#when he just broke down

[melverie]

Sometimes I'm doing well, and then other times Lucifer's level 35 intimacy phone call in Nightbringer suddenly comes back to mind, and I am once again reminded how Lucifer is so utterly desperate to connect with Satan in any way. It doesn't even have to be meaningful; just having his brother despise him a tiny bit less than before would already be more than enough

And when they finally do make the tiniest, most insignficant amount of progress imaginable, Lucifer is so overjoyed about it that he ends up celebrating with a horn of Demonus......or two, maybe three... Might as well finish the bottle. Let's open another one! And another, and another, and another! We've got to celebrate tonight, after all! Hm? No, he isn't drunk MC, what a stupid question to even ask. Here, he'll drink some more just to prove it! Then after that--!

And all that because he and Satan managed to hold a conversation for a minute longer than usual

#had to stop everything for an hour or two and just lie there thinking about satan & luci again #there's so much i want to talk about when it comes to the two of them bc their relationship is so fascinating #but most of the time when i try to write smth down it just comes out as “hnnngghhhh these two.....they're making me go insannnee” lol #also luci admitting in his lv30 call that satan is the only one he has problems with and that no matter what he tries nothing seems to work #broke my heart fr </3 #obey me #obey me nightbringer #obey me lucifer #obey me satan #;mel's analyses

[willowparkfanclub]

jenna marbles and julien solomita got married and i am in actual shambles

#marbles in the stroller im :(((( #julien said that the reason jenna is covering her mouth like that is because he almost broke the porch stomping the glass and #i can just HEAR that entire interaction happening in my head like #julien also said the wedding was in early november and he kept the 'just married' on his car for way too long #and that the dress pic is when they had just gotten home and loni immediately laid down on her dress #jenna looks so so much happier im so happy for her #im just. i love their love <333333 #of fucking course the bitchy claires glasses made it to the weddingkekdnknk #jenna marbles #julien solomita #jenna and julien #youtube #wedding #me yapping

[matenr0u]

Very normal about this Belle/Beast parallel in particular:

I came to fight for Belle.

And though I am on my own, I will fight.

I won’t leave without her.

That’s why I’m here.

#kingdom hearts #soriku #everything about this scene actually #You made a promise. With a toy sword #the way this memory made roxas cry and gave xion flashbacks #Convinced that sora saw the forgotten meteor shower memory in the tunnel scene bc #riku’s sacrifice so obviously parallels the moment he broke that promise to protect him #Which was such a painful core memory for sora #Riku isn’t stupid. he’s aware he is probably going to die here #but when he looks down at his best friend There on his knees just like that day in hollow bastion #he understands that he has to do this #“Everything— is for Sora.”

[friendofgeorgeharrison]

George Harrison's letter to Bob Dylan, 30th October 1988 (x)

from Bob Dylan: Mixing up the Medicine, with pieces of the Bob Dylan Archive and The Bob Dylan Center in Tulsa, Oklahoma

#george harrison #bob dylan #traveling wilburys #he loved him so so much #and the reference to tangled up in blue #“it was great being in the band with you” #“and you were generous in being a wilbury!” #“i hope it was not too embarrassing for you” #“maybe we will meet again on the avenue” #it's like this quote where george doubts if he's a good friend to him #but i can just feel the love pouring out from him #i broke down when i saw this and im still crying #someone please buy that new book that's where from all the recent letters are coming from #buy steal or pirate it idc #george and bob #geo letter #geo handwriting #*mine

[qbebou]

