#we went to different high school

[trinitea-fics]

I hate when you're very sure you're over something, but then you're awake at 4am and clearly Not Over it yet :/

#something something thinking about how my childhood ex-best friend is the reason i think everyone is gonna leave me eventuality lol #and i havent thought about them in YEARS #but the past 8 months it's been bad again #like. it could justify going back to therapy bad #and its gotten better. at least i dont hate my birthday anymore like i did though all of high school #and like. okay it basically stems from how i was the only one who put in effort into maintaining our friendship after #we went to different high school #and they would hang out with the other memeber of our friend trio but NEVER would ask me #and things then slowly fell apart #and that period of my life was when i was the most depressed and heartbroken #it's so much better now #cuz i realized #“well. i cant stop people from leaving me. the only thing i can do is be a good friend and trust them not to break my heart like ***** did” #cuz like. im still best friends with my kindergarten bestie. so like #***** is an outlier and should not be counted #and most of my friends are extremely introverted or on anti-depressants. so i dont mind being the one who makes plans #but sometimes its 4am and the thoughts GET TO ME #sigh sigh sigh #“***** is an outlier and should not be counted” damn. that actually does help. #thanks 4am brain <3 #unfortunately its 5am and im too awake now rip #ive had friends comment over the last year about how much they appreciate the effort i put in #why can't i just cling onto THAT #sigh sigh #it'll get better

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

still mad about this post lol so let me also say: “they taught us critical thinking in english class” is extra funny to me because there’s a genuine debate among Ed Heads about whether “critical thinking” as a discrete and decontextualized skillset can actually be taught :) so it’s pretty silly to go around confidently branding yourself as a critical thinker while simultaneously revealing that you’re extremely comfortable making assumptions about the relative simplicity of complex ideas which remain contested in their respective fields :) personally i would be pretty embarrassed to call myself a critical thinker if i also couldn’t stop myself from revealing i was totally lacking in the intellectual humility that would enable me to understand that we have yet to reach consensus on unbelievably complicated issues like how best to educate an entire population :) but i guess i was absent the day that tenth grade english covered running your mouth like an asshole on social media :)

#for someone so convinced english class made you smart you’re saying some pretty stupid shit! #i’m also genuinely curious about this person’s english class bc i went to a fancy high school and my english teachers were mostly fine #and i would not connect literally anything we ever did there to the concepts of media literacy or misinformation spotting #i would also be shocked if a majority of current high school english teachers are good at those things themselves. lol. #remember: teachers are being taught that learning styles are real and most of them never question it! #btw i’m inclined to go with the ‘critical thinking is discipline specific and can’t be taught as a Thing crowd’ #my unsubstantiated hunch is that like #being exposed to critical thinking processes in a variety of different fields #can build the kind of intellectual humility that is the most important prerequisite for critical thinking #like because i know how much goes into ‘knowing’ something historically #i know that i can’t really meaningfully critically think about high level debates in biology because the knowledge base isn’t there #and knowing that is IMO its own form of critical thinking #but that’s me spitballing based on vibes

[vulturedimension]

you know what time it is

#polls #mine #my polls #additional details: #the only time i've left the us is that one time in high school when we went to stratford in canada #i've actually been seeing my therapist for closer to 10 years. love u kim #i deleted my blog when i was 15 with the intent to take a break from tumblr. remade the same day #i started taz bc i heard there was a nb character (roswell from the 11th hour) #been inpatient 3 times outpatient twice i think? 2 different hospitals lol #and yeah i think thats all i have to add

[sluttylittlewaste]

Hilarious that the same people defending any and all questionable choices the Bad Kids make (namely Kristen lbr) by saying "They're just kids! They have all this trauma and it's fucked up to expect teens to be good and nice all the time!" are the same people insisting that Kipperlily is an evil bitch and the Ratgrinders deserve to die.

