#this movie shaped the trajectory of the last four years of my life and thats not even a joke <3

[moonflwer-gutz]

I'm seeing Across The Spiderverse on Saturday and I just

I wanna talk about how much the original means to me for a second

bc I am not going to be normal about it when I see it (obviously I won't post spoilers without tagging/warning so dw)

so Into The Spiderverse came out in December 2018. which not only was around my 13th birthday, but also was when I was making decisions about highschool. I already knew that I wanted to do art, I was sure of that part. But I was still conflicted on just doing art at a normal school, or going to a high school that actually specialized in art.

and then i saw ITSV. and just. holy shit.

the way the characters moved. the way the story was told. the way that every little detail, every single frame had years of thought and care behind it. from the texturing to the framerate. i fell in love. i was always an animation fan, i had always wanted to make my own, i had always wanted to bring art to life and create the things that shaped my childhood. animation was my dream and always had been.i made my decision then and there. it had always been in my mind and that was the last push i needed.

i was going to study animation. i was gonna pursue my dream.

fast forward one year, i passed the audition and got into the art school. fast forward another year and, despite the tribulations of quarantine, i was accepted into the animation major--the most competitive major in the school.

to this day, i cannot watch ITSV without referring to it as the movie that shaped me as a person. it literally permanently set me on my path to my dream career. and to this day, i cannot watch it without randomly bursting into tears. its just. its something that means so much to me and no matter how many times i rewatch it i always notice some little detail that makes me froth at the mouth-

and the Leap of Faith scene....God the Leap of Faith scene. i ugly cry every time. because i hear them talking to me. applying to that school, trying for the animation program, that was my leap of faith. and it worked. and i persevered.

so now, being exactly 25 days away from graduating from that very same school, i find myself extremely emotional that the sequel to the film that changed my life is coming out at the same time. ITSV set me up for high school, ATSV is setting me up for college. and while my college situation is a bit complicated rn (im on a waitlist for my dream school and theres a possibility i won't know the answer until july) i can't help but feel that everything is going to be ok. it just feels like history repeating itself yknow?

ive had this film to guide me on my journey these past four years, and soon it'll be films to guide me.

i already know i'm going to ugly sob during this movie same way i always do for the original. and i cannot wait to see how Miles and Gwen have grown. because i grew with them. and i can't wait to see where our journeys go from here <3

#yeah yeah sappy post i know #itsv means a lot to me and i needed to talk about this #my friends and family already know all this i cant even listen to the soundtrack or look at the art book without crying #yeah just some mel lore for you #this movie shaped the trajectory of the last four years of my life and thats not even a joke <3 #i cannot wait for saturday #into the spiderverse #across the spiderverse #miles morales #moonflwer thoughts