i understand why ppl don’t believe quackity rlly didnt know abt the working conditions with the admins, it’s his server, he should be overseeing everything, etc etc. but i think many ppl aren’t taking into consideration how massive of a project the qsmp is and how big the team is. on top of the roleplaying admins (eggs, capys, bunnies) there’s likely lots of offscreen admins, builders, mod devs, writers, artists working on the project as well. it makes total sense to me for q to have hired and trusted ppl to handle parts of quackity studios that he a. didn’t have time for b. didn’t have the experience to make the best decisions for or c. that he just didn’t want to do. at the end of the day q is a content creator and yes that means he also is a businessman and yes he owns quackity studios but he’s also shown himself to be INCREDIBLY busy and things like managing finances, vetting, hiring, and paying out employees takes a lot of time and can go super wrong if he didn’t have the knowledge or experience regarding how to do such things. he’s also shown himself to be pretty hands off with a lot of the server administration stuff, afaik he still isn’t op’d on his own server which makes sense bc he does have a team running things behind the scenes. i worked administration in a small office a while back and we had plenty of miscommunication issues bc my boss didn’t handle every part of his business. he didn’t even know how much i was being paid bc he had hired someone else to do the onboarding, offboarding, and payment for employees. even tho our team consisted of like 13 ppl at any given time, there were still miscommunications. and we were all seeing each other in person! we weren’t even dealing with differing time zones or different languages.

at the end of the day, q is young and inexperienced. he trusted the wrong ppl to handle parts of his business. all we can hope for is that things change for the better, the whole quackity studios team gets paid fair wages, have stress loads taken off of them, and feel safe and comfortable continuing with the project. i rlly hope pommes admin comes back bc the qsmp wouldn’t be the same without her even if another admin took the place of pommes character. idk if lea would want to come back but i feel like the door should be open for her too and she still deserves compensation for the work she did in her time working on the team. i have high hopes that things will get taken care of and some restructuring happens within the company

#qsmp #lex.txt #idk i just feel like ppl rlly jumped down his throat when the news first broke #and a lot of ppl have called him stupid or incompetent or what have u for not knowing what was happening but also have likely never worked #on an administration team or dealt with situations that would make him not knowing make complete sense #hell if i hadn’t had experience i probably would’ve also thought the same thing #but obv the qsmp is a major passion project and has had so much time money and care put into it #i don’t see q actively making the decision to jeopardize something he has dreamed abt for ages over something like this #or rlly anything at all #do i tag this as discourse????? idk wth #qsmp discourse #quackity

[jazzzzzzhands]

i broke my ankle today! so ofc i must project myself onto Wally as usual! i dont know how to use or draw crutches!

#im so much faster crawling around than on those dumb crutches #im used to crawling around at work! #ahahahaha these are so funny to me! #i also dont know to say ow when hurt! or scream or gasp! #i was just like oooh i broke it..... #im so so sorry for puppet booty.... #if this gets taken down for ONE lil ol buttcheek i SWEAR #wally darling #jazzdoodles #welcome home #whps #meme #i forgot the cast in that one but ok its before he was casted up #also also its the other foot oops #its my left foot #but im right handed and plus i drew it on my left if that makes sense??? #projecting myself onto wally is so so so much fun! #if i must suffer than so shall he!! #out of love!!!!

[ratwithhands]

Decided to polish some jacket designs!

Emmet originally received a strait from the League after they thought he posed a safety risk to others and mandated him to wear it. Big surprise, they literally just went to a Unovan hospital and asked if they had any of the old jackets lying around. It's ill-fitting and unpleasant, not to mention the hasty edits they made to his uniform to act as a secondary restraint looks awful. As much as he is still operating as usual, having to walk around in the strait is humiliating and dehumanizing, especially because of the stares from other people.

Of course this crime against dignity and fashion had to be corrected, so Elesa called her designers and offered to make the League Council a more appropriate uniform for him. The only rule given was that it must still restrain as well as the original straitjacket, so Elesa ended up modelling the jacket after a vest and the secondary restraint after a double-breasted greatcoat. It's meant to look like clothing, more like everyday wear than something out of an asylum. It also uses hand covers (i.e. socks) instead of a grossly oversized sleeve to keep the hands restrained.

It resolves a lot of the issues Emmet had with the original, namely that it blends in with the crowd rather than making him stick out. It also has an air of professionalism and formality that the original didn't have. He's much more willing to wear it and keep it on, as well as being more comfortable in it.

I'm struggling to describe this in sentences so as for the differences:

League Straitjacket:

actual retired straitjacket from hospital storage

made of old canvas and leather

uses oversized belted sleeves to restrain arms

uses belts and buckles to restrain upper arms and tighten back

can't fit anything thicker than a tank top underneath

Elesa's Modified Straitvest:

bespoke articles custom tailored to Emmet's measurements

made from stiff cotton and fabric staps

uses belted cuffs and hand covers to restrain arms

uses straps and locking slide buckles to restrain upper arms and tighten back

able to fit a collared shirt underneath

Elesa's outfit also has the added bonus of being more breathable, soft, and being able to function as regular clothes.