#it's almost like the rules of empathy and nuance only apply to characters you like 🙃 #we know absolutely nothing of significance about the Ratgrinders #and i can't wait for Brennan to remind us of that #you want to complain about Kipperlily using her families money to try to buy the campaign??? #The entire shrimp party that kicked off Kristen's campaign was bankrolled by her rich friend #Adaine is a total bitch to anyone who isn't in her immediate friend group #Fig is a literal full time criminal at this point #they have at least 50+ murders under their collective belts at this point #the only verified difference between the Bad Kids and the Ratgrinders at this point is that we know nothing about them #I hope they are the biggest red herring Brennan has ever pulled #because I feel like there are people in this fandom who are so used to self-identifying as victims that they've become full bullies #and they're projecting that shit in some really gross ways #The same way Brennan had to remind Adaine that she wasn't the only one with a shitty life when she was dunking on Zayne? #how about we all take a big step back and try to have a little more perspective #instead of jumping straight to being triggered by a CHILD who had the audacity to not love your faves behavior #let me die #if i die #d20 fhjy #fhjy #dimension 20 #kristen applebees #kipperlily copperkettle #the bad kids #the ratgrinders #we have no context on what those kids went through in all the time the Bad Kids have been running around doing other shit #Aguefort is an awful school and their friend is dead #maybe she has a reason not to like the super special “chosen one” that got personally resurrected by the principal and keeps failing upwards #i didn't want to be a Kipperlily defense page #but the energy of the Kipperlily hate reeks of double-standards and unprocessed high school bitterness

[mikkeneko]

Consider: Cang Qiong High School Host Club.

.....Huh.

Hmmmm.

#the funny thing is this would almost have to star shen jiu as haruhi? #if we're looking at the one poor kid among all the rich trust fund babies #either that or SY and SJ have to be the twins‚ which does do weird things to the different roles & relationships #like. if SJ does not come from a street kid background then why is he Like That #hmm maybe there was a Parent Trap situation where the twins got split up between the parents #and SY went with a parent who was fairly decent and SJ went with a parent who was ... not #and they were reunited in high school? #they wouldn't be able to pull off the Hitachiin interchangeable double act #but they might get some mileage out of a good twin-bad twin act instead #okay let's try SY and SJ as the twins and Luo Binghe as Haruhi #Yue Qingyuan as the well-meaning but kind of a himbo club leader #Liu Qingge as Mori perhaps? he doesn't fit great as Kyouya -- not manipulative enough #But then again Shang Qinghua and Mobei-jun would best fit Hani and Mori's weird codependency thing #so that does leave the role of the SIC for Liu Qingge #I don't think the roles all line up exactly -- we may have to combine or split out some #I feel like the demon characters have got to be in some kind of a rival club #but it's been a while since I've seen OHSHC so I can't recall most of the plotlines #either way Luo Binghe accidentally breaks something #and gets co-opted into the host club to work off his debt #this solution was proposed by SY and Luo Binghe went '....okay!' #then unfortunately. he met shen jiu #ouran high school host club crossover #scum villian self saving system

[productofaritual]

In 7th grade me and my bestie used to joke about attending high school prom in suits "because it would be funny" and "does it really matter anyway"

Needless to say neither of us are cis now

#sadly enough we went to different high schools #but the idea was there! #hjahdhdhd #genderqueer #agender #trans #genderfluid #no gender #only swag #transgender

[slightlytoastedbagel]

actually On Your Feet gave us two good things (well. three if you like Realize which I do). Kohane's "it's frustrating" line and the great crack fic idea of Vivid Bad Squad getting cancelled online for skipping school to yell at The Kotaki Taiga as he was about to go back to America.

