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#which was 2939:9;993 steps out of my comfort zone and I did WELL so yes I’m proud
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#I was at a fair all week
#I don’t know how to talk about this really
#but I met like 80 new people in the span of 72 hours
#and I don’t have social anxiety
#but I do have anxiety in general
#and this entire week. just took so much out of me and I was confronted with myself So Much
#I can do more than I think I can! true! but it requires complete compartmentalisation
#and I’ve been shutting myself off from everyone since .
#well since July basically after I got covid because my life got insanely hectic from that point on
#and I’ve grown a lot. I have. I’m proud of the things I’ve done
#but idk I find it hard to balance everything
#and I find living just hard in general and even when I do these things like this fair
#which was 2939:9;993 steps out of my comfort zone and I did WELL so yes I’m proud
#but also I’m. frustrated with myself
#and how difficult my brain decides to make things
#and how disconnected I feel from everyone but how I don’t have the energy to do something about it
#you know?
#ah either way.
#sometimes I wish I picked an easier job because no one seems to get how insane it is sometimes
#and how it isn’t just reading
#if it was that! it’d be fine
#but every aspect that comes with it…… woof
#idk the me from six years ago couldn’t have done any of this. she really couldn’t have
#I was rereading conversations this morning and the me that I see there. holy hell I just want to wrap her in a hug
#so I’m proud of what I’ve done in the mean time. I showed up for myself I really did
#but sometimes I’m afraid I changed so much that I’ll lose everyone in the process
#idk man post lockdown life is difficult
#and my fear of covid is not gone by any means (not even after having had it) but we’re meant to continue on as before
#and I can’t rhyme those two things together
#ah. this is nonsensical and doesn’t even touch on 1% of what I was trying to say but WHATEVER
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