Anyways bonus sketch comic:

Dignity restored.

#tw straitjacket #straitjacket #submas #submas au #au #ingo #subway master ingo #ingo pokemon #nobori #emmet #subway master emmet #emmet pokemon #kudari #When they brought the finished pieces in for Emmet to try on he nearly broke down #like yes it was more comfortable‚ but the sentiment and effort put into it didn't even make it feel like it was constricting him #no matter how tight the straps are pulled‚ the knowledge that it was made out of concern for him‚ for his comfort‚ for his humanity‚ #it was just like any other piece of clothing #I really wanted to draw what his first day being “free” in his new uniform was like #if only to show his relief after so long being bound like a rabid animal #unfortunately I don't have enough motivation or writing ability to pull that comic off convincingly so we just have these #I hope you guys will enjoy them though! I had fun drawing them so I want them to entertain you guys too #you guys let me know if you have questions/want to see stuff about Battle Addict‚ It's fun getting to share AUs like this #see ya later

[non-un-topo]

Found this old doodle and added some colours

#tog #the old guard #kaysanova #siggy draws #so grey and brown lol my gosh #either joe got tired of losing his shoes in the snow or he broke his legs and they healed a while ago lol #either way there's no way nicky isn't struggling sdfgfs but he's not gonna put him down! #joe ain't waify. they have to weigh the same amount. nicky is just on a mission. why put husband down when husband is having so much fun? #this feels so old for some reason lol. i had that brain worm that told me i absolutely had to upload something. #have to force myself to take a break from drawing and writing!! #i kind of preferred this without colour hmmm. i might have posted it on my ko-fi a while back?? now i can't remember

[mummykink]

Optimus in Earthspark when the Great War started and Bumblebee and Breakdown ”had” to break up

#breakbee #it’s hot rod recording btw #Optimus Prime #Bumblebee #Hot Rod #mentioned #breakdown #transformers #earthspark #transformers earthspark #earthspark bumblebee #earthspark optimus #earthspark breakdown #very important difference LMAOO #my personal headcanon is that op fucking hates breakdown and is was over the mOON #when they broke up even if he was like ‘oh no bb. im sorry<//3’ (he was not) and elita never lets #him live that shit down #(hot rod can date whoever he wants but bumblebee is his eldest AND his favorite so💀 RIP to his dating life) #literally just like #bumblebee: he broke up with me 🥺 #Optimus internally: 😀😃😄😁😆❕❕❕❕❕❕ #Optimus externally: do you want me to threaten him 🤲 #maccadam #trans formers posting (my tag) #elita-1 #earthspark elita-1 #implied former elitaop (they’re divorced besties w two kids in EP . send tweet)

[sysig]

If your almost out of requests I'll send my second allowed one! Didn't want to send a second one at first though to give other people a shot lol

Howsabout.... something something Scriabin with the vibe from the song "This is Love" by Air Traffic Controller? If vibes from songs are allowed ofc xD

Day 13 - I know wrong, I know right, I just love to pick a fight

#My art #Requestober #Vargas #Scriabin #It's been a heck-while since I've done a Vargas song analysis! #The previous still holds true - I'm still very picky on listening to new music lol #It took a few run-ups to convince myself to listen but I can definitely see the Scriabin in it :) #And Nny but honestly the amount of carryover Scriabin and Nny songs have - I don't think either would be happy about it lol #There are a good handful of lines that work best with him tho especially about being combative haha #It's a bit funny - when I was originally sketching this down on paper I was like ''Huh looks kinda like his palette challenge piece'' #Which if I haven't mentioned lately I am still out of my mind about it is literally So pretty #So drawing digitally I just kinda leaned into - as well as it ended up being a good art day so he's just Very Pretty here haha #Not so shockingly but I am still Very about Scriabin haha ♪ Handsome terrible lad ♥ #It all worked out in the end :) #Also I just realized you broke the only-one-Vargas request rule! >:0 #That's on me lol - I didn't realize until literally typing this up so you definitely get a pass #Still tho to everyone else! Keep an eye on the rules!