#no because. he went there to continue radder's dream yeah? the one about becoming world successful musicians #and they had a record label for a bit. they were definitely going to make it at least somewhat. #so we can assume taiga is at the very least a semi well known musician yeah? #one that someone about to either leave or enter japan might know about. who will see this musician they enjoy #being shouted at by a high school girl in her school uniform about how they will surpass him or something along those lines #with three other kids (in uniform from a different school) standing behind her #and then going onto sekai universe twitter to post about it and the taiga kotaki fans taking it by storm #taiga gets off the plane in america and finds he's trending and it's because people are making fun of a blurry picture of his ex pupil #meanwhile vivid bad squad just don't know because it was contained entirely on twitter and. #be honest can you see any of them having twitter because i can't. an maybe but akito doesn't have time for social media and toya is toya #and kohane is a tumblr girlie if i've ever seen one #however it does give the great concept of someone else seeing it and debating if they should say anything #because mmj definitely has an official account they could have seen it on and also there's ena shinonome and mizuki akiyama #but anyway this also means when they do put on the event to surpass rad weekend (or whatever their goal ends up being) #there will be a crowd of people looking at it and going “isn't that the group of kids that twitter made fun of ages ago?” #and then taiga kotaki stans on sekai universe twitter will be stunned because they did in fact surpass him #if it wasn't for the gcses i would write this but alas. enjoy my weird thoughts #bagel's rambles #project sekai #i am scared to main tag this one but. fuck it we ball

[heir-of-the-chair]

You know, when they said “you never stop learning things about yourself” I don’t think they meant five consecutive years of having a new identity crisis.

#sophomore year of high school: am I queer/aroace? yes #junior year of high school: am I trans? yes #senior year: am I autistic? almost certainly yes (that’s just me having imposter syndrome it’s definitely a yes) #last year: not questioning anything just coming to terms with being physically disabled #and now my friends are saying I have hpd and I’m like hey just because I maybe (the wording is vague and I’m autistic and I hate it) fit the #diagnostic criteria doesn’t mean I HAVE IT #it’s vague and idk how much I relate to it but I relate to a decent amount of it very strongly #but like I wasn’t even neglected as a child (that sentence really says volumes abt my friend group) I have other family issues but idk how #that would be related to attention seeking like is it really just all bc I was just a really lonely child? #like I was an only child with autism and adhd and I didn’t have a friend group I felt truly secure until fifth grade after which we all went #to different middle schools and then it wasn’t until like sophomore year of high school okay maybe this is worse than I thought saying it #out loud… #I know I have anxious attachment #I know I very much have that #but like. #I’m just a theater kid it’s fi- *sounds of me being hit with a pillow by my friends* #yeah #this is kind of a vent atp #autism #neurodivergent #disability #yeh #the heir speaks

[todayisafridaynight]

What do you think Mine’s reaction to Masato / Aoki be like?

tbh they'd probably be. amicable. at the very least.

#snap chats #like they have similar values its just that mine's more openly depressed about his belief system and doesn't take pride in it like aoki #i talked about this before omg thats so funny... but yeah no aoki's more proud of 'how the world is'. prob cause he's 'on top' of it #mine begrudges the fact he needs material goods to be useful to people #meanwhile aoki's happy to exploit others if it means he advances. for the most part anyway #he only really starts to show some regret when confronted by ichi. and get the shit kicked out of him for twenty minutes #wait i was rewatching the cutscene and started to throw up cause i got reminded of me in high school again aoki you're 42 stop this #Back On Track Though. mine and aoki had similar pursuits: attain power to be loved thats the core of it in simple terms #they went about it differently ofc: for mine money was power and for aoki popularity was power. Both Very True TBH but anyway #mine realized that even with money his person wasnt valued #and aoki realized that even with recognition people didn't value his character. sins the arakawas. fcukin dummy #i mean aokis a jackass so no wonder but thats not the point of this. fuckfest of tags #they wouldnt be friends. aoki's incapable of friendship and mine would probably quickly recognize aoki as being power hungry #i think mine's been in enough business meetings And Knows Enough About Politics to recognize Professional Fakerism when he sees it #actually do you think mine'd be swindled by any 'kindness' aoki expressed like when kanda left him and he thought he just went to get help. #that shit was wack LMAO BUT REGARDLESS idk i have to go to class soon so im not gonna spend too much time thinking of this #if they needed to they'd just use each other for whatever purpose they needed the other for. idk why mine would need aoki tho #TLDR mine probably wouldnt think too differently of aoki compared to any other power-hungry freak #we can revisit this topic when. im not learning about JP history vjERJALKJ

