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Happier than Ever

info + warnings: Angst, Chubby Reader, Alcohol consumption, Toxic Behavior, Cheating, Not a happy ending.

wc: 1k+

summary: Short story. Keigo Takami - Hawks - Toxic and Cheating BF

a/n: I got Billie’s Happier than Ever on loop while I wrote this down. There’s some lyrics there, please don’t judge me. ehe. Enjoy!!!!! 😊 Might also remind you of some Marvel movie.

You look at the clock on your bedside table for the nth time. It's already 3 am. You wish your mind to fall asleep, at any moment now he’ll be home. Late, again. Smelling like someone else, again. Tears filled your eyes and you just blinked it away pulling the bed cover tighter to you.

You’ve never felt so weak and worthless. You kept on thinking when did this hell started and if he ever loved you like he said he does. You tried to leave but you’ll know that he’ll just gonna bring you back. You belong to him.

You hear the click of the knob and his keys’ jiggle. You threw the sheet over your head so that you will not be able to see him.

You knew about her, she made sure of that. Leaving little things in some places that she knew that you can see easily. Making him smell like her every time that he’d been with her.

It’s your 3rd year anniversary today and he didn’t even remember. You prepared his favorite meal and waited for him to come home in your favorite dress all dolled up but when the clock struck 12, you knew that he didn’t remember.

Five messages were sent to him wanting to know where he is but one message that dismissed you left you with a broken heart.

‘Don’t message me. I’m busy.’ he said.

He’s busy..

Busy fucking her..

Busy giving her the love that he’s supposed to be giving his Wife to some random coworker that was skinnier than his Wife… your biggest weakness..

He said that he loves your curvy body and preferred it over a skinny one.

Hah! What a joke, Keigo. What a joke.

You tried to remember all the good memories that you and him had but all of it was already tainted by his cheating. You tried to confront him but he said that it’s all in your head and proceeded to go to work. One year of your life was all full of arguments, lies, and it was all wasted on him.

You felt him pull the cover off and laid on the bed beside you as tears filled your eyes. You can smell the stink of her rose perfume that you grew to hate. The smell of the perfume that You, yourself gave to her as a birthday gift as you never knew that she will be the one who’s going to kill you, slowly.

Few minutes later he's already sleeping soundly. You slowly pulled your cover off, making sure that he remained sleeping. You walked to the bathroom that was connected to your room, shedding the red dress that you’re wearing for your anniversary and turned the shower on.

Tears are now flowing down your face, as you stand under the shower. Feeling all the pain that you felt the whole year. He promised you the world, he promised you all the love, he promised you a beautiful future but all of that was a lie. You’re already at the brink of your sanity. You can’t take it any more.

Toweling off your body, you grabbed a new night gown and dried off your hair. Your mind is still flooded with Keigo's infidelity. As you brush your hair in front of a mirror, your attention was caught by the necklace that was hanging on its side.

‘With this, I promise that I’ll be forever by your side. Whenever I’m on a Mission, just touch this..’ he pointed at a small red feather attached to the pendant. ‘It's one of my feathers, I’ll feel you and will know that you’re thinking of me..’ he smiled as he put it on me and landed one kiss on my forehead and one on my lips.

I wonder how many girls he gives his feathers to.. I reach for it and put it on, walking back to the bedroom.

I turned to the windows and walked out the balcony. Hawks always like to be on high places. I told him before that his penthouse was his nest and he just laughed. Looking down, you can see that the street you were living on was silent and no cars were passing at this time.

Your hands reached over to the feather and closed your eyes, giving it a soft touch. You heard Keigo groan and took advantage of that and passes his mind…

‘I don't relate to you. I don't relate to you, no. 'Cause I'd never treat me this shitty. You made me hate this city..’

You showed him all the memories where you started, when you first met, your first date, your first kiss, your first night, his proposal, Your wedding. One and a half years, happier as ever.. Then his cheating. You showed him what you saw, what you know, what she said, what she did to you. You showed him everything.

Keigo’s groans echoed in your bedroom. Like he's having a nightmare where he can’t wake up. You kept those memories on his head on repeat until he’s shaking. Then you let go.

Of his memories, of his promises, of him, of yourself.

Keigo’s POV

I sat up, gasping. I knew something would happen. I knew it.

I looked over the balcony and saw my beautiful wife wearing the necklace that I gave her. Standing on the ledge.

“.. you were my everything. And all that you did was make me fucking sad.” she murmured.

No. “Y/n..”

“..I could talk about every time that you showed up on time. But I'd have an empty line 'cause you never did. Never paid any mind to my mother or friends. So I shut 'em all out for you 'cause I was a kid.”

“Y/n, No!” I threw the cover off of me and ran over towards her but my intoxicity made the worst of me.

“Do you remember what day it is today, Keigo?” she smiled while tears flowing down her face. Making me stop.

“My Angel..” I started

“What day is it, Keigo?” she asked. “What day!?” she bellowed.

“I-I..”

“It’s our 3rd year anniversary..” she murmured. “You don’t remember.. Again. Because you were with her.”

“No. I’m not.” I lied. As I walked slowly to her, I was still drunk on my feet.

“Yes, you were..” she nodded, “I can smell the perfume that I gave my cousin, Keigo. I can smell her..”

Fuck.. “Baby, Come down here, you’re just tired.” I reached out to her.

“Don’t.” she bit. “This is the best for you, Keigo.”

“What the fuck are you talking about, y/n?” I asked, feeling the exhaustion that I felt every time I spoke to her. “This is fucking insane, Y/n! I’m fucking tired, okay! I don’t have time for this! I don’t have time for you! I’m fucking tired!!”

“Then I’ll let you go..”

Rubbing my face, “What?” I asked. “This is bullshit!”

“I love you, Keigo.” she stated. “Always and forever.” Y/n pulled her necklace off and let it fall off her hand. My eyes followed the dropping necklace and looked back up.

Y/n gave me a teary smile that didn’t reach her eyes. A smile that I never saw before from her.

Then she’s gone.

I jumped over the balcony. Following her. I flapped my wings, to fall as fast as I could, reaching my hands towards her.

She’s falling. Keigo, faster! “Fuck!!” I screamed as I released some feathers to follow her. Her eyes were closed and looking peaceful. I pushed myself faster and tried to grab her hands but she’s still too far. We’re getting closer to the ground. My feathers can't reach her.

I pushed.. ‘I’m sorry..Y/n.. I’m sorry!’

and pushed.. ‘I’m sorry.. Y/n!’

and pushed ‘Please! Please!! Oh God!!!’

And I felt one of the feathers reach her. I gasped as I tried to push it behind her to pull her to me. Her eyes opened and she smiled.

I landed on my knees with her in my arms.

I looked down at her, moving the stray hair off her face and kissed her forehead.

“Y/n.. I’m sorry..” I mumbled. “I don’t know what had gone through me to do such acts.” I added. “I love you. Only you.” I looked at her. “You can open your eyes now. I got you.”

Y/n didn’t move. “Y/n, you’re safe now. Open your eyes.” I smoothed a finger over her cheek and brushed her hair back. “Y/n-”

I was stunned. Blood. There was blood.

There shouldn’t be. I caught her. My feather caught her.

Right? Right!?

“Y/n. It’s not funny. Open your eyes for me… Please..” I felt a tight grip on my chest. “Y/n. Please.. Y/n!!”

No. no. no.. this isn't true.. I hugged her “Noooo!! Y/n Please!!! No! No!”