[notsoevilmagistrate]

Something about Taka defending Mondo to the end, him being the one you have to face in your bullet battle, and him not voting for Mondo despite everyone else doing so. Something about him trying to delay the execution. Something about him not talking at all after Mondo’s death for a long period of time and being absolutely crushed. Something about Taka’s descent and clinging onto Mondo…incorporating him into a fake personality and getting attached to an ai version of him because he’s so desperate to see Mondo again. OW he’s so in love it hurts so BAD, god let him be happy.

#ishimaru kiyotaka #kiyotaka ishimaru #mondo owada #owada mondo #danganronpa trigger happy havoc #danganronpa 1 #danganronpa #trigger happy havoc #dr1 thh #dr thh #dr thh spoilers #danganronpa: trigger happy havoc #I wanna kiss taka’s forehead so badly #he’s such a strong character despite it all #when he held so much hope and still trusted people till the very end #even with that note and how he died #how he doesn’t just take shit lying down despite aiming to be respectful and being so moral #when he didn’t speak at all after Mondo’s death it broke my heart completely #how he’s so caring #what he said to Chihiro’s ai too #“Do you hate Mondo? And because I couldn’t stop him…do you hate me?” #he fr is like ‘I could fix him’ THEN HE CPULDNT #ouch ouch #sobbing #oh and I almost forgot #ishimondo

[thatsrightice]

The Assistant Group Navigators and Lead Navigators tugging on Rosie’s sleeve and leading him over to Group Ops because Crosby has been holed up in his office ever since Rosie went down.

When he sees that gosh darn cot in the corner he swears to take it out on the hardstand and burn it to the ground.

#I think about these two so much #I desperately need more Crosie content #just thinking about Croz wanting to break down when he sees Rosie but then sees he broke his arm AGAIN and goes into mama bear mode #checking Rosie over but like sniffling with tears in his eyes #crosie #masters of the air #mota #Croz and Rosie #harry crosby #robert rosie rosenthal #rosie rosenthal

[even-disco-baby]

SOLA — Her Innocence, Sola— the anti-innocence— turns to face you. In the distance, you hear the tattoo of propellers, turning, sucking all the air. A strong wind whips her long, dark hair around her face. Her simple black gown billows behind her. The same gown she wore the day she resigned.

She has your eyes.

“Hi, Kim,” she says simply. “You don’t look well.”

PAIN THRESHOLD — Her voice is so familiar, and yet the moment she stops speaking, you cannot recall its sound, no matter how hard you try. And you have tried. Innumerable times.

AUTHORITY — What makes her think she would even *know* the difference between you looking well or unwell? She’s being presumptuous. She doesn’t even know you.

INLAND EMPIRE — She never will.

“I’m doing great, actually. Never been better.”

“Hey, I’m trying my best.”

“I’m *not* well. I’m so fucking unwell. I can’t take it anymore. Please, help me…”

“I’ll live.”

SOLA — “Hm…” She smiles apologetically. “Well, that’s all we can really ask for anymore, isn’t it?”

EMPATHY — She wishes more than anything that this was not the case. That you could ask for the world and have it.

RHETORIC — She tried to give it to you, and this is how you repay her? You’re gonna be in *deep* shit trying to explain that insignia you stitched onto her jacket.

“Um, about the jacket. It’s not what it… well, no, it *is* what it looks like. But I don’t— it’s— there’s nuance.”

“Is that really all you have to say to me?”

“I don’t know what to say to you.”

“Where are you going?”

SOLA — Her Innocence looks away from you, toward the wind. “Away,” she says, her voice distant and strange. “Yes… I’m stepping down, you see. The world doesn’t need me. It never needed me, really. It’s best for humanity to think for itself. No… it already *does* think for itself.”

She turns back to you with a small smile. The thought brings her peace.

PAIN THRESHOLD — But what does it bring *you?* She’s leaving you forever. Abandoning you for lofty ideals.

AUTHORITY — Let her go. Let her see how little you care. Don’t give her any satisfaction.

