#wth i want a bf so bad idk what brought this on

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The First Conversation Part II

Her:

It didn't show up here. Send it to my phone. [phone]

And I texted her the screen shots

Me:

Does he tell you when he's with Our son

Her:

Yes. Everytime. I've been on him like a hawk since I found out. So I have to know every motive, move, drive, piss, and shit he takes. Excuse my language. Brand new emotions

Me:

Believe it or not I understand. I just wanted to be sure because when Our son was first born he would be at my moms til 10-11 at night until my mother and I put a stop to that

Her:

Yes. And I was upset about that as well. Because I didn't feel he should be walking in here that late either.

Me:

It used to piss me off because it was almost like he was just there too sleep. Sometimes he's still too comfortable with my liking

Her:

I was mad based on the text messages I were able to read. It was you keeping him up to date with your labor, and you asking were we seperated, we're we getting a divorce, and do I live here. I was told you didn't know, but once I read that. I was thinking we'll now she know and she's still trying to be with a married man. He was telling me you said fuck everybody else, which includes me. So I was feeling like why fuck me? I didn't do anything wrong.

I didn't think to look you up on fb or ig. We all have that one, if not a few, crazy friends. My bf brought it to my attention. Once I saw that, I felt like wth would she have a married man on her page? At the same time, even though he did wrong on so many levels, it was still my husband.

Me:

I did ask those questions because at that point based on what I was told before and the way things were going it wasn't clear to me what was going with you and him or me and him so I was asking for clarification purposes. I never said fuck you. I never said anything about you because my problem wasn't with you it was with him. The one time I did have a problem was the ig thing

Yes it's your husband but my issue with that is just like now you could have messaged me in a different manner and asked me to take them down but because of how you came off I was like fuck it I'm going to be petty and let that shit sit there

Her:

There are no hard feelings toward you. I pray that we can both get through what he has done to us. Like alot of other women, I react off emotion. Trying to work on that, it isn't easy.

Me:

Like wise that's why when I had an issue I went to him because he's the link between the two

Her:

And you're absolutely right. I also was mad because I felt like you could've reached out and told me you didn't know. It's just one big mess he created. I am not the type of woman who initially blames the woman if my man cheats. I had my own reasons that came along after I found out.

Me:

All my issues are with Him. I don't like nor do I appreciate how he try to paint me crazy because he got caught. I more importantly o don't like how he did Our baby. Nobody knew about him until he got here. And he sat in my face telling me everybody knew and I found out that was a lie. You hid an entire pregnancy and birth that you missed trying to cover your own ass.

I knew nothing until the end of January. Until he always addressed you as their mom and honestly you were never really a topic. When I did ask what happened with yall he just said yall argued too much and that was that

Her:

Which I can understand. He only told his dad. I can vouch for him and say he didn't miss his birth on person. I missed my market party that day as well because he was working late. As a woman I know how sensitive we can get when pregnant. I always wanted him under me when I was pregnant, so I can relate to how you may have been felt about that

And yes he did everything in his power to cover his ass. So well, I didn't find out until after His birth. I can tell you even though it hurt, he has expressed that he doesn't care what me or anyone else thinks. He's going to be there for all of his kids. As a wife it hurt like hell, but I had to understand. I would never keep him from doing what's right for him. Whether I like it or not. He is an innocent child, and if I were in your shoes. I wouldn't want anyone to treat my children any different.

Me:

He act like his dad know all about me which I doubt. None of that even matters anymore I'm just sick of the lying and bullshit. It's at the point to where he lied so much I don't fully trust him with Our son. And that's my main focus trying to get comfortable with letting him take The baby

Her:

And I can understand that. Real mothers will always be overprotective of their kids. I don't think his dad know everything either. I think he know he cheated and made a baby. Not the details you just gave me.

And yes we argued, but they were petty arguments for him. I guess he needed a reason to cheat, so they were major to him

Me:

It's harder for me because all 4 of my kids now have step mothers. So they leave and come back and it's just me and I have to hear all about it good and bad.

Her:

We have never seperated or broken up ever since we were 16 and 17 yrs old. He said he liked the attention and that's why he cheated

Me:

Idk what attention he's referring to because according to him I was the spoiled one but if that's what helps him sleep at night whatever

I was always last to know. I didn't even know you were back home until the day I was discharged from the hospital and my mother asked what was going on because when I asked i would get stupid answers or none at all

Her:

I am so sorry he put you through this. I have to explain your son to my kids and explain why he isn't loving in the same house because of what their dad did. It's a lot

I never left home. That's the funny thing

Me:

He claimed the kids knew but you didn't which never made sense

Her:

We have been a wholesome family since we made the first child 9 yrs ago.

Me:

How the hell did he manage that because I swear he was always available until I found out

Her:

My kids didn't know shit. And the fact he added them in his mess really about to take me off the deep end with his ass

Because he would see you after work, or I would be at work.

Me:

I noticed he incorporates anybody he can in his lies.

Her:

👏👏👏👏 he damn sure do

Me:

He put his brother in an accident and broke both his legs

I'm calling him to take me to the hospital next day he talking about he wasn't at his car his cousin picked him up

Her:

Never. His half brother only had one accident and that was when he was shot in 06

Me:

The night I went into labor he claimed he was at his cousin house and Hampton and he was on his way back up this end to his car

Her:

I got mad at those messages because I knew he was lying to you and went off on him. He was simply at work.

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