[ariesbilly]

do kids today dance normal at dances cuz i remember our 5th grade dance a girl got kicked out for dancing too sexual and in middle school dances everyone was just.... gyrating and grinding on each other on the dancefloor. the 00s were wild

#litrally will never forget the first time i grinded on anyone skfjgnsfkjg #it was in middle school i cant remember exactly what year #but i was sleeping over my friends house and she went to a different school and they were having some dance #so we went #and well #she taught me that night lmfao it was like a line of us all fucking dry humping each other #and this was normal behavior life was just like that back then #for middle schoolers lmfao #god only knows what the high school kids were doing #feel like that all cooled down by the time i went to prom

[bangcakes]

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#i think im so wacko nuts about him bc he literally came out of nowhere #like what are the chances we met in the first place.... #like ..... its one thing to meet in university right after high school ok but.... its extra weird when its both your 2nd career #and you're at community college #then find out you went to the same university at the same time but 2 years apart #then worked for a bit.. only to realize AT THE SAME TIME that maybe this career isnt for you and that maybe comp sci is It instead #then we end up taking the same electives. and we tend to sit in the same areas of the classroom #and we're both always early and end up alone before class and end up talking #or we both park in a similar place in the parking lot and end up walking together after class #and o ya getting the same grades. having the same gpa. LIKE WHERE DID HE COME FROM?????? #and then its like .... he reciprocates. like we're friends. im just. what the FUCK JDJDJJDJDJD #ya im just....... idk. idk. who is this guy JDJDJDJDJDJDM #i wonder too if he has the same like. 'what the fuck' feelings about me. bc idk its all so weird #if hes The Guy .... hes both different than i thought and yet exactly what i wanted. ya make sense of that HDNDJDNFJFNFNJFJF #god help me #personal

[yardsards]

thinking about the fact that i was so socially awkward as a teen that the school wanted to me out of class to attend "social skills classes" once a week (to which i attended one and demanded i be removed from the program cuz it was just me and about a dozen equally uncomfortable probably-autistic kids who also probably did not want to be there, being forced to do icebreaker activities by deeply condescending special education teachers)

how did i not receive an autism diagnosis til i was nearly an adult and specifically advocated for myself to be taken to a professional to get checked out for autism and adhd???

#eliot posts #i'm really curious whose call it was to put me in there #it wasn't my parents because my mother was Outraged that her kid got put in a special ed type class and signed the papers so i could leave #so like. what teacher made that call. #and what exactly sparked that #was it my general being a loner or was there An Incident #i don't remember exactly what grade i was in. probably 8th or 9th? #so still kind of stuck in my ''convinced myself i was just Better than my peers and that's why i didn't have many friends'' phase #following that was a phase where i got over myself but was kinda just shy #and then a phase where i went okay fuck it we ball and acted weird but in a way intended to be funny #that annoyed some people but some people enjoyed. by then i figured ''eh i aint seeing most of these ppl ever again after graduation'' #i had some friends in high school bc of marching band but they were all in different grades than me #tho even then i was only close w like 2 of them and the rest all seemed closer to each other than to me #edit: dug through my blog and it was 7th grade (yeah ive been on here that long) #so this was before i even had my marching band friends. but probably after my singular friend from elementary school moved away? #i forget if he left in 6th or 7th grade #(im still friends with that friend. he's great we love him)

[banannabethchase]

I'm listening to the audiobook of "I Kissed Shara Wheeler", and oh boy the line where Georgia says they need Chloe because, as the bisexual, she's the only one in their gay friend group who can do math resonates way harder than it needed to.

