#wdym i cant pause time so i can rest for like a week and go at my own pace and there will be no consequences wdym thats not possible

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

what do you mean my disabilities disable me 😟😟😟😟😟😟 what do you mean they aren't just funny little things that make me quirky and I can joke about 😟😟😟😟😟😟 what do you mean they're actually delibitating and prevent me from doing things 😟😟😟😟😟😟😟

#and at the most inconvinient times like please 🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️ please stop i have so much to do #this is about my autism cfs and depression all ganging up on me at the same time #im struggling to get out of bed and stay awake let alone go outside #what do you mean time keeps going when im like this????? #wdym i cant pause time so i can rest for like a week and go at my own pace and there will be no consequences wdym thats not possible #im also recovering from covid #i cannot stay awake for more than a few hours and my entire body aches #i feel like ive gone for a marathon yesterdsy except i have done nothing but sit up sometimes #this is bullying my own body is bullying me #and my joints are fucking killing me i feel like im 50 #specifically my wrists and my neck #i wanna snap my head and hands off i feel like that would help actually #and i have absolutely no mental energy at all the thought of going outside is horrifying #and trying to do anything but idk watch tv is virtually impossible #BUT I HAVE SO MUCH TO FUCKING DO 😭😭 #autism #cfs (chronic fatigue syndrome) #depression #disabilities #wooo i love having a non functioning everything #doesnt effect me badly at alllllllll

[bornchaos]

small little thing before next week is jam packed with finishing up with school . here's just some things about pregnant!coraline i just been thinkin .

i feel like , pregnancy is really hard for coraline - i mean , it is for everyone , but i feel like she feels it on such another level because it's is the most human she's ever , ever felt - because of that , her magic takes a step back , doesn't numb it like it would other pains - especially because there's a part of her willing her magic away because she wants to feel it authentically , so where it could help , she's not allowing it to . her hormones are off the charts , constantly up and down in every which way and it makes her want to curl up into a corner . she is going to need so much help in the delivery room , probably one of those cases where she's so drugged up she's asleep for a good couple of days and the doctors/nurses need to keep an eye on her ISDFISFISHFSF she's a gangsta until she knocks her hip on the counter or ends up in this situation, other pains ? getting punched, hit, stabbed ? ez peasy, this ? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

her morning sickness is bad , not enough to be diagnosed hyperemesis gravidarum , but damn well close .

working from home becomes a norm pretty early on , it helps not being out and about as much . luckily , it works out - coraline is a dedicated worker , when she wants something done , or wants something learned , it happens , maybe a little delayed than usual , but she does it and will still end up on top . it's also called not knowing when to say no and giving herself the rest she deserves . coraline please it wont kill you to rest you don't always have to be doing something .

smell aversions : coffee ( actually cries and wonders if its worth it when realising she has to put a pause on her caffine addictoin, it's been getting her through since stopping speed like fr ) , sweetcorn , peas , cheese , pickles .

food cravings : the same as when she's on her period tbh but its soooo much worse . loves her sugar and meats ; specifically , cookies , waffles and ice cream / whipped cream , fr needs to be handcuff because the amount of sugar cannot be healthy SODFHOSIFHSIODF and when it comes to main foods , beef , chicken , bacon and is an absolute nightmare for pasta .

becomes aware of how awkward she sits when her bump starts to get bigger ; cannot get comfy to save her life, wdym i cant sit side ways ? wdym i cant bring my knees up to my chest ? wdym i cant just hop up on the counter , that i cant raise my legs on the table top ? life is a fucking nightmare .

REALLY DEALS WITH THE LOSS OF BOOZE AND WEED . OH THAT SHIT HITS HER LIKE A TONNE OF BRICKS . towards the end , coraline is good at pacing herself . but god , they're still her vices - especially when she's in so much pain and wanting to just get the tinest bit of relief , the girl quit everything else , it's all she has - the backpain, the ever changing hormones, she's losing the will to live .

absolutely smokes late on in the pregnancy just to finally experience some relief then spends the next few days feeling like a horrible mother until she outs herself to the doctor and they're like ' is it the only time you did it ? ' '...yes but' 'it's not great but that's still good, lets work out some support system so you can fight the urge to smoke again' 'please give me drugs:('

despises maternity clothes shopping , holds off as long as she can before FINE, I'LL FIND NEW CLOTHES fuck you bolder in my stomach

100/10 experience . would do it again , wasn't all bad and what was bad it was the best thing she's ever lived through in hindsight .

#tw pregnancy #tw brief mention of smoking when pregnant #she does have fun and loves what it means. she just. a mother at heart and loves the experience #all the good and all the bad #shes sooooo <3 #anyway here have this <3 #headcanon. #might edit later but for now. this'll do <3 #SIHDFOSDHFIISOFSDF #JUST A LAZY THING THAT MAKES MY HEART GO BOOM BOOM OK