HALF LIGHT — Stop her. You won’t be able to live without her.

VOLITION — You have already lived almost all your life without her. You don’t need her. You have *never* needed her.

“What if the world *does* need you? Who are you to make that decision for the entire world?”

“Fine. Go. It’s none of my business.”

“So you’re just going to leave me behind again.”

“Please, don’t go. *I* need you.”

SOLA — “What else is an Innocence appointed to do?” Her smile turns wry. “You see? This is why I’m stepping down.”

Distant propellers turn and turn in endless circles. She glances toward them.

YOU — “Fine. Go. It’s none of my business.”

SOLA — “I suppose not.” Her voice and her face betray nothing. No sign of remorse.

YOU — “So you’re just going to leave me behind again.”

SOLA — “That was never my intention,” she says softly. “Surely you know that.”

INLAND EMPIRE — You will never truly know. No one will.

SOLA — She stares out at the horizon through the tendrils of hair that almost seem to threaten to swallow her. Her expression is strange and ambiguous, shifting every time you try and look directly at it.

YOU — “Please, don’t go. *I* need you.”

SOLA — She looks at you, and her eyes are full of what might be genuine sadness. But they could also be full of anything else.

“Oh, Kim… You must make do with what you have. I don’t know what else you want me to say…”

RHETORIC — What?! There are a million other things she could say! Forty-one years worth of possibilities! She could say *anything!* Anything at all… Even if she’d only left you a single word, it would be better than this…

VOLITION — It’s pointless to wish. Please, no more of this. It’s too sad.

“You could say that you’re sorry.”

“Say that I turned out all right.”

“Say that you’re proud of me. That you love me.”

SOLA — “Then I’m sorry.” She closes her eyes. “It was terrible of us to leave you alone.”

Her voice is utterly calm and emotionless.

PAIN THRESHOLD — No… Wrong, all wrong…

YOU — “Say that I turned out all right.”

SOLA — “You’re a good man despite it all. That is all I ever hoped for you.”

Again, there is no warmth to her words. No conviction.

VOLITION — Lieutenant… Please, don’t do this to yourself.

YOU — “Say that you’re proud of me. That you love me.”

SOLA — “I’m so proud of you and everything you’ve accomplished. You wear that jacket well.”

Her eyes have nothing behind them. A pair of two millimeter holes in the world.

“I love you.”

PAIN THRESHOLD — Your lungs seem to constrict at her words. Your chest hurts more than it’s ever hurt. This wind is hard to breathe in.

YOU — “No! Don’t you fucking get it?! You don’t love me!”

SOLA — “Then I don’t love you.”

YOU — “You should be *ashamed* of me!”

SOLA — “Then I am ashamed.”

YOU — “I betrayed you! I betrayed everything you stood for! I’m a fucking cop!”

SOLA — “Then I am betrayed.”

She proclaims it as dispassionately as she proclaimed her love.

YOU — “For god’s sake, *say something real!*”

SOLA — She just looks at you. The propellers keep on turning.

DRAMA — She can’t speak for herself, sire…

LOGIC — Of course she can’t. Of course…

PAIN THRESHOLD — Your lungs feel like they could collapse. Empty, crumpled, dark. Hot tears prick your eyes for the first time in what feels like a long time.

SOLA — “Do you understand now?” she asks gently.

LOGIC — She cannot speak for herself because you do not know what she would say.

There are many memories that you have been slowly recovering, little by little. Your mother will never be one of them. Her, the revolution, the aerostatic brigade— they all died before you could even comprehend loss.

AUTHORITY — You did not become a detective so that you could find your lost mother. You became a police officer because you did not want to end up like her.

VOLITION — She can neither forgive you, nor condemn you. She is dead, Lieutenant. She can only be what you make her.

RHETORIC — You’re asking your own echo for answers…

SOLA — “Humanity must think for itself,” she says again, turning again toward the wind. “What point is there in asking me where to go from here? I’m a failure. We all failed…”

RHETORIC — The revolutionaries failed their children, and the children are failing their parents, and all of them are dying, dying, dead… What’s the point in any of this anymore? I cannot argue in favor of any of it.

