#was orchestrated by a demon? AWFUL. FUCKING INS

[sammygender]

feel sick thinking abt the way sam’s entire life and being is just. manipulated to serve someone else’s cause. repeatedly the curtains get pulled back and it’s revealed someone else was pulling the strings all along.

does anything even feel real to him anymore? six months old and a demon bleeds into his mouth, his entire life marked by that moment even though he’ll never possess the authentic memory of it. his entire childhood his father thinks he has evil lurking inside of him and treats him according, but never mentions it. his college best friend gets possessed by a demon who introduces sam to a girl he’ll fall in love with so that he can kill her and force sammy onto a path of vengeance. his brother dies and the only person he stays close to makes him believe the only way he can get revenge is to drink her blood, gets him to embrace what’s inside him and reclaim the awful thing that happened to him and does it only so she can use him to start the apocalypse.

what can he trust? everyone has their own agendas when dealing with sam and yet somehow they’re all still about sam. he’s the centre of their machinations, their mouldable toy, build your own future boy king of hell. sam’s manipulated and moved around, everyone trying to shape him into what they want him to be. he makes me feel insane

#sammy and control…. #he’s literally. god. that boy must feel so little control over anhtning ever. when these figures are always revealed to be behind the #curtain at the peripheral of his biggest moments there in the shadows watching him #his entire childhood he’s moved around used by john winchester to help get vengeance on his mother and even when he breaks free he can’t #fully. the fact that his relationship with jess #the prior embodiment of his freedom #was orchestrated by a demon? AWFUL. FUCKING INS #FUCKIG INSANE. #he doesn’t get anything to himself. what does he get?!? #oliver talks #spn #sam winchester