys? like genuinely??? has been really eye-opening and good for me I think. #not to get sappy on a post about peter tork in a tank top but #yeah :)

[iero]

The sadness of this tour ending in about two weeks is only hitting me now... 

#personal #It's been a pleasure live blogging with you all. #I mean yeah we have Mexico like a month after and then after that? Three months. #I don't know. I didn't want to say it because I didn't want to seem ungrateful because I am. #This 'More! More! More!' mentality from the fanbase is exhausting but I'll miss them. #But I lasted seven years waiting for them and I was able to see them once and for that I'll be forever grateful. #<- And then two more on top of that because of the pandemic. I'll wait a very long time for them. #Sorry. Another sappy 'This is my favorite fucking band.' post. Everyone ignore me! #And of course now I'm going through my 'I don't wanna gif shit.' period. Hopefully that changes before the LA shows/WWWY fest.

[anothermonikan]

Y'know I come across like, self-deprecating stuff in my archive and I think about deleting it and I'm deciding against it because it's kind of a reminder of how far I've come y'know? From the 13 year old who didn't think she'd make it to 16, to the 15 year old who got so depressed they didn't think they'd make it to 16, to the 16 year old who thought he wouldn't make it until 18, to me now, 19, being excited at the prospect of being 20! Hey Andy!!! Things got better like people said they would!! Isn't that so cool?? You found your name, your friends, what you want to do, what you enjoy doing, you want to live more than anything now. You're doing your best and I know it's hard that no one seems to recognise it but you're gonna make it through no matter how bleak it all seems!! You're doing good, and you're going to do better. I do not miss being you.

#sorry sorry it's 5am I'm sappy posting about child me again #people are too fucking mean about teenagers still btw #Like the other month I saw a post that was like 'reblog when you went through your hardest experience' #and someone on there tagged '15. only a few days ago but yeah' and OP reblogged the tags being like 'Sorry but this is so funny' #like hey. I'm an adult now. not for long yet but like. I would still point to - #- Whatever the fuck happened between the ages of 14 - 16 as the hardest years of my life. #and seeing that just. how normalised it is to shit on teenagers feelings still like. god. #yeah needless to say I did NOT like that post #I know I have some younger people following me and I need you all to know that your feelings are so fucking real. #And it really sucks that you still exist in a society that still dismisses you the way it does. You'll make it through #gwahhh okay okay back to what I was doing lol #(should be going to bed but it's not o7) #Android.txt

[deancaskiss]

me being called baz by two anons and the anons using ‘he’ pronouns with the name i just- 🥹

#baz’s babbling #like yeah i know i made a post and kindly asked for those pronouns to be used with those names #and yet in the back of my head i was like ‘no ones gonna care’ #and then. people do actually care. and my heart is utterly aching. #yall just make me feel so seen and heard and understood and accepted #anyway im being sappy but i love you all <3

[percyjacksonfan3]

Hope y'all like some smut with your edssy 😁

#me starting this fic: #hmm i can see them hooking up during this at some point i should rate it m to be safe #me actually writing the scene last night: oh okay so i need to up the rating to explicit. #alright #i get so weird about writing smut too cause you know! it's smut! give me sappy conversations that's my strength #also it's sooo revealing lol #tay was reading what i have done (bc she's an angel bless her) and she was like lau your kinks are showing #and im like i know okay! i cant help it! #if they didnt want me thirsting over eddie they shouldnt have designed his character to look like that #hands ppl! with rings! and big soft brown eyes? #what's a girl to do? #but yeah so spoilers for anyone reading my edssy fic i guess #bc expect some smut in the next chapter #which is another very indulgent edssy chapter #im so excited to post it #it's over half done #alright ill stop rambling now #edssy #eddissy #stranger things #i still dont have a fic tag sorry guys #<- maybe that will be my tag #bc i suck #put your lips close to mine #screw it that's the tag

[seraqhites]

crazy to think about the influence people have on your music or the way that you listen to music 😵‍💫

#rubi rambles ⋆｡𖦹 °✩ #like oh my god #i can’t listen to [REDACTED] without thinking about [REDACTED] #i feel like i’m going crazy Tbh #like do you guys know the poem about the yellow wallpapers #yeah i’m that lady #except it’s not post partum #i’m literally just going into psychosis #like why is it that i will never be able to listen to this song normally #like i’m always. going to associate this song with this person. #jesus. #idk why i’m up right now #i should go back to bed #think i’m very sappy right now