#me and my spreadsheets approve of that message #iksw #in which Sara reads #I'm also like a little bit embarrassed at how easily they pinned who I was in high school #the only difference is I was nowhere near as smart as Chloe but equally as disliked #except for my group of best friends who as we're older now since we went to high school the late 00s did not find out we were queer until #after High School

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

also. movie that takes place in virginiaaaaa <3 ok it only takes place in va because it was based on a true story but still. that's my state :)

#and i can confirm football is Big #when i was in high school our team went to state and it was the hugest fucking deal you would not believe #tbh i don't remember if we won or not. and i don't remember what year it was. and i don't remember who was on the team #i was in high school i was busy reading my books and being a hater you cannot have expected me to keep up with football #i never even went to games except when i was in color guard and had to be there. and i didn't watch them #i think i at one point had a crush (not real) on one boy on the team but i was 14 at the time and frankly i don't remember who that even wa #not a name or even a face i've got nothing there #it's possible. that was actually 10th grade and it was that guy from ap gov. he was my sister's friend's brother. and also blonde #and he got arrested in college and lost his scholarship and got kicked off the football team and out of rotc #fun update for you! #also in high school i had a crush (again. not real) on a different boy who was blonde. i do not know what attracts me to blonde men #i'm trying to work on that. um. but i think we should blame cassandra clare. or perhaps. ken #anyway. what did this post start out being about. oh yeah. movie that takes place in my state yayyyyy

[allroseshave-their-pricks]

sometimes it's so fun to casually mention your age and see the eyes of the guys who have flirted with/hooked up widen, as they realize they accidentally chose the youngest person at the table

#rrr #in their defense most of my friends are at least a year older than me #especially the ones i go out with #like i'm 22 but my roommates are 24 and 26 #the guy in question who looked terrified is 26. he knows one of my roommates is 26 and married to the 24 year old one #and we all went to high school together #so i imagine he figured i was 24 too #but i am a year below them and two years younger hehe #the age gap doesn't bother me so this is funny. you're allowed to laugh #one other group i go out with is 23/25/28 #which i'm sure is also confusing for the 28 year old friend's #since most of the people i meet are also grad students the age gap doesn't really bother me #we're in the same spot in life #though 10+ years is a bit questionable 4-6? that's fine #that said. whenever an underclassmen (esp one who's under 21) tries to flirt with me #get that child away OR SO HELP ME #babes you don't even know. we are on different planets #the 20 year old who has a full time job and a mortgage? she gets it. she can get it. the 20 year old who's party hopping? no.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ugh. im feeling chatty today. probably bc i feel kinda weirdly anxious. like when u can Imagine bad things happening in detail #and like it feels like ur wait for it even tho its in ur imagination? whatever. anyway. ive been watching a lotta #stuff on like professional artists and idk maybe im just in too deep on science academia but i dont. i dunno the culture #seems so weird to me? like what does one do in art school? i guess i took a lot of art in high school but my teacher was kinda trash #all we did was paint realisticly using a grid and i hated that. but i image ur supposed to exercise different styles and medias? how tf #does that get graded? i dunno. i haven't taken any uni level art classes. i should tho. id probably like it #its weird tho. anything that tries to give structure to art stuff seems so weird to me. like u go to school for science stuff to build up #ur background knowledge and i guess u can do that with art but it feels different. i guess bc ur training muscle memory. i dunno #i like to imagine an au where i go to art school but i legitimately cannot fathom doing that. cannot fathom a life outside of my toxic #relationship with academia. i dont even kno what i would want to specialize if i went down that path. maybe illustration #bc it makes me happy when ppl say my style looks like something out of a kids book. i dunno #i guess classes would help with things like forcibly learning shadows and anatomy and composition #maybe i just need to make art friends. like what is ur life like? im too much in a science bubble #i guess going to art school also just devotes all ur time to art. not just tiny pockets of time between all the things u have to get done #god. i can only imagine the panic of procrastinating an art project and physically not having enough time to finish it #thats how i felt with my masters thesis. there was just physically not enough time for me to fix my code in all the ways i needed and rew #rewrite things. but i finished it somehow #ugh. god. i have things i need to finish coloring. i will finish them today. i will #i hate coloring. but colors r so pretty ;_; #unrelated