VOLITION — There is a point. There is a way forward. But you won’t find it here, Lieutenant.

“I hate you. You made me everything I am and then you just *left.*”

“I miss you… How is it even possible to miss someone you never met? It’s like someone ripped a part of me out and all I can do is bleed.”

“I don’t know what I am. I need you to tell me what I am.”

SOLA — One last time, she turns back to you. She slowly bridges the gap between you and reaches out a hand to cup your cheek. Her fingers feel like your own.

“You are whatever kind of animal you choose to be,” she says, so quietly that you don’t know how you can hear it over the distant roar of engines. “I cannot make that choice for you.”

EMPATHY — She died hoping that you would grow up with the freedom to choose to be whatever you wanted. Instead, the world that raised you hardly let you dare to want anything.

VOLITION — But you can still make a choice. Humanity can still think for itself.

#disco elysium #kim kitsuragi #swap au #should i tag sola? i kinda doubt i’ll ever need to use that tag again LMAO #anyway um. yeah. #tbh as fun as the swap au stuff is i wasn’t all that interested in it until my brain was like. SWAP DREAM SEQUENCE #and now suddenly i have like. lore for swap kim. #his breakdown isn’t bc of a breakup it’s over a crisis of identity #at first when he wakes up and starts inspecting stuff like his jacket and his notes #he starts finding out things abt his mother (a revolutionary aerostatic pilot who died and passed down the jacket to him) #and at first he’s like ohh i see im investigating her disappearance! #but he’s not. she’s dead. she died when the moralintern crushed the commune #kim grew up resenting both his parents for dying in a failed revolution #leaving him to grow up alone as a gay disabled seolite orphan #he became a cop and drank the moralist koolaid bc he didn’t want to be like his parents #and also bc he wanted to not be so powerless (and to be able to take shit out on other ppl just like canon kim) #but also just like in canon his experience in the rcm was just more of the same shit #he felt constantly humiliated and like a hypocrite and just compartmentalized hardcore #then he came to martinaise and saw the scars of the failed revolution and finally just snapped and broke down #he doesn’t even know what kind of animal he is other than he doesn’t want to be it anymore #so he pulls harry’s epic mind wipe binge and etc etc #anyway. coughs

[toastytrusty]

at least after the devastating sprint today there is this. if nothing else, there is this

#i think i broke down crying at some point during that sprint but i really can't be sure when #it was just one thing after another i could not process that shit #it's fine. bez podium tomorrow TRUST! #i put a curse on jorge martin he will not ruin this for me #marco bezzecchi #pecco bagnaia #motogp

[jemmo]

i can’t even begin to explain how much i love that a bl dedicated a whole ass musical number to how much familial love and friendship and following your dreams matters to it’s entire cast. so many bls feel so insular on their single couple and their stories but just the flashes of por going to tell his mom about the competition and po waiting to find out his results and omg a mother getting to sing about how much she loves her son and wants him to follow his dreams despite all the hardships she’s faced and is still facing, that’s what makes a story feel whole, and i just wanna scream about how fantastic it is that this dumb high school bl is showing these kids actually growing up and maturing and making difficult decisions while also showing them as dumbasses who get to play music and have fun. i cried. this show just never fails to be special.

#my school president #when guns mom started singing I broke down fucking hell #I adore her and how hard she works and how much love she has for her son #and how she never lets his dreams die #and god just that ‘he’s not ok is he’ that’s so understanding I wanna die #and don’t even get me started on the ending #bc that’s how you do romance that’s more than just the couple #you let one of them live and grow and develop on their own #and then show that reason for it is the other #they’re that inspiration the driving force the person that gives them hope and faith #makes them feel safe and secure and makes them want to dream #agh it’s just stunning

[prapais]

aye telling akk about uncle dika, ♡ requested by @ohmnanons

#lakornet #asiandramanet #asianlgbtqdramas #the eclipse #the eclipse the series #akkayan #firstkhao #mygifs #when i say i did it with my eyes closed i dont mean it was that easy i simply wasnt looking #if i dont look i wont cry abt them again!!!! #just remembered how akk used to call dika a traitor and how he just broke down now bc he never hated dika #he just felt alone after the teacher left im Not okay gonna go lie down